Im 18 and just got my own place. I finally have privacy. I want

>>8529336
Who is that? She looks almost cis

>>8529336
Gonna need more than 100 bucks senpai

>>8529370
well im broke at the moment, rent and car insurance cost more than i expected. what can i start out with?

>>8529336
don't do it, you can still escape it if you don't even have the clothing

>>8529364
>She looks almost cis
because she is cis

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>>8529336
>sissy
stop watching so much porn

don't fall for the trans meme if you can help it, i spend 100% of my day wanting to kms

>>8529495
i dont wanna fuck up my body. im not a fag i just wanna wear girly shit and take dildos up my butt, man.

>>8529495
maybe if you watched some porn you wouldn't be so depressed

>>8529507
tfw watched too much porn instead of having any intimacy with real people
tfw became addicted to feminization fetish
tfw developed dysphoria
tfw became suicidally depressed

Just go on amazon and browse.
If you're okay buying stuff in person go to thrift shops though

>>8529530
That's the route trans people take into sissy porn, not the route normal people take into sissy porn. Sorry to say it girl, but your a woman.

>>8529569
doesn't work on me, Ive done enough of self-analyzing, Im a man with a fetish, I dont want to be a woman

>>8529569
Just out of curousity, what is the 'normal' route and how would you know this?

>>8529569
>implying normal people take any route into sissy porn

>>8529530
This same exact happened to me I hate it so much. All I think about is transitioning and killing myself. I wish I was normal/

>>8529530
This was what happened to me as well ;_;

>>8529592
Does your inner girl have a name?
>>8529598
>>8529595
You get gay people that just like sissy porn because of all the dicks, normal people generally don't have forced fem fantasies, forced fem is generally when you want to be feminine, but don't want to deal with any shame you've attributed to being feminine, either by your parents trying to man you up, getting bullied for being feminine in school, or some shit like that.

>>8529612
>>8529604
You were trans before you developed the fetish, sorry to tell you girls. If you take anti-androgens your sex drive dies, and you can see how you feel without the gross T running through your system, then you can see for sure if it's a fetish or if your trans. It's temporary as well.

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>>8529604 >>8529612
all you can do is realize that transitioning would be impossible and simply ridiculous to start because of a fetish and wouldn't make you happy - and I mean seriously spend time thinking about it, when you dont feel horny: plan how it would go and what it would do to you and your life, how you would have to pretend to be a woman in day to day life, how you would be treated
give yourself a hefty realty check instead of sexy AGP sissy dreams, realize that reality is not a trap manga

then focus on ways to get your life back to normal instead of ruining it further

>>8529614
why does it matter? I picked a girl name for my fantasies and roleplays

>>8529655
Let's say that hypothetically you are repressing. Do you have any reason to repress?
Told you will never be a girl by parents?
Bullied for being feminine at school?
Try to think back hard.

>>8529655
See the thing is I don't even think it's completely a fetish anymore. I don't only think about it when I'm horny and over the years it kinda evolved into a obsession. Sure I think transitioning wouldn't work out for me so I'm not going to but that doesn't stop me from thinking about it all the time.

>>8529718
>>8529655
The word you're looking for is paraphilia not fetish.

>>8529655
I honestly don't think I'll be able to repress. Maybe it's a fetish but it leaks into my normal life. I think about being a girl constantly and I get really uncomfortable when people point out my masculine features. I love it when guys call me cute and I get weird feelings even when all my gay friends call me a girl and stuff.
I'm going to attempt to make my own business so i can transition without significant societal impact. I don't really know what else to do. My life is not going well anyway so repressing isn't saving me from anything, I never had anything to lose. My family already hates me for being gay anyway

>>8529742
The word you're looking for is orientation not paraphilia.

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>>8529684
why would parents tell me that if I never expressed a desire to be a girl in the first place? I was a normal kid
I only started to selfinsert in porn and got interested in fetish porn since vanilla became too boring to arouse me and got too deep into it

>>8529718 >>8529760
try doing as I suggested, seriously plan your transition and life after it and you will see for yourself that it's a delusion
but if you are ready to make all the sacrifices because you want to be a woman every minute of your life no matter how mundane and hard it gets - then you are trans and should do it - only you can know yourself

>>8529765
I'm >>8529760 but i didn't exactly spontaneously develop the feelings from porn like you. I crossdressed and stuff when young and do remember wanting to be a girl but i barely had any dysphoria at all until i was 18+ and then I started with all the tg erotica stuff.
I think people can tell something is wrong with me. I graduated university but nobody will hire me. I think it's just cause I look like I just walked out of auschwitz and I have dead-eyes. Companies are always excited to talk to me up until they actually see me.
So really if I transition what am I really losing? My friends only ever talk to me if they want drugs or to go drinking. My family already thinks I'm a weirdo cause I'm gay and my brother and brother-in-law no longer want to hangout after they found out I'm a bottom fag.
So really I'm only giving up my long luxurious life of social ostracization for another form of it.

>>8529765
>why

because they don't want you to transition and they think that by reminding you that this is a relatively new paraphilia that you might be able to repress it and eventually extirpate it from you.
heterosexual man = attractive to most women
transexual "woman" = unattractive to most women

they just want you to be happy and find a life partner

>>8529868
Holy shit anon that sucks.

I get the same feeling during interviews, but I'm a computer engineer so they are used to guys like us. My only friends used to only see me for drugs (atleast I thought so) but they recently detoxed and now they wanna see me more than ever because they learned about true friendship in that place.

Just be a good non-clingy guy and eventually people will miss you and come back to you.

>>8530227
I should have gone into something computer related but I was retarded and decided to join the normies so now I'm fucked.
I do great on phone interviews and skype interviews and companies always tell me I should have no issues getting in. Then when the in-person interviews occur I'll never hear from them again and I can immediately tell that they are actively trying not to hire me because their entire demeanor and tone shifts from how it was during the initial interviews.

>>8529868
looks like you already know that you have to start transition - go see a therapist, read all you need to know, learn makeup and train voice etc etc
good luck

>>8530091
you missed this part
>I never expressed a desire to be a girl
never told them anything, except that Im not going to get married or have kids

>>8530256
Man that sucks. What type of jobs are you trying to get? There is just no way they're gonna hire someone that looks dead inside, if you're gonna be dealing face-to-face with clients. A huge ass smile goes a long way but maybe you really need to get your act together.

>>8530277
I've just been trying to get "generic" science jobs basically. I just did my B.Sc. in general science and majored in chemistry and minored in physics. I've been mostly applying for client support type jobs so yeah they probably are judging my looks pretty heavily. I didn't really do enough research stuff to actually get into research positions though.
I don't even think it's cause I just look "dead" or whatever, I think it's cause I'm just short, skinny, don't look masc, and I have a bit of feminine behaviour. I've worked retail jobs before so I know exactly how horrible my appearance is to people because if you're not the chad stereotype companies hate you for anything related to dealing with other people. I did recently cut my hair which helps but I kind of liked my hair...