ITT: Unexpected HRT changes >Want to cuddle all the time

Sex changed. I expected it to be different but not like this.

>going from fawning over girls hopelessly to this weird need to fucking pounce and succ a cute shy nerdy boy
>wanting to mercilessly tease cute nerdy boy until he cant take it anymore and literally fucks my face

In general its just this lewd craving ive had recently to dom some sub boys and break their fucking brains by edging them forever ughhghghgghhh fuckin kill me i hate feeling so lewd

>>8349372
I don't know if it was from hrt, i am 3 months in. Hated getting touched, kissed, hugged, etc since puberty. My mom hugged me copule days ago and i decided to hug back for some reason, it felt really good. It was like a wave of relieving sensations.

>>8349372
I'm just never into the mood for sex and sometimes I find guys cute but very rarely.

That's it.
Other than cone tits it just made me mildly gay but at same time asexual.
Maybe I need more time.

You know how HRT is supposed to thin out body hair?
It did. On one leg, and not the other. And it's a striking difference.

>>8349384
I don't want you to think I'm just laughing at you but if that's something you can appreciate the absurdity of I'm right there with you!

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>social anxiety up the roof
>constantly freezing
>rock hard nails
>my sweat smells good
>guys are now strangely attractive when they're strong and help you
>better at resisting addictives, except chocolate
>easier to wake up
>angry jealousy of everything all the time
>stronger emotions, while i may cry a lot more now, i'm also happy a lot more

It recently became really easy to make me cry. I actually cried last time my favorite ice cream was sold out. I knew that I was overreacting but I couldn't make it stop for the life of me. Anyone else got this? Also I'm pretty sure my eyes have changed color. It used to be a muddy brown/green mix and now they're really bright green.

I used to get headaches every couple of days almost like clockwork, now maybe once a month. Other than that I think I read up on it enough before hand that most things were expected.

>>8349372
you a cute

>>8349391
>better at resisting addictives except chocolate
My weakness is salty, savory stuff. I'm trying to avoid eating hamburgers and last week I was like shocked and terrified that I had gone six days without one. It felt like an eternity! And then that night I had this wonderful dream where I just ate a hamburger
>stronger emotions, while i may cry a lot more now, i'm also happy a lot more
This so much! And I have more happy cries that make me feel better after I'm done.

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>>8349395
>afterwork
>usually get a ride from guy who drives company car to buy alcohol
>find out he went without me
>feel deep betrayal and cry at the toilet because i now have to walk seven minutes to the store

>>8349372

What does the science say about this? Does HRT cause significant mental changes, or is it more of a placebo, where you THINK they will so you act like it? Perhaps its a combination of both.

My concern is that I'm so cynical about stuff actually working that I can't convince myself of any mental changes occurring. When I was on antidepressants, they did absolutely nothing. I feel like you have to really believe something will change your mindset.

>>8349415
Totally anecdotal here, but I feel like, aside from the emotional changes which are definitely real, it really just let me stop hiding behaviors that I would have done if there hadn't been social pressure against a >guy having them.

>>8349415
Mental changes are a given. My doctor told me about this beforehand but I didn't expect it to be this much.

>>8349415
It affects everyone a bit differently, some more than others.
Honestly I'm not sure what the science says. Lots of people I've talked to don't want to sign off on the idea that the medicine changed the way I think and feel, they just want it to be that I feel more confident and comfortable in my own skin because I'm out.
But I believe myself and the other anons can be sure that we feel different since we started taking hormones, regardless of why that actually is.

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>>8349415
I don't think it's placebo, at least not entirely, I unknowingly took just a third of my required estrogen dosage for two months, didn't notice anything apart from zero libido, tits and slower body hair growth.
Got my levels checked and they corrected my dosage, in two weeks I lost my depression and suddenly had a flow of strong emotions, a lot of my perspectives on my life just changed in a matter of days where I finally understood the extent of how bad I hade actually felt prior and how the things that had made me happy then were shallow superficial nonsense.

