>be me
>26, live with boyfriend of 8 years
>No one knows I'm gay
>No friends
>Homophobic parents
>Depresaion
>On anti depressants
>Therapy once a week
>Never leave the house
>Terrified of social interaction
>Still pretend to myself I'm not gay
>See my family once every couple of weeks and make up lies about my life
>Forgot who I really am because of living a double life
How have I not killed myself yet? I'm amazed.
Bump, I need help please :(
>>8815709
>>8815669
Deal with it anon. Tell your parents, cut them out of your life if they aren't supportive, do the same for anyone else you need to tell.
Also talk to your therapist about it, if it's not one of those christian therapists, and if it is, get a new therapist.
>>8815728
My therapist is awesome. Fully supports me.
I just don't have that courage to be me. I feel trapped being what everyone expects me to be instead of what I really am.
I don't know why I'm also scared of being myself.
Try and make some friends and come out to them. Girls don't care, and usually like you more if you say you're gay. Plus girls can relate to you liking guys, and may say things like "isn't he cute?". You'll slowly get more comfortable and relaxed about yourself.
Eventually, coming out to people becomes easier, and you stop caring about who does/doesn't know you're gay.