Almost Spring edition
• Informed consent providers:
https://dl.dropboxusercontent.com/u/932389/Trans/Stepping%20Forward%20-%20Informed%20Consent%20Clinics.pdf
• Makeup for beginners: http://masterposter.tumblr.com/post/116605714860
• Male vs Female measurement data: https://www.bwc.ohio.gov/downloads/blankpdf/ErgoAnthropometricData.pdf
• Correct hormone levels: http://www.hemingways.org/GIDinfo/hrt_ref.htm
• Checking your levels: http://www.privatemdlabs.com/lp/Female_Hormone_Testing.php
• ash is the sweetest
• Size charts: http://www.americanapparel.net/sizing/default.asp?chart=womens.pantse_conversion_chart.php
• Transition time lines: http://imgur.com/a/qWpxv
• Voice Training: https://www.reddit.com/r/asktransgender/comments/1ske7b/mtf_voice_training_regimen/
• Voice Help: http://webjedi.net/projects/lgbtq/speech-therapy/
• IRC: https://www.rizon.net/chat#mtfg
• Discord: https://discord.gg/2thC8Nd
Previous: >>7888079
No ones thread.
>inb4 autist nim
nim thread
>>7889059
Nope it's no ones thread sorry. First post always confirms.
*bring bring*
*clack*
"Hey (parent)
"Hi son how are you"
What do?
>>7889059
Nah this thread won't be annoying.
me in 24 hours
Nim thread
am i pure in the eyes of god if i just have sex in the butt
It's Weird how Ash makes threads to put herself in the op
>>7889068
yes its the poophole loophole
>>7889072
Ash is at work dum dum
It's some chaser that stalks her
>>7889076
Hi Ash
>>7889077
http://archive.loveisover.me/lgbt/thread/7885440/#7886077
Sorry I have a penis m8.
The new Mount & Blade looks comfy as hell
I fear my lappy can't run it though
If I win the lottery I'll just build an insane pc
I'm here for the gf.
Show me the gf.
>>7889063
stop calling me I left home for a reason
*clack*
>>7889077
How's the breakup going Kayla?
>>7889080
>pulled that up in less than a minute
lil weird
>>7889082
baka desu
>>7889066
>>7889088
I have the archive bookmarked so I don't miss any of the good drama. I am not ready to transition yet but it's fun to watch.
How do I know what my skin type is?
>>7889093
Ok Kayla.
>>7889083
SHOW ME THE GF RIGHT NOW
*cough* ritsu best femboi *cough*
>>7889037
I agree, I mean Ill eat chicago style, my moms from chicago so I grew up eating it. But New York style is better.
>>7889044
I would if I could, pizza gives me a tummy ache.
>>7889081
OH my god I cant wait for bannerlord
Auuuuugh I cant wait I cant wait I cant waaaaaait.
>>7889088
don't instigate
>>7889092
what's stopping ya
Finally got a synthetic cock to pleasure myself with. I'll report back after.
>>7889103
Um Ritsu is not a femboy and
Yui > Ritsu > Azusa =/> Mugi >Mio
>days are starting to drag on week on week on week
>keep trying to tell myself its just another 20 weeks until I can get surgeries and go back to school
>minutes drag on into hours
>every day feels like a bore of loneliness and boredom of being a wage slave
Sigh how does one stay motivated for another 5 months??
>>7889098
http://www.gardenofwisdom.com/profiles.html
found this and it's helpful
>>7889108
I'm 6'3", I am unsure if I could pull it off.
>>7889073
If YHWH didn't want penis in anus, then why does penis fit in anus?
>>7889042
That title makes you the BEST chaser
>>7889061
Oh for fuck sake this again >:(
>>7889109
Be careful!
>>7889103
I'm no one's wingman dude
>>7889113
im 6'0-6'1
it's possible
Nice thread
>>7889113
Same
>>7889109
Is synthetic cock attached to synthezoid or is the synthezoid incorporeal
>>7888552
The worst thing about it is that people over at trueselves said this person looks great. I spoke up against it and got banned :/
>>7889121
But if anon thinks I'm ash maybe I should play along with it. Make me forget I'm practically a basketball player..
>>7889112
Tyvm Maeve ^^
>>7889111
relationship
>>7889130
it's not use trying to vicariously live through someone else
try to be the best YOU!
>>7889132
Wtf don't lewd the keions ew
>>7889116
>Oh for fuck sake this again >:(
i had no idea you were the same person all along, but at least we have something to bully you with now
>>7889137
Never. I burned all bridges with everyone and deleted all communication accounts and programs. I will be a proud loser loner until I blow my head off at 30.
People don't want anything to do with me so I disappeared and never talk to anyone unless absolutely necessary.
Relationships are stupid.
>>7889123
Ok girls i need a consensus. Do we:
a. Moisturize the penis
b. Do not moisturize the penis
We're all gonna die one day
>slutvoice anon was a boy the whole time
>and the catboy
>and birdy's boyfriend
>>7889153
if only i could be alone without feeling lonely
>>7889112
O wow this is a lot of helpful stuff
I guess I have combination skin type
>>7889105
Why does pizza give you a tummy ache?!?!
Did a gypsy curse you? ;-;
>>7889153
I wish I had your courage
can someone answer a newfag question?
What exactly is caraposting?
no h8 pls
>>7889154
Moisturise everything. Take care of the srs material
>>7889164
Agreed.
Keep it moist, ladies
>>7889163
it's another way to say "shitposting"
voice training makes me want to die
>>7889167
Or "kaylaposting"
>>7889167
thank
>>7889170
I haven't started yet and I've been dreading it.
i feel like it'll just be a reminder of how shitty my voice is until I make progress
>>7889171
I think 90% of people have Kayla filtered desu
>>7889173
That's my chin desu
i changed my twitter profile pic to myself and my latest tweet had 11 profile clicks
people saw my ugly face blagh
changing it back to some emo shit
>>7889146
That makes me the best chaser chaser
>>7889151
>>7889157
Either that or I ripped it from the voice thread for giggles
>>7889163
Caraposting a.k.a all the "early transition" threads in the general board, posted by the biggest meme shitposter we have here, Cara.
In the past she was more prevalent, and made threads based on particular early transitioners to a point of stalking, and even got in trouble in the real world, thus why she stopped, and doesn't make as many anymore, but non the less the fame of the infamous "Cara" is present all through out the /tttt/ board, though to a lesser extent /mtfg/ specifically, considering how many other meme girls there are here.
>>7889034
spring is here,
time to emerge as a beautiful butterfly mtfg!
>>7889158
>>7889162
The trick is to be so traumatized and despised by the people you care about most that you hate yourself so much that you don't hide from the world because you want it, but because they're better off without you.
I have nobody to talk to when I'm lonely, nobody to cry to when I'm sad, nobody to share my accomplishments with when I succeed, nobody to really share my life with or make a meaningful relationship with. Nobody will celebrate with me when I finish med school, I'll keep making dinners for two and just throw half out, and when I die alone, nobody will mourn me.
And it feels pretty alright because nobody would want to spend time with an awful waste of life like me.
Tl;dr hate yourself and anything is possible. Besides making other people happy at least x3
>>7889163
Caraposter is basically the board's boogeyman, thus called because of the pictures of Cara Delevingne that they attach to their posts.
>>7889188
>she
>>7889194
But staying in cocoon is comfy
i need abit of extra money thinking about getting a second job
>>7889195
i wanna hold you
>>7889202
But boyfriends don't date cocoons.
