Who here has crippling BDD? >be me >come out at 17 >think

post pic

>Have loads of internet peeps tell me I'm cute
>Sleep with guys who are so cute that I'm legit puzzled how it even happened
>Get a bf who makes my heart melt when I see his face
>Lived my entire life 100% believing I'm ugly, still do.

I don't own any mirrors because looking at my self makes me sad. I'm so fucking hideous but so many people say otherwise, and yeah I'm sure a lot of them are just being nice but the dudes who I fucked had to have meant it, right? They can't all be pity fucks...

I didn't even know BDD was a thing until recently, could it be why I feel like this?

>>7742360
Are you me? People tell me I pass, but I can't see it. All I can see is a guy looking back at me from the mirror or pictures. And you know what really sucks? I'm now at the point where detransition is literally impossible. I'm never going to fully look like a man even if I stop. And I'm never going to feel like I'm actually a girl.

Kill me, please. I just want the suffering to end.

>>7742970
>>7742970
>>7743017
kill yourself fags
no sympathy for passing scum

>>7743017
>I'm now at the point where detransition is literally impossible
This desu.
Like I get insecure because I'm afraid I don't look feminine enough, but I don't even vaguely look like a man, I'm basically going to be an FtM if I go back.

You're beautiful OP. Your parents are wrong, and I love you. Now go to the mirror and tell yourself, "I love you."

I know this feel very well. I went as far as going to an anti trans rally to see if Id fall through with them. The opposite happened and they thought I was cis girl and came to protest, some of the people there even flirted with me to a point I went out with one of them.

Maybe I fell through and they just wanna kidnap and murder me right?

No I end up having sex with that person and also getting the confirmation my SRS passes on top of that.

After all this I still have trouble with looking at photos of myself and looking at myself in the mirror.

>>7742360

I don't pass now (the fact I have beard shadow is enough to say that assessment is grounded in reality), but I wonder if I would still feel I am ugly and unpassable if I had started much earlier and passed. I remember looking at myself in the mirror since I was young and feeling bad with the reflection or unconnected to it, and I assumed for a while that if I had started HRT as a prepubescent that the way I felt about my looks would have automatically been corrected. But there are anons like you who get every indication that you look fine from other people and you still feel bad about your looks. That reminds me of when girls started being attracted to me and despite having evidence I wasn't as ugly as I felt, I still wasn't happy with my appearance. Of course the difference was I looked like a guy, so of course the girls thought I was attractive but I still felt I wasn't.

>>7743216

>No I end up having sex with that person and also getting the confirmation my SRS passes on top of that.

lmao anti-trans faggots BTFO.

I deadass think almost every pass is a pity pass desu. According to 4chan I have it, but idkkkk

>tfw it's not BDD

>>7745294
Explain.

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>>7742360
How can I tell if my ugliness is real or imagined?

I am a cis man but I dislike how masculine my body is. I hate my body. I am, broad, hairy, have male pattern baldness. So many other men look great without these traditionally masculine features.

>>7745319
Oh, right. I didn't see the trip. It's really not as bad as you think, though. Give it some more time, and FFS is still an option. Are you presenting? If so, how is that working out?

If you want my own opinion, I don't think I'd clock you based on face alone. A weird looking girl, perhaps, but my first thought wouldn't be that you were trans. Also, I feel like if you fixed your eyes (makeup, skin care, etc.) you'd look much better. It's honestly the only uncanny thing about you.

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>>7745418
>Also, I feel like if you fixed your eyes (makeup, skin care, etc.) you'd look much better. It's honestly the only uncanny thing about you.
This desu, contrary to the stereotype, trans women use makeup way too little. Even most cis women look kinda weird without any makeup.

>>7745418
covering my eye bags makes my eyes look really small like a rooster's ;-;

I've been fulltime since august but I get gendered male as often as when I had a full beard and I've only ever been gendered female IRL by the staff at one restaurant who have known me since pretransition and know I'm trans; everyone else treats me like a guy, not even like a tranny

>>7745374
By getting honest opinions from people other than yourself, post a picture faggot

>>7745438
I have to agree. Half the women I've seen without makeup on look somewhere between barely passable as human and barely passable as female.

>>7745438
Lmao why is this so true?

>"you're wearing makeup?"

>>7745438
>>7749593
>wear makeup deliberately intended to look 'natural'
>as opposed to 'heavy' makeup intended to be obviously makeup
>when you never let yourself be seen without makeup
>how do guys think i'm not wearing makeup?!
women are retarded.

>>7745594
Not that poster, but how do I stop writing off every comment on my pics as hugboxing?????