>>8349372
>Nothing turns me on
Try this http://disc.yourwebapps.com/Indices/245772.html

>>8349372
<I have a need to cuddle but bad at being physical
>I'm so hungry it's maddening
>Jerk off, again, and feel empty
>Anxiety over any emotions, feel vulnerable when I do express them, so I read from the script.
>And you're ugly to boot
It would be nice if HRT could help with any of this seeing as how embarassing it is just to get treatment.

>>8349438
Yeah, there's no way something as big as sex hormones is going to be entirely placebo. I think most people without an experience like yours would have trouble differentiating which is which though.

>>8349407
My cries are the exact opposite. I feel worse for crying. Uncontrollable. Useless. Like I could just die. I cry very rarely. My last therapist did nothing to alleviate my emotional problems.

>>8349372
>Symptoms of high cortisol levels.

Congrats, you are in the beginning stage of cushings disease.

>>8349415
Hormones affect neurology, the changes are very much real. Its also cumulative, the longer your frame of reference is the hrtd one the more your life will be colored by it.

>>8349831
I've felt this. I definitely think and act differently now than I did 2 years ago.
Estrogen passes the blood brain barrier so of course it affects you.

>>8349415
HRT will definitely make you cry like a bitch, but a lot of the other changes people ascribe to it are nonsense

HRT changed your sexuality? Bullshit

>Take estrogen
>Nothing happens
>Take progesterone
>Suddenly shirtless guys make feel fluttery in my stomach and I can't control it
>Stop taking progesterone
>Become asexual again

So progesterone makes me straight/gay

>>8349910
Androphilic

>>8349895
>HRT changed your sexuality? Bullshit
I had no interest in guys prior, I do now, though I suppose it could've been feelings that existed prior but wasn't comfortable when I wasn't in a clearly female role in regards to them.

>>8349923
Yeah sorry that's what I meant

>>8349936
I just thought it would be helpful to have a word for it that's not dependent on the context of your gender

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Itt: people surprised girl pills made them girls

>>8349967
>Itt: confirmation bias

ftfy tbhon famiglia

>>8349379
I was the same way. I unironically feel like hrt has been good for me psychologically. Like even if I wasn't trans these would still be goo things.

>>8349395
Yeah I almost cried for no reason at work a few days ago. I'm getting really afraid of making a fool of myself but it's whatevs ya know.

>>8349514
Yeah closed that out immediately.

>>8349756
???

>>8349372
Libedo went to shit, but that was expected with the t-blocker.

>>8349415

Hormones definitely change your mental state in some ways. This itself is not controversial. Testosterone can make you more aggression, estrogen more emotional, etc.

However, a lot of people claim that HRT can change their sexuality, make them more attracted to men for instance. And that's possible but impossible as there's really no evidence one way or the other.

>>8350279
Sure stuff like being more aggressive or more emotional is given, but some of the very specific claims in this thread are fucking suspicious.

>>8350288
Name some specific things.

>>8349415
I insisted it was a meme placebo effect for the longest time but then it happened to me too

S2g hrt is turning me male attracted, I'm mtf and now I want to top the shit out of a qt androgynous boy

>>8349910
I'm on bica and estrad, but I keep a thing of progesterone around for when I want to get off (or just in case I come across the opportunity for intimacy)

>Have literally no fetishes now. Nothing turns me on.

This pisses me off so much when I actually have to fap, I want to keep a certain size because I might never get SRS so I try to exercise it one in a while but everything's so boring now. (Even AGP gender-bending stories now give me more dysphoria than arousal.)

Also I've no idea if this is related or what but I've lost almost all interest in vidya, I've kept everything else and I still watch youtube videos like Jerma and stuff but I can't care enough to play them now.

