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Previous thread >>8492845
>>8495369
I'm on 1mg/day estradiol. Will I see any results on this dosage?
>>8495380
I'd go 2mg. 1 seems low.
>>8495380
I started on 1mg a day and apparently its best in the long run for breast growth. dont stay on it for too long before bumping up though, just a few months
Going to fiddle diddle the hell out of Elanna
>>8495380
apparently being on one a couple months then moving to 2 for awhile is better for bobbers growth
>>8495396
That's what my doc said.
>>8495376
wait are tank tops a lesbian thing?
because i really like them lol
>>8495380
do a blood test, dummy. no one can tell what your estrogen levels are.
>>8495407
too much e too fast = conetits (allegedly)
>>8495401
You Aren't a lesbian though
>>8495407
my endo said slow upping is better, my growth seems to be going okay
>>8495352
No you are not wearing exactly the same thing. You wouldn't be able to fit into skinny jeans like those.
Friendly reminder that there are lesbians in Dragon Ball Super now.
>>8495369
tfw weenie forever because your one chance to get a non disgusting neo hole is slipping by and the only option would be to give up ffs to get it
>trying to fix sleeping schedule without coffee
>>8495419
I'm new here and not acquainted with the tripfags yet. Do you have big bumps?
>>8495401
I've been told that they are
Apparently I've been dressing like a dyke for years ;-;
>>8495417
Your reading comprehension is slipping ;-;
>lurk a lot
>ask about dosages all the time and whats best
>never once was told starting at 1mg was better for boobage
>now I read this thread
you fuckers
>>8495435
I'm still on two at like almost 6 months and it's going ok
>>8495442
I mean, it depends from person to person.
>>8495425
>>8495448
Do you want coffee?
>tfw u self medded at 4mg when starting and fucked your boob growth by being a grossly underweight drug addict
>tfw u wound up with small bobbers
>>8495442
Eh it's not like you'r going to end up with big bewbs anyway. There really isn't a lot of difference between small and extra small.
Wait so 1mg is better to start with?
>>8495449
not everyone has the money, secrecy or ability needed to go to an endo so self med is all we can do
>>8495454
D-Do you want coffee?
>>8495461
Trigged.
>>8495449
how fast did yours grow? i have an A cup and am at 11 months now. they haven't really grown in 4 months or so now. kinda worried nothing will happen anymore :/
>>8495417
youre ignoring the fact that you would take issue with any female outfit I wear because there are not any outfits I can wear that would meet a high standard due to my inherently low standard body
I'm going to need to see Cis Tits boobs.
>>8495466
I sold all my stuff and took a greyhound bus to another city 3x to get an endo to give me my rx desu. In the long run though its cheaper than if i was self medding. Getting them here in canada is not easy.
>>8495468
Not sure desu. i was on 1mg for maybe 4 months, then 2 for about 8 months, .
>tfw was at 6mg at 2 months
boob growth is going fine tho idk
>>8495464
There is at least a -hint- of truth to it.
I've crushed on a lot of girls on an emotional level but I was pretty unfamiliar with feeling physical attraction and it's pretty hard to ignore that.
>>8495492
POST HER TITS DONT BE GREEDY
>>8495390
>tfw started at 2mg and went to 4mg after 4 months
>>8495473
I want you
>>8495475
some girls have small breasts
deal with it
>>8495493
No wai, fug u
>>8495477
That is not true. I took issue with you looking like a black hole, it had nothing to do with your body.
>>8495485
I didn't start very high this time around because I used patches at first. First time around, I used ethinylestradiol based BCPs. So I don't really have a way to compare. Lost some growth between transitions. Now I'm on 6mg after more than three years of hrt and they're still growing.
>>8495509
You cant call yourself cis tits without showing us at least once imo
>>8495505
No!
REEEEEEEEEEEE
>>8495501
>>8495485
>tfw went to 0mg after 4 months
Currently playing a game of "just one more day" with Cypro weening
>>8495449
>This is why going to an endo can be beneficial imo.
Having an endo is great if they really know their shit, but I've talked to a lot of girls whose endos were clueless and knew less than the average trans girl.
>>8495520
hi amy
>>8495514
I have shown them in the past and people have reposted them recently :/
>>8495502
I wish
>>8495514
She posted them the first day she was here because she got in an argument with shakira (who was never supposed to post again after that). Iirc her trip came from someone commenting on her boobs passing
>>8495501
go to the hospital already
FUCK
i feel worthless
thanks for subscribing to my blog everyone
Hey co-worker chan are you awake yet?
How many u want famalam?
>>8495523
press your boobs against the glass
>>8495508
It's okay if you'd prefer I wear men's clothes anon
>>8495521
Most endos know absolutely nothing about sex hormones. They're really diabetes and thyroid specialists and can be really inept for anything else.
>>8495537
because shes a bit mental
>>8495542
Yes.
>>8495541
Theyre pretty good at the gay clinic in LA
>>8495542
W-what if I pressed my boobs on ur boobs that's totally ok right?
>>8495522
I am in a world of pain but I think it's finally gonna help me kms
>>8495552
Im pretty sure thats going to happen every time we start making out desu... Which is a good thing
>>8495554
yeah whatever
just know that you fucked yourself over by having an autistic fit and becoming "spartan" again
fucking idiot
whatever im getting fake tits anyway with that armpit incision
crying on low e sucks and i dont see doc for two weeks
This is a joke channel right?
>>8495552
FIDDLE RIDDLE DIDDLE DIDDLE
>>8495561
what is a what?
>>8495537
Because I am a monster
I'm not aiming for a victory anymore. I'm just wanting it to stop
Just waiting to go away to uni again so I have the privacy and apparatus to off myself
>>8495556
>>8495536
There was a difference?
>>8495558
I don't care. I'm gonna be free and finally take an action in my life that matters.
Elanna is like the popular girl who becomes a lesbian when an edgy new girl shows up with good boobs.
>>8495576
is that a thing
>>8495551
Mistreatment of endometriosis by a worthless endocrinologist caused a lot of trouble for my sister. She ended up gaining weight like crazy and ultimately had to have her uterus and ovaries removed altogether... I'd trust a GP over an endo for hrt management.
>>8495576
Too bad cistits looks like a man
>>8495579
Totes.
>>8495581
This
>before transition, used to think the idea of getting boob implants was gross
>now I understand what it's like to fucking hate the way your boobs look
>will probably some day get boob implants myself
>tfw
>>8495576
What? Is this a phenomenon that actually happens?
>>8495588
You sure look girly for a man ngl
>>8495581
why do you think elanna likes her in particular
like she dated a nonbinary before too
>>8495566
It's funny that masc hun trannies living in the bible belt don't repress as hard as you do. i have no idea why you're so deep in the closet, you're not hopeless from what I've seen and as far as I know you aren't living under conservative parents
>>8495579
Yes
>>8495580
But muh calories in, calories out?
My mum had the same problem with fibroids, she lost half her weight after they were removed.
>>8495599
this is true :/
>>8495596
Boobs take a few years to fully grow and take a nice shape. Cis girls don't have it much better at the beginning of puberty. Of course, it's less problematic for a thirteen years old than it is for an adult trans girl.
>>8495600
some people are just mentally beyond saving
a successful transition is the
only way for them to be happy but they have no mental resources to even attempt it properly and they're just fucked
t. someone else considering just quitting it after 7 months of increasingly awkward boymode
>>8495600
The only real supportive person is my sister
My parents were accepting at first then slowly subverted and discouraged me over he months by pointing out all my masculine traits and behaviours and basically fearmongered me out of transition and guilted me for them having to keep it a secret from the extended family
"Oh I'd be so happy if you come out the other side of this and be ok with being a man"
so I'm faking repressing for them until I can find a way to commit suicide
And it's a way for me to escape my abusive bf for good
>>8495603
Stop that or no headpats for u
>>8495606
Your sister is blind
>>8495600
She had a bad reaction to pituitary blockers, slowed her metabolism to a crawl. Completely lacked energy too as a result of the same process. Unfortunately, blockers stay active for quite a long time so it was long enough to cause lasting effects with just a couple shots.
>>8495606
Maybe your "sister" is just jealous of CM's magnificent mammaries?
>>8495615
>considering just quitting it after 7 months of increasingly awkward boymode
Why would you give up because of that?
If your boymode is getting awkward, that probably means you should try girlmode for a while.
