Find my cam porn edition
Also Saki Mang feels thread
• Informed consent providers: dead link
• Makeup for beginners: http://masterposter.tumblr.com/post/116605714860
• Male vs Female measurement data: https://www.bwc.ohio.gov/downloads/blankpdf/ErgoAnthropometricData.pdf
• Correct hormone levels: http://www.hemingways.org/GIDinfo/hrt_ref.htm
• Checking your levels: http://www.privatemdlabs.com/lp/Female_Hormone_Testing.php
• Size charts: http://www.americanapparel.net/sizing/default.asp?chart=womens.pantse_conversion_chart.php
• Transition time lines: http://imgur.com/a/qWpxv
• Voice Training: https://www.reddit.com/r/asktransgender/comments/1ske7b/mtf_voice_training_regimen/
• Voice Help: http://webjedi.net/projects/lgbtq/speech-therapy/
• IRC: https://www.rizon.net/chat#mtfg
Old Thread: >>8000091
>>8001223
1st for capitalism
suck it gommies
Daily reminder that MtF are men and there's literally nothing wrong with being a tranny instead of a woman.
Learn self-acceptance.
>>8004190
we're both trannies and women. and that's ok. but we arent men.
>>8004888
Transgendered male, who believes they are female, even though science would classify them as male based on dna
>>8004898
science is a spook
How do I lose 30lbs of muscle and fat? I want to be cute.
>>8004964
suicide
>>8001223
Why would we do this
And so, slowly. The/mtfg/ clubhouse takes shape
>>8005203
Is that a converted attic/loft?
>>8004964
Eat as little as possible. Eat disgusting foods. Drink only water.
has Mads posted recently? I miss them.
Someone in the Math Lab complimented me on my makeup today! ^w^
>>8005583
good luck emi!!!
>>8005590
uh..maybe..
Daily reminder that bullying and/or fighting is forbidden
>>8005581
it does look nice!
>>8004964
im planning on eating nothing but frozen vegetables when I get my apartment
my goal is to lose a lot of muscle too
>>8005601
WHAT THE HELL DOES THAT MEAN
>>8005587
in your dreams
I wanna be a girl
>>8005227
It's a fucked up house lolol the place is kinda falling apart but yea I think it's just an upstairs like room that I've decided will me the base of my operations
>>8005618
u are desu
im lonely
>weird buzzing flying bug thing in my room
>scream my head off and jump out the door
>takes like 5 minutes to kill it
I need a man
>>8005608
it means no drama or I'll kick ur ass with my big man-feet
>>8005581
>youer...make-up!!! wow it looks so good hon. youre so brave. i wish i was as beautiful as you<3
>>8005625
>not living by the summer window quarantine rule
>mfw I see a wasp outside the window on a hot day and realise if I had opened it to get a draft it would have got in
do i do drugs tonight y/n
>>8005627
ya you wouldn't be able to lol
>>8005633
There's a screen on my window
>>8005634
depends on which kinda drugs
>>8005625
Nah. You just need to stop being such a craven.
>>8005624
hugg
>>8005634
n desu
>>8005631
The ruse is a success!
>>8005632
Ok..
>>8005636
Screens are too dangerous
The bugs find a way
>>8005634
huggs not druggs
>>8005634
what kinda drugs you thinking?
>>8005632
>>8005635
>>8005631
>>8005643
that animu does look similar to you :3
>>8005634
go hiking and shit
>>8005600
so she is spunky?
>>8005623
I don't really feel like it, I'm scared it won't get better
>>8005625
desu I would just abandon my room forever
Buzzing flying things scare me wayyyy too much
Even flys can make me scream .-.
>>8005652
i don't know :(
im not good at that kind of stuff
>>8005647
if you step to me don't be surprised when you get knocked the FUCK out
>>8005650
I saw someone posted that I was her and Cindy was Yui and umm I think Grace was Ritsu? Now I just need to keep growing my hair! :D
>>8005203
Ah what is this feeling?
It hurts
>>8005203
you should light a small controlled fire on the carpet
>>8005633
>tfw you taped the windows after the venomous spider incident
>>8005663
uhhh i think they made me the black-haired one
i don't really watch anime desu lol
>>8005638
I am not a coward okay
>>8005644
It was probably when I went out to check my mailbox
>>8005656
I didn't recognize the species of bug but a rolled up catalogue put it down in one go
>>8005655
I just got out of the shower, I was kind of half tempted to take a lewd picture to tease you but I decided not to
>>8005664
lil koneko
>>8005570
>are you cute
Nah
unsee.
cc/nemipazu/
I don't want you dying out there senpai
>>8005634
No hard drugs
>>8005625
I have a fear of bees and wasps
If one got in my room I'd freak out desu
>>8005671
Hmmm I think it was Mio? Idk haha I've only seen a bit of it!
>>8005670
v-venomous spider incident?
>>8005661
>>8005677
maybe
i just remember them saying she was the tallest one lmao
being positive doesnt help...working hard for the purpose of self punishment is the way to go...
>>8005673
>I just got out of the shower, I was kind of half tempted to take a lewd picture to tease you but I decided not to
VERY lewd.
>>8005652
Hue
Speaking of getting my ass beat I almost got in a fight today (not really) cuz like I saw these two huge tub lard fuxked walking in the mountain and like I was all like all loud like
"Why are y'all so big!"
"Fucking stop eating lose weight!"
And like yea this man mange to swing his gigantic body over to me and after taking a small break to catch his lungs, eating two twinkies, and smoking a cig.
He took a nap.
But halfway through his nap he woke up and started half gargling insults at me like why don't you cut ur hair and like I was kinda laughing but also like kinda ready but not really cuz it was me that was being the asshole and I could tell he didn't want to fight only save face in front of his equally obese baby elephant child.
