I hate being trans. This is a curse. Why can't I just be ok with being male? Every day my head and heart just feel crushed. I shoot myself with drugs, grow my hair out... it's meaningless. Even if I cut my dick off, even if I get surgery, at the end of the day I'm still a guy.
I hate this life. I want to kill myself every day.
There are probably a bunch of neurological reasons why you aren't being okay, but honestly I have no idea and I doubt anyone has any sort of concrete idea.
It's the hand we were dealt, though, and it's what we've got to play with.
And you're right- no matter what we do, we'll never be able to be cis women- maybe in a few generations that will be something that gets changed, but it won't be ready in time for us. We've got to work with what we've got.
Let me ask- how long have you been transitioning for?
>>8692776
about 3-4 years now
>>8692902
How old? Do you pass?
>>8692735
who gives a shit if you're a guy or girl?
you're whatever you say you are, now QYB
>>8692902
Are you still going to therapy? It sounds like you should be, if you aren't.
>>8692735
Let me edit this for you.
>hate being trans. This is a curse. Why can't I just be ok with being woman who is trans? Every day my head and heart just feel crushed. I want to shoot myself with drugs, grow my hair out... but it feels meaningless. Even if I cut my dick off/get surgery, at the end of the day I'm still a only a transwoman.
>I hate this life. I want to kill myself every day. Why Can't I just be a cis woman.
>>8692735
when i realised that girlmode didnt fix me and i knew i had to rethink this trans thing b/c i dont want to end up a crazy hon who gets worse as time goes by
get some professional help op
>>8692969
Is that pic related a trans woman? She's cute.
>>8693155
Is there any chance you could get FFS at some point? Do you think you'll be happier once you pass?
>>8693186
I'm not sure honestly. And I've wasted so much time with this already. It's just knowing no matter how much surgery I get and no matter pills I ingest, my body will always be male at it's base level
>>8692735
same
>>8692735
You can. Take antipsychotics.
>>8692973
Nah that's Ines de la Fressange, a French fashion legend.