MtF tranny here. How fucked up is it that I want to be a mute?I'm

>>8525895
Eh, another tranny here and I've felt that way too. It usually comes during one of my "episodes" where I get overwhelming urge to lock myself in my room and never come out again. Those, in turn, usually come when my I believe I will never be and can never be normal and act normal like all the other people and when the thought of talking to people causally fills me with deep disgust of myself. Basically I hate myself deeply at a very deep level.

But how would I know you were enjoying my cock up your ass or that you were being raped?

>>8525905
Oh, believe me, you would know. ;3

>>8525895
Doesn't really have to do anything with being trans but I've definitely wanted to be mute at times. The difficulty of trying to articulate your thoughts through something as shitty as the English language only to have whoever you're speaking to not hear you or not understand you is beyond frustrating. The whole physical process of forcing air through your lungs and having to move your jaw to speak is just tedious. I really hate it when assholes say 'good morning' or 'hello' and then get offended when you don't respond as if they're fucking entitled to your attention.

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>>8525930
Man imagine if there was a direct output device for thoughts and brain processes. It would put all artists out of work instantly.

>>8525930
The worst is the daily grind of "Oh, hey! How are you?" "I'm good, how are you?" "I'm good too." Why even bother with that if it's the same shit all the time? No one ever actually talks about their daily life it's just the "I'm good." every time.

>>8525938
I usually answer "bad" when someone asks me that, do that enough and they eventually stop asking.

>>8525895
I used to wonder if I should become totally non-responsive, not actually mute with sign language and all, but just detach from the world and stop acknowledging anything, or responding to people when they talk to me, forever.
They weren't talking to "me" anyway.
I prayed I would become schizophrenic or insane so this would come naturally, since doing it deliberately didn't work.
I didn't hate others, this was back in my suicidal days and I thought this would be the best solution.

Not sure if this is what you meant.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0pMkJI4ADyA

>>8525944
I honestly haven't spoken in like 24 hours, I just said fuck it. I'm only 18 and still live at home so my family has all freaked out like "Did I do something? Don't ignore me!" blah blah. I'm so weird that I've started just typing stuff out on my notes in my phone and I show them, It's easier than carrying around a notepad. I'm going to learn sign language and I think I might actually try to make myself a mute.