>>8495618
>Stop that or no headpats for u
s-s-s-sorry i think the lack of sleep and codiene +pain from stone is getting to me
>>8495573
Yeah bruh it looks less gay
Pic related bout to hit up the club with the boys
>>8495596
I'm the opposite, pre/early transition I really wanted a BA but now I'm not that bothered.
>>8495615
It's true, some trannies DGAF and just fight the system to be who they want to be, others like me are in no hurry to rock the boat. Maybe I don't have the mental will as you say, after all conformism is a sign of weakness.
>>8495617
Ok so you need to ditch all these people.
>>8495617
>>aaa im so happy being a girl xdddddd
>>aww but i cant be a girl because i want my bf xdd he's the best!!!
>>wow i quit my bf and i feel ok now maybe
>>nvm lol it's not that ok haha i want him back
but suddenly
>abusive bf
I said to my dad the girl I met with this weekend was being really unwantedly pushy and he just said let her do it... When I said you know what I meant right as in sexually he said yeah let her be pushy. feel like garbage now.
>>8495637
>Clubbing
>Floral print
I hope you're joking.
tfw wanted to go to pride but ur too mentally ill to go outside with people
>>8495633
Awe, well then you're not in a good place to judge yourself.
Be a good girl and take the compliment.
hugg elann
>>8495651
But ive already goten laid, I just dont wana fuck some girl I see as a friend.
>>8495575
>namefag refuses to drop name posthumously
unsurprising.
>>8495655
My mum has a female neighbour that looks exactly like her.
>>8495658
i know that feel
it's so hard to get better once this happens
>>8495637
Well that's better. Personally I would move away from floral motifs but the dress is certainly a step in the right direction.
>>8495668
Well that doesn't count because most British women look like men
>>8495668
is that neighbour post-menopausal?
>>8495663
hugg laur
>>8495669
i walked halfway to the train station to the city and broke down
i feel really bad
>>8495668
British people are known to be some of the ugliest people in the world
>>8495679
prob gonna go lay down and cry for a bit desu
>>8495688
Is there a way I can help?
>>8495683
i think you have to start small when relearning to socialize
like maybe get to know someone through text and then get on cam with them or something
>>8495686
>Picking on someone who just got out of the hospital
Holy shit you are a vile and petty hon
>>8495664
You need to slay that pussy bro, don't you want to be a real man?
>>8495639
Those were all lies
I was never once able to break up with him
I'll never be able to get the things he said about being trans out of my head
It's poisoned me
>>8495694
i think i need medication and therapy really
its hard getting to the doctor though
>>8495671
I rarely wear dresses with intricate motifs. But I'm almost tempted to look for a nice anarkali dress when sale season starts...
>>8495698
I dont know, i dont think so.
>>8495697
>autistic screeching
>>8495713
Why are you bullying Cis Tits?
i just assume every anon obsessed with how everybody looks like a man is angie and im right upwards of 70% of the time.
>going to get tested tomorrow
>caught some kind of pokemon for sure
wat do?
what would be the most ebin suicide method for a transgirl?
>>8495699
don't define yourself by what other people did
don't say things like "never" - your subconcious believes what you tell it. tell it that you're healing and that those things are in the past and no longer affect you.
>>8495730
I've only seen Angie bully herself though.
I was gonna meet you last week but you didn't reply. I've changed my mind now, not because of thiat, it was just a spur of the moment thing.
>>8495730
she doesn't do it that much
only to people she really doesn't like
most of her man posting is toward herself
>>8495745
wait we're still meeting in august tho right?
>>8495725
Hons deserve it
>>8495745
I haven't been around in /mtfg/ much lately and I'm sorry if I ignored you, I've been distracted by Sertii's visit and by, to my shame, videogames.
I'm not going to pressure you into hanging out but if you're ever down for it that's good enough for me.
>>8495730
Actually it's probably Faye lol
>>8495752
Maybe.
happy cloud dogs
>>8495713
Leave my girlfriend alone you bitter fuck
>>8495768
This place is so toxic.
>>8495768
>AUTISTIC SCREECHING
i love saying good morning to my gfs c:
>Have cuddlebuddy but keep telling myself we're just friends
>Find out shes cuddling with someone else also
>Get upset and jealous
I-is this what feelings for someone feels like?
why are so many people so fucking bitter about elanna hooking up with cis tits like holy shit calm your cone tits its just a girl dating another girl
>>8495790
>tfw not even one gf
>>8495796
they're probably jealous
like me
Sorry Emma. Ya probably don't care, but it really is strange we met up here again, of all places after those couple of years after our silly argument. Sucks that we both like memecoins too.
Life is a fucking meme.
>>8495799
believe in your dreams, anon!
you can do it.
>>8495796
that's gay
Hmmm...
>tfw no gf
>>8495809
dumb frogposter
>mom reading movie descriptions on demand to choose something to watch
>"a mom and dad support their child as they begin to transition from female t- oh my goodness"
>>8495796
>jealous of a transbian
>wanted to be a girl my entire life
>knew about and wanted to transition since I was 12
>23 now and still haven't started because like with everything else, I procrastinate on doing things that scare me, regardless of how much I want them
How did you all do it? How do you take that kind of step?
>going to endo appointment
>this one nurse who's always there and likes to talk to me and always smiles at me whenever I go in girl mode is there
>asks me the usual nurse questions, asks me if I'm in any pain
>"only emotionally"
>"oh dear, did something happen? Are you alright?"
>"oh haha that was just a joke just playing hahaha I'm so sorry please forgive me"
>awkward silence until she leaves the room
Why can't I talk like a normal person
>>8495801
Please be nice to my daughter
>>8495827
HA HA
STUPID IDIOT
HA HA
BIG DUMB FAGGOT
>>8495819
My parents' friends lent them DVDs after I went full-time. I hope they didn't take Laurence Anyways or the Danish Girl too literally.
>>8495827
idk I generally just kinda know when something is the right decision. Not that much to lose anyway In my view. I ordered skittles pretty fast after I realized I was trans.
>>8495827
what really pushed me was meeting two trans who convinced me i need to start
idk
it's really not a big deal, just go on QHI and order some pills
>>8495827
I was a NEET loner shut-in so I figured I had nothing to lose.
>>8495827
i knew since 17
and only got on hormones at 24 after body dysphoria finally started to make life difficult
>>8495827
Was at a point where I wanted to suicide for a while. Didnt want to make my mom sad tho, so I decided to give transition a shot.
>>8495835
it took me like 4 months after finding out about HRT to order it and most of that time was just getting over the sterility that would happen
I hope youve all had nice days today.
>>8495819
what movie is that
>>8495830
>Why can't I talk like a normal person
Cuz you're a tranny.
>>8495827
Literally just ordered a shipment from ihp and then started taking it knowing it's stoppable and wouldn't do anything unless I waited months
>>8495827
>contemplate for months on wether i should take hormones or not
>too scared to take them but also really scared i get any more masculine
>urge to kill myself gets stronger and stronger
>just started taking spiro
>my shrink asks me 2 weeks later why i seem to be doing so much better and spiro was the only possible answer
then i knew i wanted to be a grill
>>8495847
i just woke up and started talking to my gfs!
but they're not feeling too great :(
>>8495852
can you remember the moment when it dawned to you that you had actually gone too far to go back?
>>8495846
ahh i guess if i cared about having children it might be a big issue as well but like
having a pet with nicole or adopting some poor kid sounds more appealing than an actual baby lol
>>8495856
>tfw thinking if I take my e again will my crippling suicidal depression from coming off it go away again
Soon we can make Mtfg hon free
>>8495848
3 generations?
>>8495827
First time around, I was really eager. Started buying BCPs from friends pretty soon after I learned what transitioning was. Bought clothes and makeup when I got a bit more money. Didn't worry much about risks or anything, even though I didn't go full-time. I was going out or attending class in girl mode without a second thought.
This time, I took a few months to ensure I wouldn't get adverse effects from HRT, got a couple laser sessions, then I came out at work rather abruptly and went full-time.
I'm not easily scared. Except by stairs. Stairs terrify me.
>>8495859
Brad told us that he had to keep taking the pills or he'd die, doctor said that, so now he's taking the pills for life and honestly I might end up fucking him some day and that's gay as fuck.
>>8495864
i got weird feels about having kids cuz my dad died when i was young
>>8495865
amy, take your medicine like a good girl!
