/mtfg/ Transgirl General

>>7495874
Hey I posted that earlier :D

>>7495883
I saved it and edited it to more accurately represent me

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Happy new year all you wonderful women and chasers and funposters and questioning people and bored lurkers, I hope you all have a fantastic year

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Look what i got for christmas.
Am i trutrans yet?

someone talk to me please

>tfw feel giddy
<3

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Shopping on Amazon is frustrating
>bunch of reviews saying product is good
>one review where the product might as well have killed the buyer's family
I just want a bra reeeee

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>>7495889
GIVE ME

>>7495892
steven universe sucks

>>7495886
Oh I only looked at the thumbnail :3
Nice that you made a /mtfg/ version :>

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Happy new year girls.

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>Pineapple Princess Phienchen wearing a Nazi Officer Uniform while weilding an STG 44

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>tfw isolating myself because of dysphoria

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Congratulations on telling your best friend the truth Amy
I remember when you were here as Spartan, it's always good to see a repressor freed from their own prison.

>>7495897
really its just a sheen version

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>>7495895
fite me
>>7495889
GIB

thanks a lot sheen! <3 i hope your new year is super great!

>>7495892
this pic is my avatar for my os account lol
i thought i had already posted and forgot
i think i found it here though and renamed it

>>7495895
wow ok

>>7495914
Well looks like me though~

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>>7495909
I don't deserve him
My god I cried at the start. But it ended happy.

>took two big hits from my friends bong
>also had a few sips of some 90 proof whiskey
i don't know if i'm buzzed or high

how do you stop being sad

I tried to go to westminster to watch the fireworks and the entire area is cordoned off and you have to have tickets. What a stupid country.

>>7495925
maybe its both?

>>7495889
Neppy Nep Nep! Sertii is my girlfriend now!!
I still can't really grasp it >.<

But I'm so happy!

Omg!

>>7495929
hugg

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>>7495907
omg :3

i'm so fucking angry right now
i keep trying to tell these bummfuck retarded europoors that it's only 2 pm
why the fuck don't they get it

>>7495934
hugg
>>7495936
hugg
>>7495932
hugg
>>7495931
hugg
>>7495930
hugg

>>7495893
We can share some

>>7495932
Really?? That great! :)

>>7495936
>2 pm
nigga its 5

>>7495923
I wish my friends were half this nice :/

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>>7495931
anne you shouldn't drink alone
you should drink with me

>>7495859
These pills are just going to isolate me more
Its equaling suicide
i dont have the balls to tell them i tried often enough
facing the world means failing

>>7495909
I like 2017 Angie.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=K5_EBAzIPJM

happy whatever
I guess I k-kinda like you guys
>>7495937
houg

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>>7495936
stop living in hawaii

>>7495932
Omg i want to kiss u aaaaaaa

>>7495939
hugg
>>7495940
hugg
>>7495941
hugg
>>7495942
hugg
>>7495943
hugg
>>7495945
hugg

>>7495950
hugg

>>7495951
hugg

any tips for social transition?

>>7495864
>10 billions refugees
Kek
You're trolling aren't you?

>>7495954
Hugg

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>>7495932
Identify yourself right now.

>>7495935
Happy new year Phien <3

>tfw want soft feminine hands but also want to play guitar
should i just give up the dream of soft hands and aim for the stars guitar-wise?

>>7495939
>mainland
oh my GOD
living on the mainland is like being guilty of rape

>>7495947
no

>>7495965
I'm actually Sertii herself! :P

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>At least 35 people have lost their lives in an attack on a nightclub in Istanbul, the city's governor has said.
>Among the dead is one police officer, Vasip Sahin stated, adding that it was a terror attack.
>At least another 40 were injured in the attack which took place in the Reina nightclub, in the Ortakoy area, at about 01:30 local time (23:30 GMT).

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>>7495965
Cant uncover the hidden

>>7495965
gloomy

sad

>>7495962
>take it slow, but don't take it slower than your own pace. when you're ready, you're ready
>like, when it becomes more annoying than you are afraid, you're ready
>be strict and honest with yourself, don't get sad or angry when you don't get the reaction you would like from people
>but most importantly, remember to stay as optimistic as possible at all times because fuck dude this is crazy and you're a champ for all the work you've put into this
>when you mess up and you get called male or something happens with your wardrobe or whatever else, don't dwell on it, move onto the next thing

yea i mean idk if you wanted tips on like...wardrobe or something, but here's some emotional and psychological tips.

>>7495941
i would very much like that

no drinking tonight tho. wish i could but that would be a bad idea i think.

