Anyone else have stories about having homosexual urges that they never act upon?
>don't have many friends, so not really certain about normal boundaries
>somehow befriend a girl i've been making eye contact with a lot
>both reveal we've always wanted to talk to each other
>become close friends
>always hanging out and smoking weed
>One night we both take opiates and hook up
>everything next day is strange
>don't know if I want to date this person
>end up telling her that
>friendship still intact but awkward
>took another half year but we're no longer friends
>finally decide i'm straight
>can't stop getting excited over girls
>they keep appearing in my dreams
>keep jumping in and back out of the closet
>have given up on telling anyone how I feel
I can't be alone in this :(
I'm male, but feel the same way.
I like girls but maybe I just like being friends with them because I lose interest when they want me to escalate things. I like being wanted by men and being submissive comes naturally. I don't know if I'm just repressing my sexuality with women out of fear though or if I should be feeling bad about it. To make matters more perplexing I've had dreams of being both dominant and submissive.