People who pay for small things with 100 dollar bills are the scum of the earth and should be shot
>>8495881
Same thing goes with people who pay for inexpensive things with a credit card
>>8495881
I despise people who insist on paying for very expensive things with rolls of 500€ bills a lot more. Had that problem at work a lot before it was banned altogether.
>only post good pics because i like convincing people i'm pretty
>whenever i'm dysphoric i roll out the deadpan selfies
>>8495896
What is wrong with that? Better than keeping a bunch of change around..
>>8495917
this lmao
WHAT I LEARNED IN /mtfg/ IS...
don't bully cashiers
cashiering is a hard and thankless job that drives you slowly mad but
>>8495930
where's my fukin change
>>8495917
I wasn't a cashier. Ran auctions for timber and hunting rights, government property. You're not supposed to pay in cash but it wasn't formally banned until 2005. Handling hundreds of thousands in cash in premises that aren't secured for that was pretty annoying.
>>8495913
Listen, take my word for this, Raisinetts is NOT a major purchase. Get some fucking cash together. No one should be paying the bank eighteen percent interest on Tic-Tacs. And you're holding up the fucking line, too. Some dorky looking prick with a fanny pack waiting to be approved for a bag of Cheese Doodles. Get some fucking money. Next guy in front of me that pays for Newsweek with a credit card is getting stabbed in the eyes!
>>8495939
Have you never heard of tap?
It's literally faster than paying in cash
>>8495922
Trannies are crazy.
>>8495939
>murica doesn't have contactless
Why is your country so backwards?
>>8495857
That really sucks to hear, whys that?
>>8495950
>keeping your information stored in your phone
>>8495369
http://vocaroo.com/i/s0X9aK7yDOeU
do you think this voice pass a girl voice?
i don't know but i think that my voice sounds like the one of a little kid instead of a woman one.
by the way ii'm singing "prayers for rain"
>tfw tranny
>>8495864
wait. werent you dating gloomy???
>>8495951
thumbnail looked cute
i feel deceived
>>8495939
Paying for something with card is as quick as swiping or putting in the chip and it's a lot faster than fumbling around in a pocket for change
You don't pay any interest on credit cards if you pay off the balance before the billing statement
get a grip
>>8495933
My hierarchy was a bit too shell-shocked to react. The office girls were supportive from day 1. The rest got used to it pretty fast.
And usually, the normal
means of payment for that kind of transaction is a banker's draft. Most other ways were explicitly banned but strangely enough, not cash.
>>8495962
Trannies mang.
>>8495956
Did I say phone?
You literally hold your card to the thingy
>>8495951
>>8495961
Sertii's a chaser, pump and dump, onto the next tranny
>>8495870
What's scary about stairs?
>>8495954
its so huge and decentralised as fuck so any kind of infrastructural upgrade/changing the laws to account for it takes literal aeons
>>8495974
Objectively, not much. But my first close call with death back in 86 involved stairs. It's probably something like PTSD, really.
>>8495969
which black trip is this?
>>8495970
http://www.mirror.co.uk/money/reveal-just-how-easy-criminal-7402854
Not going to let the goys win
>>8495969
Delete this picture of me now!
>>8495917
why is the noble profession of Cashier kek-worthy?
>>8495982
>back in 86
how old are you?
>>8495989
Use a shielded wallet you luddite
>tfw feel like a city with no people in it
>>8495995
39. Yup, I'm old.
>>8495961
dumped her :3c
>>8495961
poor glooms :(
>>8496003
What is a nice girl like you doing in a place like this?
>>8496008
>since your parents never loved any of you
too far
>>8495957
Ehhh keep working on it.
>>8496008
what if I'm bi
but prefer males
and am the bottom in both cases?
if you documented your transition and framed it as a feminization/sissification porno, how lucrative would that be?
>>8496008
True.
Holy shit you guys I've been watching American trash tv (Jerry Springer/Steve Wilkos) for a while now and this is amazing why didn't anyone ever tell me about this.
>>8496041
watch the maury show
>>8496036
It would have been better before I transitioned honestly. I was pretty slutty on T.
>>8496032
i mean, people get together and break up. it's not new...
that being said, gloomy is for protection and cuddles, NOT for breaking up with.
>>8496039
cara is that you
>>8496046
No like, you start before transition, and then you make some videos and spin a narrative and imply that it's through this narrative that you become girly. even though you're just transitioning normally. I bet a lot of people would love that.
>>8496055
shakira black people don't count. Your role in the adult industry is to have big benis and cuck the white boi.
being a sissy is pretty ok ngl
>>8496030
There are a few people here I like chatting with. Also, insulting chasers and /pol/tards is totally cathartic.
>>8496065
Oh.
Sounds like fun.
>>8496067
how would you know
you dont even have a lil sissy clitty!
>>8496065
I'm still on the fence as to whether cuck porn is racist to whites or blacks
>portrays whites as weak microdick losers
>portrays blacks as hypermasculine thug sex objects
Please help me come up with a plan for going from
>I do nothing but take hormones
to
>I live fulltime as a girl and pass
>>8496076
neither! it's just a sexual fantasy!
alternatively both!
>>8496075
I have the teeniest sissy clitty now
uwu
>>8495879
>mum comes home
>asks how I'm doing
>burst into tears and tell her it's not gonna work and I need to be back on them till I see my therapist
>knows I've failed to repress
>"do what you have to do"
>go and take 4mg of e so I get my days worth
>back on the hrt train again
4 days :/
I just need to accept it, im a Girl and I have no fucking way out
>>8496054
ill never get it. when im in love i am in love and it doesnt matter what happens. it took me 2 years of psychological abuse to realize that i had to get distance to a person i was in love with. and i still loved her for 2 more years.
that is love. not some fucking "I like you lets cuddle for a while"
>>8496060
No.
>>8496082
>What is the Maury show?
paternity tests, lots of paternity tests among other things
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2Tc4iCdjZx4
>>8496090
i tend to get pretty attached to people too, but, idk
my ex boyfriend i ditched after i started losing attraction to men (and the /pol/posting made it
way easier to move on)
my ex gf seemed to not be much into the whole 'romance' deal, so when she broke up with me i was just angry that i hadn't first
>>8496088
Stop fucking doing this Amy. Just keep taking the pills.
i dont wanna go to the gp i dont wanna do anything until ive moved out, until i dont have to step outside and be in this really evil part of town
>>8496088
No matter what happens can you stop posting here? Pretty please and thank you. Best of luck and all that.
>>8496088
>burst into tears and tell her it's not gonna work and I need to be back on them till I see my therapist
the phrase you're looking for is "till i die"
please don't quit again, be who you really are, it's the only way to live
>tfw financial dysphoria
we used to be rich old man, what did u do
>>8496009
:c
Hope the streaming goes well.
But yeah just feeling garbage.
>>8496101
>ditched after i started losing attraction to men
you ditched him because of his physical attributes? wtf?
love is a connection of souls, not some physical shit
>>8496135
>love is a connection of souls, not some physical shit
love is a battlefield
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IGVZOLV9SPo
>>8496132
awww that sucks.
what's got you down?
>>8496135
um, not entirely? i was emotionally attracted to men and as i started transition i became outright uncomfortable around them. also sex is kind of important and idk if i'd want to date someone who thinks i'm disgusting
we were both desperate AF so we hooked up after like a week
it was a shitshow
>>8496088
that's fine amy obviously you have to go through this charade as a persuasion-method for your mum so all doubts that you could've repressed but didn't try etc are erased
it sounds like you've pretty much worn her down and she's given up/been more or less persuaded now so grats on that victory, you're all g to go now
>>8496098
Holy shit this is absolute trashkino thank you so much.
>>8496142
Made me think of this..
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oUbpGmR1-QM
Sorry about the ancient generic pop song
>>8495530
We're gonna cut it with MDMA so lots
>>8496149
the best
>>8496147
>we were both desperate AF so we hooked up after like a week
so you werent in love in the first place
How do you know if you actually like men
>>8496167
Put your head between your legs, hold your breath and swallow your spit
>>8496167
pheromones mang
you like that man stank?
>>8496167
do you like men? y/n.
If you answered y you like men
if you answered n you don't!
I wish I knew what coffee looked like
>>8496098
>how much emphasis they put on it being a trans woman
no one will ever see us as woman, why the fuck am i even doing this shit?
