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Feel really confused about myself . I have been constantly thinking about myself being gay for about a year. Just going back and forth and stressing out, just kind of trying to not think about it.
Never really noticed guys sexually or romantically until last year either, never even think of spending my life with a woman, don't really like how I'm thinking.
Feel incredibly insecure about the way I am in general too, always feeling submissive.
Predominantly looked at gay porn, although I felt really guilty about that so I stopped watching porn.
I feel like I might be gay and I just need to accept it but I am too scared of the social consequences of it.
Not even in a religious family but I don't want to only be known in the back of people's minds as the son/cousin/friend who isn't a real man and gets used by men.
Be real, whats up with me?
>>7443578
You sound like a case of HOCD.
If it's that, there could be a way to solve it.
>>7443624
I have OCD, but I feel i'm genuinely attracted to men.
>>7443578
Experiment sexually. You will know what feels good or not.
If you are gay, then that is that. The only thing you can do to be happy is accept it.
Making some friends who are gay, even on the internet, (make sure they are people you actually like!!!) might help with that. Just expose yourself to gay stuff and get used to it. That doesn't necessarily mean really effeminate and flaming, not all gays are like that.
Being gay doesn't make you less of a real man. Worrying about others perception of you and your masculinity does however.
>>7443859
getting dominated by another man doesn't make you less of a man?
double bump
>>7443578
>Be real, whats up with me?
Internalized homophobia. If you're gay, you're gay. There's nothing wrong with that.
>>7448752
>Internalized homophobia
I super wish this was just a meme
>>7444630
No, it doesn't.
Also, who said anything about getting dominated by another man? Gay sex does not need to involve domination.
>>7443578
>used by men
you make it sound like youre some slut that sleeps around
>>7443636
>I have OCD
Then this might just be an obsessive line of thought. Intrusive sexual thoughts about men don't mean you're necessarily gay; intrusive thoughts caused by OCD are not necessarily reflections of your actual desires.
My suggestion? Have sex with a man, have sex with a woman, and see whether you enjoy each one. You may enjoy both!
>>7448768
Cure your OCD first.
Then figure out your sexuality. Realizing that you are gay could psychologically burden you even more.
Many people feel ashamed an repulsed after having gay sex. Until you are sure you are gay, such an experience will add to your confusion.
>>7448765
im not