>>8349372
I started leaking boob milk when i sleep

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>>8349372
>Slightly submissive, mostly asexual robot before hrt
>Super attracted to women and very submissive after.
>After sex drive tanks it comes back with a vengeance
>It gets worse when I start taking progesterone
>Sex drive is directly connected to food. If I eat more, it reduces my need for sex. If I try to not eat as much my sex drive is almost unbearable.
>cold so goddamn easily now.
>DayLight is almost painful now. Even on Cloudy days I have to wear sunglasses
>Headaches from childhood are gone now.
>Can make myself cry unbelievably easy now.
>Easier for me to be mean to people.
>Cute things light up a circuit in my brain that interrupts any thoughts or emotions currently happening
>Leg and underarm hair is basically nonexistant
>Looking at certain kinds of porn illicits a sort of sensory overload. Like orgasm but not. I have to stop touching myself or looking at whatever Im looking at because its very intense.
>Smells drive me insane sometimes. Peoples body odor can really bother (i.e. make me nauseous) me especially if they are sweaty or dirty. Male body odor now bothers me on a fundamental level most of the time.
>Food influences my mood very easily. I can be super depressed or angry but if I eat a thing it can make me feel so much better.

>>8353471
>sensory overload
do you also start shaking almost uncontrollably?
iktf

>>8353327
im pre hrt and ive been doing thats for years

>>8353471
I can really relate to these. Now that I think of it HRT makes me feel alot like how I did as a kid. I wonder if I just had high E growing up. Maybe that's what turns people into trannies.

>>8353593
Thats not healthy bro, you might have prolactinoma

>>8353662
If only there was less political correctness in the world so we could find out why we are like we are.

>>8353471
the "orgasm" thing is exactly what I get. I get all warm and I curl up into a ball and moan uncontrollably. This can literally happen even if I am just thinking about sex in bed, I rarely get the urge to masturbate though, this warm feeling is enough to satisfy me

>>8353662
I have the same feeling, I feel a lot like I did when I was a kid just with more fluttery happy feelings and like more mental maturity

>>8353852
THIS. this bothers me so much

>>8352882
How's it been on bica and estrad? That's what I plan on taking, I've been on bica but now I can afford both

>>8349895
Some people's sexuality is based on how they see themselves, so HRT can easily change sexuality in certain cases.

>>8353865
I thought I was weird but its good to see im not alone in that.

>>8349910
yeah progesterone plays a big role in female libido there is research on the matter

>>8354361
Maybe gays' parents had high progesterone while carrying their children, or the children had some linger in their blood during developmental years. I honestly really would like some scientists to study the causes of transgenderism and homosexuality. It would be nice to have an opt out pill especially if you're mtf. Being a tranny fucking sucks, no matter what feeling policing sjw's say, the world would be better off without us.

>>8353662
more to do with serotonin, I became more emotional when I got on ADs could laugh and cry like a child again

>>8354383
well there is a theory that hormonal imbalance in the womb affects it, hence there is higher chance the second son will be gay/trans cause mothers body develops more estrogen on the second pregnancy

and there is high correlation with all signs of estrogen exposure in MTfs (like the finger ratio)

>>8354405
I wish I could just donate my body to science. Like kill myself but leave a note saying I want my body to be used for research into curing transgenderism.

>>8354405
>tfw second "son" with a >1 finger ratio
thanks mom('s uterus)

>>8349895
I used to be disgusted by men, now I prefer them

>>8349372
I'm kind of confused, because my libido actually shot through the roof about a month in. I don't jack, but I've sure humped my pillow to near exhaustion this past week

>>8354583
However, before hormones, I also had 0 drive my whole life.

>>8353471
>Male body odor now bothers me on a fundamental level most of the time.
I'm cis les and I feel the same way. If I can smell a man I'm disgusted by it. Apparently straight women like that smell.

>>8354674

I heard somewhere that if you like the scent of someone's BO, you have compatible genes. No idea how valid that is

>>8354359
how could something that feels good be weird?

>>8354674
I'm mtf and after hormones the male smell makes me go crazy, I love it

>>8353471
>DayLight is almost painful now.
this is just getting ridiculous now

estrogen does not affect your eyesight

you believe it does because of confirmation bias

>>8354910
It feels good but its a strange feelio.

