Have any of you experienced a dramatic shift in your sexual as

>>7600388
I used to be more effeminate, and hated my manhood. I got over it by discouraging anti men, or effeminate thoughts.

I also used to feel homosexual thoughts, but decided I could control my thoughts, and choose how I want to shape my mind, and not encourage being a faggot

But hey, I guess everyone says you cannot have self control.

>>7600418
Why did you "shape" your mind to avoid faggotry?

>>7600388
The more time I spend on 4chan, the greater lust for cock I have. It all started with the creation of this very board, I saw it advertised so I figured I'd check it out.
Maybe I was always bisexual, or maybe just being open enough allows anyones sexuality to drift too and fro.

I wouldn't say dramatic. I'm bisexual and I've always known it, but when I was younger, I leaned much more towards men - mainly because I didn't know any bi/les women irl and I found straight porn first.

Then, as I got older, I realized I was much more comfortable in platonic and romantic relationships with women. And I didn't feel the need to hide my attraction to women anymore and that grew even more too. At this point, I've never been in a long-term or serious relationship with a man but have with women - and I'm still attracted to both.

>>7600449
Firstly, avoid thoughts which encourage it. This can enclude any porn which is even semi gay (traps, futanari, pegging, ect, is gateway porn to gay shit) And vilify it.

For trans specifically, I look specifically at the benefits of my born gender, and list off things that are bad about the OPPOSITE gender. It actually pays to be a little BIAS and one sided doing this (internally) to make your born gender seem awesome. In reality, BOTH genders have strengths and weaknesses, but you must play up and celebrate your strengths, and not fret over your weakneses

Its a difficult task, and not for the unintelligent (or dumbasses who smoke weed all the time) But it can be changed

Ever heard the expression "keep saying it, you will believe it"? It applies, and its how you can change your habits, and how you think on things

When I first was fighting it, I didn't really believe, but as time went on, from internalizing it regularly, I believed it, and became happy as a straight man

It just takes careful maintenance of your mind...remember, not just physical things are toxic, sometimes thoughts are too

Don't let your mind become a jungle of whatever thoughts the winds of the world blow in, prune it, cultivate it, care for it, plant it, and harvest your thoughts. Controlling your small thoughts is how you control your big personality.

>>7600449
Just get in the habit of thinking about what thoughts might lead to

As an example : If you see for instance, someone being attacked by X group.

You can think "X group is bad" from thinking too much on it

It might be true, or maybe not, might be isolated, maybe not... But fretting too much on the anger can very potentially lead to aggression TOWARDS that group.

Where as thinking curiously about homosexuality (via movies, shows, conversations about it, ect) normalizes the idea, and opens the mind to exploring it....and an exploring mind won't know where to stop, unless another stimulus, or self control intervene

If your basing your decisions and thoughts on just base feelings, and impulses, you will do dumb stuff...so think deeper about it if you must think on it, consider ALL the possibilities, and ask yourself if you are ok with the risks.

>>7600488
>>7600508
He asked why, not how.
Lost your time, buddy.

>>7600488
>>7600508
I wasn't asking for instructions. Are you saying you think indulging in gay thoughts will lead you down a slippery slope?

>>7600462
All of my bisexual traits predate my use of 4chan but I perceived almost no trace of them (with some mild exceptions) before I began using the internet as a teenager.

>>7600464
same experience (except I'm a guy)

Trans girl.

My sexuality was confused as fuck before 17. I had crushes entirely on men, and I always thought of men while doing lewd things, but I only asked out and dated girls. I didn't want to seem like a faggot. Then I had sex with a girl as a guy, and it was borderline traumatic. Told her that I was trans and into guys, relationship died soon after. Transitioned before age of majority because fuck male puberty.

After that, I was able to be okay with my straightness. But girls were reallllly insistent about kissing me and groping me and stuff, so I went with it. Men were only good at rushing me into sex, raping me, and degrading me. Honestly I worry that I've been made unable to love due to my horrible social/romantic life.

I never related to how men desire women (always seemed really gross to me) but I'm finding things that I can appreciate and love about women now. I think my life will be better if I avoid men.

tl;dr prison gay, with more trauma-fueled prison gayness over time

>>7600646
Can you talk more about being grossed-out by women, but wishing to have a woman's body?

I never really got that.
I also think macho men appreciating all that muscular tough stuff the gayest possible thing.

>>7600488

>keep saying it, you will believe it
I believe the saying is, "if you repeat a lie, it becomes the truth."

>>7600646
How in gods name was it traumatic? did she fart in your face?

>>7601008
Thats a different phrase actually.

