How do I stop being so fucking beta and awkward and start actually trying with my life
>All my life I was a shut in or the loser who read books by themselves and sat at lunch by themselves
>Worked on gundam models at home and read mangas with my brother but even he was more sociable than I could ever be
>never been in a relationship because body
>Spent my years alone because I wasn't the right gender and felt like freak
>can't look at people in the eyes
>have a slight hunch when I walk
>I never took care of my hair and its curly and messy
>still feel like that kid everyone thought was weird
>hoodie even when it's 90 degrees
>wear size L or Xl to hide my body from the world
>skinny and small so people bullied me and it stuck with me
>low self esteem
>say sorry to everything apologize like crazy about everything I do to the point people get annoyed with it
Im on hormones but I can't get out of this weird beta thing. I actually want to try but my self esteem is shit and I feel im to weird. Help me lgbt
>>8692394
You want to stop being a beta.
First tell me what you are.
Bi male?
Gay male?
Femboy?
Tranny? Mtf/FtM?
Lesbian?
>>8692394
I'm gonna assume tranny, and mtf since most people on this board are that.
In that case you don't need to change, just fix your posture and continue as normal taking your titty pills, get a bf to talk to people for you (I used to do that for my Trans gf, so I know what it's like.)
You'll be alright.
>>8692394
>That beta
>>8692472
Don't sell yourself low like that, that's the first step.
You aren't some piece of meat that can be picked at by any old creature in the forest.
Do you have Skype/steam/Kik or something like that? I feel it'd be easier to tell you there.
But it's clear that you have self esteem issues that need to be worked on, I have quite a few questions I'd like to ask you to help you out.
>>8692502
stealth chaser spotted. op don't respond.
>>8692394
>be beta
>actually be mtf tranny in bodymode walking like that to hide tits
>angry quick glances left and right that say "wtf are you looking at you want some of this bitch"
>giving a flying fuck if people can see your gyne
Considering how many mantittied lardasses and risperidone victims there are in America I'm surprised you even stick out!
Well you obviously seem to know what the problem is. Start doing yoga to get posture and base muscle, take some internet confidence practices. I have built up confidence since 2nd year of HS by doing various sports, but you could do simple things like staring at a mirror or image of a family member and repeating lines.
>>8692394
Don't worry it's just autism