It's over
>>7889166
>Keep it moist, ladies
Mine... Doesn't seem to have any trouble keeping itself moist >.>
>>7889203
make your boyfriend buy the stuff you want for you
>>7889209
u came out?
>>7889206
Ahhhhhhhhhh ><><><
It's not fair
>>7889209
How did it go?
>>7889034
i'm looking in my provider pharmacy index thing online and i can search what drugs are covered.
so what are the HRT drugs i can check for?
i don't know the exact names.
whats the name of the injections?
>>7889209
Tell us how it went :o
Cis male here.
Ran into a problem I never thought I would ever have to.
My gf of six months is trans. We didn't have sex because she wanted to take it slow, just kissing and getting to know each other.
She was really panicked and was scared I would leave if she told me.
I still like her a lot and it changes nothing. But will she be offended if I just ignore the penis? I'm not gay so dicks are not enticing to me.
But I feel sympathy for her since she never chose to be like this. How do I best reassure her I still want to be with her?
>>7889214
Well, how are they supposed to get in?
Who wants to die?
>>7889204
I would probably sperg out and try to shoot you
>>7889219
youre nice
she'll probably prefer that you ignore the penis so that's good
>>7889219
>six months
>never had sex
She played you bro
>>7889201
Mark my words, by the end of the year, Princess Cara will be a pretty girl.
>>7889212
noooo id feel mean
>>7889221
do me first!
>>7889224
not if i hold you really tight
>>7889226
As much as I hate my penis, I still use it on my gfs
>>7889234
>being a lesbian
>>7889226
u.u
GO OUT AND DO THINGS TODAY
>>7889213
>>7889215
>>7889218
I was surprised to find out my dad didn't remember, or maybe he did. He's good at screwing with me. I wound up showing him the letter first the day before I left, and took another full day to finally come out to my mom, but I actually said it instead of handing over the letter.
My dad is like "Sounds like you're not sure, like there's some kind of block, maybe you should look more into it"
And my mom...I don't think she's entirely thrilled by it, but she seems to accept it, and is trying to understand. She already suspected I was like gay or something, and I managed to spit it out like "Oh it's worse than that"
>>7889236
Anon might be bi?
>>7889227
Something like that
How does any two people go six months without like didn't you ever cop a feel?
What's going on here?
Are you roleplaying again Anonymous?
>>7889209
How'd it go
Is bigfoot real?
I'm out of weed again kms
You can't be an alcoholic until you're at least 24 sass
>>7889238
I MIGHT GO STALK SOME PEOPLE WHO I FOUND AND WANT TO BE FRIENDS WITH SO THERES THAT
>>7889236
I'm bi
I have a bf and 2 gfs
>>7889239
I'm glad to hear that it went well!
>>7889240
>"""anon"""
>>7889243
AT LEAST THAT IS SOMETHING BUT DON'T ACTUALLY STALK THEM JUST TALK
>>7889227
I was looking for a intimate relationship, not just sex
>>7889244
>poly
>>7889233
People are disgusting tbqh don't give me your germs
>>7889216
Antiandrogens:
Spironolactone
Cyproterone Acetate
17b Estradiol:
Estrace (17b Estradiol)
Estrofem (Estradiol Hemihydrate)
Progynova (Estradiol Valerate)
Not sure the brand names but injections are also Estradiol Valerate (depot?)
Progestins:
Prometrium (Micronized Progesterone)
Provera (Medroxyprogesterone Acetate)
>>7889252
shhhhhhhhhhhhhh
>>7889249
I DONT WANNA TALK TO THEM ITS SCARY IF I JUST SHOWED UP AND TALKED TO THEM
>>7889251
I like both sexes
Looks like karma finally got Kayla good =)~
>>7889259
Yea that's understandable but polygamy?
baka desu senpai
>>7889261
wat?
>>7889253
yes!, thank you!
would you know the better choices out of those drugs?
>>7889265
Her bf dumped her kek
>>7889209
Isn't it?
>>7889256
Who even are they?
>>7889266
Cyproterone best anti androgen desu
>>7889267
That's a shitty thing to take joy from.
>>7889267
Stop living vicariously through other people weirdo get a life
>>7889209
the ride is just beginning
>>7889274
Not really when she herself is a sociopath mega cunt. You reap what you sow.
>>7889271
I hardly even know ><
>>7889276
Suck my dick, lil bean bitch.
>>7889281
Why do you want to get to know them?
>>7889281
They better not be edgy older boys.
>>7889280
Kayla's not a sociopath, she's actually quite a nice person once beneath all the craziness.
There's no undercurrent of nastiness to her; her little outbursts are like "crimes of passion" when she gets wound up.
>>7889267
>bf
it was some chaser from here
I doubt they did any of the stuff kayla said
>>7889288
Kay where you at I'm bored
Anywhere near LA bro. I'm there. Come at me.
>>7889294
trip on kayla
>>7889294
She's still rude, mean, and a cunt.
>>7889289
They seem nice, close to my age, and I kno one of them is trans so it's like, maybe they wouldn't bully me for that
>>7889264
I'm in an open relationship though
>>7889303
Fair enough, seems like a reasonable group to try to get to know.
did you ever believe homura would make it this far?
>>7889310
except when she is lol
and she pretty much just wants validation without ever giving back to anyone
>>7889266
I take Spironolactone, Cypro is popular here but it can have nasty emotional side effects and is harder on your liver. Estrace and Estrofem are very similar, Valerate is a slower release formula; personally I think Estrace is the best tablet. Prometrium is by far the best progestin; it's the same as your body uses. Provera is cheap but it's not bioidentical and can have more side effects.
>>7889261
>>7889267
She is better off. He sounds like a piece of shit.
Ok, I'm at Macy's thinking about trying on bras, but I'm super embarrassed and scared to get clocked.
Hi all, how are you?
>>7889324
Just bought my dad a "please forgive me for being a fucking brat" gift.
>>7889314
I don't know why you see it as disgusting.
>>7889324
Hi Anon! Doing well enough, yourself?
>>7889313
Shut the fuck up loser get a life weirdo post a pic ugly asf fuck you
>when you buy the transgender meme
>>7889335
The results were far sexier.
>>7889335
THIS
>>7889320
>nasty emotional side effects
yeah that's pretty important to know
lots of crying
maybe worth it for nuking your balls
>>7889340
I don't believe you. I look like a girly boy.
>>7889335
Good thing you're cute :3
>>7889335
Oh quit complaining, you've turned out pretty great all things considered.
>>7889347
Post piiiiiiiics.
Kill me
>>7889347
More like a girly girl desu, besides your voice from what I've heard is like perfect, I doubt you'd get clocked with that
>>7889324
hi there friendo, just bought a nice facemask for later
What are you up to nonnie?
>>7889356
What's wrong?
any of you guys have any advice for losing weight but not gaining muscle tone?
i started hrt a month ago and I really would like to lose all my boyfat as my body redistributes
>>7889346
hugg Maeve
It took 6 months, but Spiro nuked mine good :)
>>7889353
>>7889358
Idk, I don't pass as well when I look depressed or tired for some reason.
>>7889382
FOLLOW YOUR DREAMS
>>7889376
find your maintenance calories and eat at a caloric deficit
>>7889385
Don't you dare.
