>committed to my very vanilla gf who I love dearly
>had several relationships in the past but not held a candle against her qualities
>have never had sexual interactions with another guy
>think about sucking cock, getting fucked and having people cum over me daily
>have used dildos before in secret and always swallow my own when I masturbate
>can never confide any of this to my gf as it would irreversibly change her view of me
>desperate to explore my sexuality and get definitive answers
>adamantly opposed to cheating
Please just make it stop
>>8638013
BISCUM
>>8638013
Stop watching porn, jerking off, etc. Go do stuff with your girlfriend and make her happy. Indulging in debased sexual fantasies like this will ruin your life.
>>8638013
You're obviously bisexual.
Exploring your "gay side" is not worth sabotaging a strong relationship. You will need to trust her with this information someday though.
Let her peg you, pussy
>>8638013
Cheat on her with a tranny prostitute, get AIDS and die.
You know that's what you'll eventually end up doing.