>>8354674
Shit really? At work I now have to be in close proximity to some men and their odor is intense and disgusting

>>8354980
Dude eyes are like the first thing that changes on estrogen. It changes the eye shape which in turn affects vision. Idk so much about sensitivity to light though

>>8355473
how can it disgust you??? it turns me on so much

>>8353662
That sounds more like it's caused by a lack of T rather than an abundance of E, then.

>>8356845
how can it turn you on??? it disgusts me so much

>>8356966
Different anon, but I get really turned on by the smell of men when I'm really close to them. It turns my brain to mush too.

>>8355593
Interesting. I thought my eyes looked kinda different since I started hormones but I thought that was just all skin and fat distribution. But it makes sense that hormones could affect the eye itself as well

>>8349910
Progesterone helps with the release of dopamine, transgirls taking hrt should really look into progesterone, dopamine makes you horny.

I realized I was getting adrenal fatigue lately only I forgot that progesterone is a precursor to cortisol and other adrenal hormones.
I should add I've been taking B vitamins/ magnesium and I still managed to get adrenal fatigue.

Did some more research and found out cypro blocks ATCH, that is the chemical your brain releases when stressed that triggers the release of cortisol, ohh and did I mention that cortisol is what increases in girls when aroused because it increases dopamine production, explains why girls tend to get horny while high on progesterone just before their period.

Anyway, I fixed the adrenal fatigue with a cortisol nasal spay and popped down an old progesterone pill and worked almost instantly.

>>8356991
I'm not disputing it just the incredulity that someone could be different

>>8356883
meh it is what it is. I just feel better overall is the point.

>>8357003
>Anyway, I fixed the adrenal fatigue with a cortisol nasal spay and popped down an old progesterone pill and worked almost instantly.

I should also add I got horny as fuck and felt like I was on amphetamines.

>>8356991
agghh iktf

>>8353852
what do you mean?

>>8355593
>It changes the eye shape
are you sure? sounds like bs

>>8354980
If you say so, chief. I know what I felt though.
I was a bit sensitive to light before but now it went up. I dont know what to tell you.

>>8353560
>do you also start shaking almost uncontrollably?
Not quiet. I usually stop looking at what Im looking at before it gets too intense. I have started shaking a little before once

>>8354674
>I'm cis les and I feel the same way. If I can smell a man I'm disgusted by it. Apparently straight women like that smell.
, though.

Oh thank god. I thought there was something wrong with me.

>>8357138
It can change curvature of the lens, hardly the shape though.

>>8349378
God that's hot

>>8357121
The insistence "that there is nothing wrong with trans people and your bigoted if you think there is" is preventing research that could tell us, why we are like we are, what is wrong with us to cause this, and how can we better fix it.

>>8357924
m80 there's a ton of research about this shit..

>>8357935
Not really and most of it is poorly conducted.

>>8358221
Yes really, and it is far better than anything that came before it. Not perfect by any means but we're moving ahead. There's no imaginary bogeyman holding science back.

>>8357924
>and how can we better fix it.
If by fix you mean stop the gender dysphoria so you could be happy as your birth sex, I think a lot of us wouldn't even want that. I know I didn't because living life as my birth sex seemed inconceivable.
The "better fix" is early transitioning I think.

>>8358226
I'd rather be a trans woman then a cis man too, more research could mean better drugs so we pass better, better surgerys so we pass better, and make drugs or therapy so were more happy with our parts of our body that mean we don't pass as good.

>>8358223
Could you point me in the general direction of this research then, it would be interesting for me to read this. And would be helpful when explaining my transgenderism to normies.

>>8358239
Yes, do research to make it easier to be who we are.

>>8358255
Adding to my own post, I think the issue of physical differences in trans people is under researched. A lot of MtFs seem to be physically less masculine/more feminine than their birth sex peers. That was definitely true for me. So I think for a lot of us there's more going on than just the brain, and this should be researched more.

