Why haven't I ended my life yet? No matter how hard I try,

>>8260046
iktf I have opes some miracle will happen and I pass as an ugly girl but I doubt it. If I finally save up enough for ffs and after a year I still can't pass I'm just going to kill myself.

>>8260084
>hopes*

>>8260046
I know why I haven't. everyone is different anon, but I'll tell you and hope maybe my solution can help you a little.

I'm pissed. I'm fucking pissed. I fantasize about earning enough money to buy my fundamentalist christian parents a new house in their old age, waiting for them to move in and living there with them until they die, manufacturing perfect sounding excuses to shave my mother's head and throw out their favorite foods and burn their favorite insect-infested pieces of clothing which I have smeared honey on and set by an anthill and exact a thousand painful little sufferings on them for what they did to me, while I smile and watch them piss and shit on themselves in their old age. they can live out the rest of their miserable lives without inflicting any more needless suffering on any human being. that's what keeps me going in the morning, anon. I am so fucking mad that I want them to experience the same hell they're putting my dementia ridden grandfather through, except in a brand new house.

>>8260129
That is a terrifying revenge plot. One I can fully respect. Do it, anon. I'd do the same for my dad if I gave enough of a shit to do that, I'd just shoot him in the head as it stands tho.

>>8260129
I really like your fantasy anon and I hope you achieve it

>>8260046
>>8260084
>>8260129
>not mentally ill