>>7889383
danke
that's what I was thinking I just wanted some other opinions.
jogging I can do but giving up shitty food is so hard senpai
>>7889389
don't -you- dare
>>7889386
Cute/10
>>7889383
Thanks, lol.
where do I buy cheap dresses/skirts online?
not trans but I rarely go on this board so I'd rather not make a new thread
>>7889393
I don't dare sadly
>>7889391
Replace soda with apple juice, worked for me senpai ^^
But seriously stuff like potato chips is sooo hard to give up u.u
>>7889398
yeah I replaced soder with green tea a while ago, its taco bell and snackage that my tummy won't let me get rid of ;-;
>>7889377
hugg
nice!
>>7889398
I've found that after not eating potato chips for a few days, I have less interest in them.
>>7889386
You do kind of look like a tomboy, I guess. But I doubt anyone will "clock" you considering your voice.
>>7889396
Go thrifting instead. It's cheap and you can find some really cute stuff!
>>7889310
Kayla is mean and takes pleasure in being mean.
You need to stop hugboxing a monster.
>>7889405
Now I want potato chips :<
>>7889415
oh my god lol i still havent shown you any more elephants im so sorry im just so incredibly lazy
>>7889415
Now I want Gloomy :3c
>transgirl in a cartoon
>just looks like a guy in a dress with a wig
>"transvestite"
Every time baka
>tfw i ate chipotle 1-2 times a week and gained 20 lbs over a year
I need some weight loss tips too, im sick of going back to the default of fasting when i really get insecure lol
>>7889420
the word transvestite makes me so uncomfy its gross gros gross gross
>>7889410
I tried the whole gum thing and it doesn't work for me, but i recently bought a good blender in the hopes that maybe smoothies will be a good guilt free snack.
i really don't snack often, I just eat unhealthy things when I do desu
>>7889424
I know I haaaate it ><
Who's that tripfag?
Omg look at my cat she's crazy
>>7889428
Smoothies are good ^^
>>7889406
My voice is not THAT good. It's ok I guess.
>>7889394
Pffft
>>7889410
Go with cape cod potato chips. They actually fill you up, so it's harder to eat the entire bag without noticing.
And pour it into a bowl so you can track how much you're eating.
>>7889415
Sux
>>7889406
Also:
>tomboy transgirl
I thought this was just a meme.
>>7889435
See a cat posted post a cat c:
>>7889396
Forever 21, H&M, Old Navy
>>7889405
>>7889415
>Now I want potato chips :<
I want to eat potato chips everyday. Several times a day. One bag is never enough.
God, I want pic related so bad right now :(
>>7889421
>I need some weight loss tips too
For me it's all about counting calories, controlling portion size and staying somewhat active. Give yourself a cheat day once a week. You can eat whatever you feel like, within reason as long as you don't over do it. Some foods are really hard to eat in smaller portions though because they are so calorie dense. Looking at you Pasta!
>>7889421
I've managed to convince myself that I only need to eat 2 meals a day because I'm inactive and sleep 12 hours a day, but I'm losing weight so I think I'm wrong.
>>7889440
Sorry, I just meant that you look like a boyish or androgynous girl. x.x
>>7889433
A dude in a skirt?
It's Robin!
>robin! robin!
>>7889454
Oh, ok.
I guess I can buy into that.
I need longer hair q_q
>>7889424
Same.
I'd rather be called a shemale than a transvestite, and I fucking hate the word shemale.
>>7889457
Wow, Robin has like, a really large head.
Kinda feel bad for her, the rest of her body works, but that head, yikes!
>>7889465
What about dickgirl?
Transvestite is a crossdresser, and it sounds like a parasite or a disease.
And I actually have a personal history with shemale, so Ive grown to hate it.
>>7889465
transvestite is the worst word honestly
>>7889470
Did you use to do porn?
my bf to cheat me :-(
>>7889470
Dickgirl doesn't really bother me desu
>>7889470
So if I'm being autistic or If anyone was for that matter, you'd prefer "please be my dickgirl gf"?
>>7889450
>One bag is never enough.
>241g
B-but that's gotta be like 3/4s of a day's worth of calories
>>7889475
No. People just used to bully me by calling me a shemale because I was so fucking girly as a kid.
>>7889479
I'd prefer you not lewd the keions
>>7889479
Please be my gf
Works just fine
>>7889474
No! I want to make you a healthy dinner without any chips.
I think I'm going to make ramen with my chicken soup.
I forgot to buy carrots :(
I'm going to go with an auistic green theme: zuchinni, green onions+,cilantro, chicken plus avocado.
my friend has to cheat, I love him, what I need do? :-(
good morning mtfg
>tfw your filters change their trips
>>7889481
That sucks
Surprised kids in school knew what that word meant
>>7889485
Ohh that's really nice~
Pizza instead of chips is fine too :3
Aaahhh, my bangs go down to my nose and I have nothing to keep my hair up to wash my face u.u
>>7889489
You are a girl tho silly ^^
so I've been taking mones for like two months now, and my nipples have been sensitive- almost feeling bruised- since I started. I know that means my bops are growing but are they gonna stay this sensitive the whole time? Its to the point where it kinda hurts if I bump into something hard
>>7889497
That is not healthy, Glooms...
>>7889481
That sucks :( it must've been awful being called that all the time
I usually just get called a faggot at school, which isn't so bad
>>7889480
>B-but that's gotta be like 3/4s of a day's worth of calories
It's worse than that. A 220g bag is 1155 calories which is pretty much my limit for the day ;_;
>>7889486
Pls be my gf
>>7889496
I guess he watched porn and stumbled on it.
He was supposedly my friend.
The same guy also made awful comments about celebs that were supposedly transgirls, and didn't really acknowledge anything besides SRS.
It was really gross and was basically the reason I tried to repress.
I'm so pathetic, crying in front of a Macy's and being too shy to get a bra because some fag called me a shemale.
>>7889515
sounds like a repressing girl dwsu
>>7889501
The sensitivity slows down at 6+ months
You'll miss being able to lay in bed playing with them or being able to orgasm off playing with them
Tfw no bf to suck on nipples so sensitive just licking one makes you completely tense up and moan out loud again
Hmmmm. Maybe I should've put the noodles at the bottom and the veggies on top for presentation effects.
Bon appetit!
Oh nevermind i moved it around and it looks pretty!
>>7889510
sheesh why would i ever filter you
i just filter people who are mean to me to avoid negativity
because otherwise i get into dumb arguments
>>7889510
>What would you cook for me? :3
Oysters, chocolate and chilli peppers.
>>7889520
looks yummy!!!
I can't wait to get off work and cook up something myself~
Oryx is kakoi
>>7889517
I'm at 9 months and still p sensitive. The root of my breasts were sore last night too.
>>7889510
A... A Mediterranean salad with cucumbers, olives and feta cheese, and a fillet of tuna on the side.
>>7889527
Guess it varies from person to person. Growth tends to come in waves too. I've been on and off HRT for a decsde mine are stubbornly insensitive and haven't felt soreness since. A lot of growth but nothing else.
Not....too awful I guess.
>>7889527
the sensitivity does kinda get in the way during the day but my boops have been much more fun to play with
>>7889482
I won't lewd them if you be my gf.
Buying gf 300gp, bronze helm, and 19 tanned hides.
>>7889500
hahaha okay
>>7889531
I mean, it's not that fun when you need to buy a bra. That shits expensive.
>>7889537
https://youtu.be/1GgCp7c5zd8
Keep your head up and put a skip in your step, Charlotte.
>>7889530
I think being on and off might have caused that. I've noticed that people tend to have problems when they don't go on and stay on.
Is wanting a breast reduction not trutrans?