>>8496183
>>8496167
mystery idk
>>8496184
>absolute over the top bottom of the barrel entertainment doesn't accept me
>I should give up.
This shows viewerbase is literally swamp people and turbo rednecks, why do you care?
>>8496183
>>8496161
Honest question have you ever done MDMA or is it just your fallback for memes about cutting stuff?
>>8496175
I think I do but maybe I just tricked myself into liking it
>>8496172
?
>>8496179
I mean I think I do
>>8496187
mmmhh, you look delicious, i'd slurp you all night long and go for another round in the morning after i wake up
>>8496183
>>8496193
>I mean I think I do
date one and find out
unless you're in a relationship, then you don't really need to know anyways!
>>8496117
Ok. I need to stop my self hate and internal transphobia building up like that
>>8496121
I guess I'll have to find other methods of hiding im trans. Hrt till I die :/
>>8496148
I'm upset because now she will worry more
>>8496202
Well shes dating cis tits so that's pretty much a man...
>>8496193
Well it fits the clientele is all. We could mix it with Carfentanyl if you want
>>8496032
>why doesn't every relationship last forever???
t. virgin
>>8496165
we were. it just didn't have a good foundation
>>8496202
I did
For years
Literally only crushed on girls since
>>8496088
Lmaaooooo
FUCKING TOLD YOU
didn't even take you a week to break down again
>>8496208
pls post your pic I want to see cute tall girls
>>8496211
just wait until sertii dumps you
that'll be fun
>>8496190
because it's not like most people actually accept us.
>>8496211
I know why relationships dont last forever. its because retards claim they are in love although they arent and then they break up after just a few months because they are unable to compromise and claimed to be in love before they really got to know the other person
t. not a virgin
>>8496210
I feel that fits the clientelle even better
>>8496215
Well then maybe you're just tired of vanilla, or maybe you don't like men anymore. What's the problem, u shud do what u wanna dooo.
>>8496230
if you live in a first world country that's wrong.
>>8496232
We can take it and our suicide pact will come to fruition
>>8496215
Female sexuality is very fluid. Its entirely possible you WERE attracted to men, or at least that one man, at the time and now are primarily interested in girls. It doesn't really matter as long as you are attracted to the person you are with and it seems like you really like cis tits.
>>8496239
i do and people are nice and all but that doesn't mean that they see me or any other tranny as a woman.
>>8495961
No. We broke up after three months because it was a long distance relationship with no solid plan of getting together. Me getting romantically close to Nicole only happened a while after we'd already broken up.
In addition Gloomy is very dependent and depressed. She is indeed, as pandora said, for cuddles and protection, but it's not healthy to be with a relationship with someone just to spare their feelings (which is how I felt a while after we first started dating). I realized being with her just made me really frustrated about how she never did anything at all to improve her actual life situation (i.e getting therapy or medication for agoraphobia, anxiety, depression etc etc). Staying in a relationship with her would have enabled her dependency issues and ultimately been (imo) bad for her in the long run.
>>8496253
just pass then.
>>8496265
i don't think that does too much of a difference if you're not stealth. especially when it comes to dating. but no experience with that so whatever.
>>8496231
hmm
by this criteria i could be with tetra forever
tfw u cut your own hair because you'r are stupid
>>8496259
>Gloomy is depressed
Who would have thought?
Of all the single trips here, who do you think are absolute wife material?
>>8496259
>Staying in a relationship with her would have enabled her dependency issues and ultimately been (imo) bad for her in the long run.
I mean, she hasn't gotten any less dependent and she wasn't exactly... less depressed after the break up :/
At least you could actually meet with her IRL and maybe have a chance of helping her with IRL stuff, idk what the fuck I'm gonna do. Especially because I'm almost as dependent.
>>8496234
>maybe you don't like men anymore
This really triggers my anxiety I don't know why this scares me so much
>>8496249
I really do and I have no doubts about that, just like I woke up this morning and started freaking out for some reason
>>8496229
do you think this is my first relationship ever or something lmao
>>8496135
wronk. Love is nebulous and affected by all kinds of factors. you're just being naive.
>>8496259
>We broke up after three months because it was a long distance relationship with no solid plan of getting together.
it surely was a surprise that it would be a ldr. who whould have thought?
> In addition Gloomy is very dependent and depressed.
how is that a problem when you are in love
> it's not healthy to be with a relationship with someone just to spare their feelings
why did you get into a relationship in the first place?
> I realized being with her just made me really frustrated about how she never did anything at all to improve her actual life situation
and you didnt know that before?
> Staying in a relationship with her would have enabled her dependency issues and ultimately been (imo) bad for her in the long run.
I dont complain about your breakup. I mostly complain about you entering the realationship in the first place when she clearly wasnt what you were looking for just to inevitable hurt her
>>8496223
There's a part of me that won't let go
>>8496288
Maybe I am. Only to an asexual woman, though.
>>8496293
>This really triggers my anxiety I don't know why this scares me so much
that's probably a sign that u don't tho. or maybe the opposite? who knows? You should get over yourself, sexuality is not a commitment.
>>8496298
Who are you?
>>8496301
did you see my reply in repgen?
>>8496314
someone who was hurt by an equally selfish and retarded person once
>>8496298
You have got to be one of the most emotionally immature naive children I have ever met in my life. Jesus christ you have no idea how relationships and love work do you? Just because people love eachother it doesn't mean that things will always work out.
>>8496329
Can I be your friend? She isn't selfish or retarded though
>>8496324
Y-yes
poor cinnamon rolls always get hurt ;~;
>>8496349
try it out if you're serious about it
I have brain problems ;-;
>>8496365
same
>>8496364
Do you have discord?
>>8496364
You sound like an autist who doesn't understand the difference between platonic, puppy, and deep romantic love.
>>8496298
lol are you 14 years old. do you know how relationships work? love isn't this fucking magical force that can make anything and everything work out
>>8496290
>I mean, she hasn't gotten any less dependent
yeah, and until she sees a therapist it won't.
>she wasn't exactly... less depressed after the break up :/
ok sooooo
let's say this relationship went on
1 year
2 years
etc etc
what, do we get married?
At some point I break up with her because, while she's an immensely sweet girl, I'm not getting that much out of the relationship emotionally.
Do you think she'd be less or more depressed then compared to now?
>Especially because I'm almost as dependent.
>idk what the fuck I'm gonna do
yeah honestly that was my thought too when i heard you two were together, I didn't say anything because I thought it'd be rude.
>At least you could actually meet with her IRL
I did offer for her to come over to amsterdam but she didn't want to
>>8496298
>how is that a problem when you are in love
lol
>why did you get into a relationship in the first place?
I was immature and lonely and I thought this was the best way to help her
>and you didnt know that before?
no, i thought she'd get on that at some point.
>>8496147
Being a gross man.
>>8496303
I'm just scared of the unknown and being with a girl scares me
>>8496380
Can you please stop? everyone? ._.
tfw just want to find nice girl and stay with them forever
I forgot who i am
>They say you can only drink one Actimel bottle a day
>I drank two
Who /mischief/ here
>>8496380
>I'm not getting that much out of the relationship emotionally.
ouch
>>8496381
iktf : /
Should I take hormones just as a joke you know as a laugh. Just one big ol' lark?
>>8496373
I'm not that person you're responding to, but can you try explaining the difference between the three? I am genuinely curious.
>>8496428
>thats not what I understan
Yes and that's why its aparant you are either extremely emotionally immature or autitic. There are varying levels and variations of love, its not just a switch you throw off or on , 100 or nothing. Like holy shit dude get some real relationship experience before posting.
>>8496436
Id rather not shre mine here
>>8496441
> There are varying levels and variations of love, its not just a switch you throw off or on , 100 or nothing.
well maybe thats just a difference in our languages. loves means deep emotional love where I am from. saying you are in love is a big statement. we dont throw it around as lightly.
the word actually has meaning for me.
>>8496363
I...you genius
I feel so shitty...