>>8005634
Go hiking while doing drugs
>>8005679
ILL DESTROY YOU
>>8005674
>>8005685
why did you call two random people fatties beanboy
>>8005678
>summertime
>smol spider in window
>looks kinda weird
>it lays egg
>too hard to reach
>hatches sometime during night
>wake up
>walk into hallway
>at least 50+ spiders hanging from the top edge of the walls around the windows
>mom sprays them and takes care of it
>eva tapes some windows
:(
>>8005684
I thought it would be in poor taste since I don't like girls.
>>8005685
you should wear a gopro some day
I'd be interested to see what a typical day is like for you
>>8005634
Y
Coke
>>8005694
smol
>>8005656
It gets better
Just give it time
AM I THE ONLY ONE WHO REMEMBERS MADS?! I FEEL LIKE I'M GOING INSANE
>>8005676
>If one got in my room I'd freak out desu
once wasps kept getting into my room somehow
they were always like 80% dead and would crawl around
I half thought it was a sign from god to stop wearing women's clothing
>>8005657
Easy to answer, would she be on top of you or below you when you think of her?
>>8005694
>spider living between window and screen
>bajillion eggs or tiny spiders on its back
>tfw scared if I open the window the eggs and tiny spiders will spill into my room
And that's why I never opened my window the entire semester
>>8005690
"heh.... just try it kiddo......" *materializes steel and silver swords*
"thsi is gonna be fun........""
>>8005696
Aww, are you sure~?
>>8005694
ahhhh D:
>>8005685
You're a women on the inside.
Have a sex change
>>8005711
I believe the term is heteroflexible.
I'd just be too jealous of cis girls and I don't want a partner who has the same problems I do.
>>8005581
Is this actually you? I feel like you're just catfishing with pretty cis female pictures.
>>8005675
Nimorin~
Mission accomplished
Charolette is of kill
Returning to bass
>>8005704
I am so tempted to make the obvious pun here.
>>8005708
um
do i have to answer?
>>8005725
kissu
>>8005725
i am going mad.
i hate all of you
>>8005720
yes!
big strong nim will protect eva >:)
>>8005729
yes
ok fuck it just snorted 50mg of mdma
>>8005723
how are you friendo :3
>>8005718
Acid hiking is amazing
T. Former Day Tripper
>>8005739
stay hydrated
>>8005693
Cuz I hate fat people
Like idk I was really fat myself and still fuxking am but I just have all this internalized hatred for everyone tb_h but fat people are like omg I can scream at them
>>8005697
Yea ok cool but maybe not cuz this is my experience not urs and like anyway I would be hella conscious of it being there and that'll mess up my grove you get me?
>>8005715
I'm a deeply hurt person on the inside.
I've never had dys4ia.
I'm a man and am just starting to grow into my skin.
Girls look at me when I'm fresh you know?
>>8005739
hugg
>>8005736
g-good, spiders are scary...
>>8005736
And onee-chan will protect both of you!
>>8005738
on top
>>8005733
Well when people are made, cis girls are usually given a set dose of crazy
With trannies they're given double
Someone fat fingered the crazy meter when making me and I got quadruple
>>8005731
Y-yeah...
>>8005732
Thank you for saving me from the embarrassment.
>>8005739
ayyy
maybe try putting some up the neovag
>>8005752
evening everyone
how's it go?
>>8005747
>Yea ok cool but maybe not cuz this is my experience not urs and like anyway I would be hella conscious of it being there and that'll mess up my grove you get me?
yeah I could understand you'd be aware of it so you'd act differently
I'm just very curious as to what a typical day is like for you
>>8005759
omg
>>8005764
not good
im scared
>>8005753
ooooo yes protect us from bugs big sis
i literally freak out whenever i see a roach D:
don't tell eva that though im supposed to be protecting her!
>>8005759
omg
>>8005694
I sleep with this every night
>>8005752
im not scared!
i will destroy theeemmmm!
>>8005771
how often do you see roaches??
I have never seen one in my life, I would FREAK if I saw one
>>8005755
That's hot let me finger ur craziness bb girl
>>8005779
all the time in florida D:
and we get palmetto bugs!
flying roaches ahhhhhhhh D:
>>8005771
I can handle bugs no problemo! The only thing I don't like are sharks.
>>8005776
please take care of yourself
stay safe
I don't want you to get shot for trespassing
>>8005765
I think I'm kind of sane ish now, if only because I feel no emotion and just have a really cold and indifferent approach to everything.
Wish it could be like that all the time.
>>8005756
no problem. But honestly- it wasn't that long ago. I was talking to them in August! I know for a fact Elanna was around then. Mads even went to some kind of meetup. Absolutely no one knows who they are?!
>>8005787
well what if there's a shark infestation?
>>8005785
wow thats horrible
I'm sorry nim
>>8005764
Hi Grace. This happened last night and I thought of you >.>
>>8005754
she is probably spunky enough then, don't worry about it
>>8005785
I hear they climb into your ears at night.
>>8005789
no
have some of my filtered water~
>>8005796
uh i dunno >>
>>8005581
fapfapfap
>>8005777
Spiders are harmless!!!! it's not like they choose to look how they do! We just wanna hang out!
>>8005790
That makes one of us.
Why would you say that lol.
It's better if I don't think bout these things..
>>8005788
nim knight :3
>>8005783
y tho
>>8005797
a-ahhhhh
>>8005793
Sharks can't get on land silly!
>>8005799
No thanks I have beer
>>8005804
spiders don't really scare me, I kinda like them
flying bugs almost always do
house centipedes are my mortal enemy and I hate them more than anything
>>8005804
no it'll jump on my face and eat my eyes
>>8005792
Just check the archive!
>>8005813
l-land sharks
>>8005808
>>8005814
it's okay you can have both
>>8005791
That's... not really 'good' but, as long as you're 'happy'.
>>8005821
I wonder if that would be like crocodiles..
>>8005805
squatting is a good way to get shot is all
I want you to be careful and not make sudden moves if somebody wakes you up in the night
>>8005825
can I really?
