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In my late teens my porn and my fantasies were mostly straight and occasionally gay. I only fell in love with and obsessed over the girls I knew in school. I didn't feel the need to act on the gay urges I sometimes had. Perhaps I was afraid to, but I felt fine identifying as straight for the sake of simplicity.
In my early twenties I thought I'd already peaked sexually. I still thought girls were pretty, but my urge for sex seemed diminished. I didn't even jerk off that often anymore. I got somewhat depressed and felt that everything was monotonous and bland. During this period, I somehow still managed to get a girlfriend, but that didn't help.
I'ts been a couple of years now and I'm in my mid twenties. I just realized that my porn has shifted from mostly straight to mostly gay. I occasionally think about men to stay 100% during the few occasions I'm intimate with my girlfriend. I find her extremely pretty, and she's just what I used to consider my type, but it still feels strange.
A few months ago, I even made the mistake of cheating on her. I chatted with some guy on grindr and got so horny it felt like I had an aggressive fever or something. I hadn't felt that sort of sexual urge since my teens. I met up with the guy and sucked his cock. Just having him in my mouth for a minute made me twitch as if I was about to cum. I didn't even have to touch myself.
What's happening? How do I get off this train? Can you change your sexuality after all? My libido has returned to me completely now, but it's pretty close to full-blown gay. I sometimes try to force myself to watch straight porn, but can't help but self-insert as the girl. Help.
>>8660317
>how do I get off this train
If you could figure that out you'd be a very rich man. Sounds like you're resizing you're gay or at least bi, embrace it. You should probably break up with your gf though. You've already cheated on her, it's cruel to keep stringing her along just to ease your own anxiety about your sexuality.
>>8660317
stop masturbating
>>8660777
Eh?