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This is how I'm celebrating the passing of 2016

before I have to do stupid stuff
like "exercise" and "eat healthy"

>>7495975
I KNEW IT ALL ALONG

>>7495979
well i mean my point initially was
idk why you were drinking alone but you shouldn't
thats sad

since it's kinda morning now
kalimera, eirini :3

>>7495977
>yea i mean idk if you wanted tips on like...wardrobe or something, but here's some emotional and psychological tips.
Nah what you told me is helpful.

I'm in West Virginia so I'm a bit concerned about being attacked by an angry hick tho

>>7495984
it's 3 PM you fuck

my brain is broken and it's all my fault

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>>7495942
Those pills aren't suicide, those pills are life. Be strong, lord knows you've already had to be.

It really isn't a death sentence and I know it's a frightening path that you're starting down, but it will get better. The deepest regret that I have is in letting drugs be the only reason I had to live, and I really don't want you to have the same regrets. They've caused so much more pain than being trans did.

It will get better, just let it happen and let the haze clear

>>7495988
its 02:03 here o3o

>>7495983
i really didnt want to be awake last night but i couldn't sleep so i decided i at least didn't want to be sober so i crammed a bottle of gin down my gullet and thats how i dealt with things

>2016 was 64 minutes ago
where does the time go, man

>>7495980
>tfw have to cut caloric intake to 1200-1300 calories once school starts again
Fug getting back to dieting is going to suck

>>7495994
IT'S 3 FUCKING PM YOU FUCK

>>7495987
I live in Texas. I've never been attacked or threatened or even talked to. Usually, at least in cities, people just want to mind their own fucking business and continue walk. If you're in a smaller town I guess that's less likely but you should still try.
>>7495993
haha gullet
is that a new orleans thing

anyway, idk. that sounds sad i'm sorry.

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if the new year is when the earth goes around the sun once then shouldn't there be like a universal new year time?

>>7495998
crippling depression is A+++ for weight loss

>>7496003
i guess it'd be gmt

>texting someone
>they use a lot of :) and ^^ in their replies
>even some replies are just :)
is it just me or are people who do this usually chasers or just...males? this creeps me out i don't like it.

>>7496003
>then shouldn't there be like a universal new year time?
It's called GMT

>>7496008
you'd guess wrong
hawaiian standard time is the universal new years'

>>7496001
idk i think it might just be a me thing lol

yeah it was real sad and tonight isn't any better and i wish i could do the same as last night but yeah
not a good idea

>>7496007
not for me

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>tfw snuggled up under a comfy afghan watching sports on TV
>>7496007
Idk senpai it was A++ for weight gain for me

>>7495992
>>7495988
3am in Sertiis place :>

I splurged and bought sauerkraut that comes in a jar instead of a can.
I can't fucking open it. ;_; Damn you hrt. It looks fucking delicious. How hard would it be to pick broken glass out of sauerkraut?

I did make some bomb "German" potato salad though. Quotation marks because I had no bacon and replaced that with hamburger and seasoning salt. So it's American German potato salad.

This teaches me to make things instead of buy them.

>>7496016
you just need the right kind of depression
where you don't have the energy to eat
idk
i think having a lot of nuts from christmas helped because i'd just eat peanuts throughout the day lmao

>>7496018
i want all europeans to die

>>7496013
chill out buddy
i would offer to watch a movie with you right now
but i'm actually drunk and high right now and i don't want to make too much of a fool of myself in front of you

>>7496018
time is a weird thing
man i remember when i went to crete, it was really nice there and stuff

>>7496010
^^ seems trutrans to me

>>7496021
lmao thats cool
im gonna go to a new years party i think in a bit idk

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>>7496023
this doesn't creep you out?
>>7496024
you should! i bet you'll feel better.

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how was 2016 as a year for you mtfg?

>decided to start taking transition serously
>got kicked out of my mom's house
>nearly graduated college
>made even more friends
>got to have fun cosplaying and going to anime conventions out of state
>held a job for most of the year
>lost virginity
>found a bf
>came out to family and got mostly support
>lots of video games gifted to me
>first real taste of unemployment (it sucks)
>hopeful for next year

wbu? im genuinely interested. this year was a wild ride

>>7496022
I'm so tired i should have gone to be a lot earlier >.<

>>7496010
Seems way more female than male to me. I don't know any male friends that use smileys regularly but a lot of girls I've known have. Also, when I started transitioning I started doing it without really realizing, lol.

