So for a long time I wanted to be a girl and thought about it a decent amount but I never experienced dysphoria at least if I did I didn't notice or it wasn't that bad. About a year ago I started to think about how I'm not a girl/how I want to be a girl literally everyday and I honestly feel like shit all the time now. Sometimes it gets really bad and I think maybe I should just kill myself. This is dysphoria right? I don't know why this would happen now after 20 years.
>>8039294
"Dysphoria" and "trans" are descriptive. By definition feeling bad because you're not the other sex is dysphoria.
It doesn't necessarily mean you should transition.
Being trans/dysphoric can start later in one form than the earlier form. This has been called "late onset" vs "early onset".
>>8039294
fairly normal
if it's getting worse act on it asap, qhi.co.uk
>>8039294
This happened to me. Often "what if I was trans" or "I wish I was a girl" passed through my head but I just ignored it since being trans seems so difficult. After telling my therapist I didn't feel comfortable being a guy in general and specifically having a penis, she was like "hey anon have you thought about transitioning " and then I thought about it, came out to my mom and cried without realizing how serious this actually was to me. Accepted I want to be a grill and now feel more dysphoria than ever. I am working hard to start hrt and other trans related shit but it still feels bad.
I'm in a similar position. I've thought a lot about how I might prefer to be a girl yet the while process of transitioning + keeping up with female beauty standards just seems too difficult and overwhelming to me.
>>8040571
What you need is a magic button to instantly turn you into a pretty cis girl.