How do you cope knowing you had a boyhood and never a girlhood?

I didn't had a boyhood though. Played mostly with other girls. Puberty was what destroyed everything from then I was a teenager and I was not suppose to play with girls the way I did before. It was sad moment for my life that I never recovered from.

But yeah my childhood was awesome and I have lots of great memories.

>>8242747
I didn't really have one though, it was too broken to count it as one.

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>>8242747

That picture is so cute.

>>8242747

Childhood was horrific for me, boys bullied me because I was soft, girls didn't want to play because I was a boy and my mom's boyfriend physically abused me so I would become more manly.


Fuck society.

>>8245099
>my mom's boyfriend physically abused me so I would become more manly
What did he do?

>>8245171

When I was 5 he pinned me down when I was asleep and put his hands over my mouth and nose and counted to 20 very slowly. I tried to fight him but he just hit me when I did and counted slower and with more numbers; I nearly passed out
He would also give me arm burns (like the twisting ones) all the time until I caved or didn't react.
One time he put a scorching hot teabag on my palm and made me hold it. When I dropped it because it was too hot he picked it up and said no it isn't "don't be a baby" "don't be like a girl"
I told my mom what he was doing and she didn't believe me, and he came into my room one night to "punish" me. If I remember he said "If you ever tell your mom again I'll have to teach you a lesson" or something like that whilst he was on top of me again when I was asleep. I tried to scream but he put his hand on my mouth again and made me another threat not to scream or he wouldn't leave.
I became terrified of him whenever he was around as well as being shy and timid because of it. I remember he had this peppermint aftershave and I still get panic attacks when I smell ones like it.
The entire reason I repressed myself for so long and became a asshole was because of him, he did the same thing to his own son so I think he's just a grade A cunt.

>>8245325
> he pinned me down when I was asleep and put his hands over my mouth

I think this would have further my descent into developing more fetishes related to BDSM. :-\

My brother does this exact same shit under the disguise of manning me up. He still does to some extent. I think it leads me to like shit like domination and bondage even though the latter developed very early in my childhood when I used to want to be the criminal in cops and robbers games because they got to wear the handcuffs.

>>8242747
Whenever I think back to when i was younger I see a girl of varying ages.
I dont mean this as some kind of new age, self esteem, mental gymnastics bullshit either. Thats actually what my brain sees(the human psyche does weird shit to protect itself) so I never really had to cope with having a boyhood instead of a girlhood so much as having to deal with having a fucked up, tomboyish girlhood that dissolved into shit as I got older.

>>8245938
>a fucked up, tomboyish girlhood that dissolved into shit as I got older.
Explain?

Be mtf
>never had girlhood
>no male priviledge/socialization
Pick one

>>8246222
>male priviledge

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Memes aside, if one thing legit ruined my childhood it was being trans.
Like, it was fine then, not perfect, had weird self-esteem issues I couldn't understand the source of (thought I was ugly, really didn't like my name, not wanting to be in photographs), but overall I was a normal kid.
But now in hindsight it's like the one big jarring thing I can't acknowledge in social situations, even for people who know I'm trans I will not show pics of me being a boy or tell of what I did as a boy because it's dysphoric as fuck.
Being with a gang of girls and they start getting nostalgic and really enthusiastic for something you never experienced (ponies, dolls, princesses) is really alienating.

>>8246222
I think I'd take the girlhood over male privilege. Am I weird?

>>8246504
No because male privilege isn't real.

>>8246076
When i was really little I played with other girls in my neighborhood and for all intents and purposes knew I was a girl in my head. At some point I got told (more than likely by my mom or brother) that I couldnt play with the girls. We moved and then i started playing with the kids there. we played football and rode bikes and stuff but it was never really boy centric so I had no reason to believe other wise except occasional subtle reminders from my mom (that continued on into my 20s.). Eventually puberty started and I fell into deep depression for the next, I dont know 15 ish years?

I'm almost an adult and have recently come to terms with being trans. I often mourn not ever being the boy I always envisioned myself as. It's completely devastating, and it's something I cannot change, rewrite, or fix.

>>8249645
Well, men do get paid more in the workforce than women do, I've seen this first head with some of my co-workers.

>>8255504
Because men work harder and seek promotion.

>>8242747
Hey just saying you could be happy for having a childhood at all. Be thankful you didn't end in some 3rd world shit hole working in a sweatshop at age 4 for your family

and you never will have a womanhood, only a trannyhood
sad

>>8255512

Bullshit. That is bullshit. Men are completely capable of being useless shits as any women.

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>>8255637
Transwomen are still women so "trannyhood" still counts as a womanhood. As a Doctor, I can confirm this to be true.