>>7496029
awful

>>7496029
i spent the entire year unemployed, got a little bit fatter

3/5 it was just okay

>>7495990
Iktf
>>7495991
Drugs are the only reason i didn't jump from this roof already
not caring is the awnser to all problems
to understand all options
to get the option that will work
and that's being high
my body is denying the transition
my body is male
No drugs are going to change that

tfw alone again

>>7496033
Agreed. I had Internet friends as a teenager who assumed I was female because of my excessive use of them.

>>7496028
i was gonna go to my friends bar cos theres a big party there, but the other friend who was gonna come had to bail cos he drives a scooter and it's raining, and also thats good because it'll be loud and i still have a headache.

so imma go to this other place and hopefully it'll be quieter and more chill but im still gonna go to my friends bar and get tacos before that because they are the best tacos and i havent eaten anything since thursday

yeah

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i hate the whole world

>>7496028
Oh i love baman piderman! :D

>>7496044
you have a good life

>>7496045
lauren please
delete your tumblr blog
it'll be good for you

>>7495984
Hi:3

>>7496018
Ily

>>7496045
Hugg

2017 is gonna be my year
I actually have faith

>>7496048
yeah but some things are about to change i think and i really dont want them to and my future is very uncertain and im scared af, hence all the drinking

>>7496055
whats wrong?

people pretend to care about me because it makes them feel good

>>7496050
i don't have one

>>7496051
I love you too >.<

>>7496052
Yeah I feel like this will be a good year :)

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>>7496037
It's a dead end, it's a trap. Numbing yourself won't change anything.

We're all male but that doesn't mean that you're not a girl. You're taking the first steps towards an actual life, and making peace with your body, please don't sabotage yourself.

>>7496029
>got first "job", lasted like a month
>realized job searching is aids
>WoW Legion came out and was awesome, convinced many friends to come back or start playing
>joined cool raid guild
>got kicked from cool raid guild for getting sick, said that friend I told to tell them said nothing, guild fell apart the following week
>Realized I was trans
>started crossdressing
>Started to actually try to look for a gf/bf, 1 promising lead that went nowhere and 1 that is still looking good
>friends now play way more wow than me and ditch me constantly
>have HRT appointment in january
Pretty eventful year. Some good, some bad, hopefully the groundwork to a lot of good in the future.

>>7496060
huh, i could have sworn this was a lauren post

i guess there are two of you

>>7496065
wasn't me

>>7496052
let's start it really good, then :3c

>>7496065
i'm just a sad meaningless anon

>>7496069
Y-yeah let's >///<

>>7496070
hugg

>>7496029
>had some of the worst mental patches and have never been closer to suicide
>came out to family, but still kinda stuck and being cockblocked by doctors
>senior year of high school halfway done now
>presented as female for the first time publicly in buttfuck nowhere
>visited some colleges
>meme magic won the us election

It was a mixed bag

>>7496070
well okay, but could you keep it down at least? you're killing the new year buzz

>>7496074
cudd
>>7496078
sorry.

>>7496083
good comic

>>7496029
p good
>kept seeing therapist about dysphoria
>finally started transition and hrt
>money from internship
>doing great in school
>came out to a friend
>went from a suicidal wreck to a pretty happy person
Hopefully 2017 is even better
>>7496052
I believe in you Anna <3

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>>7496083
fuck your comics you comic burner
(this was my favorite of the ones i did)

>tfw someone is spamming bordiga on leftypol

i feel a little better now

>>7496029
im not dead

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kinda a silly question but was anyone else afriad to use the women's restroom in public this year? the bathroom scare really frightened me. I only recently got over the anxiety and startwd using them regularly and it's still a little nerve wracking

>>7496063
Its not like you can change my body
dont pretend that you can help me

>>7496059
idk i dont even think im really ready to discuss it directly with someone yet if that makes sense? idk
im real hurt and a little embarassed and im probably just being a big babby about things but also probably not and sorry im being so vague

>>7496085
t-thanks
*hugg*

>>7496088
i'm sorry :(
at least you still have all your stuff
i perma deleted all of mine

>>7496093
no i actually, totally get it.
i get it so much it hurts, shit.

well i can't help you now but if you need someone to listen i'm around. and yea...things will be fine just don't drink alone.

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>>7496092
I can't change your body, but the hormones will
It won't always be this wrong

>>7496091
Nope. It's just normal for me at this point. I'd just look out of place in the men's restroom.

>>7496091
I look like a man still so I don't use the women's restroom. Probably this won't change in the coming year.

pleasebully me in a nonsexual way

>>7496097
ty vry much.

and yeah no drinking alone tonight. no drinking at all. just tacos and probably talking to ppl and maybe some nyquil to help me sleep later

>>7496103
succ

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>>7496103
you look like a girl ahahaha!