Urgent poll
http://www.strawpoll.me/12630097
http://www.strawpoll.me/12630097
http://www.strawpoll.me/12630097
>try new style after getting made fun of for the same style I wore for two years
>get made fun of for new look
>have no idea what to do mow
i want a mtf gf so bad
not even just to fuck, i just wanna love and protect a cute mtf
[spoiler]im a bear tho[/spoiler]
>>8005822
cutie :3
>>8005832
what's your look and why were you getting made fun of?
>>8005833
a bear bf would be nice
>>8005832
Wtf is your style that you're getting made fun of?
>>8005827
have you dealt with crocodile infestations too?
>>8005826
Just indifferent to everything I guess
Nothing is really exciting or fun
Nothing is depressing or disappointing
Not lonely or anything
>>8005764
I hate trains
Tried making friends with a couple grills and they thought I was hitting on them q.q
>>8005831
NO NO NO NO NO NO NO
>>8005830
yeah probably
>>8005833
Are you rich?
>>8005831
Why would anyone hate you?
>>8005831
cindy is good
Somebody complimented me today for being the most alpha of alpha boys
>>8005853
busted!!!!
>>8005833
bears are good
whats your face like
>>8005844
I don't think we have those here, we do have a lot of lizards though!:3
>>8005849
prove it
>>8005833
>tfw had an opportunity to get a bear bf
>tfw too nervous and turned him down before dating
I'm not cute though so bleh
>>8005819
the archive goes back like 3-4 days
>>8005845
Sounds like your not trying hard enough at life.
>>8005862
h-how big
>>8005846
Why do you hate trains?
And I'm sorry they felt that way.
>>8005857
>mfw because you're a GIRL
>>8005863
okay
beer me
>>8005846
>Tried making friends with a couple grills and they thought I was hitting on them q.q
thats why you gotta act super gay desu
or wear bright nailpolish or something
>>8005876
*gives u a beer*
>>8005871
Just lil garden lizards, like the kind you get at the pet shop!^^
>>8005855
Cause I'm annoying, I complain a lot when I have it pretty good, and I feel strongly about some things
>>8005876
that would be ILLEGAL nim
I'm going to tell your mom about your interest in underage drinking
>>8005840
>>8005843
I have no idea why I was being made fun of, but my style was actually pretty basic: generic t-shirt, jeans, leather jacket on top and a hat. So I tried dressing fancy (boy fancy not girl fancy) with a fancy button up shirt dress pants and a tie. Guess I'm damned if I do damned if I don't.
>>8005776
Gather up 600-800 morning glory seeds from the blue ones and grind them into a fine powder. Mix 50/50 black tea. Do not use sugar at all. Let steep for 10-30 minutes. Drink and experience a legal lsd base
Shrooms are great but whenever I'm on them I always end up at funerals or graveyards. It's happened my last shroom trips
>>8005857
Don't do this pose.
It is silly.
>>8005877
>I dunno, I can't even kill myself right
Nat. Life's worth living for.
>>8005883
WELL I like you!
>>8005888
Someone's always gonna shit on what you like, you just have to go with it anyway and not give a shit because you like it and you're doing what you like.
>>8005895
That's cause you're super nice
>>8005882
are they nice :3
>>8005888
>tie
you never wear a tie without a jacket.
>leather jacket and jeans
Only if you are really fucking hot.
>>8005901
*hands Emi a bottle opener*
Figure it out~.
>>8005888
go back to your normal style but get a different jacket to mix things up
>>8005902
And so are you! I like nice people! :D <3
Everybody should live their life the way they want to
>>8005883
its ok to not like drugs or whatever
i like you
you're nice ^^
>>8005913
*bites bottle opener*
>>8005894
Dying's the only thing worth living for.
>>8005909
Yes! I caught one before and it just hung out on my arm and licked me. It was sad when I had to put him back in the bushes. :c
>>8005888
Go on polos website, copy the models exactly. Cant go wrong.
>>8005892
is LSA even fun?
from everything I read its a really heavy bodyload unlike acid and basically everyone throws up
I've drank shroom tea many times, always interesting and usually worthwhile
>>8005923
oh ye :)
all we have are snakes and stuff!
>>8005901
how mad would your mom be if she caught you drinking?
>>8005900
Yeah but like...how other people think about me and what I do is really important to me.
>>8005926
>its a really heavy bodyload unlike acid and basically everyone throws up
yeah it kinda ruined the trip for me
you can take steps to reduce nausea though
I love you people
I love a lot of people
I love almost all of the people
but I tell some of the people I love that I hate them
why is that
what plushie do i buy
>>8005831
No, desu
You're way to nice for anyone to hate you
>>8005873
I've been on four cross country train trips in the last month and a half. I don't really hate them. I'm just so sick of traveling
>>8005879
Yeah... I need to start with nail polish at least to get into the Groove. I just hate outting myself. Like why can't I just dress kind of normal and just being treated as an individual
/soapbox/
>>8005935
my mouth is bleeding why did you do this to me :(
>>8005939
PUSHEEN!=^_^=
>>8005939
the cutest one
>>8005939
a fox
>>8005935
You missed the reference, but whatever
>>8005932
she is kinda autistic about laws and stuff
like she was okay with me drinking in puerto rico because the age is 18 over there but she'd be mad if she found me drinking over here
>>8005939
companion cube
>>8005944
I thought you could figure it out. ;_;
>>8005953
Sorry, it sounded like something someone from here would say.
>>8005956
do you think half life 3 will ever come out
>>8005957
im bleeding out omg
>>8005966
no
valve doesn't give a shit about making games anymore they make bank just on steam
they just buy studios that have a game already completed and slap their name on it
>>8005972
I'm calling the ambulance right now, what's your address?