>>8496457
hi gloomy
>>8496462
Hi Anon
What is love
>>8496457
hugg gloomy :c
Like greater than 75% of relationships don't even progress to the point where you can say you're in love with the person. Geez, get some real world experience
>>8496467
Baby don't hurt me
>>8496471
don't hurt me :(
>>8496396
happens yeah
>>8496474
no more
hugg elann
>>8496422
that's why i did it and i'm still laughing haha
OKAY HOLY FUCK YOU GUYS SO I ACTUALLY DECIDED TO GO ON OTHER THREADS ON /lgbt/ AND FUCK I SAW THIS PIC THIS BITCH LOOKS EXACTLY LIKE ME FROM THE SIDE WITH THE EXCEPTION OF THE NOSE I HAVE A BIGGER GOY NOSE WHAT IS LIFE
>>8496435
Platonic love are like deep feelings of affection you have for freinds or family that are very close to you and mean a lot to you, but they are not romantic feeliings in nature. Puppy love is usually what people feel when they are in the first stages of their relationhip, it seems strong but its somewhat shallow and is usually mixed with lust. When people think puppy love they think about the kinds of relationships teenagers have with eachother.
Deep romantic love is hard to pin down. But i can attempt to explain it if you really want me to...
>>8496455
uh
gloomy wants you to add me so i can give you her discord
pandora#9929
>>8496457
also
>gloomy
>cursing
>>8496469
I have such a fear of loss that I don't commit to a relationship unless I know it has lasting potential. As a result, I haven't had that many but there always was love.
dont hugg elann
Hey there !
So..like I finally got my meds, and my endo is really great and all.
But, i am starting out with 2 hubs of E-gel that's like 1,5 estro daily. He told me this is the best way so more receptors can build up with time and it should work out better in the long run.
I have seen people talking about much higher doses and taking antiandros too..so I'm not sure if this'll work out ? Help?
>>8496500
I am going to be hugging her lots and there is literally nothing you can do to stop me.
>>8496506
because
also
>"Oh, you're not a hugger?"
could you make me sound more autistic, jesus
>>8496489
Thats Jeffrey star you moron
>Looking like Jeffrey Star
You poor unfortunate soul
>>8496386
elanna what if ur just a lil nerd huh?
hormones are great bc they've removed all my ability to risk-assess so now i don't feel afraid at all
>>8496507
Taking a low dose of estrogen without an anti-androgen is pointless. Safe, but you might as well take nothing.
>>8496512
It's ok I also didn't like people touching me when I was pretransition
>>8496529
I am tho
>>8496491
I know someone who has her. ill ask her for her discord. Id preffer if she told nobody who the mysterious anon is
>>8496539
are you sure that's not actually toxoplasmosis gondii
>>8496507
>starting on estrogen and no antiandrogen
your endo is probably a nice person but this is completely backwards
>anxious and upset
>nothing to really be anxious or upset about
>think about what is causing these feelings
>cant think of anything
>i must be so stupid i forgot what was making me anxious and upset
>become even more anxious and upset because im retarded
>>8496572
Have you ever tried mindful mediation?
>>8496563
:(
but anon i want to know who you are ;-;
>>8496566
I have a theory that the initial mood swings from starting HRT are caused by low overall sex hormone levels from taking just AAs
So it might actually make it easier if you first bring your E levels up and only then lower your T
>>8496560
>It's ok I also didn't like people touching me when I was pretransition
D-DELET THIS
> tfw cried at the end of dragon maid
I guess you can't just keep it slice of life forever...
>>8496579
Nah, the mood swings are definitely just E. Progesterone balances them nicely, though.
remember to take care of cinnamon rolls
>>8496575
No. I need some form of escapism that'll easily last me weeks on end at a time again. Maybe I'll get into anime or play WoW again.
>>8496589
didn't we all, anon
>>8496579
AAs don't produce mood swings, just an emotional depression or flattened affect because of the lack of sex hormone in the body
E brings you back up and then starts doing its work
>>8496595
You are nice Anon, you should be a cinnamon roll
>>8496599
>r play WoW again.
I started playing wow again . Im so far behind everyone else but im trying to catch up xD
Also escapism only works for so long, you should atleast learn some breathing exercises for calming yourself down.
>>8496602
I am
Chara is being overly nice to me. Should i be worried?
>>8496560
elanna you're a nerd.
>>8496490
I really wish I was able to differentiate between them myself. Love and affection confuse the heck out of me, and just makes me scared and avoidant when anyone shows interest towards me.
>>8496607
There are catchup mechanics as I recall. If I play again I can get back up to speed in no time. I've been gone like 4 months only. I promised myself I'd never play again but I'm slipping into a depressive and hopeless spiral again and it kills time well enough until I kill myself.
>>8496610
nah
just don't give her any selfies or personal information lol
>>8496609
*hugg*
hi /mtfg/ i have a problem.
i cant stop fapping to brutal degradation het stuff as a form of self harm. i feel like getting spit on and hit and hurt is what i deserve, and i feel shitty afterwards, which i also feel like i deserve. whenever i think about girls kissing i feel like i dont deserve that, like i could never find a girl to do lewds with and i just start crying. what do i do please help me
>>8496619
>no
pls
>>8496620
what does chara do with information?
>>8496625
uh
idk, being a painslut isn't necessarily bad as long as you can find someone to do it to you in a healthy manner
the self hate is definitely an issue though and you should probably surround yourself with nice people who don't encourage self-hatred
>>8496600
> dropped trip.
I dunno, I don't usually cry at all.
I just want something fun to watch with no drama...
>>8496628
I am sorry that the idea of taking pills and transitioning to be a qt girl is so triggering to you
>>8496629
Sells it to the highest bidder.
>>8496625
Find a cute boy to spit on, hit and degrade you while he ploys your boypussy.
>>8496618
Well if you do play again and are on horde side you should add me or something
>>8496633
still, it's the second best anime of all time
>>8496629
she's an attention whoring creep, idk
probably not much
>>8496619
nerddddddd!!!!
>>8496629
mostly just hoards it
sometimes tries to blackmail people with it
QUICK MTFG: Name your top 5 anime in no particular order RIGHT NOW
>>8496634
why are you such a bully
>>8496643
i never got creepy vibes from her when we talked
>>8496650
It's not bullying if she's just encouraging you to transition into the qt girl you were meant to be.
>>8496648
.hack//sign
FLCL
UHHHH those are the only shows I've watched...
>>8496648
im a huge pleb but
osomatsu-san
cowboy bebop
umaru
watamote
cromartie high school
>>8496648
GitS: SAC
Spice and Wolf
Black Lagoon
FMA Brotherhood
Mirai Nikki
>>8496647
does not sound as bad as i heard
>>8496648
survival game club
dragon maid
sakura trick
konosuba
urara merichou
>>8496648
Knights of Sidonia
Ghost in the Shell (uh, one of the series, not sure which one I did watch tho)
Cowboy Bebop
Slayers
Kobayashi-san Chi no Maid Dragon
If ghiblis count, replace Slayers with The Castle in The Sky.
>>8496650
idk, my roomie wants you to know that her cypro is also not expired like mine
just for like, reference
evening ya goofballs
whats up nowadays
>>8496680
>>8496658
Both were very good. Did you play any of the .hack games for ps2?
>>8496659
Decent choices i guess
>>8496660
very nice. watching FMA brotherhood with elanna right now desu.
>>8496667
is survival game club the one with all the assassins? or no. Also sakura trick was soooooooooo cute.
>>8496670
Castle in the sky and GITS are so good.
>>8496679
my NIGGA. LOGH is so good.
>>8496680
Just planning ways to partition Germany.
mommy mommy mommy mommy mommy mommy mommy mommy mommy mommy mommy mommy mommy mommy mommy mommy mommy mommy mommy mommy mommy mommy mommy mommy mommy mommy mommy mommy mommy mommy mommy mommy
>>8496686
no, it's the one with the "bb guns"
>>8496688
You can take the east and all of Berlin.
>>8496680
Watching Saga of Tanya the Evil, laughing my ass off, and wondering what anime I am bumping out of my top 5.
>>8496686
Yup I loved the original 4 IMOQ games! I've only finished the first new trilogy one, I'm forgetting their names. I hear some are getting HD remakes too!
>>8496648
Honestly ? Only anime I have good memories of is what I watched on TV when I was a kid. A friend tried to make me watch some when I was a student, but nothing really clicked.
So, I guess, Candy Candy, Cat's Eye and maybe Harlock.
>friends with chara
gross.
>>8496688
shouldnt you make plans to like, reconquer your own capital first?