>>7496028
no

>>7496106
>>7496105
i need you to make me actually hurt

>>7496108
*pokes you with estrogen needle *

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>>7496029
>started lurking mtfg
>slowly managed to chip away at Spartan
>ordered hrt for the first time
>booked myself in at a GIC
>had a breakdown that made me see the truth
>overcame repression
>came out to best friend and got accepted

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Snickerdoodle's 2016 story:
>meet online bf for first time
>start hrt
>quit job of year
>break up with bf
>start going to mtfg
>go back to school
>start failing school
>life starts to suck
>go to psych ward
>come out to father
>get out of psych ward
>start anti-depressants and seeing therapist
>withdraw from school

2017 will be my year r-right?

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>>7496100
I was stupid enough to keep using the men's bathroom long after I stopped looking like a guy and made a lot of them uncomfortable or outright run out of the bathroom. I should have faced my fears sooner :/

>>7496118
damn, I have a long way to go
I haven't even broken down yet

i feel like i should remember more of the last year
i

>>7496123
No better time for a breakdown than New Year's Eve!

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this is an allegory

>>7496122
I stopped doing that the day I was shouted out by a trucker at a highway stop, telling me to go back and wait in line on the other side. Pretty sure he indeed thought I was sneaking in the men's restroom to skip the long queue.

>>7496118
a m y
*hugs*
how are you doing?

>>7496131
should i make comics

>>7496131
fyck ou

>>7496138
yes
just don't share a blog with me because i'll spaz and delete it :^)

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>>7496118
and thats mostly just december :3
hedpats

>>7496099
And the doubts just go away?

>>7496141
post tum

>>7496108
I could test my new epilator on you, I bet it hurts like hell

>>7496148
okay and also remind me how worthless i am while you do it

>>7496147
no

>>7496152
oddish let me rephrase this
the very sight of you disgusts me
post tum as punishment for my wrongdoing

Tonight I hate myself. More than usual.

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I ate enough food today to feed a small town.

I wish I had a fireplace I could fall asleep in front of right now

>>7496122
>>7496135
>that will never happen to me ;_;

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>>7496135
similar things happened to me but I would convince myself it's just an isolated event and I don't actually look like a girl yet. idk what made me so absolutely terrified of the girls restroom but it was a huge mental gap to overcome. so glad that episode is behind me now bc I'd get so sad and angry at myself for chickening out

this is worrying me a little

all i can remember is pleb alex and the election

>>7496153
that doesn't work on me anthony burch

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>>7496121

>>7496161
damn
i'll talk to you later, okay?
you take care of yourself and that delicious tum of yours

>>7496145
I won't lie, the doubts are still there and you're probably going to struggle with your self image,
Everyone has to face their demons eventually though

>>7496121
i think you and evangeline will make a very cute couple in 2017

also, i'm sure you'll get your shit together this year too

>>7496163
i'm still upset with you

>>7496137
On top of the world!

>>7496144
The best part is I told him everything and he's said he won't let me repress

My 2016
>go visit friend abroad for the first time, fall in love with her there
>autistically confess love over text much later
>she tells me she likes me too
>dating status: official
>she visits me for 3 weeks in summer, sadly dick doesn't work
>start posting here b-because some people here liked /frz/
>become memed into transdom, don't tell gf
>she dumps me when she finds out
>i get on hrt and be sad

>>7496150
what? victims of bulling dont get to chose their punishment.
I will epilate your armpits! no one survives that

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>>7496166

>>7496165
no they don't
they can bury their head in the sand until the day they die :^)

>>7495888
lol gay

>>7496165
Seems like not be worth tbdesu

>>7496167
that's fine desu
i'm not an easy person to deal with
you shouldn't bother

>>7496173
This is easier

>>7496180
exactly
if people didn't want worries in their life then they wouldn't have asked to be born

>>7496177
Believe me, it's worth it

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Took a bit of a nap to prepare for my...12 hour shift. What a way to ring in the new year. Now for the big question: Will my brother have the car ready, or will he be a coward?