>>8358288
That could be down to more masculine transwomen, being more likely to be shut-ins, more likely to an hero, or more likely to repress, as they think they don't have a chance in passing. So it could be a dead end of research. But then again transwomen have a more feminised brain, so I wouldn't be supprised if we have a more feminised body. I definety think there's more to gender then just your xy or xx chromosome

>>8358288
>>8358396
Im obviously not a scientist but I have a theory that being trans is a kind of "lesser" intersex condition.
Taking into account the prevalence of transpeople with some form of autism or adhd, I feel like it may be a corruption on the genetic level thats linked to whatever markers turn on autism. Something that can happen on its own but has a decent probability of activating these other markers.
Maybe its a collection of intersex genes that when activated in certain sequences determine what degree you are intersex and thats how theres is the link to certain mental conditions forming?
It would explain how a Bailey Jay can ( most likely) have kleinfelters and transition but someone else who has it wouldn't want to.
Again, Im just shooting in the dark. Im no scientist but Id love to get answers to stuff like this.

>>8358288
>and this should be researched more
I really agree here, but I don't think people are happy to give research grants to scientists studying gender at this point in time. I feel like there might be some kind of sure-fire way to diagnose dysphoria using MRI

>>8358813
>theory that being trans is a kind of "lesser" intersex condition.
Lots of trannies want to be intersex. It makes their condition feel more valid. But unfortunately, there is no evidence to back any of it up.

>>8358813
>a Bailey Jay can ( most likely) have kleinfelters
Source? I thought she was just mtf.

>>8358876
M-muh brain scans tho!

>>8358899
Not even mtf. Just agp.

>>8358876
>there is no evidence to back any of it up.
I know that. Thats why its a theory. Id love to research it and maybe do some gene comparison of transpeople, cis people, and people with intersex conditions to see if there is a link.

>>8358899
>Source? I thought she was just mtf.
I was suspicious of this back when I was in college since I listened to alot of her podcasts and the stuff about her childhood sounded odd. So I showed pictures of Bailey and presented some of the stuff id heard to one of the professors in the biology department of my school ( I knew her from my local gaming store and apparently she did her masters thesis on intersex conditions). She said she couldn't be 100% without tests but it looked like she is intersex to her.
Thats not exactly concrete evidence but it convinced me.
She also called me weird for doing this but its whatever. Boredom makes you do dumb shit.

>>8358980
>the stuff about her childhood sounded odd.
What stuff?

>She also called me weird for doing this
Normies huh.

I wish theses were all online so I could read all the intersex ones. There must be a lot.

>>8358931
>Not even mtf.
>Just agp.

>>8359018
>What stuff?
Apparently she never virilized properly. Like she looked like a 9 year old into high school.
She didnt get onto a proper hormone regimen until she was in her late teens/ early 20s and even then she didnt stay on them for more than a year. Her body also acted weird on hormones. If you compare her penis from earlier in her career to it now it looks significantly different. Different for someone that mostly gets fucked. Theres other stuff but I dont have the info right infront of me right now.

>>8359037
like non-trans agp. Bailey said she never had dysphoria and doesn't really identify as transgender.

>>8359109
And yet she still looks better than 95 to 99% of all trannies. Based.

>>8349372
>Went from transbian who thinking guys are digusting to a cock lusting slut that need a daddy dom
>Lose nearly all attraction to women
>Get turned on easier, subsequently leak precum more

>>8359109
Proof that you don't need to be dysphoric to transition.

If she's happier having transitioned and fits in as a girl then she's trans.

>>8357908
It's pure suffering ;-; my levels might be off cause I have had a legit sex drive and constant erections. But i want to just torture a cute boy and not use my gt why god why

>>8359938
I'm an mtf that's only be on mones for a couple weeks, you can torture me if you want.

>>8349407
>cravings for salty foods
You on spiro?
If so that's probably why.

>>8357138
I don't know if it's BS or not, but I read before that testosterone causes the area above your eye to be more puffy, which might make someone's eye shape look different.