>>8005742
fuck, I disappeared
tired because I work all the time
stoned af
tfw twinkhon
but bf blurted out loud that he thinks he loves me unconditionally at this point so it was worth it
>>8005975
plus they can keep milking microtransactions out of their other games like csgo
>>8005972
Staunch the wound with some gauze or something, please don't die, Emi!
>>8005875
Boy :p
emi is such a sweetie
>>8005986
GIRL and that's final missy!
>>8005926
I alway smoke shitloads of weed while drinking LSA and I've barely had more than a stomach ache. As far as the trips though it's been good to me. It feels like microdosing and adding a bit of mescaline imo
>>8005939
>>8005939
https://www.wildrepublic.com/en/audubon
>>8005972
dumbass
>>8005986
Dat ass is ridiculous you slutmuffin
Nodoka is cute
>>8005951
maybe if you live in wisconsin we can talk
>>8005981
>but bf blurted out loud that he thinks he loves me unconditionally at this point
i want that so bad ;_;
how does a shut in find a bf
>>8005975
what about the joy of creating games ;-;
>>8006001
Kidnap one at your next milsim thing, that'll do it.
>>8006006
Joy doesn't pay the bills
>>8006006
What about the joy of printing money doing fuck all?
>tfw left for dead 3 will never be made
>>8006010
they're already rich off skins >:(
>>8006012
Just like take some gauze and put it on the wound and apply pressure.
>>8006014
did gaben's fat get to him?
>still cannot into pharyngeal resonance
>>8006024
omg things are getting hazy
>>8006021
Idk, I've done a source engine mod before
It definitely isn't a lot of fun to work with, I can see why they would just go with the non game-dev route to making money
>>8006028
I KNOW THIS FEEL SO GOD DAMN MUH
zheanna keeps saying it's what im missing in my voice but i can't get it for the life of me
i end up just doing a country accent lol
>>8006029
Please don't die, the ambulance is on its way.
>>8006014
And eating all your fuckall bucks in the form of pies with George R.R. Martin
Now I need to commission some GabenxGeorge pie porn....
>>8005833
Bears are disgusting
>>8006036
Pls donut ree at ash she is nice
>>8006001
he started a thread on /lgbt/ in 2013 about wanting a cute transgirl to love and I dropped my email.
We talked over Skype and soon drove 12 hours round trip through a blizzard just to rescue me from disapproving parents. We're about to share a bowl right now.
All I had to do is take advantage of the opportunities I saw. Make more available to you.
>>8006032
maybe
i thought the whole point of not being beholden to shareholders was that you didn't always have to strictly make decision that'll increase revenue
>>8006037
i...
>>8006042
Cindy is so sweet thank you ^o^
>>8006043
god im so jealous
i hear about theset hings happening but it seems like such a lucky thing
>Make more available to you.
i dont know how or where ;_;
>>8006053
You gotta hang on! Do it for Eva!
>>8006049
Yeah but their corporate structure is entirely based around self direction
There's nobody at valve that's really interested in taking on the task of making a followup to one of the most monumental video games of all time.
Better to make hats
>>8006035
How far did you get into lessons..
>>8006064
im 5 in :/
>>8006046
Fufufufu~
>>8006059
That mirror looks lewd
Being in a band is rough
Show this Saturday to showcase new material
>>8005783
beangurl did you get a butane camping stove so you have something to cook with?
>>8006062
lil sad desu
>>8006066
Shouldn't you have it mastered before 4?
i want to be a drama queen but drama is obnoxious
>>8006060
e-eva..
>>8006062
They don't even make hats themselves they just add ones from the community workshop and take a cut
>>8006079
aaaahhhhh
>tfw I can't find the store that sold cute stuffed animals I want
>tfw it was probably in a bookmark folder I accidentally deleted
AHhhhhhhhhh.
>>8006079
Yes, her! Hang on, I can hear the EMTs outside.
>>8006076
well im kind of a slow learner i think
i also can't practice as much because i still live at home
i try to practice every day but I usually only get 3-4 days a week
>>8006067
ash can u post the gif of mugi hitting the pillow
>>8006083
I guess over time it was inevitable that they just find the most efficient means to get money to cram burgers into gabens fat gob
elann
>>8006090
x-x
>>8006092
Lemme see if I can find it!
>>8006059
Improve your hygiene
exercise more
go to new places
hang out with friends of friends
or just go outside
Does anyone here play any instruments besides me and Anna?
>>8006091
yep im wasting my time
>tfw no handsome polish Witcher bf
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2pLsSkqBR_8
>>8006099
Emi? Emi wake up!
>>8006105
my only friend around here lives in the state north of me
i dont know where to go outside or go to new places
like
idk
i cant even get there i dont have a car
>>8006109
well where are at now?
im like 1/4 of the way there i think
At jeep dealership:
>are you alexis?
WHA?
>b/c a girl called earlier with the same issue.
>it's funny b/c (insert long rambling explanation I could've done without)
>*pulls up my jeep's vin*
>deadname? Deadname?
y-yeah.....
Motherfucker didn't even blink, like my deadname was an actual girls name
>OK miss, come over here
*******all of this after having an existential crisis this morning with a nurse misgendering me and using my deadname even though my preferred name is on the paper and they fucked up & made my gender female, officially. (BECAUSE OLD WHITE WASPY JESUS LADIES ARE PROGRAMMED TO BE WASPY CUNTS)
Like.
Fuck
I can't even today
and losing my shit yesterday.
I can even relate to every day normie on a common conversation level.
I feel like samurai jack when he first got shot to the future.
>>8006068
what the heck do you even know about sex, youre 15
>>8006111
xox
>>8006121
Just did the pharyngeal resonance thing
Think I'm just going to quit and pretend to be a mute
>>8006122
that's.. good, right?
>>8006126
*EMTs come in and examine Nim*
"I'm sorry, she's dead."
