>be talking to a boy online for a year or so >last 6 months

Send them while drunk so you are less scared. When you sober up you'll see he's fine and you can start to act like a normal couple.

Also be honest with him about your concerns open communication is the key to any relationship!!

>>8764858
what if im actually ugly as fuck though and he;s disgusted and let down

>>8764866
You just gotta go for it, theres no other way. Lifes too short to give a fuck.

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>>8764870
i guess you're right, i just dont want him to be upset or let down and im kinda hoping I might be able to make myself more attractive some how

i fucked up my last two relationships with similar "omg im sooo ugly and fat" bs that eventually made them get sick of me and leave

>>8764845
>Online relationships

>>8764874
M8, if you already fucked up 2 relationships due to your neurosis maybe tone it down a bit?
I mean I've got deep seated issues with my appearance as well but if a dude wants to fuck there's no reason to second guess it.

>>8764919
>M8, if you already fucked up 2 relationships due to your neurosis maybe tone it down a bit?

i cant, i genuinely get upset when i send somebody a picture of myself in any way because all I can think about how is shameful and ugly I look

I'm the same way OP, it's probably unhealthy but I punch myself in the face a lot and I think it makes me look better or hides stuff I don't like in bruises

>>8764928
Not that anon, but I get the same way about this, and despite all of it my last boyfriend still seemed to adore me from what I can tell.

If you want, you can show me first with some throwaway like unsee.cc and I'll judge you with the same standards I use but without the implicit neurosis attached to my own body.

I promise I'll be honest.

>>8764947
I don't have any pictures of me at the moment, any I take and send I delete instantly so I never see them again. I'll take some tomorrow maybe coz I've been awake for a long time atm and I look really bad

>>8764946
When I was a young kid my only friend during school would manipulate me and say I would be too ugly to have any other friends except him, him and his brother convinced me to run head on in to a wall because they told me I was too ugly and it would fix my face when I was at his house once when I was 8 and I broke my nose

i think thats where most of my issues come from desu, my last bf said I was cute so idk how I actually look, I genuinely struggle to picture myself as anything except a freak when I close my eyes

>>8764960
jeez OP here I didnt except this thread to get so dark sorry

>>8764960
Why do you find so ugly about your face? For me it's asymmetry of my eyes/cheekbones

>>8764972
nose is kinda screwed up obv, but also I hate my brow, forehead (im 20 and have minor forehead lines wtf???) and my eyebrows arent symmetrical

also my eyes look dead inside

>>8765002
thanks so much for the offer anon but I wouldnt want to put you through me complaining, i started seeing a therapist recently so hopefully I can start to feel better eventually

>>8765010
Alright, no problem. Good luck anon.