So I am a respectable gay male, I am working and getting degrees in difficult fields. I do good research and am always on top of my shit.
However I have this very difficult to control urge to submit to pretty much any man I see. I want to be a complete fag and have a group of rednecks rape the shit out of my face and butt then piss on me laughing at my stupid faggot ass. I want some dude to fucking blackmail me and whore me out to his buddies while watching the game or playing poker.
I don't know how to handle these conflicting feelings.
>thanks for reading my blog
>>7558670
>respectable gay
>>7558906
>forum is about the lgbt lifestyle
>complains when the lifestyle is posted about
contain your autism
>>7558670
Find a cool guy to submit to. One that keep you being profitable, if he is an asshole you'll end up realizing about it.
>>7558922
How is OP at all posting about lifestyle you dumb nigger, he's literally talking about a rape fantasy
>>7558670
You probably don't get enough action so your needs come out at once and in disturbing ways.
You're like me and Spock. Once you have sex you will have no desire to do it again after years.
>>7558670
Just have sex with a decent partner. If you trust them well enough, you might even be able to convince them to play out your fantasy scenario.
In general though, your wild and uncontrollable fantasies / urges are because you're sexually frustrated.
if you go head first into some weird gang bang fantasy, you'll end up regretting it.