Anyone else want to transition but never come out? I have a bunch of guys who know I'm part gay, and a few were joking and asked me "if anyone at work came out as trans, who do you think it would be"? Only to answer there own question with "you". Like, abunch of people, and even my uncle, suspect it. Last time he saw me he said "what's her name?", And I said - I don't have any girls right now - and he said "not what I'm talking about". And then my boss at work said "you look pretty", half joking (because I bleached my hair), and some other guy I play poker with said I remind him of Jenner. Like, am I just being paranoid, or am I sending mega signals?
Oh yea, and I just feel like life would be so much easier to never come out even after I start transitioning (if I go through with it). Sorry I'm alittle sparatic or whatever.
>>8135001
>Last time he saw me he said "what's her name?", And I said - I don't have any girls right now - and he said "not what I'm talking about".
whoa. really like this one tbdesu.
>>8135202
i like how it's kinda ambiguous too. is that really what he meant? even op isn't sure!
>>8135202
>sounds like no one in your life would really care if you did come out...
I'm not even sure if that's what it's about for me, it's more like never getting past that feeling that I'm not even a real girl. I feel like some sort of in-betweener, and transitioning publicly would just leave me feeling excluded becouse I know how they're viewed in society. Like, it would just be so much easier to just take hormones and keep going on as I have. I have a really amazing job, and the owners are more like family than my real family. I wouldn't want to disappoint them. And I'm pretty sure the girls who work here don't see it as a legitimate thing, so I would be viewed as some fetishist freak.
>>8135701
>it's more like never getting past that feeling that I'm not even a real girl. I feel like some sort of in-betweener, and transitioning publicly would just leave me feeling excluded becouse I know how they're viewed in society. Like, it would just be so much easier to just take hormones and keep going on as I have
This hits close to home
>>8135022
I legit 'd'awwed' out loud.