>tfw I hated being a guy to the point of suicide >but

same situation
also started hrt to not kill myself
"kind of shitty" feels a lot better than "i want to die" though

>>8507380
>>8507338
was it worth it?

t. too old to ever pass hating being a guy

>>8507338
You're still young ph dont give up

>>8507485
it's worth it to not want to kill yourself anymore
but if it's been getting worse and worse for you maybe you shouldn't wait for that long

>>8507514
>you shouldn't wait for that long
kill myself now? its been bad for about year, I have total disconnection from myself and my real body/face

mtfg treats me worse than irl
wearing a trump hat gets me worse service than a purse and pink nails

>>8507530
i meant wait until you want to kys
but if you already do then yeah it could be worth it
do you think it would disrupt your life a lot?

>>8507601
in boymode?

>>8507605
I dont know, I have to act male and Im so used to it but I dont want it, I already feel inadequate and have social anxiety, does it get better or worse on hrt?

>>8507635
my feelings of inadequacy and social anxiety went away almost completely
you will eventually stop passing as cis most likely though

>>8507648
sounds good! I can manage it to keep boymode
and it'd be much harder to change into a girl for me

>>8507380
Yea but desu there's no difference in my level of kill myself in the beginning I was super happy but now it's like I'm back were I started like I still can't be who I am because I look manly.

>>8507696
Is that because you realized you wanted to go full-time girl?

>>8507715
I mean yea Thats always been the plan I wanted to go full time pre hrt but I knew it wasn't possible so I wanted to wait to see what hormones did but they really didn't do much but give me boobs. And I'm just to guyish to even look like a woman. That's why I'm boy mode all the time.

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>>8507338
>its okay dont kill yourself youll maybe be cute
>its okay dont kill yourself just give it a few more years
>its been three years okay dont kill yourself you can still gain and lose a bunch of weight
>its okay you lost all that weight and you look like an extremely attractive guy
>its okay you can still lose some fat and maybe youll gain some more
>its okay just ignore those bones starting to show
>its okay just ignore that adam's apple you didnt have before

I dont think theres anything left for me to hope for.
I think ive exhausted all of my options.

>pic semi-related

Dude this whole thread is all me :'(

>>8507739
That's so me it's exactly what I'm going through holy shit!! if anything I look like a cuter guy after hormones not manly cute but a young looking cute guy. Im just at the yo yo weight phase to see if I can get curves though but it's not happening for me. like if anything It just made more attractive as a guy and with the weight loss I been getting crazy attention , but not the attention I want I would hate to be in a relationship as guy so I turn people down it sucks so bad because I never really had a relationship and i been bretty lonely . If I detrans I can have one and stuff but I don't want to detrans it would make suicidal again ugh it's just shitty.

>>8507635
I havent left my house in like ten years hrt or not so there ya go.