>>8496684
wew, that was quick. less than a minute
>>8496698
tanya? is that the little blonde nazi girls? Ive only seen pictures. I want to watch a new anime but I havent decided what yet.
sorta interested in tokyo ghoul, its pretty different from the stuff I usually like tho, so I am still undecided (and have been for weeks)
I am just rewatching Ds9 currently
>>8496688
>>8496696
After I defeat Elannas roommate I can show you the final solution to the Aryan question
racism is bad
>>8496705
Did you not notice the quotation marks around the word friends? Jesus christ you really are autistic.
>>8496686
FMA:B is good too, but I started watching it with my little brother and only got little parts from the middle to the end because I couldn't spend all my time watching with him, so it doesn't count.
Also Hellsing Ultimate is absolutely Hilarious if you watch it as a humoristic anime (like, watch parts of the abridged serie, some of the original, and mix it a bit), it's so over the top I'm not sure if what I remember is from the abridged or from the original.
>>8496706
We need a place to dump some of the population from there. Rhénanie sounds perfect for that.
>>8496707
that's good too, a little weaksauce tho
>>8496720
1v1 in the produce cooler
>>8496712
Ur cute
>>8496648
Manga is better so I'll answer you with manga.
20th century boys
Historie
Monster
Nana
Oyasumi Pun Pun
>>8496707
Some sources saying the GU remakes will be on PC aswell, so you might be able to save your money if they see a US release
>>8496719
Do you throw bolts wherever you go?
I'm really sad
I feel crazy
I can't remember how to be me
I forgot myself
;_;
just got back from the local BDSM trade fair :)
>tfw even the male-sized zip hoods wouldn't fit over my jaw
h e l p
got this awesome bespoke rattan flogger tho
and talked to this transwoman who is way kinkier than me holy shit
10 mins of talking for the first time and she asked if she could burn my armpit hair off with a lighter lol, gave me some tips for Nottingham GIC though (like- they have cameras outside the building so they can see if you arrive in girlmode or change into it when you get there)
also I thought she was late 30s when actually she's 52 and she was like "yeah HRT makes you age like a vampire"
it's weird hearing memes in real life
>>8496712
you should trip again
>>8496713
not her, but I don't get why cis tits would want anything to do with chara whatsoever, whether there's quotation marks around "friends" or not
>>8496711
0/10
i don't see any russia there
>>8496706
>tanya? is that the little blonde nazi girls?
I am not sure I would call him a Nazi, but this has got to be the most lovable villain I have ever seen.
>>8496718
would make the current turk vs ''rapefugee" drugwars here more entertaining. a three way brawl sounds great.
>>8496720
hayo
I am paralyzed by all the bureaucratic shit Id have to do to be able to write my master's thesis and I cant get myself to start dealing with profs who shouldve put my grades into the system 2 years ago
how u?
oh speaking of which, we should breaking bad.
youre a chemist, and I am great at making terrible decisions. Id be the perfect jessie
we could make so much money
Trans girls are like flowers that take a little longer to bloom
But with patience, compassion, love, and care, we blossom magnificently!
And even though some of us take a little more time, a little more water and sun, and a little more care, that doesn’t make any one of us any less of a flower or any less beautiful!
>>8496735
is it this person (pic related)? are you saying that is a boy?
I honestly have NO idea Idk anything about it
>>8496733
Shes an interesting person i guess. I have always been fascinated with sociopaths and how they think. I tried watching the show netflix how hannibal but its really gruesome sometimes. I actually planned to get into psychology originally but.. theres no way i can anymore.
>>8496739
wtf my trip dropped
>>8496739
That's really flowery language
>>8496739
>tfw you need extensive massively invasive surgery to blossom
There's a whole lot of animes to watch. I don't even know where to start.
>>8496736
;~;
You're at least making headway on it right?
I'm excellent, I just had my last day work yesterday, I start work with my research coordinator on the 4th of July I'm super excited. Also I accidentally a girlfriend and she's awesome.
I would love for you to be my jessie, what kinda shit are we gonna cook?
>>8496728
idgi ;~;
Confuzi
>>8496750
>Also I accidentally a girlfriend and she's awesome.
holy shit
>>8496739
>tfw nobody cares for you and you just die
>>8496741
Mild spoilers but: Born as a boy, killed, reborn as a girl but years later still identifies as a man.
Pic related was a soul-crushing moment for him
>>8496748
Samurai champloo
FMA Brotherhood
Cowboy Bebop
Those are some good ones to get into. Unless you want yuri
>>8496753
>accidentally got two girlfriends
can i have phienchen (you)s
>>8496759
I'm mostly asexual so I don't really care for yaoi or yuri unless it's somehow tastefully relevant to the plot.
I've already watched the first 2 and I liked them both.
Is Cowboy Bebop the one with the .454 casul semiauto?
>>8496753
Yeah
I might have had a bit of a meltdown over it and realized I'm almost certainly not straight probably leaning pretty gay
>>8496753
>holy shit
She met a girl with big boobs and couldn't contain her girl lust anymore.
>>8496601
>>8496591
>>8496579
>>8496566
Sorry for asking a question and then disappearing.
My endo said that the brain can't differentiate b tween testo and estro, that's why hrt even works. And if you gradually start upping the estro level your brain will take it ands 'hey i'm full, I don't need to produce testo'
And that's why I shouldn't take AA.
He has like 20 years experience in this field and has and the peps going to him are all satisfied...but online I hear people talking about having to take AA too so I am not completely sure..
>>8496648
utena
thats it. thats the anime
>>8496750
technically I need grades on the stuff I recently handed in and I suppose I need to give the profs at least 2 months time to grade it, so TECHNICALLY I cant do anything that would really help me
but I am going to get into trouble with the bureau responsible for handing out degrees here. Simply because EVERYONE gets trouble from them, even normies.
>what kinda shit are we gonna cook?
Ive no idea, youre the chemist. Ill do what you say.
not a lot of people get to tell me what to do.
dont enjoy it too much or I am gonna stop working and sit on your lap. for revenge. no homo
>>8496752
Stalker. Tarkovski film. Watch it if you haven't.
>>8496766
>.454 casul semiauto?
I dont know anything about guns desu im the wrong person to ask that.
>>8496767
guess I made you blossom :P
you better tell your gf that.
>>8496770
thats the weirdest thing Ive heard in a while. do you live in the third world?
>>8496779
i had to look it up because i didn't know either, it's the wildcat version of .45 ACP
>>8496780
Germany..don't know how much that is a 3rd world lol
so a random from my stream bought me a ps4. what games should i get for it? the last guardian and ff15 are the only ones i've thought bout so farr
also henlo hru today mtfg?
>>8496780
What do you mean you made me blossom?
Just because I may have been crushing on you at one point doesn't mean nothing.
>>8496772
That sucks, but at least the wheels are turning
Albeit slowly
Idk we could cook meth but that seems really old hat, we should make weird and wacky RCs and sell them to people on the innanets. You're playing a dangerous game sitting on my lap though.
>>8496770
Find another doctor, stat. Using an overdose of E to suppress T production is a dangerous, inefficient method that's been deprecated for nearly thirty years. Seriously, most endos are clueless when it comes to hrt, but the ones who are stuck in the 70s are the worst.
At the very least, buy AAs and self-med for that half of hrt. Or get an orchidectomy or SRS asap.
>>8496779
Uhh, a .454 casul is a large handgun caliber that is used almost exclusively, I think entirely exclusively in revolvers for big game like moose or grizzly bears, and in some fairly popular anime they gave some edgelord a semiautomatic handgun chambered in .454 casul with like a 10 inch barrel or something.
Basically does the guy in Cowboy Bebop have a huge long handgun that goes bang
>>8496788
>Just because I may have been crushing on you at one point doesn't mean nothing.
You've been pretty much crushing on everyone at one point.
>>8496790
Uh..I was told to take the estro for 4 weeks to see how it works on me and we will do more bloodtests then,
I guess I will talk about it with him? What does Srs mean?
>>8496791
nah spike has just a normal gun
>>8496787
horizon zero dawn, persona 5, ratchet & clank
gravity rush 1 and 2 are pretty good but weeby AF
>>8496791
You are thinking of Alucard in Hellsing
>>8496802
aw.
>>8496805
o ok. so many animes to keep up with.