>>7600388
Was a 4 then drifted down to 1. All in the span of HS

>>7600992
Well my body is pretty womanly now and it I'm glad. It's not that I'm grossed out by womens' bodies, it's that I find the way straight men relate to them is gross. They are obsessed with a small amount of features and shove them in society's face. So when I didn't share that same focus, I mistook it for no attraction to women. It turns out there is far more to appreciate about women though.

>>7601025
I felt coerced into it, and I did it because I was super lonely. I had to penetrate, and I hated every moment of it. She said she loved me after though, which made me cling like glue regardless, I was a really lonely kid.

>>7601054
First quoted here. I see, thanks for the reply.

I believe in the future, with enough genetic customization, most people will just choose to look like cute girls, even straight guys who wants to keep liking women.

But then the borders will be blurred because if everyone looks like a girl, liking men will not be gay anymore.

In short, the female body always seemed superior to me, aesthetically speaking. That's why women doll up and men value beauty way more heavily.

>>7601029
Really? Can you go into detail about what you think caused it?

Asking how someone's sexuality changes as they age is odd, because on a younger board like this you're going to find a lot of people who haven't known how sex worked for many years.

I had feelings for a boy when I was 5 years old. I didn't know what dicks were good for beyond going to the toilet. I just knew that the lightly tanned blonde angel was beautiful and that I wanted to keep him in my sight every hour of every day.

Then my parents told me that was wrong and that I should be interested in girls, so I tried that in my pre-teen years and was successful until I was educated on sex and saw photos of vaginas. I still see stacked girls and wonder their bra size but I'm not making any children.

>>7601097
Well I got sick of being a fatass and during a long night on the internet one summer I found TheRedPill, Nietzsche and other literature of that calibre. I just stopped wanting to be with guys over time. I honestly don't know how to describe it I'm admittedly not very religious although I lived in a ruby red republican state. Also I got heavily into politics because of 2016 and was drawn towards Trump and by last year which was my senior HS year I had a gf already but it didn't last long.

I think I "memed" the gay away if that's a good way of saying it. Sorry if it's confusing I just don't know how to describe it.

>>7600388
I was never really attracted to women when i was younger. I just constantly gave bullshit excuses to myself as to why i dont have a crush on girls, got aroused by other guys, etc.

>>7601097
Also I had thought I was gay through middle school into HS until it slowly just stopped being there. I mean around the time I found all that literature I did nofap often for long intermittent lengths of time while stopping porn use for the most part. I haven't seen true "porn" in months

>>7600388
Number 2 is the gayest one, based on body language.

>>7601197
This artist sucks, even 0 looks gay as fuck, the author is probably the polar opposite of guys who can only draw cute girls doing cute things.

>>7600388
Why do they get more and more naked as yo go down?

>>7600388
I was exclusively attracted to women my entire adolescence, the thought of sexual encounters with men disgusted me despite starting to anally masterbate in the 10th gr.
I was given way too much freedom on the pc so by the time I got into adulthood I was bored of a lot of porn, I still don't like gay porn but stuck on hxc stuff with a little trap stuff here and there.
The first porn I watched was hentai 'cause I knew how to find it without going to porn sites. In retrospect that could have something to do with getting into harder stuff. Got used to bitches getting fucked by monsters and women with 3 dicks.
Probably why I'm bi possibly agp repressed tranny

>>7604447
Homosexuals have no self control and need to show off to everyone

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As a child entering puberty I had a "girlfriend" but looking back it was more like an childish, naive/crush sort of thing, I thought she was pretty and that was it. To this day I still like those type of eyes.

Browsing the internet I came across Bridget and then it all went into gayness from there, liking a trap and now I like full blown muscle guys who will flex for me. Now I'm pretty much fully gay and only take the dick, never give it. I don't push the idea out that I could be with a woman but she would have to be 1 in a million and sex would be a bit of a problem.

At one point I sucked on my neighbours penis when we were friends around aged 13, just experimenting and curiosity and ever since that day I've always thought the taste of penis was delicious. We didn't go anywhere with it, I just sucked on it for a few strokes and that was it but that delicious taste remained in my mouth.

Looking back some elements of my life started making more and more sense, like in primary school I'd always felt more comfortable being with the girls than the boys, but girls wouldn't want me around because I was a boy and boys are icky, and I always liked being chased by boys for tag games, even small things how like the boys always had to prove something and then go get themselves hurt when I never was interested in the stupidity (Climbing trees for example)

>>7600388

Ive always been bisexual but used to prefer men more but as I aged and became more comfortable in my own skin, I can say that I like both almost equally now.

