I have decided that I am going to kill myself. I don't know when, I don't know how, and I don't know what I'll do until then. Do not bother trying to change my mind.
I come here because I'm a hopelessly unpassable transgirl hopelessly enamored with my cis lesbian best friend. I'm not giving any more details, they're unnecessary, what I need help with is finding a way to phrase a note that will articulate why I believe my personal perception of happiness is intrinsically not compatible with reality -- a way to articulate that such that she won't have to know that my relationship with her affected me so painfully, but in such a way I can still be honest in my final sentiments.
>>8507708
>Do not bother trying to change my mind.
If you wanna kill yourself fine, but suicide notes are for attention whores that wanna guilt trip other people. If what you have to say is so important than say it while your still alive. If it doesn't go well than you've got even more reason to kill yourself, and if it does go well than you can take things from there.
>>8507742
This. Suicide notes only hurt those left behind, especially if they aren't aware of how you're hurting ahead of time.
The aftermath is never how it is in movies.
Don't listen to them, OP. Not leaving a note will bring the agony of not knowing why. Suicides are painful no matter what.
If you want to leave a note, then leave a note.
>>8507708
This is a fucking stupid reason to kill yourself.
>>8507830
It's one element of a larger group of things. It's just that this one element is the one on my mind at this exact moment.
>>8507708
Why not be honest about your feelings for her?
>because then she'll blame herself
State that your wish is that she doesn't and that out of your love for her you want her to have every happiness and success and that being happy is the best way for her to fulfill your wish.
In fact, why not tell her your feelings for her while you're alive, before writing a note or killing yourself? Talking about it openly and honestly might help you come to terms with your feelings become able to express your wish that she not blame herself better, or otherwise change your mind about what to write or even whether to go ahead with suicide.
>>8507708
are you really enfp op? also post the rest of those joke typings
>>8507708
Please don't hurt yourself Anon. You can be happy yet. Most people who are suicidal at some point latter regret it and live on happily. That can be you, too. Please get help.
>>8507708
I'm in the same boat except I like a guy and I know how I'm going to suicide
you need to get away from her OP put some distance between yourself and her
>>8507708
>hopelessly unpassable
How long have you been on HRT? Is your appearance seriously bad enough to where you can't live with yourself?
>hopelessly enamored with my cis les bff
It sounds like your feelings are confused. This person is your bestFRIEND. Don't fall for the myth of scarcity when it comes to finding 'the one'. There are many 'ones' out there and you'll always have a best friend if you don't push the boundaries.
>>8507708
Oh god, I had the misfortune of knowing an ENFP once! And I mean, actually knowing, like thoroughly, that's what was just not right.
And he was a transfrog:
>>8509942
Give it some time your feelings will change.
>>8511184
When are you gonna do it? Wanna discord chat anon?
(I could use a suicide buddy/partner desu)