I recently realized that not only I don't pass but I am far worse than I thought.
Every part of my body from head to the shape of my toes looks male but for some reason I didn't see it before.
I have been a delusional hon for many months, slowly adopting androgynous clothes and wearing them outside because I seriously thought I was improving (even though I wasn't). It must not have been a pretty sight: some horsefaced skinnyfat dude in skinny jeans - just the mental image in my head makes me vomit.
I don't know what to do anymore. I am back to wearing big loose man jeans and oversized coats because I know this looks more appropriate to my male body and that I should give up on ever socially transitioning.
I wish someone just punched me in the face for seriously thinking that I have ever stood a chance to pass tbqh.
>>7647587
Post pics bro, maybe you're just a delusional teen with BDD
No joke, sometimes when they don't pass I find that even more attractive, and I'm sure I'm not alone in that.
>>7647587
It wouldn't have mattered if someone had slugged you in the fucking nose and told you how delusional you are. There are whole communities dedicated to maintaining that delusion in a nice, neat hugbox.
All you would have to do is retreat into that hugbox and everyone would console you and reinforce your delusion.
The internal conflict isn't just unto yourself, it's also an external conflict with whether or not you will indulge in comfortable hugboxes or glad-handing sycophants to rationalize your decision-making.
I mean why do you think porn stars keep amongst themselves or usually surround themselves with "fans" who do nothing but lavish them with praise? Because most other people who aren't in porn or aren't obsessed with it wouldn't have them as actual friends.
>>7647601
>teen with BDD
AHAHAHA, no. I'm 27. I am a MAN (on estrogen).
>>7647616
But if I don't pass there is no reason to wear girl clothes tbqh.
holy shit im going through this right now
>be me 27 year old 5 months on hormones
>I wake up one day think I need to do full time because i think i look decently androgynous enough
>put on make up go out side presenting full time go to the store to pick something up
>feel like great about myself
>go to pay for it cashier gives me my money back "here's you're change sir."
>go home look in the mirror huge face huge nose manly jaw
i don't know what the point is anymore as well maybe just being on hormones help because looking at my body get further masculine kills me and I know I might regret it later, and i rather be a weird man on estrogen than a depressed man on T. I'm just trying to save up for ffs and hope for the best but other than that i completely gave up on social transitioning but it does hurt to see the passable trans women and knowing i will never have that life
>>7647743
>5months
at your age it'll be at least 13, I just turned 19 and it took me 7 to start getting gendered female consistently, before it was more random. Being short helps.
>>7647743
>be me 21, 2 months on hormones
>go to bar with friend
>friend orders some shit
>bartender turns to me, and for you miss?
sorry you weren't meant to pass
look you dipshits none of you pass, it's just that service industry workers notice you're a desperate hon and call you miss to not cause a shitfit
>>7647616
Eh desu the true golden point is a passing, feminine girl with androgynous features. Broad shoulders, long face, hips wide but matched by shoulders.
That's my taste at least. I don't know if that sounds good to anybody else though.
>>7648427
That sounds like me, although my shoulders are wider than my hips, but my hips are wide compared to my waist (not sure how that works).
>>7648100
don't be so honophobic, shitlord