>Be me before age 23 >Fucking dork virgin weeb >Socially

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>Be me before age 23
>Fucking dork virgin weeb
>Socially awkward
>Start transitioning at age 23
>Going back to OKC 3 month later
>A shitload of chaser suddenly pops out
>Lost virginity to a handsome guy, was the best experience of my life
>Sext almost everyday with different guys
>Met a random guy with his brother while at a bar with a friend, drunk
>Made friend with the guy, smoked some weed with him
>He's married, have children
>He says he wants me
>While being drunk and high, lost control of myself and start snuggling with him
>Go to his house
>Smoke even more
>He's high af
>I'm tired and need to go home
>He accompanies me
>He starts to touch me
>I say no
>He grabs me and put a hand on my mouth while touching me so people won't hear me moan
>His grip prevents me to let go of him or even say a thing, I used all my strength but couldn't resist his
>Feels like I was going to get raped
>He then stops, gives me weed and his phone number
>I go back home, start to cry
>Think about the fact I couldn't resist his strength while he was touching me, that turns me on so much
>Cry when I realized rape turns me on...

What the fuck is wrong with me ?