>>8496791
Are you thinking of outlaw star? Kinda similar anime and this the gun the MC uses
>>8496786
>Just because I may have been crushing on you at one point
its a bit rude to joke about these things reee
>You're playing a dangerous game sitting on my lap though.
what do you mean?
on a more serious note: I wish my memory worked better. I forget conversations so often, even if theyre important. Ive perfected the art of pretending to remember in certain contexts (which becomes easier the more I talk to someone cause reconstructing knowledge from fragments is easier), but the whole not knowing what Ive talked to you about before makes your knowledge of me a blackbox of sorts because we talk so infrequently.
this actually bothers me a lot for some reason
>>8496786
please suggest your endo to surrender his medical license. Hes a quack
>>8496801
SRS is sex reassignment surgery. No need for AAs once testicles are gone.
But seriously, if he doesn't want to write a script for AAs, find someone else.
>>8496804
>ratchet & clank
I loved 2 and especially 3. they are great games. Even my grandma played them
>>8496791
Spike uses a Jericho in 9mm mostly.
It does go bang though.
>>8496804
okok
i like weeby games desu so maybe i will get those
>>8496808
Hellsing ultimate is a good one, especially if you have a dark sense of humor. Watch it and then the abridged series. I highly recommend them. Literally Dracula/Vlad the Impaler is one of the good guys. Let that sink in.
>>8496770
>My endo said that the brain can't differentiate b tween testo and estro, that's why hrt even works.
oh i see, they're very nice because they have down's syndrome
if the brain couldn't differentiate between the two, how could sex differentiation exist in the first place?
you NEED an AA to halt masculinisation and testosterone production
get a new endo and self-med if you can
>>8496819
>>8496788
Elanna it turns out I fucked up closing last night and everyone is angry at me.
Please kill me
>>8496795
This is legitimately untrue, I have crushed on maybe a handful of people from here
>>8496812
I'm not joking though! I'm not an idiot I would never say anything about it when it's actually relevant or when repressing being a dyke, and now it's in the past and it's probably relevant to the whole point of being a repressed faggot so meh.
>what do you mean?
I was memeing
Idk I have a fairly good memory so I do remember a lot of the things we've talked about so I guess you can rely on mine
>>8496828
What did you do wrong?
>>8496828
WHAT DID YOU DO
>>8496823
>>8496770
bexe is right, but dont selfmed if you already have a letter from a psych. just go to another endo. german name and legal sex change are a bitch to complete if you havent gone the official route
elanna and co
you guys are dumb as fuck putting your personal lives and work life on 4chan
>>8496831
>>8496832
I forgot to move some empty pallets and put some things out. In six minutes I'm gonna have to chewed out by every single person in the department individually
>>8496833
>>8496770
Im really glad my endo wasn't this much of a retard... They really do let anyone become one don't they.
I remember when my ex asked hers about an orchi the endo said that i wouldnt be able to get hard again without some kind of small metal tube up my urethra and it scared me away from it for months.
Welp, how do you make a friend stop caring about you, so you avoid hurting him :/ ?
>>8496818
the reboot is pretty great
i want to get the first three on vita
>>8496833
Yeah I do, I will just have to tell him that I want the AA and spray (was told to use the spray because spray>gel>pills?)
>>8496848
Is your Endo one of the Fachkräfte that were imported over the last years?
>>8496821
oh yeah, if you like dark souls type stuff bloodborne is an obvious get, and nioh is supposed to be good too
infamous: second son and first light are pretty good superhero simulators
i assume you play all your multiplats on pc
>>8496823
You can cut testosterone production by suppressing LH production through physiological feedbacks. E can do that. Within a very small band of blood levels. Too little and you get no suppression, too much and you get the opposite effect. And the E levels required are too high to be safely maintained for years on end.
Stupid method, but it was better than nothing before AAs were widely available. Still, it's borderline criminal to use it in this day and age.
>>8496842
Im completely stressed out rn. Because the other girls I know told me he is the best in this field for it..
I feel like crying kinda..
>>8496830
Cyproterone acetate if you're outside the USA. Spironolactone if you're American.
>>8496831
>Idk I have a fairly good memory so I do remember a lot of the things we've talked about so I guess you can rely on mine
thanks,
though that wasnt the response I was looking for. Admittedly, there probably wasnt a correct response. I guess I didnt know either where I wanted to go with this.
>>8496848
what the fuck is a spray.
for androgen supression: ask for a GnRH agonist. you probably wont get one, but its worth a try. other than that take cypro.
as for estrogen
try to get pills you can take sublingually, the Wirkstoff is called estradiol hemihydrate, the brand name is estrifam.
>>8496842
no becoming an endo is pretty hard here. But nobody cares about trannies.
>>8496847
I am too poor to get anything PS related, I hope they release a port on steam one day though
>>8496859
maybe he will change his mind after he sees the blood test results
>>8496848
It's more injections>Estradiol pills>patches>other estrogen pills. Other galenic forms aren't really suitable for hrt.
>>8496867
Yeah I'm actually unsure what a correct response is to that
I'm sorry your memory is bad ;~;
>>8496871
>Estradiol pills>patches
????
>>8496868
Cyproterone is a proper antiandrogen, but it's not approved in the USA. Spironolactone is a diuretic with antiandrogenic side-effects that's used there but shouldn't when better options are available.
>>8496867
I have an appointment at an endo in a month. I hope it will go well, so that I finally become official.
>>8496877
patches are supposed to be better theoretically, but for some people the glue irritates their skin, or they fall off a lot
anyone got that massive copy paste of brain studies of transpeople and the like?
>>8496884
goofluck !!!
>>8496877
Patches only come in relatively low dosages, meaning you pretty much have to use two at once to get proper levels. Expensive and a bit inconvenient. They're fine for ramping up, especially since the steady levels delivered limit mood swings tied to fluctuating E.
>>8496889
yeah but that's not a reason to call them inherently worse
>>8496867
Lenzetto..
He said the pills are fucking up the liver..
>>8496871
I am not able to get injections..sigh
Using gynakodin gel rn. ..
LSD in two days!!!!!!!
I'm hype?????
>>8496899
BUT SUBLINGUAL ESTROGEN PILLS CIRCUMVENT THE FIRST PASS EFFECT
REEEEE
I am so mad at this guy lol
someone please go to walmart and get me a bunch of DXM so i can escape this realit
If someone is both a jew and agp does that make them like, 3 standard deviations above average IQ?
>>8496905
i started exercising for a few weeks so i downloaded like... 100 half-life 1 mods (because that's all my pc can handle. also i use my laptop while exercising) but then i got depressed and stopped playing on my laptop lmfao
>>8496859
>the other girls I know told me he is the best in this field for it
it's probably a meme that propagated through whatever network of friends they're all involved in
sometimes people buy into dumb ideas or herd thinking or appeal to the apparent authority of others because they assume the authority is there for a good reason
just find someone else, it's a small delay but nothing worth stressing over
>>8496848
>spray (was told to use the spray because spray>gel>pills?)
>>8496899
>He said the pills are fucking up the liver..
dear god
i can only hope he's talking about progynova or some other conjugated estrogen, because if he's talking about estrace or another micronised estradiol he's beyond unsalvageable
>being a tall hon
you might as well end it all
hmmmmmmmm
wait
do ya'll seriously not know what evamist is? lol
>>8496890
I don't need a brain test to tell me that I'm a straight boy
Good night everybody!
>>8496921
no way
i love evamist
almost as much as monster energy desu
>>8496899
Estradiol valerate is heavy on the liver. Estradiol hemihydrate isn't transformed there so pretty safe.
Gel isn't appropriate to get to the levels needed for trans hrt. Not to mention it's messy as fuck and as such the most inconvenient delivery form available.
God I love murica
>Judge: Under the state of Florida I hereby sentence you to death
>Judge: You take care of yourself young man
>Bundy: I will thanks
>Judge: Have a nice day
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VO8hZ3Yy-sM
>>8496731
pic of my latest haul btw
>bespoke rattan flogger, really high quality, deffo the most expensive kink item I own now
>wooden claws
>wooden knife (both are handmade and definitely sharp enough to leave some proper marks)
>rope
>rubber-coated wire for safe & easy restraining + can be used as a spanking tool
>>8496898
true, but what do you expect from someone whose ordering doesn't mention oral and sublingual as being distinct?
Also, do people even use non-estradiol pills anymore?
>>8496905
how come progynova is below estrofem? just remember you vouching that progy had better effects
do you know how useless i feel without being 18 years old? i can't change my legal name, i can't start HRT, i can't work for save some money, i can't participate in most boards of the web, this three months are going to be the most painful ones in mi life.