Whenever I see a hot feminine woman with a hot masculine man, I get very horny. I just can't seem to decide which I wanna have first. It's very confusing. Lol

>>7605294
This post gave me herpes

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>>7600418
>>7600488
You sound like me 2 years ago

Hint: you will be sucking cock like I am

>>7600388
I've gotten a lot gayer desu. From age 11-15 I was straight as straight can be. 16 is when I dated another boy in my class and from there I've turned into a thirsty twink who projects there gayness thru their eyes.

I thought I was gay all my life until I unexpectedly fell in love with a girl. Maybe I'm still gay because it wasn't that sexual, but I've never felt that way about anyone before. She made me happy and when I wasn't with her I was thinking about her. The farthest we ever went was making out, but she meant more to me than any of the guys I've slept with.

>>7600388
thought i was strait as a rail until i was 18 had a few crushes on girls but i got gayer as i progressed been pretty much exclusively into guys from 23-Current

>>7600388
Thought I was straight because I had fantasies about cock but didn't feel any emotional attraction to men. Realized as time went on that I just didn't feel emotional attraction much at all, women or men. And with the only real physical attraction I felt being to dicks, the rest just kinda followed.

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>>7600388
Thought I was a masc 4, turned out to be a fem 6

>>7605823
Is this /pol/'s hottest new way of trying to destroy degeneracy?

>>7600388
I started out as totally straight, but around my late teens I discovered transgirl porn. I didn't end up experimenting until my mid '20s. I've ended up getting married to a cisgendered hetero female.

>>7600388
I feel like I'm still swinging back and forth between 1 and 4 at 23. It's honestly pretty confusing and tiring.

>>7600388
slid from a 0 to a 5 over the decade after puberty

I didn't masturbate or attraction to anyone until I started in college, in which I had a short period where I think I fell in love with a man. I'm not from a religious family or anything, the thought just never occupied me, so I assumed I might have been asexual. Still easing into the notion that I'm gay, not because I want to repress it, but because I'm just not that convinced I'm actually sexually attracted to men, and not just to fetishes that involve men.

I don't know, it's a confusing state. I need someone to fuck my indecision out of me.

As I developed sexually, I realized I liked both guys and girls. But back then, being a faggot (defined as anyone who (a) wasn't into sports, (b) was slight in stature or (c) gave the appearance of liking guys) meant you'd get a beating every day. So I just pushed it back in the closet.

Had a crush on a neighborhood girl that went nowhere, had a few crushes on guys and then met my wife. For many years after that I led the straight life with no difficulty keeping the other side of me deep in the closet.

As my marriage deteriorated years later, that interest in guys started again. I think it was due to a lack of sex, which increased my masturbation being fueled by gay fantasies. Eventually, at age 53, I took the plunge and met up with a guy. Haven't looked back since.

I have gradually become more gay and degenerate as time goes on. Was 0% gay when I was >14, then with porn and masturbation vaginal got boring, then oral, then anal, then furries, then I moved on to hardblush and traps, now traps and femboys are still exciting for me, along with loli, shota and bestiality. Women barely arouse me irl, only the hottest femboys do.
Basically the internet slowly turned me gay/bisexual/pansexual/autosexual, I'm sure it's a common story here.

>>7609417
<14*

>>7600388
I had my first crush on a man at almost thirty. I guess I've been bi my whole life, but it never surfaced because I've never interacted with a feminine man who showed interest in me. Masculine men don't do anything for me, so I just figured men weren't my thing at all except for traps, which I found sexually attractive and would fap to. In real life I stared at tits and ass and was content with that.

The guy I have a crush on is a twink. He made me realize that I don't really care about a person's biological gender as long as they look slightly feminine. I love his body and I love his personality even more, he's smart and so much fun to talk to. Hopefully we can get a real relationship going. It's been years since the last time I felt so in love.

>>7609417
I'm at this stage too and it's gotten me worried as of late, because I got myself a girlfriend and now I can't switch off the porn. I've managed to dial down my degenerate ways considerably for these past few months, and I never had any problem getting hard and having sex or even cumming ( if anything, I cum too fast with her ) but I can't shake of the feeling that I'd rather jerk off alone at home to various types of porn.

It's tiring. I remember my puberty years and who I was and who I was attracted to, but now ( I'm 25 ) it all seems like a blur and I don't know what's me anymore. I don't mean it as a sob story, I'd describe more as being tiresome and frustrating than anything else, like this guy said. >>7607070

>>7615347
t b h I'd just go asexual and masturbate all day if it wasn't socially expected to get a partner/have sex. maybe i need my test checked?

>>7615414
Your test is probably fine. I know it's clichéd as fuck and a tiresome advice but I legitimately found that exercise and good sleeping and eating habits was what helped me the most in getting into my old self again. Being productive and ignoring the need to jack off all day.