Shit can be uncomfy and I still have the puffiness, so knowing that they will get bigger still kinda is reeee at this point.
>>7889523
Mhh~ I only really filter bad images :O
But I make some posts with keywords less prominent :o
>>7889524
E-Ehh? That sounds like a weird combination :S
And I'm a vegetarian and don't like too spicy stuff >.<
But chocolate sounds fine~
(Unless it's bitter chocolate - I'm sorry I'm really picky >.<)
>>7889528
Aahhh that's sweet of you~
I guess I would try the salad, even though I'd prefer a pizza, but as I said I'm a vegetarian, so I'm sorry :(
Maybe you can post a pic of that her some time - I'm sure it looks good :3
>>7889531
A G P
G
P
not that there's anything wrong with that
>>7889544
Pretty song =3
I'm just not very confident.
>>7889545
Unfortunately. No mood or emotional changes at all. Body kind of changed somewhat, skin is more soft, etc, but nothing in the head where I really want it. Feels even worse than crippling depression and all the other nice changes. Nothing is a lot worse.
>>7889548
Some cis girls get reductions when they're too big. I enjoy being a B-cup to tell the truth, and I consider myself pretty trutrans.
>>7889526
Kakoi is oryx :-)
>>7889549
what do you use for that?
i'll often check hidden posts anyway unless i find the person boring, it just reminds me that i shouldn't reply most of the time
what you up to?
>>7889550
not agp its just nice to actually have visual changes happen, and before mones my nipples weren't sensitive at all
>>7889556
Ouch. Maybe stay off then, or just do blockers :/
I do remember noticing a positive change when I went on at first, and stayed on because things felt clearer and comfier.
>tfw bang bobs into something again
how to stop doing this?
tonight is not a good night
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=natQF-y0Ez8
>>7889574
why? all night is same
>>7889570
I could really do without the suicidal depression and crying but it's part of the package and I miss it along with everything else. I don't really know what options I have since I want to go through this to the end. Maybe I should just kill myself for a chance at rerolling as a cis girl or an early transitioning mtf.
>>7889532
I'm 2 young senpai
Hi.
>>7889577
Whatever you do, you should take a few weeks to weigh out whether it's right or not, and commit. No point in flip-flopping when you have a goal in mind.
>>7889526
uwu
>>7889563
Mhh~ I don't really like salad either though >.<
I know I'm weird :S
>>7889565
Ohh I made my own script, which also colors posts differently based on their tripcode :3
The nice thing is I can just hover over the small transparent post to make them big again :3
I'm not doing much atm, but Rini wanted to videocall me soon :o
>>7889574
I'm sure tomorrow night will be better :)
>>7889572
You should get a confident friend to go out with when doing stuff. Just being out with others in general makes the world less scary. Of course, I guess it's not always practical.
>>7889584
What DO you like, besides pizza?
>>7889586
Do girls usually go bra shopping with their friends?...
I'm getting so nervous.
>>7889590
I like pasta too! :3
And also stuff with potatoes and that's pretty much it I guess :D
>>7889590
ass
okay /mtfg/ what the fuck happened to me
>decide go on to /mtfg/ for the first time
>oh hey this place seems pretty fun
>have a good time lurking and checking out the trips
>haha that was fun
>go to bed
>lie awake for 2 hours thinking of being a girl
>spend the next 3 days as depressed as I've ever been
>wanting to be a female or fucking kill myself
>been on my mind for the entire day all 3 days
>I thought I got over this bullshit in elementary and middle school
anybody else know this feel? I'm not even trans holy shit, why do I have these feels.
Every time I talk to a straight transwoman in my area I'm like
I wonder if she'll know
>>7889584
oh, nice
i've never been good at programm-y stuff desu
most complicated i did was a ren-py text adventure thing but that was just a shit ton of variables
that's cute! you're dating her, right? how long has it been
>>7889581
Well, for the first time I have a doctor and money backing me so I can't drop back off hormones. But it's too little too late at this point it seems. Going and off 5 times in 10 years killed my brain I guess. Test is gone, but I don't feel anything, not even sadness.
Death is a really final sort of solution and it's not the first one -- maybe the estradiol I'm taking from pharmacies just isn't metabolizing right. I dunno. Would suck to buy estrofem again since it's like $1 a day or more but generic estradiol is $8 a month.
Not really sure. I have the means to kill myself quickly but haven't done it yet. Only been back on HRT 8 months, maybe things will change. Would be a waste if I pulled the trigger now and just I needed a different form of E or something.>>7889581
>>7889581
I feel like an autist but did anyone here get their ears pierced at a tattoo parlor? All the ones near me don't list earlobe specifically, but they do have "cartilage", is an earlobe piercing considered cartilage?
>>7889594
I thought the same thing in april
>>7889602
yes it is
>>7889594
When I heard that someone else my age was trans, I kinda felt the same way. Sounds pretty normal to me.
You should transition.
>>7889595
why arent you talking to straight boys?
>>7889594
Only physical wounds heal.
>>7889594
>I thought I got over this bullshit in elementary and middle school
>I'm not even trans
These are incompatible statements anon
>>7889584
heh me too
>>7889594
I think this might be bait
>>7889605
Alright thanks :) now I just need to find some invisible starter jewelry so nobody at work can tell
>>7889599
Awh ;_;
Things get better, I promise.
>>7889601
Damn. It's too bad I only have one friend in town and I'm too shy to ask her to go shopping with me.
>>7889579
How young kouhai. Nvm don't get banned.
>>7889594
>I'm not even trans
I have some bad news for you.
>>7889614
good luck anon
>>7889601
What do girls without friends do then?
>>7889594
>I'm not even
hahaha that is such a trans thing to say
anyway im sorry if you're serious
;~;
>>7889621
Lay in bed all day
>>7889593
Oh no you must have been mistaken. I only generated some AssEater Trips for beanboy :o
I don't think asses are food - you know poop comes from there :O
>>7889596
Mhh~ it's just some Userscript for Tampermonkey or Greasemonkey and I looked up how to do that stuff too :3
Ohh I like visual novels~ Kindred Spirits on the Roof was really cute :3
Yee she is my girlfriend >w<
She confessed to me on New Year's Eve, like half an hour before midnight~
It was soo nice~
>>7889601
Yes, that's my favorite but also German food and American Pizza and Fastfood :D
But Rice is fine too I guess~
And I mean I eat some vegetables, but I don't really like just salad >.<
>>7889612
Yush :3
>>7889620
arigatou
The one place offers numbing for $5 I'm gonna be a pussy and take it lel
>>7889625
Same desu....
>>7889615
Find a less intimidating friend u.u
>>7889626
oh, so you looked up some tutorials for it?
how long did it take?
aw, yeah, that sounds super cute
i've never had a relationship that's lasted more than 2-3 months :o
>>7889603
Well at least I know I'm not retarded, thanks
>>7889606
>You should transition
not an option, 2ugly and parents would kick me out in a heartbeat
>>7889610
kill me
>>7889611
I think they're pretty compatible
I just got the hell over it
>>7889613
It's honestly not, I'm just so confused right now
on the other hand I'm getting hella (You)s
>>7889617
hopefully it's my own death
in which case it's good news
>>7889622
I'm sorry for myself tbqh
>>7889603
>>7889629
how bad could it be? electrolysis is probably worse since it just keeps going on and on
>>7889621
I shop online :^) really wish I had friends to go with
>>7889615
False promises but I still appreciate the sentiment. Doesn't sound like things will change. I'll try other forms of estrogen and if that doesn't do it... I dunno.