;_;
>>8006130
well zheanna said that was like my biggest block
i hope that i can get it soon so we can work on making it sound less like tranny voice
The only GIF of Mugi I can find with a pillow is her throwing it at someone~
>>8006130
I wish I could be mute but I can't
>>8006122
This was me, but now I'm just a boy
>>8006143
its okay i didnt like talking anyway
>>8006142
xux
>>8006122
I cannot get through this with my ADHD.
>>8006150
well where does zheanna think you are :(
>>8006124
When two peopl love each other very much, they lewd
>>8006149
Quit being retarded
>>8006155
hugg
>>8006157
is that how it works
>>8006155
It'd prolly be easier if I just recorded it verbally.
I type how I talk.
>>8006146
That's one of my favorite episodes
>>8006172
Your anime sucks
>>8006156
idk
Think i'm going to get drunk and play russian roulette
>>8006167
Yea, sometimes, but sometimes they just cuddle instead cause lewd is so scary
>>8006178
s-sounds familiar
>>8006175
Sounds like a good time
>>8006162
Thanks, honey.
>>8006169
I hope you don't compose school essays the same way.
>>8006175
it takes a while to get it perfect
it's not an overnight thing!
>>8006174
K-on is the best anime, actually
http://www.squishable.com/
I found the stuffed animals I was talking about, heck yes.
>>8006122
what was your dead name
also there are girls named George and Scotty and stuff
you obviously pass well enough to make a random guy think that you are a girl with a boy name.
do you remember the nurses name?
file a complaint
some people are just assholes who deserve to be taken down a notch or ten
>>8006181
Yeah, I like to load 1/7 chambers and flip a coin. Heads I take a drink, tails I pull the trigger.
I'm still here.
>>8006182
hugg
Hey, first time coming to this board. Any tips for all of this? I've just been crossdressing for like 10 years but I wanna make this like a full time and full transition thing. If I'm in the wrong thread let me know, please.
>>8006130
>>8006156
https://clyp.it/jtvqubsz
>>8006149
pretty big hooters for a boy
>>8006122
shit gets weird sometimes
my bank called the other day to clear up some stuff with my account and I answered in girlvoice, and they were like
>Is deadname there?
And after some confusion on both of our sides I was like "oh yeah that's me sorry, but I'm currently in the process of changing it to namename legally"
and they made me answer all of my security questions and DoB and everything b/c they obv didn't believe that I was who I said I was, but finally they were like
>Ok sorry sir,
and continually referred to me as my deadname after all of that
like what???
so rood.
>>8006204
you're a hooter
I thought family guy was supposed to be not funny anymore why is it entertaining
>>8006208
>>8006204
>>8006210
>why is it entertaining
3,4-Methylenedioxymethamphetamine
>>8006210
probably cuz ur high idk
>>8006198
take hormones
be a girl
pretty simple desu
>>8006213
you're a hooter too
>>8006211
hugg
HUGG
HUGG!!!!!!!!
>>8006216
>3,4-Methylenedioxymethamphetamine
Actually, MDMA is 3,4-Methylenedioxymethamphetamine.
>>8006199
http://vocaroo.com/i/s1DUtJWsNTSs
>when you're topping your man and he didn't clean his poo hole again
>>8006114
Are you in school right now
What else do you do
>>8006231
You hate me so much you want to kill me?
>>8006240
I will fite you.
>>8006223
Fair enough. But like, is it really that simple?
>>8006243
i go to work and i go home
i dont go to school, and i was never able to make friends there anyway
>>8006248
no ily
>>8005945
UwU
>>8006198
>any tips?
If you're serious then start hrt asap
considering you've been crossdressing for 10 years I'm assuming you're at least in your mid-20s so hurry up
get laser
start saving money for any surgeries you want
>If I'm in the wrong thread let me know, please
no-one should come to this place willingly
it's bad for your health
>>8006198
be careful posting your pic. some chasers capture them all with bots.
>>8006242
STEW AND BREW
>>8006250
pat lani hed once
>>8006250
*pokes me with boob*
>>8006249
no
why do you want to transition? are you happy living your life as is and crossdressing?
if you're trans not-transitioning isn't a real option
>>8006248
hugg fight
>>8006242
OBSESSED
B
S
E
S
S
E
D
>>8006257
uwu
>>8006242
>When you're topping your man and forgot you've been stewing and brewing all day
>>8006262
and try and scrape the meta-data
>>8006250
I am blind and retarded.
>>8006256
/panic attack
>>8006272
FITE fite.
>>8006281
4chan automatically removes EXIF data on pictures
>>8006276
grarfeld likes lasagna as much as I do :3
>>8006247
Why don't you like anime?
>>8006286
if you want to get technical it's 3,4 methylenedioxy-N-methyl-alpha-methyl-(2-phenylethan-1-amine)
>>8006271
I've been questioning for a while. I'm not necessarily happy with myself where I am right now but I want to experience living as a girl desu, before I make my decision.
>>8006303
wtf dumb science nerds just call it mdma
>>8006303
If you want to get really technical you're a nerd.
im all for positivity
but positivity doesnt change facts
>>8006303
H U G Ge La N N
>>8006299
it's comfi
>>8006311
wtf im not a nerd
>>8006321
hugg
>>8006306
alright, from the other direction, why would you not transition?
for me the only internal factor was concern about the health implications, everything else was other people and they don't deserve to control my life. and whatever health concerns are irrelevant if i killed myself, so. not a very hard decision desu
>>8006303
could you make your own meth in a campervan?
>>8006331
Good, otherwise I'd have to bully you.
>>8006254
That sounds a lot like me before bf. Continue any hobby, or try to study something on your own
>>8006335
Meth is pretty easy to make but you want industry level tools if you want something pure.
I can make 40% L/D meth in a coffee pot or I could make 90% D in a lab
>>8006331
Gumball's right, you're a huge nerd, sorry.
>>8006335
you can make meth in a two liter bottle
not good meth, but there are syntheses that aren't all that complicated with the right materials
>>8006341
so just keep on the course until i get lucky huh
hydrogen uranium germanium lanthanum nitrogen
We should get all the chemistry NERDS from /mtfg/ to make meth and pay for everyone's FFS and SRS.
