Why do i, after speaking a bit with mom, feel like "camping

>>7042244

Is your mom hyperfeminine? Does she get that competitive spirit in you going to see who can fit the most cocks in their mouth? Is that it, you horny slut? Admit it you sissy bitch and take this dick in your whore hole.

>>7042260
Nah i'm not that sissy like those dick-craving i see on the internet.
I don't remember liking dicks until i started watching shemale porn. And it's not like wanting a manly man's dick, more like liking the aesthetics of the dick, and liking to please it the same i way i like mine.

What defines mom as hyperfeminine? Her voice's actually kinda thick. She was already 45 and fat when i born.

>>7042338

Do you think the reason is that you want to be a woman? How do you feel when you watch trans pornography? How did you feel about girls and boys when you were younger?

>>7042369
More or less, i don't know.
Sometimes after interacting with mom/sister i get a desire to watch trans porn, those where the transgirl really camps out, and to project myself onto the girl.
Thinking now, i do feel like a dick-sucking slut at those times.

Other times, when i'm not disturbed with that feeling, i watch trans porn to see them having anal pleasure, see the beautiful hard cock and body, see them cramping up over the cock. And projecting myself onto the man, but it is still kinda related to the desire to be a trans.

I had i think 2 episodes of showing my dick to girls around kindergarten age.
I felt, and still feel, kinda distant from other boys, and resentment for not playing with the "dirty" boys on the street; never had much friends of my age like a normal boy.
Didn't really want to kiss neither boys or girls at school.

>>7042456

What is your sister like? Did you ever wish you could be treated the way she is or allowed to do the things she was allowed to do?

Do you think you could see yourself as a transgender woman in a relationship with another transbian?

>I felt, and still feel, kinda distant from other boys, and resentment for not playing with the "dirty" boys on the street; never had much friends of my age like a normal boy.

I can say that I felt the same way when I was a kid.

Did you ever feel you had to repress the way you felt or sexual feelings to uphold a religious moral standard? Did you feel disgusted towards sex?

>>7042786
She's kinda grandious and bossy/spoiled. not.

Only some of the times when i'm very horny at porn

Not, i guess. Didn't care about religious standards.
Can't remember well but i guess not.

>>7042909

Were you a straight guy before this with not one gay thought you may have tried to ignore?

>>7042244

Ignore the trannies and chasers on here who'll try and make you a tranny. You enjoy being treated like a baby/sissy in bed? Then so be it. No one dictates you need look like a typical biological female for that to happen. If you want to be submissive in bed, then go for it and enjoy it - don't let anyone dictate otherwise.

>>7042968
Thinking about this makes me nervous and wanting to avoid it
I used to find Queen's drummer cute and admire the masculinity and strenght of the guetto boys around here

>>7042989
I guess the only way to find out is to date a transgirl who would make submissive and see if i like it

>>7043026

You mean even now you feel nervous remembering that you have felt attracted to guys?

You kind of sound like me. When I was a kid, I loved watching Smallville and I thought Tom Welling was attractive. However, I didn't develop my first crush on a guy I met in person until I was 11. My father took my brothers and I to some kind of landscaping store to buy grass pre-cut into squares to put in our backyard. A kid around my age, maybe up to 14 years old was working there and we kind of looked at each other shyly the way you might see pre-k kids do as we filled up the truck. It was very awkward and I was worried about my father realizing I was attracted to this boy. When we were done loading the truck and my dad drove us away, I was glad nothing came of it and I didn't have to explore that. That's because I didn't want to be gay, so of course, if I could ignore anything that would point towards me being gay, it was a relief.

When my parents would take me out somewhere, I would sometimes see guys that I felt kind of attracted to. In response to that, I would involuntarily start to walk differently. I always felt that I walked somewhat strangely, but I would become hyper aware of how I would walk when I saw a guy I was attracted to. I always worried whenever that happened if the way I walked would give away that I was feeling attracted to a guy, so I would try to correct myself into a more normal walk. If I may inject some trannyscience here, I think the involuntary reaction was some unconscious part of a female psyche that was attempting to display itself as a receptive female to an attractive male.

I later felt tingles in my penis or balls, or my penis would even move and get a little bigger whenever guys would pass close by me thanks to our closely-squeezed-together desks.

I think it's safe to say you're at least bisexual. Although why your mom and sister are a trigger for your same-sex attraction and desire to be girlish is a real puzzle for me.

>>7043178
I'm not OP, just a fellow legbut browsing.

Just wanted to give my 2 cents on this thread - coming to terms with yourself is wonderful and all but the worst thing you can do is a type of "revisionism" of your own history, when instead of analysing things as they were you look at them through the lenses of someone who already has an opinion formed and will just say "did you do this and this and this? Oh, that certainly means that you're X" and thus end up fitting your narrative to someone else's. I'm sure you have the best intentions at heart but this is why help online from lgbt forums is always "dangerous" to a point because it's all very partial, most of the people coming for help are not very sure of themselves and will be very 'malleable' to what you say. Careful not to project your own past and experiences onto them.

>>7043308

He's admitted to some attraction to men and even before that he didn't seem totally straight with the whole, lusting for cock thing. I think it's safe to say he's bisexual at this point.

>>7043322
>lusting for cock thing
lol

Bumping for OP.

>>7045551
Thank you

>>7043178
Yes

I think i had some episodes like that as a kid

>I think it's safe to say you're at least bisexual. Although why your mom and sister are a trigger for your same-sex attraction and desire to be girlish is a real puzzle for me.
When i pass near mom i feel a desire to hug and kiss her like i did as a kid

As a kid she "forced" me to hug and kiss her and to hug her friends and i felt discomfortable and drained with that.
When i would get inside the house after that, i would struggle in the bathroom feeling abused and hiding my dick (had some influences from transgenders interviews on tv though) and remembering her telling what my name would be if i were born a girl.

When i had gay sex with a friend around age 12 i liked to be submissive, it felt like reinforcing the way i felt around my family and specifically mom

>>7045645

I don't understand why you feel nervous remembering that you have felt attracted to other boys before and are questioning whether you're bisexual when you have already had gay sex. Did your friend coerce you into it?

Do you value yourself little?

Do you think your mother wants you to be a girl or did she tell you your girl name for no real reason?

>>7046969
No, didnt coerce, i liked it.

How to tell that?

I suspect that yes she did want to some extent.

I want to find out that i'm bisexual and can enjoy girls, but i fear and loath them, and missed the high school oportunity to find that out

Bumpin

>>7047109
See an actual psychologist, instead of 4chan anons poorly attempting to apply Freud bullshit.

>>7048019
Already did, they're idiots, and one even tried to bullshit me into antipsychotics

>>7048041
What the heck was their reasoning in thinking that that would be useful here!?

>>7048045
That was because i was getting isolated

Is it possible to be fixed? I need help