Everyone that got to start young should do everything possible to stay on even if you have to sell your loved posessions, so you don't end up like me.
>>7889633
>I'm just so confused right now
>>7889635
True but a. I got laser, not electro (I found laser pretty bearable) and b. I always without fail faint when needles go into me. Maybe if I can't feel the needle I won't faint, maybe
>>7889633
You are a train
>>7889630
>>7889642
Wanna lay in bed all day together? uwu
>>7889549
>And I'm a vegetarian and don't like too spicy stuff >.<
i don't know gloomy, i think it'd do you good to have a little meat inside of you
>>7889637
I wish I knew what to say, but it's really up to you to decide what to do now. Make the most of what you have, and maybe things will turn out ok.
>>7889638
well hold up
while I would smash that button harder than a like button at 3am, just because I want to be a woman doesn't mean I can be one
I mean this literally just came out of the blue at me after keeping it in check for years
>>7889639
It does suck, but I can't complain much
>>7889647
I'm not a train though
>>7889656
>doesn't mean I can be one
nope, but it does mean you can be the closest thing medically possible
i fucking love dogs
>>7889655
Everything's gonna be alright...
>>7889633
>parents would kick me out in a heartbeat
Then move away from your parents asap and start transitioning.
And start anti-androgens now, if you can afford to.
Anyone ever look at an item in a clothing store or online and think to yourself "this HAS to be trans bait, no cis woman would be caught dead wearing this". It's like they make stuff that they know hons will eat up and it's an unspoken way to spot them
>>7889670
same desu
>>7889670
I do too. I love animals in general.
>>7889675
Can't move away, too young
I thought about taking some kind of AA in the past, but I always dropped it because it wouldn't work out
would just taking an AA and no estro do anything?
Hi mtfg
I'm starting seeing a therapist today
>>7889659
I'm sorry. How are you feeling now, though? Still outside the store?
>>7889678
>>7889682
hell yeah
>>7889689
good luck, tell us how it goes!
>>7889691
Yep. I've been here fighting off both anxiety and adrenaline for almost 2.5 hours now.
>>7889692
is cute
Calling with Rini now, so replies might take a bit~
>>7889632
Ahh well i did some Javascript things before so I only had to look up some things~
Awww :<
Aaaaahhhh I hope it will last forever ;__;
I've never been in a relationship before >.<
>>7889652
Yep >.<
I'm a bad girl :<
>>7889654
Nuhhh my body isn't used to it so my stomach would hurt :<
>>7889689
Hi Neptune! That's great - I have been to one on Tuesday, but it was sooo scary and now I have to go again next Wednesday ;__;
>>7889692
amg! Gorgeous.
>>7889684
Taking AA with no E won't feminize you, but it will prevent you from masculinizing, and you want to prevent as much masculinization as you can, especially at your age.
>>7889689
gl! That can help a lot, one more day til I can see mine
>>7889649
>tfw no one to lay in bed all day together and watch anime/play games with
>>7889705
pls be in SoCal
>>7889692
german shepherds > all other pupps
>>7889710
german shepherd pups
>>7889707
sorry I live in germany :(
Are you guys picking up the new Sum 41 record that comes out OCTOBER 7th on Hopeless records?
You may remember them from such classics as fat lip, in too deep and still waiting,
Heres a song from their new hit album hitting the shelves October 7th.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=waixG1Dhr3w
>>7889670
It's playtime with mollydog!
do you think I could trick a gay guy into being my bf or would he notice my cone tits and broken dick and bail
I am so horny, who help :-)
>>7889702
That sounds like pretty solid stuff. I only know of two AAs (cypro and spiro). I'm assuming there's a difference between the two, but hell if I know what it would be.
And my age ia dime plus a nickel plus a penny, so would there really be anything worth keeping from happeningafter puberty has hit it's worst?
tell me I look good
>>7889720
The evil hand! Mollydog's nemesis
>>7889726
No, you are fucking precious.
Are you guys picking up the new Sum 41 record that comes out OCTOBER 7th on Hopeless records?
You may remember them from such classics as fat lip, in too deep and still waiting,
Heres a song from their new hit album hitting the shelves October 7th.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=waixG1Dhr3w
>>7889733
Mollydog is not intimidated, she gives the hand the sideye
>>7889731
you look cute
>>7889717
Aww that's nice :3
I'll try my best to eat healthier!
>>7889742
But it was a ruse! The hunter has become the hunted!
>>7889749
Aaaaaahhh scary ;__;
it's nice. Before HRT I had never real felt like I had any romantic emotional feels and was cynical and isolated deliberately
Now on hrt I want a boyfriend so badly and it makes me happy because at least now I want a relationship like a normal person
>>7889726
ah, iktf, i'll probably have to relearn everything if i try to write the renpy text thing again :v
oh, i've never had anything irl :x
too isolated for that
>>7889762
nice, how old are you?
>tfw boops are becoming noticeable but I'm too nervous/scared to go bra shopping
>>7889762
I'm on hrt too but I think I'm still broken
>>7889771
Online shopping
>>7889748
what's nice about living in germany or did you respond to the wrong post?
>>7889743
Do I really?
I stopped working out :/
>>7889774
why you think, still broken?
>>7889729
You'd be surprised by how much manlier some people can get in their late teens and early 20's.
For one thing, your shoulders and ribcage will most likely get broader during that time, and once that happens there's no way to make them narrower again, not even surgically.
>>7889731
I kinda have gotten used to you and want to cuddle you
>>7889764
Mhh~ I'd like to learn a lot of stuff, but I feel like I have no Energy and I get frustrated super easily when something doesn't work >_<
Ohh~ I see I hope you find someone you like soon :3
>>7889771
>tfw boops never grew large enough to need a bra
>>7889782
When are you getting on hormones?
>>7889782
you stop see the body, you look inside you
>>7889787
yeah, i have no motivation either
just get depressed and stuff and as soon as i feel like i'm forcing myself to do something il ose all motivation
i kinda have a gf but i'm not sure if it'll work out long term bc i'm starting to get genital dysphoria aaand she'd want me to use it . . .
i guess i'll have to see if the feelings subside or not
bean boy do you want to be a girl
wouldn't it be nice
>>7889794
isn't good, where you from?
>>7889780
got it, I should probably find out the difference between spiro and cypro first
>>7889785
hey, guess I'm not terribly late after all
I was always sure that I could push back wanting to be a girl at least, but the one thing I really detested was the thaught of getting more masculine, so would AA help with that?
Buying gf
why doesnt everybody want to be a girl
if being transgender was completely normalized do you think we'd have a fuck ton of them
>>7889800
Mhh yeah that sucks :(
I really don't want to go to the psychotherapist, but I have to get official finally and stuff >.<
Aahhh yeah genital dysphoria is really bad >_<
But maybe just cuddles and kisses are fine too? :O
>>7889814
Normal guys don't want to be girls, it's hard to imagine but apparently true.
>>7889822
Faye normal guy confirmed
>>7889820
i want to see a psychiatrist but my parents are shitty and won't help me so i' mkinda stuck
i bet add meds could help me a lottt
idk she's more sexual
i don't even know how serious this relationship is because last time we tried it was more hook up-y and she doesn't talk all that much
pairing someone who doesn't talk too much and somebody who has extreme social paranoia doesn't work too well...
