What's some literature that will help me come to terms with the fact that life is never going to pass a certain threshold and 'get good,' yet that for every depression comes a rebound? That life is a constant cycle of disappointments and successes, of existential frustration and elation, and that this continues until it's finally over.
I feel like I've been raised to conceive of life almost like a video game, where if you put in the time and effort you'll level up and eventually 'win.' On a purely intellectual level I understand this to be inaccurate, but I still feel its residual effects lingering. I think I need to read something that actually demonstrates this cycle.
>>8301263
This is spoken like someone who has never had sex.
>>8301272
Well you're not wrong
>>8301263
Absurdism.
Read Camus "The myth of Sisyphus" and Kierkegaard "From Sickness unto Death"
In Search of Lost Time - Proust
It's actually pretty related and a joy to read if you can be bothered
>>8301272
This is spoken like someone who's insecure
(but yeah OP is likely a virg)
Bible
>>8301900
>This is spoken like someone who's insecure
I've actually never had sex, I was just trolling OP
Tao Te Ching
Also maybe consider seeing a therapist? You kind of sound like you're experiencing derealization.