>>8349391
>>rock hard nails
Is that something that HRT actually provably does? And are women's nails actually harder than men's?

Because I've always had extremely hard nails. Compared with my habit of leaving them slightly long and I've scratched quite a few people in high school, especially if they were aggressive towards me. Some other boys tried getting me nicknamed "cat" but it never really stuck, which is a shame since it's a nick I wouldn't mind having.

>>8349395
>>8350105
I've literally made myself cry walking around the city by thinking of sad things, usually sad stuff from history. I must've looked quite a sight - just walking down the street with my eyes full of tears and some of them rolling down my cheeks.

>>8360790
What were the sad thoughts, personal and not?

>>8360436
Yeah, I am, I've heard Spiro does that but only after I noticed it myself.

>>8360824
Oh, nothing that serious, that's what made it even worse. I'm little bit of a history geek so I was thinking about Eastern front in World War Two and all the genocides and massacres there and I suddenly got so emotional I literally started crying as I was walking down the street.

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>Suddenly bothered by the fact that my bedroom walls are bare
Is this a thing

>>8360837
That is understandable even if it wouldn't be enough to cry over for many people. And the personal ones?

>>8360850
hahahah thats funny i wanna put up posters and stuff now. I actually care about making my space look nice :)

>>8361054
Yes, exactly! Posters!
I had something of a decorating itch before but bare walls didn't bother me as much.

>>8360850
Oh god me too. Must resist temptation to buy useless shit that only makes it more difficult to move.

>>8357138
>>8357170
It changes the shape of the cornea so it is easier to focus close. I've had over 2 diopters change so far, and I know I need to get them checked again.

Also my eyes went from vivid blue with green and amber spots, and green rings to near fully black with a tiny bit of blue for awhile. Now they have shifted to gray, and I think I'm going to get the rings back. They are still very thin, but it is more than a few months ago. You can see where the spots were because they are now smooth areas with no stripes.

Same

>>8349378
>wanting to mercilessly tease cute nerdy boy until he cant take it anymore and literally fucks my face
Fucking perfect

>>8359109
>Citation Needed.

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>>8361054
>>8361071
>>8361072
bare walls are not cozy!!

>>8361568
My eye colour changed too, lightened a bit and more grey-green than blue now.

Pigment changes are pretty normal, I've noticed my hair getting more coppery, like it used to be before puberty when it darkened a lot.

>>8362314
my eyes went from a kind of average green to a vibrant emerald green

fuckin weird shit

>>8362329
Jelly!

Pretty sure estrogen just generally lightens stuff, I know my sister's hair went brown > red during puberty.

>>8362336
How do you know, I've got the bluest eyes out of anyone I know right now. Does that mean I'm going to have models eyes after being on hrt for a few months

>>8359543
>leak precum more
Is this also an effect of HRT? Nowadays I leak precum like crazy but my actual orgasms are generally weaker, it's like half of the strength leaks out before the big act.

>>8349372
>Unexpected HRT changes
People find me attractive, who knew

>>8365481
Wow, must be nice. All I get is weird looks.

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>>8362329
>>8361568
>>8349395
>>8362314
>>8362329
>my eyes changed color
How is that even possible?

>>8366439
The body is more plastic than we thought decades ago.

Did you know the thickness of the cartilage pads between the bones are thinner in women than men? They can even change thickness when you go on cross sex hormones. This is part of how people can shorten or gain height on hrt.

