I consider myself gay (Or close to it, I'm 5 in the Kinsley scale) but I don't have hopes for it at all. In fact, the more I try to engage with guys, the more sad I stay.
I had a boyfriend in this year. And it didn't work out, for a lot of factors (he didn't want to hurt his parents). I tried again with a bi guy. He wanted to use me as a sexual toy and then marry a girl.
I can't take it anymore. No guy will ever going to truly love me.
This is why I was wondering how it would be if I try to date girls. I
You guys already tried this? I did, but only in the beginning of my adolescence. But nothing serious.
How to convince myself to not fall for my homosexuality again?
>>7307534
I think you need some more self esteem. Finding a guy can be tough.
Do you need to talk?
>>7307534
Stop watching gay movies with sad endings and watch proper porn instead.
>>7307534
Straight girls are not going to be any better for you. In my experience straight women are also much more shallow.
>>7308492
So I am doomed in loneliness. The girl I dated when I was 15 was bisexual and she was one of those polyamorous girls. Meh.
>>7307534
There are countless straight people who feel like no one from the opposite sex will ever truly love them and they will never have a successful, healthy relationship. The truly unhappy relationship would be you with a woman. Your orientation is not just okay but good.
Your obstacle is your self esteem and internalized homophobia. I know you can work on both and be the cool strong confident version of yourself. A qt guy will love you very much.
>>7308483
Do you have a throwaway?
>>7308624
Eh men I will toss those straight people up into a whole different category. They have there choice of 52% of the population. They even have the assumption that a person if the opposite sex is at least fundamentally intrested .
I'm gay and have had a few women 'fall in my lap' -- never had a gay relationship just fall into place like that.
>>7308483
>What to do when the sad gay movies comes to real life?
Get over it and keep looking.
>>7308624
Yeah I agree with this I feel like I could meet a lot more transexual, bisexual and even gay people if society didn't teach people to repress it. I'm bisexual and open to all but I've literally never been approached by a trans or bi/gay and many times by girls.