I just feel so void of emotions lately and I'm afraid of indulging in even more porn and isolation, because it feels like a "waste" of who I was growing up, and before I became a functioning autist with 10+ years of hardcore porn consumption under my belt.

Regular porn has lost most of its appeal too and I've even indulged the thought that I might be gay or trans, hence me browsing /lgbt/, but the thought never sits quite right with me. I don't even hate trans or gay people and even found femboys and some men to be reasonably attractive, but I think the "appeal" lies more in the fact that it's such a stark contrast to what I see as "safe" porn that it gives me massive dopamine spikes. My therapist says I have masochist tendencies, that I'll do anything and even go out of my way to keep myself isolated.

>>7615548
Sounds pretty much exactly like me, I probably only like traps/femboys because it's taboo and exciting.
I have suspected that I'm masochistic but that's probably just because it's fresh. I feel so dull at times, not depressed or sad, just vacant. It's not too unpleasant actually.

I should probably stop masturbating and watching porn but it's fun and why not? I guess I might find more meaning and drive if I'm pent up or at least have to put some effort in for release?

>>7615642
Actually coming here to /lgbt/ was sort of a wake up call, because I began reading the "coming out" thread stories and despite feeling empathy for the people posting them ( I was pretty bullied as a kid with a massive low self esteem complex - pretty much any bullying story will hit me right in the heart ), I realised that my teen years were nothing like that and I was a happy kid. But then I see someone saying that they realised they were gay later in life and the paranoia cycle restarts all over again and I go back to porn and distancing myself from people, it's a fun hellish carroussel that never ends.

>I should probably stop masturbating and watching porn

So yes, this is easier said than done. I got to a point were I feel more content doing nothing, just endlessly browsing 4chan for porn and miscellaneous threads about topics I don't even care about.

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>>7615712
>So yes, this is easier said than done. I got to a point were I feel more content doing nothing, just endlessly browsing 4chan for porn and miscellaneous threads about topics I don't even care about.

It's pretty much an addiction, I hold off for a few days then "relapse" and do it like five times in a row. Will hopefully manage to cut down at least, maybe from twice daily to once every other day.

I don't really worry about coming out, though I wouldn't want to do it unless I had a boyfriend I loved. I live in a very hip, liberal area in Sweden but I don't want to come out if I'm not actually gay, and finding a cute femboy willing to experiment with me would probably be as likely as me getting it on with a porn star or supermodel. I have a crush on a friend but he doesn't really physically attract me now that he's older so I guess we couldn't have a sexual relationship anyway. Looked like this.

I don't want to use tinder/grindr because people might recognize me, and I don't really like online friends/relationships..

>>7600388
Mtf
I used to be attracted to girls when I was young, but near high school it started to switch to guys too.
Now I have a bf and couldn't imagine myself with a girl.
I think hormones might had a role in this switch.

>>7615772
you're p close to me

could be bi, could be prison gay, who knows
unlikely to ever find out

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>>7600388
Trans chick here.
When I was younger (middle to high school) i was so disjointed from my body that even though I was attracted to women and men and masturbated to porn on the reg I literally couldn't fathom how sex would work for me. It was like there was a mental block there. Nowadays I have gotten a little better. I can be present even when masturbating and can even envision myself with a woman (or a femboy and/or transwoman, just not using my penis and never with a regular to manly dude). Now I just have to get over a fear of having sex with anyone....yay.

>>7600388
Used to be bi, went on HRT, now men disgust me.

>>7617354
How come it seems like trans women make the best partners for mommies?

>>7600388
I started watching porn around age 16, and at the same time my tranny feels started to reduce (at least their expression as gender-feels did) and I experienced attraction to women (before then only attracted to men) for the first time; I stopped watching porn about eight months ago (now 23) and shortly reverted to 100% male-attraction, and also my tranny feels returned and now will not go away.

Kind of makes me understand why some feminists want to ban it. But then again maybe we need to saturate every aspect of media with it, bc then I'd have been saved from my looming hondom

>>7619936
Mommies?
Single mothers or the alternate version of the dom/sub dynamic?

>>7619910
You too? The majority of men just turn me right off now. I can only tolerate the smell of dudes for so long before I have to leave. It makes me physically ill. I dont get that from all guys, just most.

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Liked men, got on HRT, now I still like men.

>>7600388
Used not think about sexuality at all since it seemed like a distant thing that wouldn't affect me in anyway. Then I noticed that I also thought girls were cute but didn't think much about it.

As for porn, I've always been more into 2D men than 3D men. For women, it's the opposite.