For years I've been dealing with tranny bullshit thoughts.

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Either way it doesn't make a difference. I'm a dropout who can barely leave their house. I refuse to become a tranny in front of my family or ever have them know that I'm a bigger failure than I already am. No guy is going to want me around them because I'm not cute or feminine. I can't move out because the chinks hiked the price of anything and everything even remotely close. I'm a sheltered retarded hermit and my life is fucked. The only joy I get anymore is imagining society collapsing and having to live out in the woods, but then I counter that fantasy with the tranny fantasy which ends up with me not preparing for either one and just jerking off and ranting about pseudo-philosophical bullshit with underage idiots on an FBI honeypot site all day.

Estrogen in the water has ruined me.

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The universe is an empty place anon, the fact that we're even here at all is a gift. All we're asked in return is to exist. Don't worry so much about the games humanity is playing, they don't matter as much as you think they do.

It seems clear to me, personally, that you will never be free of the part of your brain that makes you trans. I was like you, but I eventually just chose to free myself. I'm glad I did. I still have people that love and care about me, but they're not blood relatives.

Make whatever choice is right for you, whether it's fully transitioning, trying to repress more (which I think will hurt you in the end), or just taking HRT and never socially transitioning. For some, just being free of the imbalance in their hormones is enough.

Good luck anon. Don't forget to look up. Don't forget how small human conceits are.

>>7742718
whatever you choose m8 make sure you're doing it based on real shit that would actually affect your life and not on the bunch of retarded spooks you listed

>>7742741
>>7742803
One of the key points is that I don't exactly have a choice either way.

life is already over for everyone and passing on your genes would be pointless
anybody who tells you otherwise is either in on it or stupid
the future is going to be a kind of unbearable feudalism that you would not wish on anyone anywhere
the only undecided variable is whether we'll all be owned by the private sector under the guise of capitalism, or by the government under the guise of communism or socialism
even those in power will be so damaged psychologically by the abominable nature of their sustained quality of life, that they will not be able to attain fulfilment and happiness
there will be no more joy in creation
the world will return to the cold struggle of nature, and the pursuit of enlightenment that has brought innocence and harmony to the people of this world for centuries will be extinguished and forgotten
barbarism will reign and savagery will be the rule
emotional complexity will cease to exist, and love will be replaced by pragmatic reproduction or primal lust
the future is going to be awful and you're better off not having a stake in it

>>7743118
Battlestar galactica is a pretty cool future.

>>7743118
what a fucking mong u are

>>7743058
well what are you saying then? you don't actually have a question.
basically the world is filled with trannies who tried to be normal for decades while they slowly go insane until they crack at age 50 or whatever and have a breakdown

you've made it what, 25 years tops? about half of which you were mildly sentient. can you make it another two times as long?

>>7743133
it will be more like starwars

>>7743135
>when you try to be edgy and get memed at the same time
LOLE

>>7743142
>not wanting to slum it up on Nar Shaddaa

pleb taste

>>7743136
I just wanted to make an epic blogpost.

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>>7742718
you may have OCD anon, it can lead to these kind of intrusive thoughts
you should look online and see if anything about OCD resonates with you, there are a lot of people that have intrusive thoughts doubting their sexuality or sex despite not being "real" gays or trannies at all
I have OCD and I used to sometimes get thoughts saying "am I really gay? what if I'm actually straight?" funnily enough.

remember to recognise that the thoughts are just that: thoughts, and that thoughts naturally come and go and you do not have to identify with them. don't feel compelled to either force them out of your head, just remind yourself that they're merely your brain sending false signals, focus your attention on something else and eventually they'll become less stressful and commonplace. the thoughts might not stop completely overnight, but you'll know that you don't have to react to them. people with OCD generally recognise that their thoughts are irrational, but the thoughts are still very emotionally compelling despite being false. you're not crazy, just in a hypersensitive state of fight or flight a lot of the time, and constantly doubting yourself.

not saying you definitely have OCD it just seems like you might, still good advice anyway. just wanted to offer that angle in case it hits home for you and helps.

>>7743163
My thoughts are not inherently irrational. All of them come from a very rational place and are well thought out.

The only thing irrational is not being able to make a decision and my lifestyle.

>>7742718
Oh wow I can sure relate, i'm in my early 30s and a drop out too. I was once a depressed aspie neet as a teenager, but I got a job and that helped me become more of a normie. I have few friends, am a shut in and I live with my parents. Like you i'm transgender, in the AGP sense. Wish I would of been part of 4chan in the early days.

I have many reasons for not transitioning. My transness has never left me so I smoke weed to help me cope.

>>7742741
What keeps me male is that I will have a higher quality of life as one. HRT and not socially transitioning is a good idea, but test has some huge benefits.

>>7743136
I'm already too far gone, it's really a damned if you do damned if you don't sorta thing. The good news is, we're past the tipping point now and we'll have a lot more knowledge of the trans condition in the coming years and maybe alternative treatments. Even if me and OP are doomed to hondom one day, perhaps the future is hon friendly?

>>7743185
Not your conscious, intentional thoughts anon. Intrusive thoughts, ones that pop into your head spontaneously.

is transtrending the thing/solution for neets and the like? you fags have to realise you're using gas to put out a fire

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>>7742720
>The only joy I get anymore is imagining society collapsing and having to live out in the woods, but then I counter that fantasy with the tranny fantasy which ends up with me not preparing for either one and just jerking off and ranting about pseudo-philosophical bullshit with underage idiots on an FBI honeypot site all day.

Same.

>>7742718
anon but theres a reason u have 0 confidence and success in life and it may have to do with that you're repressing trans feelings? you realize how much work has been done, how many studies/barbaric experiments have been done to make trans people not feel trans anymore that have all failed?

when did you first start feeling trans?

>>7743262
its a good idea

>>7742718
GOOD JOB ANON, the literal only purpose in life is to repruduce as much as you can with high quality offspring, I'm glad you've discovered this and are adjusting your life accordingly

>>7742718
lel stop being dumb, take your pills girl.

>>7742718
This is literally me except im a chink and i only just turned 20 so the thoughts of "it's now or never" are fucking incredible.

Been picking up new hobbies constantly to last til im 25 where i can go "welp times past, time to get on with my life"

>>7742718
>I start working out, eating right, I want to be efficient, strong, useful in dangerous situations. I want to be able to protect myself and others if need be. Then a few weeks/months into working out the tranny thoughts slip back in. None of it's rational. When I think about it hard enough it's all so delusional.

Same! now I transitioning to hondom
see you soon

See you in a few years, hon.
:^)

>>7743530
>when did you first start feeling trans?

13/14, when a few years after using 4chan. Back then it was just wanting to cross-dress. I'm not repressing anything. I know exactly why I want to become a tranny.

>>7745613
Moral relativism annoys me to no end as well. But when trying to come up with an objective right or wrong to a situation like mind it is an inevitable paradox that you're going to run into.

>>7746226
That desire to crossdress never goes away it seems, AGP is very strange.