I was blond until boy puberty made my hair brown, then on hrt my hair is turning blond again

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>Love salty foods cos spiro.
>Massive appetite.
>Strength drained away so much immediately after staring spiro and E it was scary but now I'm used to it.
>Pic related. Arousal now starts and spreads in the chest and makes my entire body just long to "be" with someone as opposed to being solely in my benis. So much better and so much rarer.
>Sense of smell is more intense (I always knew smoking smelt "bad" by what other people told me but never had a problem with it until I started HRT. Now it's noxious and absolutely horrible).
>World is more vibrant and I'm a lot happier when I don't even have a reason.
>Fixed one of my eyelids drooping lower than the other and making one eye look smaller, now they both look normal.
>Want to cuddle all the time and began hugging my dog when I rub her tummy.
>Fetishes went from absolutely degenerate to lovey dovey romance with a hint of me giving my bf some gentle femdom.
>People I see everyday haven't noticed anything except "better skin" but people I haven't seen in 3 years don't even recognize me until I tell them who I am. Only 5 months on HRT.
>2 year old nephew keeps calling me mom and some kids call me a girl but adults mostly know I'm a guy so I guess there's a difference in perception there. I suspect it's just the long hair though.

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>>8362314
This. So this is an old pic and I know I'm nowhere near passing, but my eyes turned silver.

>>8360850

I don't know if you've played Metal Gear Solid 2, but the main protagonist's, Raiden's, bare room is mentioned during a conversation with his girlfriend where she mentions she was so disturbed by the lack of anything in it. The point was that he was traumatized by his experience as a child soldier and emotionally repressed. That conversation bothered me because I felt it was talking to me since I was also emotionally repressed and I had no interest in decorating my room. Though his case was more extreme because it was just a bed and a chair in his room, I think.

>>8349967
Do people on 4chan ever say "fuck off Kayla" to you

>>8364947
Try getting into anal more. You'll have earth shattering orgasms if you do it right.

>>8366806
That is interesting that this might not be a "girls lurv to deckerate" thing but more of a "I don't feel like shit anymore so I'm less afraid to express myself" thing
I'm sorry the game made you feel so self-conscious about what must have been a tender subject for you!

>>8357082
W-where do y-you get this stuff Cypro killed my libido.

>>8366806
i feel like you could have a room like that just for being really autistic tho

>>8349372
how on earth were these "unexpected" changes. are you new to this board?

>>8366439
not sure but i know eye color is melanin related and testosterone boosts melanin

>>8362265
i think its in a video on youtube where she's talking about some Queer porn venture, i remember her saying something like that. theres quite a few of her interview vids on youtube so if youre that curious just go watch them

>>8369594
Bump

I don't want to be friends with my closest friend anymore; I think I like him in a different way now but I don't know how to say it without ruining our friendship.

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>>8349372
this.
all the this.

what's more, i love being like this.
being a guy & thinking like a guy fucking sucked

>pic unrelated, but still funny

>>8371769
Suck his dick

>>8366806
>I was also emotionally repressed and I had no interest in decorating my room
i did this too. Is this a tranny thing?

>>8371798
>being a guy & thinking like a guy fucking sucked
this Tbh fAm.

A cat jumped out in front of me while I was taking the trash out at night and I totally involuntarily let out a little scream. I never did that before lmao

>>8374899
Maybe? I'm a tranny and the decoration of my room is piles of clothes and bullshit
I had a car bed until last year because of not giving a shit and my parents finally replaced it

youre all so fucking cute and make me wanna start hrt sooner

>>8374899
I did I too. I'm a mtf. Is this a new eggspotting thing? Bare room and doesn't care to decorate it.

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>>8366806
>>8374899
>>8375385
>>8377858
Im mtf and Im the complete opposite. I've always loved decorating and I can't stand a bare room. For a while I even worked as a set decorator for film.

>>8378024
Did you ever hard repress those feeling? We're you allowed to express the femininity?
I know I was a hard represser, so maybe that's the difference?

>>8378024
>mtf

you sound like a fag, no offense

>>8378040
oh trust me I repressed my femininity hard. however that didnt stop me from always having the walls of my room decorated. of course, my tastes have changed from movie and video game posters as a teenager to aesthetically pleasing artwork and color palettes now in my mid twenties.

>>8378052
um HOW DARE YOU ??

>>8378076
I guess only some trans people don't decorate growing up then.

>>8378090
yeah idk, looking at this thread it seems like Im the weird exception to the rule.

