>be bicurious but inexperienced
>insatiable interest in sucking cock and being sucked and mutual wank
>literally zero attraction to men/masculinity but cock turns me on
>chatting to guy on grindr who meets all my conditions
>wank on it
>not feeling it anymore
>wait an hour
>still want to do it eventually
>maybe I should just do it anyway
I can't help but feel I'll either like it and it'll shock me, or I'll hate it and never be able to forget the experience and resent myself forever. And it's dumb but even tho he agreed to wear a rubber I'm still squicky about the aids and herp.
Wat do.
>>7532262
That's how it starts
I used to only be into masculine women. Then traps. Now I have a boyfriend and am completely sub and he's a complete man it makes my heart flutter
Ok, but how do I get over the 'all gay men have herpes and aids are are trying to poz me' shit?
>>7532339
Condoms until you've both been tested, and you know he can be monogamous.
>>7532339
If he's already agreed to use a rubber than that's probably just some sort of anxiety about the act itself manifesting itself. You'll be fine, just keep reminding yourself that you're taking pretty much all reasonable precautions to keep safe and it's astronomically unlikely that you'll get something from him.
>>7532262
AIDs transmission rate, if unprotected, is around 1-2% per penetrative act. Condoms will reduce that MASSIVELY. Plus add in the odds of him having aids in the first place.
The odds of you getting anything are low