>>8006359
tfw gumball crush
>>8006284
*impales me with hip*
elanna is sharp but still so nice
>>8006354
>hugg lauren
Which trip should I stalk and fantasize about ramming my thick cock inside of them?
Which trip is for dumping my cum into?
>>8006368
beangirl
I DID IT
I ORDERED PIZZA
PIZZA EVERY DAY
TODAY I GOT CRUSHED GARLIC, SPINACH AND SALMON PIZZA
IT'S GONNA BE REALLY YUM
>>8006335
Yeah I could probably make it without a lot of materials at all
Give me proper glass and reagents and I could probably make it high quality and enantiomerically pure
>>8006354
hurr
>>8006339
But I like being bullied
>>8006345
No i not
>>8006359
I'd rather just synthesize brand name chemo and sell it for like literally a trillion dollars a year
>>8006373
could you synthesize hrt
>>8006372
>spinach
wtf
>salmon
wtf
>>8006373
can you make acid
>>8006379
spinach is delicious
>>8006299
Stories are poorly written.
I hate the over the top expressions.
Animation sucks
Is Elanna Heisenberg?
>>8006385
no not on pizza
>>8006368
Hmm
>>8006372
>salmon on pizza
Interesting
>>8006379
Spinach is great, especially on pizza
>>8006373
The biggest nerd, sorry. Them's the rules.
Has anyone here experienced like
periodically becoming hostile and mean
when normally you wouldn't do that?
Like, I can remember doing it
but it doesn't feel like I did it
if that makes sense
>>8006361
Super gross.
>>8006373
You're too sweet to bully. How are you gonna find someone who wants to bully and isn't a total weirdo?
>>8006376
Not at classy.
>>8006386
The over the top expressions make sense, that's how Japanese is. What anime have you watched?
>>8006394
You might want to take that up with a therapist
>>8006332
ostracization mainly. I have a large family and they're all very important to me and I know they're not accepting of this, I've kept this all under wraps for years. I want a life all my own to do the things I want but I really cant imagine a life without them. The health risks aren't too much for me, so I'm not that concerned. I'm also a very masculine guy rn, I played sports, have broad shoulders, ect. so I'm worried about being stuck in some uncanny valley between male and female.
>>8006398
Free market. In all seriousness the amount of trial and effort it would take me to find the exact method of synthesizing some drugs would exceed a trillion dollars.
>>8006384
Not easily
It's a tricky one to make and that's part of why there's only a relatively few chemists that actually make most of the world's supply. It and a lot of its precursors are sensitive to light, chlorine and oxygen.
>>8006378
Probably need reasonably advanced facilties for that, plus I'm not familiar with how to make steroids.
>>8006396
;~;
>>8006398
I don't kjnow that's part of my problem right now
>>8006411
does it explode in your face if you do it wrong or is it just hard to do
>>8006411
make chemo drugz and pay for srs and ffs for every trann
>>8006398
hugg
>>8006372
sounds healthy
>>8006397
yes
>>8006394
yeah a lot of it is targeted to 10-18 year old kids and i got old
the good stuff is still good though
>>8006384
>>8006389
go to college for chem, become a wizard
>>8006405
fuck them, do you. it doesn't matter if i become a weird looking freak, i made for a pretty handsome guy. i'm a girl and i have to be who i am. trying to be anything else was killing me
>>8006414
people say I'm cute but they're definitely hugboxing
nim is cute
so is Mercury
grace is cute too
>>8006409
Unless you get extraordinarily lucky.
Is becoming a chemist as lucrative as it sounds in this age of drowning in pills?
>>8006414
I make a really guy, but not so much a cute girl.
>>8006421
/nuzz
>>8006429
>nim is cute
wtf
>>8006193
Christopher.
Lol
WHO ARE THE CUTEST TRIPS??
>>8006429
AHEM
>>8006372
creme fraiche sauce?
>>8006403
The expressions don't make sense.
People don't cry waterfalls
>>8006434
mercutie
>>8006434
Who has the cutest tip?
>>8006417
Hard to do, it's not exactly any more dangerous than other illicit chemistry.
LSD has a stereocenter (notice that there's a hydrogen in that ring). Only one enantiomer (the less energetically favorable one) is actually psychoactive. It likes to tautamerize in the presence of UV light, chlorine, oxygen, radicals, or excessive heat
>>8006420
>implying the actual process for making new drugs isn't patented and trade secret
>>8006429
You're cute enough that I would put my tongue in your mouth desu, and I am very picky and also have good taste so I'm RIGHT
>>8006429
ur pretty olive
>>8006423
is there a way to stop
or is it like
just self control?
I need cock
>>8006397
is something triggering you when it happens?
>>8006431
There's lots of different aspects of chemistry. I was going to go more into medicine. There's petroleum chemical engineering, environmental chemists, etc.
It's okay money but you want a master's degree before you can really do anything fun or interesting.
>>8006455
just hurting, I don't think I have any triggers
this last time I was off hormones too
>>8006433
that is so not your name
but like I said, you pass well enough despite deadname
I'm hai af
want to lewd bf so bad
the spring makes me this way, why >.>
>>8006414
I think I'm starting to get cute, I've got a way to go tho
>>8006440
It's just melodramatic, it's fun, western cartoons do it too
>>8006463
seasonal affective disorder?
TOPPINGS..ON PIZZA..
BRAIN..GOING TO..EXPLODE.
>>8006449
the anger stuff? i go to therapy, it's not my biggest problem just a symptom that manifests due to repressing my emotions. it's not a problem when i'm more honest with myself and others, i think you really need a healthy outlet though. maybe some form of art or hobby that lets you address these unresolved emotions
tbqh i'm undoubtedly still suppressing a lot of tough feelings that lead to those outbursts
>>8006452
I really like those threads on /gif/ where you're the girl below you, does that make me an AGP meme?