Anyway, I think I will kick off my E at midnight. It's been spiro only for a couple of weeks. If both of them together makes me feel better, then I'll probably be set for all of 2017

2016

>be depressed
>suck at uni
>get fat
>grow beard
>shave hair
>visit moscow
>go to greece
>find mtfg
>realize im trans
>shave beard
>start hrt
>Lose 40lbs
>meet qt girl whos now my first gf :3

>>7496173
Been doing it for years, it got really unbearable and boring too and Im still far from dead.

beginning at the start of 2016
>spend 3 months figuring out if i'm trans
>oh self medding is a thing cool
>nah i'm just gonna repress
>these feeling will go away
>some opportunities to get a job and go to school arise
>sleep through half the ACT and get a score high enough to be accepted into this program
>bullshit my way through an interview and get the job
>summer comes around and i hide in my room after one day of the job and quit
>my trans feelings come back and it was really easy to accept myself as trans this time, it's who i was and stuff
>i don't end up going to school, just hide
>find mtfg
>think for a second people won't hate me but that dream definitely died
>get hormones near the end of september
>stumble my way through the rest while hurting myself and crying
i guess i'm setting myself up for some better things to happen in 2017
my life is meaningless other than transitioning though and i'd have killed myself back when school started if i didn't get hormones
nobody really cares about this but it was nice to reflect

>>7496192
where you an ml before you went to Moscow

>>7496184
diff anon
what if you risk/lose everything, and never pass ?
how will it be worth it then

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doc better give me my mones next week

>>7496196
Ive been ml for 5 years

>>7496195
I always thought that the biggest things people wrestle with is not "am I trans", but "is it worth it?"

>>7496205
i have nothing to fucking lose

>>7496188
I've started on AAs alone tho small does and after a month I started to feel like shit physically and mentally, like Im dead
got all signs of very low test
have to took a break till I get E too

>>7496205
For me it wasn't "am I trans" or "is it worth it" but "I'm too scared to start". Fucked myself over with that thinking for like a decade and a half.

>>7496207
Well just AA alone will leave you tired and depressed. You need some sort of sex hormlne in your system. Get yourself on E girl.

when people look at me they want to hurt me for being garbage

>>7496205
it def was for me. I knew what the probable outcome of me deciding to come out to my mom but I still was so terrified of doing it I couldn't sleep and cried and broke down for an entire week.

of course just as i feared it was a compete disaster and caused an unfixable rift between us

>stop being a tranny or I don't love you anymore
>no
>fuck you burn in hell degenerate ur dead to me

wew :^)

>>7496207
I did a trial run on spiro
the biggest pain in the ass was the dehydration, I didn't notice any mood changes

I've been off for a few weeks, I can feel my T coming back and it's awful

>>7496209
I was the same, eventually just hit a stage where I really couldn't give a single shit anymore.

>>7496177
Really, it's worth it. I wasn't expecting much about transitioning again so late, but it turned out better than the good examples I had in mind. What was a last ditch try at surviving ended up putting my life back on track.

>>7496211
Stramgers laugh at me and my mother cries everytime she looks at me. Life is suffering desu

im a sad tranny

>>7496195
can you see therapist to get help with the depression ?

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>>7496209

>>7496213
your mom a christfag?
mine is, wouldn't hate me but would definitely make my life hard

>>7496221
there's no helping it
i'm worthless and doomed

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>>7496205

That's what I've fought with. It's what I've fought with, back and forth, for so many years. I knew I wanted to be a girl, I knew I wanted to be known as a girl, but I was always so afraid I wasn't trans enough, that this was some kind of escapist fantasy, and let me tell you, 4chan did not make that any easier.

For me, it wasn't "was it worth it", it was "why do I feel that way", and perhaps that's what held me back, that I couldn't answer that question. I didn't know who I am. I still don't know completely, but I've come to some realizations since then; I can't keep lying to myself. I have to do it, one way or another.

Besides, since I really accepted I might be a girl, I've felt more motivated. I finally got my CNA, I moved out of my parents house, and this year alone, I've gotten a car, ordered hormones, and started working on therapy, really working on it. Stuff I've put off for years.

>>7496207
>>7496210

That just might be it. I might actually be at low T levels now, which is...delightful! I guess I need to start on E.

>>7496225
nah. there's christfags but. then there's the bible thumping fanatical cultists that believes everyone that isn't 100% as fanatical as them need. to be converted and "re-educated" or die. she's a lunatic

she's of the latter

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>Pineapple Princess Phienchen will never sit on your face while she is wearing a Nazi officer uniform

why even bother going on

can someone tell me how to be happy

i'm really sad and i don't know how to deal with it other than hurting myself or just waiting

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>>7496236
>you will never cuddle up to hanna on a cold winter's day while you both watch yuri on ice
of all the things that could have been, why this?

i will never have anyone to be there for me because they always throw me away

>>7496243
im stealing im this meme anon

>>7496246
you wouldn't let me help you and only tell me about how you hate my friends now

>>7496248
i'm not alex

>>7496227
but you've started transition - sounds like you are on the right track and have the motivation, just need some assistance to get going and ease the pain for now

>>7496242
Waiting is better than hurting yourself, so try that. (Not that waiting doesn't hurt...)

