Surging spasms in bed, Unknowing of what to occupy myself with. Inhaling vibrating smoke brain buzzing on the events leading up to this moment. Lustful hole in my closet, Brain chilled from the other night, I'm not under it's filter to often, Horrified me into this crisp realization. Protective noise in the living room, Contemplating on my arithmetical actions lately, Coincidental release of sins, Consciously unsure, terrified. Worries the both of us deeply. Waiting for the wave to cress over the top, For him it never changes I'm sure of it now, his life is approaching preservatives.
Im on the bottom
All will rise again tomorrow
>>8637615
Selfless unwillingness to let myself known Because of my lust.
Body low on the substance,The substance that entered my soul last night, And the night before
This is new, It was old at one point
Periodically felt attractive to the submissive
Submissive needy souls
Very recently.
They have an erection in mind, She wants a certain one, Feeling like a confident mouse in a trap, Taboo laughed upon words
Conservative critiques
Dead nicotine, no more supply, One thing is on my mind.
>>8637620
I live for it
I need someone to submit
I need her to desire my ambiguity, My taste of sour nostalgia
Quivering excitement I can control
I desire these things I Cannot conceive
I express myself under a lampshade
Quivering anxiety rips my soul
The braveness I desire I can't take the leap
From experience I am able to only under ignorance
I don't want her last time
I don't want her next time
>>8637623
I want one but not knowing who
I don't know myself I just look in the blue
I don't practice anything
I don't repeat everything
I can't comprehend the things
The things I want to put into action
So how can I work on myself
Myself works on I
Unwillingly
I want to will myself into my dreams
How can satisfaction be found in this!
this sucks
>>8637641
Tell me what my mindset should be to not make this suck by your standards, this is the first thing I've ever put the time into writing, I decided it was a good ideas to lay in bed higher than I've ever Ben, and write down exactly how a felt and everything I was thinking about, being as brutally honest as possible. The fact is this peice your reading is exactly what I was feeling for the few hours I was trying to get it down on paper.