>>8006459
Are you a chemist?
>>8006468
accept it nim
>>8006464
No they don't
>>8006471
it's not right anne
>>8006468
>eating only plain cheese pizzas
>>8006452
Same
>>8006470
Not really quite, no. Elanna is the actual chemist. My specialty would lean more towards how drugs interact with the body and all rather than the synthesizing or research of new compounds.
>>8006468
Come to the flavor side, it's great!
>>8006460
It just sounds like an emotional flashback. They intrude in and those old remembered emotions overlay your current state modifying it from normal.
>tfw never gonna be a chemist
>>8006477
consider this
Kayla also only enjoys plain cheese pizza
>>8006468
the best pizza that I ever had was a rich, garliccy mozzarella, prosciutto and kalamatta olive pizza
omg
so crispy
so delicious
is it weird if I eat pizza without cheese
do you think was a time in your life where you could've died content
>>8006468
correct ignore those who disagree.
>>8006498
That unfortunately isn't going to get me into grad school
>>8006500
several
but it was less "die content" and more "cut my losses"
>>8006504
Any word on that yet, actually?
>>8006499
Talk to a therapist about it. It's not weird. Just part of having PTSD. That's all.
>>8006476
What about like, looney toons, and spongebob n stuff
>>8006477
wtf thats not true
>>8006468
plain pizza is good! you can just enjoy the cheese ^^
>>8006423
Alright, seems like you're more willing to give up on relationships than me. Thanks for your insight though
>>8006500
Not really
Though a bunch of times it felt like it would be better to die before things get worse
>>8006506
I'm still years away from getting into pharm school so whatever I'm basically a 25 year old NEET shitposting on a cambodian tranny support group until I die
>>8006519
yeah it is wth
>>8006493
nope
the other day I made one with a pesto/rosemary base with thinly sliced potato and lamb
it was yummy
>>8006499
there's probably a lot of truth to the triggering stuff
i spent so much time neglecting my emotional health that it all blends into a melange of negative emotions and unrealistic expectations that i've carried with me. my therapist has called out triggering factors, and they resonate. i would have said the same thing you're saying though, "i don't think i have any triggers"
try to be more aware of your emotional state, and when you notice things like these outbursts try to analyze what you were feeling on the way there and what stimuli may have contributed
>>8006514
None
Also the professor I want to work with is unsure they have the funding for another student in the fall.
Plain cheese pizza is really nice too
is it weird if i eat the bottom crust off my pizza and then shove the rest of the slice in my mouth
pic related
One of you will die tonight
>>8006520
>plain pizza is boring!
fixed...
>>8006538
don't give up hope yet
i got waitlisted for my school today so i know it's nervewrecking having to wait not knowing but it's better to just try not to think about it until you get your decision
>>8006523
they were killing me
it wasn't fuckin easy, sir
i'm 32, i gave away too much of my life trying to appease people who never accepted me for who i was /and i never even came out as trans/.
>>8006545
i hope im lucky enough
>hrt actually did some stuff
huh
this was a few weeks hrt
Now, my upper lip looks shorter, my nose looks smaller, skin looks better and I have my own hair
>>8006528
>until I die
?
i miss lewd anon
Finished my quiz and took a shower~
Can I get head pats now?
>>8006562
why
>>8006560
My life expectancy isn't very long.
In other news I have $1500 in cash and like $5500+ in credit. I could go chop my balls off in 2 weeks. Wonder if it's worth it.
>>8006563
i miss everyone
>>8006515
I really
don't think I have PTSD
but maybe I do I don't know
*scream* >~<
>>8006536
I'm really kinda iffy on the therapy thing
Don't trust therapists a lot
Self analysis sounds like it makes sense though, I'll try that if it happens again
>>8006545
please pick me
>>8006559
yay <3
>>8006566
*pats ur hed*
>>8006545
Ooooo
>>8006541
That's it nim you're banned from pizza
>>8006566
patpat
>>8006566
*pat pat*
>>8006567
because why would you
>>8006538
You'll get in, but try to line up back up professors or something.
>>8006540
That it is!
>>8006541
This will never not be weird, Emi.
>>8006566
>>8006566
yes but only one
ambiance is one of "the cool trips"
>>8006580
but it's tasty ;-;
>>8006584
Am I cool
Lauren is the most attractive trip I think
Her physical looks r pretty average yes, but she has the best personality I think; she's very nice but also reasonable, is well educated in a lot of topics and is overall righteous I think
I was thinking about what trips I think are the most physically attractive and that's all opinion, I narrowed it down to like two people in my head but mtfg has had a lot of different looking [white] people so yeah
>>8006545
yawn...
you keep promising, then nothing ever happens.
>>8006559
comparison...
>>8006578
cuz the crust from papa johns tastes like cardboard so i put up with the cardboard taste so when i eat the slice the crust taste doesn't overpower the cheese
>>8006589
wtf
>>8006589
am i white
>>8006540
You're cheese pizza Cindy
>>8006566
*patpat*
>>8006604
n3n
>>8006566
scritches behind your ears...
>>8006616
Anon you turned me into a cat! >3<
>>8006589
she's my favorite
>>8006563
I have a doctorate in licentious studies.
>>8006570
>My life expectancy isn't very long.
I am curious, but I understand if you wish to keep the matter private.
If you're considering the operation with that little on hand, I presume you don't have many other expenses to really worry about. If that's so, why not?
>>8006588
reminds me i need to order more cute tinted glasses
>>8006573
*HUGS*
Therapy is to have somebody to bounce things off of.
>>8006625
lil baby bun
>>8006597
I feel like I've asked this before but why do you keep ordering pizza from papa john's
like surely there are better pizza places around
if the crust was decent would you eat it like a normal person?
