theres some girls id like to be introduced to but the guy who knows them said it depends on "how i react" to him. now ive gone as far as i am comfortable with him, ive lent him my copy of ffxv, my ps2 and ffxii, ive slept in the same bed with him with my pants off and even let him hug me and put his leg over mine..
i dont think i can go any further im just not into him, but i really want to meet these girls because they are just the type i go for but i hate the fact that in order for this to happen id have to go even further and the thought digusts me to no end. he is NOT attractive, and i feel nothing for him.
what the fuck do i do
>>8527712
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last night was the second night i slept in his bed with my bottoms off, he bought a heater this time after i complained the first time i did this that i was really cold in his room, i think he did that on purpose so that we could snuggle to get warm but it crushes my soul being so close to his digusting body and at times i felt his dick against my back and i wanted to kill myself right then and there. i am deeply ashamed about what ive been doing but im desperately lonely and i really want to meet these girls, there are not many lesbians around here and he's keeping my potential happiness from me