>tfw thrillers are the only kind of books I enjoy reading

Start by growing up

Raine you’re one of the first girls I met in in Bryn Athyn. I clearly remember you and Nick coming up to me as I first walked out of the dorm at summer camp and asking if I was Austin Grubb and then introducing yourselves. I don’t remember being as struck by your beauty then as I was once school actually started. I suppose being the new kid I had a lot to take in and the details weren't all sticking yet. That’s actually all I remember of you from camp off the top of my head but i’m sure my memory could be jogged by pictures of stories.
Fast forward 2 months and school had started. Charter day was coming up and I knew who my date would be. I hardly talked to you before that but you were friendly and now I knew how freaking gorgeous you were. Oh my goodness I didn’t want to take my eyes off you. Another rare super clear memory was asking you to the dance. I walked to your house picking random flowers along the way to for a makeshift bouquet, somewhere along the walk I remember noticing I had lost the best looking flower in the bunch. Oh well. Oh yeah I was walking with Nick this whole time and maybe Brandon Russell? Looking back I bet she was texting you the whole time. Anyway I got to your house and took what seemed like forever getting a pep talk from Nick but eventually I walked up to your door and knocked. Your mom answered. I asked for you and your mom said you weren't expecting anyone and that it might be a minute. I sat down on a chair outside your door. A few minutes later you were at the door. Fuck you were pretty. I forgot to stand up out of the chair and remember just leaning forward towards you to give you the flowers and ask if you would go to the dance with me. I wouldn’t surprised if you told me that I mumbled the whole thing. I think I finally got up and you gave me a hug. That was that and I walked by to the dorm with Nick.
That was 8 years ago. I was too young then. Other times when things seemed like they could work in our favor something always happened. You were dating someone, I was dating someone, we never truly became more than friends and we both were very aware we should be more. So many times I could’ve made a move but something always got in the way. You are the most frustrating person I can’t escape in my life. You’re the biggest regret in my life right now but in the back of my mind I still hope that because we didn’t date in highschool or college that when things finally work out it will be real, long, and loving. I’m willing wait quite awhile for you Raine.

i don't understand how it's possible to enjoy reading thrillers or YA fiction or other such things. care to explain?

>>8624412
I despise young adult fiction, thrillers are just what interest me

>>8624410
come on mate