>>8006619
T-thank you anon! I am doing my best^^
>>8006631
>not listening to 10CC
>>8006632
Omg they really are cousins! :0
>>8006628
I really don't enjoy life and would like to leave it peacefully on my own terms sometime soon.
My monthly expenses are like $600 a month or so, I made a fair bit at my last job to fall back on. Kind of running dry but I should have a new job coming up soon.
Not taking any more spiro and cypro sounds pretty okay.
>>8006642
>not listening to z̰̰̰̗̝͉̜͐Z̵̥͇̩̆̉͐ͣ́͜z͍̤̝̹̜͕͔̳̐ͦx͕̤͙̬̝̼͌̎͌ͦ̀X̴̡̱̜͉̟̲̣̝͚͒ͬz̶͖̙ͨQ̴̴̯̥̹̭͖̅͊͛ͤ̾ͦ̓̚͟z̺̘̩̻̟͙͕̎ͧͅ
>>8006625
>>8006632
Lil kitters
>>8006640
I'm not for lewd
https://psychcentral.com/quizzes/bipolarquiz.htm
I got a 52
is this credible?
>>8006642
IM NOT IN LOVE
>>8006650
uh oh he's eyein' boots >>
>>8006646
>or if they couldn't hospitalize me
They can only lock you up if you are a danger to yourself or others, and that is a high threshold.
Should I come out to my family?
I kinda told my brother and he jokingly said to my mother that I want to become a woman and she said that she'd understand since I was always so different from everyone else and I always acted feminine and looked feminine. I'm not sure if I should do it, I'm still really scared.
>>8006649
Nyaaaaan~
>>8006660
>online quizes
see a doctor
>>8006642
>not listening to ho-kago teatime
tfw weird boygirl skeleton
>>8006669
Do it, you basically already have.
>>8006462
Th-thank you sheen!
how I was treated in the oilfield really fucked me up.
I only see/expect the worse.
Went 2 months assuming all my new coworkers were making fun of me behind my back for being trans... even went as far as overhearing snippets of conversation and piecing together them saying mean things and misgendering.
Found out just over a week ago they actually think I'm a boyish cis girl.
My therapist is working with me on all that rn.
'Ptsd-like' anxiety reactions.
I largely don't know what I actually look like.
A bit of bdd as well.
But thank you.
If I ever blow up on here about my appearance.... it's usually an irl anxiety attack compounded with bpd and assuming the world fucking hates me for existing
>>8006659
Hnnnnnnnnng you would have a kawaii kitty! ^^
>>8006664
She's eye'n nutmeg <<
>>8006669
sounds like an opening to me.
>>8006669
If you think they'll accept you go ahead
It's easier not to hide it
And it's great having people support you
>>8006668
No, I really don't think it is.
They can lock me up if they *say* I'm a dangerous person.
They don't have to believe it.
They don't have to prove it.
I don't have to actually hurt anybody and I'll get locked up.
>>8006669
YOU CAN DO IT TANYA!!! WOOOOOOOOOOOOOO@!!
>>8006640
Black or Red? Answer correctly and you can diddle a fiddle with me
>>8006660
If you believe you may be bipolar; you should see a mental health professional for an evaluation.
Online quizzes are generally very hit and miss, and self-diagnosing with mental illness isn't especially wise.
>>8006664
He looks v angry
>>8006670
Nyaaa~
How are you??
>>8006693
Where are you?
>>8006673
this is much better then it has any right to be
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=b7dmM-QMkmg
>tfw frustrated instead of sad
uncomfy
>>8006683
but they're cousins D:
>"Scotia is totally a first name"
wew
>>8006669
I mean it sounds like there will be a positive reception, so you might as well
>>8006701
I'm wonderful! How about you?
>>8006681
Everyone here likes you Valq, you're pretty level-headed for someone who's dealt with so much shit.
You've actually been kind of an inspiration for me over my years lurking here.
I'm glad you're finally starting to realize how pretty you are, despite anxiety and bpd permeating through everything.
>>8006669
that sounds really promising
my mom said all sorts of terrible things and i never even hinted at being trans... my brother expressed the desire to kill trans women
>>8006709
She gave him a small smirk of approval!
>>8006669
Good luck!!!
>>8006701
._.
>>8006723
i ahcked 4chan and constructed a gui interface in vb to track your ip
the nature of bipolar is such that you won't be rational or in control when you get arrested or hospitalized
>>8006730
yeah but it's a bad feel and i cant handle it and i want to hurt myself but shouldnt
>>8006734
adolph kitler in the bg
We are being raided by kitties.
>>8006750
Yep hehe
my dogs been sleeping in my bed more :') she likes me she really likes me
>>8006754
What country are you in?
>>8006681
hugg
ITs Soooo cute in here rn >.<
>>8006754
no it's possible
with therapy and meds and support
untreated? you're liable to end up in a manic state and do some crazy shit, or just so depressed you try to off yourself. that's bipolar
https://youtu.be/NAh9oLs67Cw
>>8006757
I had a really nice dog but I can't see him anymore cause he's with my dad who I don't see anymore
He was cute and always slept in my bed
>>8006768
Is that an irl pic of you and Emi?
>>8006767
hugs, i miss having a doggo
>>8006759
United States
>>8006763
What if I have support but don't want therapy or especially drugs? Can I really not stop from getting locked up that's shitty >.<
I almost shot myself once but so far I've been ok and I'm not at my worst
I usually don't do serious self harm or anything
>>8006788
No problems, you have lots of rights. They can't lock you up unless you are a clear and present danger to yourself or others. Don't talk about imminent plans of suicide or harming others.
>>8006809
what if they trick me into being honest tho?
>>8006788
>Can I really not stop from getting locked up that's shitty >.<
If you go voluntarily you dont get locked up iirc
>>8007024
A lot of the "voluntary" stuff is just in name
they treat you a little better and they don't drag you to court
but you're still not allowed to leave
it's a meaningless consent because I'd be trapped anyway