>>8378090
What would you consider decorate?
Are young boys supposed to do it or is it a faggy thing?

>>8378209
My walls were literally bare, and I had no want to put anything in it, my room had a bed, a desk, a chair, and a chest of draws. That's what I mean by don't decorate.

>>8378244
this. And I'm still like this now although I'm trying to get better. The only thing that can be considered decoration is the four 60-inch 4k monitors that I have tucked into a corner with a mess of wires and computer towers. The whole rest of my room is bare.

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>When I see someone/a lewd scenario I like, I get powerful butterflies in my stomach.
>I'm a lot easier to frighten now. I've jumped so many times just from someone quietly walking into the same room I'm in.
>The urge to find a partner has become unbearable. Almost every day I become a pathetic sobbing mess because desperately want someone to cuddle with.

>>8378287
I feel like I was into decorating before but I had been pretty comfortable with my walls being bare. And for that last couple of years before I started HRT I painted them white. I was trying to do a white and gold thing; I bought a brass coat rack and a couple of mirrors with fancy bronze-colored frames, but it was extremely sparse decorating. It was only focused on a few small areas and items, and mostly it was deliberately blank, empty space

>>8378997
Ok. What exactly would you consider as decorating? Hanging posters and stuff?

Is it normal for guys to not do it or are we expected to do so?
I'm legit curious about the second one, since the closest my brother has ever been to "decorating" would the time when he wanted to hang a poster. I personally have always been ok with bare walls. I did put some stickers on my door but I eventually removed them because I grew out of that.

>>8379126
I'm just saying I didn't really want anything on my walls before and now I do. It was an aspect of decorating, let's say, that I was content to neglect.
I wouldn't have said that was "a boy thing," that's why suddenly wanting to hang up posters in my bedroom a few months into HRT came as such a surprise to me.
Also the other day the living room looked different to me, like the first thing I noticed was the negative space between all the furniture and it seemed much more prominent to me than it ever had before. So I do think it's a matter of my perception changing here, and not just losing my inhibitions about wanting to put girly shit everywhere

>>8378919
>When I see someone/a lewd scenario I like, I get powerful butterflies in my stomach.
I know this, so much. I get what feels like an adrenaline rush when I see something particularly arousing.

>Despite the fact that I'm not fulltime, when do the 'bro nod' at random dudes while walking, they smile back
>Men smell so good (assuming they don't smell like bad BO). Being next to a clean, good-smelling man will in the elevator will have me wired all day.
>Alcohol tolerance is shit. I used to be able to drink half a bottle of jack with no ill effects. Nowadays? One drink and I'm tipsy. Two and I'm drunk. Three and I'm wasted. Also, hangovers are the worst now.
>Lower eyelashes. I only realized this because everything happens on the left side of my body first. So, for a while, I had thick dark lower eyelashes on only one eye.
>Erections hurt. If I go too long without getting an erection (which is easy to do now), the next time I do is pretty painful.
>Arousal went from physical to emotional. Before, I could see a hole in the ground and get a boner. Now, I can be surrounded by hot people, and nothing. But I see a hot guy do something romantic? Diamonds. (Painful...painful diamonds)
>Sweat. I no longer smell when I sweat. I could wear the same shirt for weeks and it won't smell like BO.
>Freckles. I used to just burn or tan when I went in the sun. Now, I get freckles. Which is actually pretty cute when I get them on my face.

>>8349372

>Everything is cute
>Want to hug the fuck out of cute things

Well, you have a mental illness. That isn't normal.

>>8379351
What's this smell meme? I'm FtM and even pre-T I smelt like a goat drenched in sewer water after sweating. Estrogen wasn't a magic deodorant (for me at least)

>>8380793
Everyone's natural hormone levels are a little different and HRT can affect different people in different ways.
Just in this thread there are plenty of posts from people who were already experiencing things pre-HRT that for other people only kicked in after they started hormones.
There are other stories of HRT causing things for some anons that it ended for other people.

ITT: Hon science