>be me
>met another guy online around a year ago
>liked him, asked him out even though he lives on the other side of the world
>things were great for at least 9 months
>a little over a year into the relationship
>i can never satisfy him
>always finds a reason to get mad at me
>fucking rude as hell
>ruined all my friendships and seems to be trying to ruin my relationship with my family
>expects to know every single little detail about what's going on in my life but if i ask about his, i'm being clingy apparently
>mfw i still have feelings for him
should i just kill myself?
>>8487523
>killing yourself over an emotionally abusive spouse
Not worth it in the slightest, Anon. It's natural to still possess feelings after a 9 month relationship be it abusive or healthy. Seek a counselor to properly assess any mental damage he could have done so you can prevent it being done in the future and to prevent yourself from dwelling on him to an unhealthy degree.
Family and I had to go through all of this after our father left us, I know what it's like. Keep your head up, I'm rooting for ya.
>>8487523
>he lives on the other side of the world
have you ever actually met him?