>>8255695
Sure and women are capable of being as useful as men. Don't mean many are.

>>8255753
You clearly lack any real world experience. Not surprising from somebody who posts on 4chan.org though.

>>8255768
Not an argument.

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>>8255772
Would you like to present a counter-argument which disproves that anon's point?

>>8255772
It was never an argument. You clearly lack any real world experience to engage in one.

>>8255775
>I was only pretending to be retarded
Nice try but >>8255695 was obviously an attempt to prove me wrong.

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Can we agree that the white race has the best looking lolis?

>super awkward
>cried a lot
>got beaten a lot
>got abused a lot
>got raped a lot
My childhood was a lot of desperately trying to be one of the boys because every time I tried to be myself everyone hated me

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>>8255784
You haven't posted anything correct that can be proven wrong.

>>8255807
>>>/pol/

I was thinking about this earlier and it's crushing, I never got to have the childhood playing as a princess or the edgy phase as a teenager or any of the other stuff. I'm just stuck living a depressingly shit life where I grew up with almost exclusively males, I'm awkward around females and I look extremely masculine.

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>>8258381
here's a hint: all life is depressingly shit

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>>8255807

>>8259017
>He thought this was funny
wtf?

>>8259231
The canvas beckoned me what can I say.

>>8258381
There's nobody stopping you from reliving some of your childhood now. People are more tolerant nowadays. I've witnessed it and I am a conservative cisgender male.

I guess I am starting to reflect on my views the more money I acquire. I am a selfish asshole.

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>>8242747
>How do you cope knowing you had a boyhood and never a girlhood?
Lots of tears.

>>8261207
You turn evil as a hon?!

>>8260112
kys m8

>>8242747
Count yourself lucky you had a childhood for starters. I never had one and many others never did either.

>>8261468
Have you attempted to fix this?

>>8261386
>>8261207
How does one become a book?

>>8265196
I'm old now, and people expect me to act it. The only way way it really manifests itself in my life now is I want to see others have fun. It's made me want to find friends and build those connections, and perhaps a bit more distressingly, want to baby my partner abit and try to fit her into a playmate role (playing games and watching toons together) that she didn't want to be in. Be careful of pathologizing a partner in the same way.

>>8261468
Why didn't you have a childhood anon?

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>>8265775
> I'm old now, and people expect me to act it.

It's 2017.

>How do you cope knowing you had a boyhood and never a girlhood?

Mostly cry.

>>8265802
I just had to grow up quick. I had a mentally ill single mother and we were homeless, living in a condemned building . I never got to meet with children my own age all the way until highschool, where I was older than my peers. Everyone I grew up around were bearded old men, so as you imagine, when I was in HS I acted like one, and was far behind mentally. However I had an older brother, and for that I'm thankful, but the early years where we fought and hid food from each other still weighs heavily on me, because I was willing to hurt my own kin.

If you lacked a girlhood(if you're OP), I think if you found a partner who indulged you and let you live out part of that, it could be a very beautiful thing. At least I think so and I yearn to see an adult have some of that innocent fun. It's just, as I said I think you should be careful to not pathologize your partner or see it as a need. In the end we're adults now and what's gone is gone, but if life permits, you can find abit of that innocent joy you misses out on if. I hope at least. Hope OP gets to live that out somehow.

>>8266899
Doc up here, >>8266136, is right. It's 2017 and there is nothing wrong with somebody relieving aspect of their childhood they never had. If someone complains they most likely have autism anyway.

>>8266899
>I think if you found a partner who indulged you and let you live out part of that, it could be a very beautiful thing.
This so much.

I had to straight up deal with it due to religious views from both my family and myself, internalized anti-LGBT views, and lack of knowledge for several years. It was around 10 when I realized this and began to not give a shit about life.

I'll admit that I made a post a couple months back about others complaining about not having a girlhood of sorts, and I think that comes from me, despite having a few moments, not having a "complete" girlhood and hating myself and denying the facts for several years. It was probably the most assholish post I've made on here because a lot of trans people have these same thoughts, and shaming them for it and telling them to grow up made me look hypocritical.

>>8271112
> due to religious views from both my family and myself
You should have made sure that your family took their autism meds.

>>8255773
>>8257879
>>8266136
Reminder: these autistic shitposts are made by a literal retard 26yo MTF who waited 8 years to start transitioning out of sheer incompetence.

>>8276340
The term is "questioning"

>>8276340
You seem quite upset, TGcomix.

>>8276361
You shit up /tv/ with this dumb shit too. Fuck off.

>>8278060
Are you triggered?

This makes me cry, OP.