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>>7496247
don't take my memes, korra

they're all i have left

>>7496235
my mom's about as christian as they come
violent christians are just angry hypocrites

like, my mom refuses to help me see a psych because all my mental illnesses are caused by demons, which is probably caused by my father and grandmother having visited a fortune teller, drugs are going to turn me into a suicidal zombie (haha joke's on you, i'm already suicidal), and all i need to do is talk to a russian pastor

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autobiographical

>So.. wishes for 2017?
Mine is Go on hrt but idk if would pass.
Happy new year btw

i wish i had friends

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>>7496235

Oh geez. My biological grandparents are kind of like that. My grandmother is, my grandfather is more chill though. The people they married are more extremist...let me tell you, all of my grandparents really worry me about how things will go when I come out.

I know how hard it can be, having family members like that. I mean, you still love them, no matter how hard you try to deny it, so it's even harder than if it's just some other person. That's what's terrified me as well.

>>7496260
be my friend UwU

im out of estrogen and my insurance company won't refill it

>>7496262
hugg
i meant in real life though
can i stay with you in Hawaii

>>7496259
pray to god that the NHS is competant

>>7496263
why not :c

>>7496265
i-i live with my parents ;_;
and i think they're almost as autistic as yours

I have lots of really great friends and live in a cool, great place so I've decided to transition whether I pass or not, even though I'll definitely try really really hard to pass.

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>>7496257
Hugg ;~;

>>7496246
iktf

>>7496254
s-sry I'll only post it when I'm sad or feels posting OK I'll credit u

>>7496256
I hate that shit. my mom did the exact same bullfuck. I found a therapist F O R F R E E that would have helped me a lot on pre hrt days but she needed my mom to sign something. the crazy bitch refused and said I needed MORE JESUS and to talk to a pastor to heal all the mental damage and abuse scars she inflicted on me over the course of 20 years.

i serously wanted to punch her in the face for being so ass backwards retarded and I'm strictly a non violence girl

>>7496268
im running out of refills and i only have my old 1 mgs left
it's supposed to last 30 days but i take more than it says to and they won't refill it after 2 weeks

>>7496266
It is, i just want to start even if i end "bad" at my 19

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>>7496228
>that this was some kind of escapist fantasy
Im still not sure if its not, did I get depressed cause being repressed trans, or do I feel trans as a result of depression?

Tfw sad again
It still hurts so much thinking of her

>>7496280
hugg
iktf

cryy

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>>7496259
To be Amy

>>7496261
don't come out to you family lmfao. that would be the rest decision of your life. just lie to them and never ever mention tranny shit. boymode around them. it is not fucking worth it at all and. they'll never love or accept u as a tranny. there's no talking to or convincing those kinds of people no matter how hard you wish it were possible. ur in for a world of hurt and heartache if you do decide to (stupidly) come out to them

>>7496280
think of sertii's nascent relationship and be happy for her instead of wallowing in pity over your failed fling

i miss pleb

>>7496274
i kind of wish my mom was more of a bitch
she's really fucking sweet all the time which makes me feel bad about getting angry at her but oh my fucking GOD she is good at actively sabotaging me

my stepdad offered to help me, though, so as soon as they're open again and i'm not cripplingly depressed i'll schedule an appointment, i guess
no idea how the fuck to do so though

>>7496275
:(
you should only take as much as you need!! or get money online so you can saelf med or something

>tfw will never be good enough

>>7496281
Hugg renren

>>7496285
>fling
Kill yourself

>>7496241
Have your brain flooded with happy chemicals while being with people you like.

>>7496289
Good enough for what?

>>7496289
>Kill yourself
wow, touchy much?

i can see why trashy dumped you now

>>7496287
that's how christfags are. they're masters of manipulating and gaslighting to make you feel crazy and in the wrong. it's a control tactic to keep you off your balance and easier to think and act thr way they want you too instead of how you want to. trust me I suffered that way for decades

sorry

>>7496287
my doctor said to take 8 mg a day
that's what I take

>>7496292
No I just want useless drains on my emotions like yourself to die :^)

>>7496291
Anything

>>7496297
>No I just want useless drains on my emotions like yourself to die :^)
well buckle up faggot, because i ain't going nowhere and 2017 is shaping up to be the year of the bully

>>7496293
yeah, i've been less nice to her recently but still, it's annoying as fuck
even after she came up to my room and started reading out of the bible to me and i told her to fuck off she kept acting nice as usual to me
i'm fairly certain she wouldn't disown me or anything if i went trans, but she'd probably start crying 24/7
every other day she would come up to me and tell me i'm going to become a great missionary man

>>7496293
growing up Catholic is bad
i used to feel horrible all the time because I was afraid of confession but i thought i was going to hell

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hips

>>7496295
you can't get enough to be able to take 8mg a day?
maybe you should take less if they don't give you enough

>>7496299
Ow the edge xDD le bully anon terrorising mtfg!!!