And yes, i know that you are going to ban me, i just used this post for let you know how difficult is being trans for underanges, see you in 30 days, a year, or how many time the ban will last...
>>8496937
you can still get premarin from QHI but idk
>>8496943
the mods here are retarded an there are plenty of underage posters here
just self med on hrt desu
>>8496943
nah there's several underage posters here lol
>>8496939
Everyone's body metabolizes medication differently. It's all one big case of your mileage may vary. There are far too many variables involved that boil down mostly to genetics to say one drug that is the same base will work better than the other without experimenting.
Progynova is estadiol valerate. Estrofem is estradiol hemihydrate. The liver has to break down the valerate layer in progynova but it will still work better in some cases, for some people.
Anyone that blanket statements "X is better than Y" simply does not know anything about medication and you should ignore them.
>>8496746
iktf
when I was talking to this trans person tonight she agreed I need FFS to have a hope in hell of being happy, having just had it done herself a few months ago, and that I should do sex work as it's the only way most of us ever afford it and especially a disabled person like me
when I told her I can't really do anal because of pain related to hypotonia she was like "shit, I wish you the best of luck then"
>>8496943
>can't start HRT
just be sneeky
>>8496957
was the trans person you talked to tonight me lol
>tfw didn't know what a vagina was till high school
>>8496921
Not dose-appropriate. Much like gels and patches, it's designed with low dose menopausal hrt in mind.
>>8496935
Ted Bundy was quite attractive.
>>8496964
it depends on the testosterone levels of the patient lol. i know quite a few trans women on it and they all love it.
>sex work for money
ugh i'd rather just kill myself honestly
>>8496954
>>8494532
Do i think i would pass bald??
Yeah, im pretty sure i would. I wear my hair in a tight pony tail and slicked and stuff all the time.
Why do you ask?
Some people look better bald but than others, ive seen alot of cis women who have shaved their heads and some look cute.....some dont
I have been thinking alot about shaving my head but id have to get several nice wigs id like first
>>8496949
>i still kinda think estrofem is shit primarily because i've seen ppl get fake pills from ihp in the past, but it's theoretically better
shit
I've never taken E in pill form, but I'm gonna have to start soon because injection shortage.
I was gonna order estrofem, but maybe I should get progy instead?
>have to convince gloomy to go to bed even though i really want her to stay up and talk to me ;-;
>finally have the hotel room booked
>i am actually going to get to spend an entire weekend with her
I dont think i have been this hyped since first getting my hormones desu.
>>8496974
idkkk, i mean it depends on where you order from! IHP is fairly reliable these days from everything i know.
i just remember it was a huuuuge thing in like ...2012? on 420chan when they lab tested the spiro and estrofem pills and they weren't legit lol
>>8496977
jesus i hope not
>is it sex work without the money?
no it's charity
>>8496950
i would but i don't have any money! and i can't have a job because people dones't let me work here if i'm not old enough.
my existence is a complete mysery.
please assist i am too stoned to drive
>>8496971
i ask because I lowkey wanna shave my own hair after I'm a few years on hrt.
>>8496969
Here's the manufacturer's pharmacological study. And that's with postmenopausal women, who have a higher E baseline than MtFs. Great to get rid of hot flashes or to get that E buzz. Not enough to sustain proper transition levels.
>>8496993
I think you will regret it either instantly or within a few weeks desu. Never shave your head when you are not feeling well.
>>8496986
vroom vroom.
>>8496994
all i know is alllllllllll of the trans women i know who are on it have good levels with it lol
>>8496996
huh no I'm talking about in a few years lol...
not when I'm feeling bad.
I've always really digged the shaved hair look and if I can pass with it I definitely want to at least consider giving it a try.
i miss 2004
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yWA4uJOXF-g&
>>8497005
it would be awful if you shaved it and then started passing less, and then you have to wait years for your hair to regrow
>>8496982
oh wow
I was probably gonna order from qhi, but yeah, hopefully that doesn't happen to me
I would have thought that since you're technically supposed to be able to fill actual prescriptions from those sites that they'd have to be reliable, because otherwise the government could shut them down, but idk
wearing my natural hair is comfy but its still shorter than i want it to be. i wanna have it at 16-18" before i start wearing it
still tho 12" of growth in less than a year is p nice and wearing weave is alot less daily maintenance
>>8496994
That's E in a spray hehe
>>8497000
thank you
want to watch lord of the rings together or something
>>8497012
the government has tried shutting down ihp like 3 times now at the least looool. qhi is really good tho.
when i got my order from them it was legit a UK prescription product and my friend from london was like "how tf did you get that??"
>>8496982
well that's rude
she was nice and looked 38 tops
>>8496993
Oh
I mean
Cross that bridge when you get there, but i think you're cute and you pass and you barely have any hair right now
So in a couple years youll be fine i bet, yeah
>>8497012
qhi is super duper legit and often use well-known brands like Bayer instead of some random generic Indian stuff
>>8497026
i just think dr z is a butcher and almost all of his clients look like the same ugly blob tbqh no offense
>>8497035
the sameface thing is definitely true
>>8497032
i couldn't tell you. i think it's just not used as much and lesser known. plus they make you sign shit to cover their asses.
i just remember some banks (or credit card companies i think specifically) stopped doing business with ihp or some shit idr. they've basically tried fucking them over a lot.
>>8496948
i'm not telling you to drop this transgroup, but i am telling you that your endo is not very good despite what they say
>>8497035
ty again for telling me about sew ins bb. look at how fast my hair had grown compared to before :3
>>8497013
tfw self medding for adhd 8)
>>8497022
>qhi is really good tho.
That's good to know.
>the government has tried shutting down ihp like 3 times now at the least looool.
:/
tbqh I'm a bit worried that since trans women have such a media spotlight now, at some point there might be a big wave of sensationalism over how we're buying evil dangerous black market drugs, then all the clearnet hrt sites will get shut down.
Hopefully it doesn't come to that though.
>tell plan for self-deprecating practical joke about being a tranny to friend
>would this be a good idea?
>>what would be the joke?
>>8497012
qhi even shipped pills in boxes in my native language to me in w-europe
super legit and super nice company.
accidentally put "mrs" in the info box instead of "mr" and they fixed it when i sent them an email about it
>korra cant get any replies, has to repost the same pic over and over, has to reply to trips to get them to look at his selfie
>>8497038
>>8497049
MOST surgeons don't copy paste the same face on every bitch. dr z is pretty notorious for that tho.
>>8497053
it looks nice!
>>8497058
nah that'll never happen. isn't estrogen like not even a controlled substance anyways?
back in the like... 80s? estrogen wasn't even something you needed a prescription for. so i wouldn't worry much. they don't give a shit about us. most ppl don't lol
>>8497008
Bitchhhhhhhhhh
Kind of same desu
>>8497061
korra is a qt okay
>>8497008
The 2000s was a trash decade full of shit people and shit things. Be an edgy le 90s kid instead much better decade.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=d1eQLw0Nwto
>>8497051
Key...so the new plan is to get Cypro and estrofem.. and/or change the doc.. Idk if that's that easy? To just not go to him anymore and go to another doc? Won't my health insurance birch about it?
>>8497079
my theme song is more https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Gj5L9SYhoSE
>>8497074
I actually really like this decade and the end part of the 2000s. If you remove the alt right meme shit and trump and brexit its almost good! kinda.
also is 50mg a day a good dose for cypro or is that too much/too little?
I miss the 80s
I wasn't alive back then
>>8497061
Sad!
>>8497093
Its fine, pretty standard.
>watery cum
idk if i like this
>>8497097
I dont like the 80s either sorry.
>>8497085
This will always be your theme song in my mind.
https://youtu.be/xl7OtvDKbfM
>>8497093
50 mg is pretty standard. Some people may need less.
>>8497100
50 mg seems like a lot?
>>8497097
I'm kind of stuck in the 80s. Sometimes I feel like I really died back in 86.
>>8497074
I KNOW WERE COOL
that was my favorite album back then
My friend made me a mix cd with like
Most of LAMB and then
https://youtu.be/cFkZDhwqoHg
>tfw lactated proper white milk for the first time tonight too
it tastes like condensed milk btw
>>8497126
Lewd
>>8495573
Beautiful