>>7889828
ouch
how come? are you having a lot of breakdowns
>>7889814
I don't think so. I didn't find transgender and decide that's what I was. I blocked everything out and then finally had a mental break down and recognized I needed to shift my body to match my mind. I always assumed I was just a strange beta straight male who really wanted a vagina lmao.
>wake up
>look in mirror
>still a boy
>be happy
>look for gf
>flirt with girls
>boy life best life
who have sex now? :-)
>>7889810
>of getting more masculine, so would AA help with that?
Yes, it would.
Although there are some health risks to having no sex hormones for long periods of time, like osteoporosis, so you should start E as soon as it's safe and practical to do so.
I've seen people on /lgbt/ talk about this before, and how to minimize the risks of being on AA but no E, but unfortunately I don't know off the top of my head what the things are that you're supposed to do.
In case you weren't aware, this board actually has an hrt general, so you could try asking about it there. >>7861898
ive been practicing smiling lately
>>7889802
c-can I really be a girl oni-chan?!~ uwu don't lie to me....
>>7889813
h-hi ~ :3
>>7889792
>I haven't been on them since I started tripcoding here
>>7889795
Inside I am euphoric
>>7889786
I'm an acquired taste
I do want to cuddle with some one.
With like a nice smelling warm wet butt
Fuck I'm lonely
If I just had smaller shoulders my body would look cis.
:(
yesterday i thought about smashing my collar bone with a hammer
my shoulder width would be smaller then right?
>>7889856
LOOKING GOOD BABY GIRL HOW U BEEN THO
>>7889863
Depends how the bones heal I think. Probably not a good idea regardless.
>>7889863
Just be a boy silly
>>7889863
Holy fuck. Don't entertain those thoughts.
>>7889863
No, to the contrary.
What will happen is when your bones heal they will get a little longer because when bones heal the boney matter fills in the gaps.
You'd make your shoulders wider by doing that.
It's a thing in China to repeatedly break your legs and stretch them out to be taller.
>>7889828
Mhh the way there is the most scary thing about it :S
Everyone looks at me and wants to beat me up ;__;
>>7889833
Aww that's really frustrating :(
My parents don't like me being trans, but at least they wanted me to go to a psych. But insurance pays for it anyways here...
Hmm I dunno I'm not that experienced with relationships, but like if you love each other you'll find a way :)
Ahh I'm scared too I won't be able to say anything either, but I guess just cuddling all the time should work well :3
>>7889863
>tfw there are surgeons who will break people's legs to make them longer, but none who will break people's shoulders to make them narrower.
>>7889863
iktf,
like i can accept my fugly masc face, but shoulders are such a deal breaker for me
>>7889863
It must be frustrating to have only one thing that needs fixing but no way to fix it. Then again, better than having lots of things that need fixing.
>>7889847
bleh, why does chemically changing your body have to be so hard
Anyone know any way to take an AA without any E? Would taking small portions of both be a viable option, or am I just retarded?
>>7889762
lol i want a boyfriend that i can break down crying in front of and have him comfort me now
>>7889874
where do you live? i'm in hawaii lol
my mom's hyper religious so there's no way she'd ever accept me
once i move out i'm never talking to her again
>>7889863
Yeah I heard about a surgery like that too, but you can't move your arms properly then :/
And doing that yourself would be super dangerous, so don't do it!
Also I accidentally cracked your trip. I hope you don't mind~
>>7889891
Makes you think you should go for it.
>>7889877
>pretending
>>7889891
do it
>>7889894
I'm in love my my masculinity....
It really does kinda make me think tho.......
Like really...
Eghh.
Give it some years then I'll actually have a man bod and not this limbo where I can still go for it
me next year when i go to uni
>>7889889
Ohh Hawaii sounds nice, except for deadly volcanoes and stuff :O
I'm from Germany and it's not that bad here, but the psych require RLE and I don't pass >_<
Ahh my parents are super religious too, but my mom calls me by my girlname now. Only my dad will never accept me :/
>>7889890
hey gloomy, what are your top 3 fears about meeting sertii?
>bean boy is actually repressing
>>7889885
afaik, the risks of being on AA but no E aren't all that bad, but it's still something you should be aware of so you don't give yourself osteoporosis or something.
Ugh shaving my body gives me panic attacks like at least one some point in the day after. It's such an anxiety spike but very subtle so I forget why I'm stressed.
>>7889905
I'm not sure if I should tell you that >_<
>>7889908
Panic about what?
>>7889904
do you need to go to church alot? :/
>>7889902
myrthe's future address
>>7889911
There's a penis though
Don't be mean
>>7889910
gloomy, really, how long have we known each other for?
i'm just curious is all
>>7889911
>admiring angles/crops
you obviously haven't seen full candid pics of faye
>>7889913
Panic attacks like just a rush of adrenaline for no reason. Autonomic body responses to stressors I don't even recognize mostly my clothing against my skin probably. Like anxiety driven not necessarily anything triggers actually panic. Like speeding up breathing, anxious thinking, phantom pain, other strange stuff that is all psycosomatic (sp). It's just my body disagreeing with reality but responding to mental stress. It's like stage freight.
hi im awake
there was no one beside me when i woke up
kinda wish i was still asleep :<
>>7889911
I dunno I just got lucky I guess :O
Ohh and I only have the first 9 letters or so, but i didn't expect that it was music related :o
>>7889914
As a kid yes, but now they realized that doesn't work like that and I'm not sure if my dad wants a tranny in his church :/
>>7889920
I'm not sure how long I know you, but you know a lot about me, which is scary, because I want to know at least as much about the person I'm talking to, so I have some security >.<
>>7889927
Aahh but I'm scared to post it on 4chan :<
>>7889925
Interesting.
What is bean talking about. and also hence forth is a shit way to make a proclamation.
>tfw beanboy is just a lonely trans woman crushed by the strength of south american machismo that drinks away her dysphoria with cheap alcohol while she wanders the streets of LA looking for meaningless sexual encounters to replace the lack of intimacy she has
;-;
>>7889863
hugg
My shoulders completely ruin my silhouette and the muscle between my shoulders and torso make my chest look way bigger than it is :(
Tops do not fit right at all.
>>7889930
Nah, we just want you to stop repressing.
>>7889904
i live in a rural area which is pretty h
oh, yeah, i've heard germany is pretty shit... having to go outside before you pass as a girl seems extremely cruel :(
it's a shame your dad won't accept you, do you at least get along with your mom well? i'll probably have to ditch all my immediate family
>>7889934
>I'm not sure how long I know you, but you know a lot about me, which is scary, because I want to know at least as much about the person I'm talking to, so I have some security >.<
That's okay Gloomy, you don't have to respond if you don't want to. I'll seek alternative avenues for information.
>be trans in the Philippines
>both parents die in flood
>get infection from untreated stagnate water
>die 4 years later from kidney failure
>>7889938
>How'd your dildo self fucking go?
idk it felt good but I wasn't able to get it all in. I will continue to practice. I don't seem to have trouble with dicks but this was a little different.
>>7889934
>Ohh and I only have the first 9 letters or so, but i didn't expect that it was music related :o
9 letters? there are only 8 and a number. :S
>>7889924
zzz
>>7889917
zzz
>>7889942
Delete this
>tfw waiting around for an hour until the observatory opens
I just wanna see the planets and stars ;-;
>>7889942
Deepest lore
>>7889891
Do eet
Become the grill
tfw zheanna is lewd
>>7889972
is this news to you, my dear?
you know, I give the best head in the thread.