>>7496303
i haven't been to my endo in a while

>>7496259
>lose weight
>work on voice
>work on makeup skills
>try to go full time by end of year
The first time I get someone to call me my girl name irl that isn't my therapist or my doctor I'm going to smile like a goof. Hopefully that time is in 2017
>>7496260
I'll be ur friend renren

>>7496306
hugg friend ambi
>>7496302
hugg friend gelgel

>>7496297
I mean to be fair you were both lonely and kinda clung to each other out of desperation from the sounds of it. if she really loved you she would have stuck around even though ur transitioning. real love is unconditional m8. u probs got really attached bc she was ur first and u put a lot of emotional investment in her. but like Elsa says just let it go. it's time to move on and start and new chapter in life

anybody well up tears and whimper in waves rather than fully cry

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breasts

>>7496313
hugg

new years always makes me really sad because i always realize i didn't do anything the entire year

i feel like shit

>>7496313
feminine benis

>>7496304
she probably dumped you because you can't handle the banter either

>>7496312
me but sometimes I fully cry too

>>7496295
>8 mg a day
of estradiol valerate?

>>7496318
hey you should eat meat you're anemic

>>7496273
No-one could throw you away, it'd be too silly too.

>>7496318
i wish i could hugg you when you cry

>>7496310
they were together for a few short months, it was literally just a fling

bjorg needs to calm down a bit

>>7496319
the blue pills that say 887 | 2 and b

>>7496310
That's not a very accurate representation.
Also I would like to point out that Elsa may have very happily stated she let everything go and she'd never cry again and then likerally 15 minutes in the movie she cried
Sound like someone on here?

>>7496317
>le I was just pretending
Literally checking all the boxes her anon

>>7496315
Be happy about all the things you'll be able to do in this coming year, then.

(Captcha stop I did click all of the tea that thing you want me to click isn't tea it's beer.)

>>7496300
Yeah she's just subtly trying to push you in the direction she wants you to go. christfags love to smile in it face and feed you pretty little lies at the same time. and if u get upset they fall back on but in always so nice to you I don't understand why it upset. go pray about it son. that's gaslighting control tactics 101.domr fall for the faux nice demeanor it's an act to hide whats really going on beneath the surface

>>7496314
hugg
>>7496321
I've been abandonment by people I thought were my friend before. my best friend for 4-5 years decided to ditch me once they got popular and then moved away shortly after

>>7496325
fling
deliberately short-term sexual relationship between two people. Longer than a one-night stand, not as serious-sounding as "affair", more frankly physical than the discreet or twee "dalliance", the word has the associations of a much-needed sexual relief from stress, worry or hangups. No deep personal involvement required, just the sex and a bit of attention.

>there were feelings involved and we didn't have sex once and it wasn't deliberately short term
Really make u think

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>>7496278

That's why I started taking hormones, to figure that out.

I may never completely know, but if I can live life happily as a woman, than that's all that matters.

>>7496284

I've already come out to my dad, and I think...my mom would be okay, in time. She's a kind person, even if she worries she's not in line with the gospel sometimes. She sent me a pamphlet on homosexuality for members of the church for Easter so she knows something's up.

>>7496293

This is one of the reasons I drifted away from the church. The gospel is good, it really is, but like everything, it's ruined when people get their hands on it.

Anyway, the car is jumpstarted once more, so if I can take the driving test...with other people on the road...oh jeez...

i must do a lot of bad things i don't realize

>>7496335
>>there were feelings involved and we didn't have sex once and it wasn't deliberately short term
sorry - it was a fling, but without the sex part

so basically a friendship, but not a very good one because you hid important things from her

I'm drunk and emotional and crying


Have I made it am I a girl yet

>>7496342
Epic

>>7496332
They don't even know what they're missing, it was silly of them.