>>7889971
I'm scared
list the "pure" trips
>>7889981
Chara
>>7889981
your mom before I ate her out xdddd
real pillow queen btw
>>7889978
Tfw will never get head from Zheanna
Tfw even if you did you couldn't get it up for her so instead of a blowjob it would be more like sucking on a jolly rancher
Why even live
>>7889980
Don't be
>>7889988
You could always hook up with bean boy.
Chara is a whore
another day of smoking weed to help ignore transphobic people c:
what about you guys? has everyone had a chill/comfy day?
>>7889947
Ohh me too, that's why it's so hard for me to go to a psych, because I have to use public transport for so long and it's like the most scary thing in the world D:
>>7889951
Ahh I'm sorry Anon :<
I am really scared about our first kiss~ >.<
>>7889958
Huhh? Oh well it happened a few times that I got the same trip with a different code at the end, so maybe the last 2 letters are different :o
It works with "To" as well :3
Oh and it's 10 letters of course, i didn't coutn right >.<
>>7889991
>You could always hook up with bean boy.
>>7889981
>hanna
>maeve
>snickerdoodle
>sheen
>evangeline
>shy
>sish
>cindy
>gloomy
>ash
gets
>>7889988
Jolly Ranchers are hard candy though, come up with a different metaphor.
>>7889997
sish is dead it's Myrthe now
>>7889980
It's okay
Everyone is scared when they think about the future and transitioning and worry they'll never make it. It'll be all right
>>7890001
*is dead*
>>7890008
God I wish that were me
>>7889978
I'm sure I give better head than you.
crave lewd and affection
distract me
im going to need a volunteer to beat the shit out of, cuddle, and hatefuck
taking applications now
>>7889993
Think I'm trolling too hard.
>>7890011
>>7890008
>>7890011
pls no
>>7889997
why am i not a pure trip
>>7889995
That's pretty strange. Hmm.
>>7889988
Aww babe, yea it wouldn't be very much fun for me to suck your cock if it was so small and useless. I like average sized cocks and men who provide me with large loads.
>>7890013
I would actually bet you hard cash if there was some way to settle it.
I treat sucking cock like an art form, identical to music. Sucking cock requires rhythm, form, harmony, and orchestration. I approach giving head like a performance in a concert hall. With full dedication, immersion, appreciation, and focus,
>>7889888
i literally just did that yesterday. its pretty nice to have a chest to cry on and have someone's hands patting your back yelling you things are gonna be okay
you'll have a qt bf/gf like that one day just keep looking c:
>>7889942
This was my life for 5 yeara during my early 20s. Except I was in a semi famous rock band and we had groupies and eveyone wanted to give you free liquor and beers and drugs, and I used to get into fisticuffs all the time
>>7889995
>I am really scared about our first kiss~ >.<
Hmm, interesting, that's definitely a big one. What about having to speak English for a sustained period of time? I can't imagine you have much reason to use it on a regular basis and your accent might be a little rusty.
>>7889895
wtf?! monster cock!
>>7890032
>i have no idea how to use the bus by myself
you are just joking right?
I WANT TO PENIS A GIRL (MALE)
>>7889987
you need this pic for when u rek' someone again
>>7890032
The bus isn't hard to use
I use the bus and the metro here pretty often
>>7890031
desu from what you said your early life sounds pretty damm cool
anywway im off to bed now nini
>>7890041
no
i'm sheltered as fuck
i live in a rural area and i've never been on the bus alone
i don't even know how to navigate town alone
>>7890044
:x
i wouldn't mind talking to him maybe if i just knew what to do
i need people to guide me through thigns before i can do anything
>>7890042
>girl (male)
fuck off
>>7890042
I want to be penis'd by a girl
What's up
Say nice things about the following trip(read: hon):
beangirl
>>7890059
Have you spoken with the people you were stalking yet?
>>7890065
joan :3
>>7890050
Mhh I hope Rini will teach me how everything works >.<
But it's so confusing D:
>>7890065
Nope
I might go out and stalk them in a few hours, might stay in bed
>>7890069
Hi Nim, how are you?
>>7890050
I live in a rural area too but know how to get around. how do you get stuff done alone?
>>7890014
wtf where are my gay subby little princesses
this is bullshit
rrrrrrrrrrrrrr
>>7890044
>Are you stalking me?
Don't be silly, Gloomy. I just want to know what you're most afraid about in this forthcoming meeting.
>>7890073
i got a bunch of skincare stuff today ^^
ooo and my lab results for my recent test came back
test - 20 ng/dL
e - 98.1pg/mL
i decided to go up to 6mg a day just to get it to that 150-200 sweet spot
how are you joan?
>>7890027
i love it when you get inspired, but it's more of a zen state than a preformance.
sure, you have mastered art, but you need to transcend art and be one with the penis. there is no action and reaction. the mouth does not lead, the penis does not lead. ;)
>>7890075
Hi hello where do I apply
uh oh nervous
>>7890075
Personally the "beat the shit out of" part of the deal sounds too painful for it to be worthwhile.
>>7890049
night comrade!
I wonder who the least lewd person here is?
>>7890080
I'm okay, you know, mild dysphoria and difficulties with work but overall I could be worse.
>>7890090
me
:^)
>>7890091
(hugg)
>>7890094
I don't have Discord or any means of contact
Can you just peel my skin off or something talking to each other is too much commitment
any idea how i can talk about my opinions on the internet while guaranteeing that i will never become famous b/c of it?
i also want it to be an archive that i can keep of my thoughts that i can access @ any time, under any circumtances.
i think maybe vidme is the answer, since it isn't a very popular site, & an account isn't required.
what do you think /mtfg/?
>>7890100
Aww, thank you; hugg back at you.
>>7890103
ok i can hit you until things go blurry
:)
>>7890090
They don't let me lewd so~
>>7890107
Yay where should I go
>>7890104
Become famous cuck
When I go to DTLA sometimes people recognize me
>>7890122
>>When I go to DTLA sometimes people recognize me
>oh shit, it's that weird, smelly mexican boy again
>mike, get security
>>7890104
Lmao go pretend to be smart on reddit you'll make a few Internet points
>>7890120
Oh... I'm in Americuck. Sorry.
>>7890134
well hit yourself until you start to black out and then say thank you to me
that works
>>7890128
Are you old enough to give daddy cummies?
>>7890128
do you not need go to stores or something?
>>7890136
Will do. It's just not the same though.
>>7890126
???
>>7890146
Sweet dreams, Gloomy. I can't wait until you and Sertii meet up.
>>7890144
sounds harsh. my parents call me sheltered because I only leave the house ~4 times a week.
sup
hi
so i've been talking to someone and getting help for my BPD and i found out that borderline personality disorder gets worse when you're on HRT
primarily because high estrogen levels exacerbate BPD symptoms. which is why my injections make me so depressed and mean.
i'm switching my medication and all that other stuff and not posting here has been helping me a lot as well.
but i wanted to let everyone here know, for anyone who may suffer with similar issues that i do, that you should know that higher E levels can make it worse.
and that injections are very potent and work very well, but that they can make you a LOT crazier, and it's not really worth it desu lol
injections are talked about a lot here and are recommended but idk that this specific thing has ever been mentioned about it so ya.
anyways. there's my mild update, hope you're all doing well. until next time~~
>>7890162
(hugg)
good luck friend
ok ok ok ok ok
im going to expand my applications to cuddle and not-painful lewd
i just need affection and distraction someone help
>>7890158
hey grace, i was speaking to birdy yesterday and apparently you're back on the market - is that true?
>>7890158
sup grace how are you doing today?