It's tough when friends do that though, I hope it hasn't put you off friends for good and you'll still try and find the right people for you & your life.
Something similar happened to me too, it makes you feel incredibly lousy for the longest time.

im going to a party w/ a bunch of straight people.

i think im just gonna get drunk as fuck and do as much cocaine as humanly possible before taking an uber back to my house alone at 6x surge and falling asleep on the floor and hoping that somehow the cocaine and alcohol mixed with my sleeping pill and anti-depressant kill me in my sleep and i never have to live another moment of my life ever again

don't bully Anna

>>7496352
Hugg

>>7496351
you are good rachel just have a good time and don't die

>>7496351
Have fun. Don't kill yourself.

>>7496349
Hugg for Anna

>>7496346
Why are you crying? It's the new year

Why are you ALWAYS crying when you're drunk?

things are bad because of me and i deserve it

>>7496315
same, basically zero progress with my life and Im not getting younger, gives me mad anxiety
birthdays are even worse

i'll never be cute so nobody is ever going to want or love me because i'm too gross to have value

>>7496351
or just go to the party and have a good time socializing without drugs or attempted suicide

idk why trannies are so suicidal over every little thing it's like damn just live life and expect a few lumps here and there

My nipples are too noticeable in shirts now ._.
Guess I have to wear sweatshirts now lol
>>7496312
Yeah that's how I cry

>>7496346
have you sucked a dick yet or is that why you are crying?

>>7496363
who is it that keeps posting these?

i know sometimes it's lauren, but sometimes it's not lauren

>>7496350
I haven't really had any people in a long time

>>7496351
fuck a dude

>>7496374
nobody
i like posting this stuff because it hurts me

>>7496362
I'm crying Bc of stuff and I'm always crying anon. Seriously I cried like four times yesterday sober bc I read a thing about a dog and it was sad and I kept remembering it

>>7496379
hugg
>>7496376
hugg
>>7496380
hugg
its ok to cry

>>7496372
Wtf no no Dicks have been near any orifice of mine tonight tyvm

>>7496371
wear a sports bra or two white tee-shirts under whatever ur wearing to smooth it out

>>7496351
>cocaine
>alcohol
>anti-depressant
enjoy your serotonin syndrome, it could be fun if your organism can handle it

>>7496377
dudes never want to fuck me, i literally look and dress like i read two books a week and have never touched a penis

>>7496380
>Seriously I cried like four times yesterday sober bc I read a thing about a dog and it was sad and I kept remembering it
Jesus Christ, you are the womanest lady to ever female on this earth

I don't really have any good advice, except that people usually feel better when they post lewds.

>>7496383
hugg

>>7496388
dress better and do ur makeup? flirting a little helps too

>>7496385
my dick is always near my butt desu
where do you keep yours?

>>7496376
Find new ones. Everyone has their own little clique in these threads.

>>7496392
i think i dress fine. all natural fibers and high-quality clothes. it's just not a "i have a lot of sex" aesthetic. i wear a lot of wool, cashmere, silk, ect

>>7496380
I miss that, I need my emotions back, but being depressed for a while made me numb, cant cry even from selfpity

>>7496397
who is my clique?

>>7496376
I haven't either, but you know what it'll be ok for both of us.
We'll find some real friends, some decent people & maybe even each other too.

It's a new year, so now you've got a while new year to meet some neat people.

i'm ugly and bad on the outside and inside

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>ywn be a qt 19 year old 5'4" royal princess working as a mechanic in ww2
>ywn be coronated as the queen and grow old reigning over the empire, having the power to interfere with the self governed countries that are part of your commonwealth but have the strength to maintain your policy of non interference.
>ywn slip into a coma at 90 after battling a cold and pass away in mid January 2017

>>7496401
do you want to join mine

>>7496401
What do I look like, your mum? I don't know who your best friends are.

>>7496398
not fine enough to attract dudes apparently. dress a but closer to what the stacies are wearing and cake on a bit more makeup. guys drool all over that superficial shit. attract their attention with the Stacy look keep them there with being smart and stuff. ur pretty enough this should be really easy. do you look sad or angry alot? that tends to repel new ppl away. u might personally like the librarian look but that doesn't necessarily translate to guys liking it

>>7496398
take off your shoes, your glasses, let down your hair and let everyone know you're ready to fucking party and be fucked by dudes

>>7496397
I get anxious about people
>>7496402
hopefully

>>7496411
>take your shoes off
this desu, show off them tranny feet

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>>7496403
try wearing this

>>7496411
also this. let ur hair down and wear contacts to parties

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>>7496409
Tfw I don't even have to do any of this shit and I get laid easily

>>7496414
>>I get anxious about people
don't go crazy with collecting friends then

maybe just keep 1-2 close ones