>>7890155
Goodnight, scary Anon D:
Thank you~ I'm really excited too!
>>7890162
>primarily because high estrogen levels exacerbate BPD symptoms. which is why my injections make me so depressed and mean.
huh
>>7890171
yea better get me before he does
>>7890172
im tired and anxious
hbu
When i have sex with my bf i get what feels like an orgasm, but it isnt explosive like normal orgasms its more drawn out
He tells me he can feel me tense up and twitch when it happens
Is there an explaination for this?
>>7890169
(hugg)
do what I did and get a teddy. They're actually godly.
pic related
>estro might be making my bipolar worse
oh well
Does anyone have muscle spasms when their estrogen levels are low? My palm keeps moving while im typing and it's super annoying.
>>7890176
same but more tired of how my life is than actually tired
>>7890180
i mean i already have an eevee plushie
i'm pretty sure it hates me because i suffocate it with love
>>7890177
>i am the model NEET
Didn't you say you worked? Or did you quit your job?
so I talked to the guy I like who I haven't seen in a year for a few hours today
It went well but he did say I looked really gay, is that good? (I'm not out to him)
>>7890192
not really
>>7890192
I want to fertilize you.
>>7890189
I sometimes sleep face down on mine
I'm surprised it's not pancaked given how fat I am
>>7890188
awww
>>7890198
dood cindy is for hug not for fertilize
>>7890201
b/c it means that he can only ever see you as a guy
>>7889703
ok, so I got up the nerve to do it after grabbing a couple tops to try on
they don't carry anything below band size 32, and even then the options were limited. I'm a band size 30.
So basically nothing fit. fml
>>7889738
>sum 41
or their more recent tracks like jessica kill and screaming bloody murder
my friend calls me a fire extinguisher
cows are fed
body is tired
brain is dead
>>7890209
idk... he's probably never even thought about me being trans, I haven't told him anything yet
Anyways I was in andromode so of course he'd see me as a guy right?
>>7890162
are u going back on pills? this is why my psychiatrist is playing around with different anti depressives with me.
>looking at photo of myself from november
Holy shit Repression is scary
>>7890210
Wtf how small are you
>>7890227
asdfasf asdf looking at REALLLLY old photos of me makes me want to shoot myself
I am the manliest "woman" on the planet
>>7890220
nah, if he were more open to the idea of you being trans, or a girl, then he'd say that you look feminine or like a girl. he wouldn't say that you look gay.
it doesn't matter how much of a girl you look like or present as, to him, yoy only "look gay"
>>7890230
altho probably looking at photos if i were to take them now would probably make me wanna shoot myself as well lol
>>7890205
heyooo
>>7890228
30C or D, I think.
Cup-wise, I fit well in a 32B, but the band was too loose.
>>7890205
I feel like I'm on the best way to become a basic bitch with daddy issues. should I try to fight it or just let things go their way?
>>7890190
well, yardwork
but it's always within a few miles of my house
>>7890234
LOTS AND LOTS OF KISSU AND LOVING.
o i guess i will respond
>>7890166
ty ;-;
>>7890176
what i've come to realize is that when i'm on HRT i'm a cunt and get #triggered easily and all kinds of shit, but without HRT i get dysphoric
so it's a beautiful balancing act of insanity lmao
>>7890181
post-menopausal women with bipolar disorder actually get worse without estrogen, and HRT can help them.
borderline personality disorder directly correlates with high estrogen tho unfortunately, so
>>7890225
yes i'm going to be on 4mg E pills a day compared to the 10mg shots i've done once a week for a few years.
>>7890162
It's something I knew. Apparently there is a sweet spot for everybody. To high and you have issues, and to low and you have issues.
>>7890233
Well I don't think he is open to it, I'm kinda hoping to open him up to it
I've been his friend as a boy for almost 10 years so like, why wouldn't he have trouble seeing me as feminine right?
>>7890242
Did the estrogen stop working once you switched to injections? You grew like no tits at all.
>>7890240
W-who r u anon
>>7890237
you can try and fight it but do you really want to? I wanna go get starbucks with daddy
>>7890236
yoyo
>>7890242
That sure sounds fun!
I've been really touchy lately like I can go from calm to super pissed in 2 seconds and I havent figured out y yet
>>7890236
are you like anorexic or do you have a super small frame?
>>7890227
post repression beards!
these threads move so much faster than the other ones on other boards I go to ;-;
>>7890243
yes tru
>>7890245
no the reason i have no tits now is because i've been on and off injections since november because i've been struggling with my mood
i recognized that i was feeling worse and disassociating more when doing my injections so i stopped doing them.
however, in saying that, i never had tits larger than a 34B (which was my highpoint with injections and progesterone), so.
i'm just one of those ppl that never really grew tig ol bitties.
>>7890250
it might be your E desu. i mean HRT makes people a lil mood swingy anyways, it's just MUCH worse in people like me.
talk to a therapist !!!!
>>7890250
I was at chic-fil-a, and some girl asked for my name. I told her Charley, and she asked if I said Shirley.
I guess I pass?
>>7890251
super small frame due to anorexia when I was 15-18 (when I was going through puberty).
>>7890253
quick, someone post the kayla rage pic
>>7890246
Autist sperg who wants to kissu u 2 death.
[email protected]
tell me about Cindy, why does she need the kissu?
holy FUCK i am crazy levels of horny rn like gosh i cant even enjoy this i need to do something about it asap aaaaAAAAAAAAAAAAAA
>>7890253
Are regular repression pics ok
>look at those cold dead eyes
>>7890270
why are most chasers autistic
>>7890253
>>7890271
bonjour
>>7890271
my boob pics probably aren't helping q_q
>>7890271
finger yourself
>>7890270
W-why would you want to kissu me ><
>>7890280
you look faggy af senpai
>>7890250
I not really want to fight it. I rather want to brew coffee for daddy than go to starbucks tho
>>7890272
haha yeah my eyes always looked so dejected
>>7890280
get a girlfriend that looks like this
>>7890273
My guess is its easier for broken autists to connect with mtf?
I'm sorry I'm going to drop my anxiety stuff and try to be good
>>7890279
Just email me so I can sperg to you in private.
I DON'T WANT TO FUCKING DO THIS ANYMORE
>>7890277
too much effort for such a nEED
>>7890275
><
>>7890276
not rly no but this is more cock focused rn
>>7890272
you look like you're on the verge of tears
>>7890298
All of us are
All the time
Forever and ever
>>7890297
i do volunteer madmoiselle~
>>7890294
I don't wanna email, can you use discord or something?
>>7890296
>paying for sex
beta af
>tfw major depression goes away and gives way to minor depression
>tfw libido comes back in full force but genital awkwardness is still there a bit so it's eghhhhhh
>>7890280
Tinder :^)
In 3 months I've had great success. Even almost had a girl want to meet, but then she bailed probably for a real man or real woman.
>tfw scared to lose weight bc fat on face makes me look more feminine
>at the same time fat on the rest of my body makes me look like a gross man
>>7890297
ahhhhh gotcha
>>7890309
genital awkwardness is gonna fucking KILL me
>>7890310
Three months for one almost meet?
Nononon
I'm used to last a day or two before having too many dates
>>7890307
He's paying me
>>7890296
It's really this easy to get losers to give you money?
>>7890305
I'll make one soon, still in class, pls practice kissu in mirror.
OK just made it, KissuMonster. Will be on soon.
>>7890318
have you ever considered that you seem to always get what you want as opposed to what you actually need?