How do I know if I'm really trans or not?

Lol was literally just going to make the exact same thread

I feel the same too, I've had crossgender feelings and mild dysphoria (not suicidal or anything but its always been there) my whole life and would like to try HRT to see how it makes my feel but a part of me still thinks I might just be trying to run away from or cope with my other issues (no friends for a long time, depressed, etc.)

Imo try hormones and see how you feel

It's not very cis to want to take cross-gender hormones. In the end, you are you, and you will do what you want to do. Terms like "transgender" are blanket terms made to define categories of people with similar experiences, but they miss the nuance and complexity of the individual's lived existence. If you want to transition, transition. Whether you are "trutrans" is a question that can rack minds, but ultimately it's a fallacy. If you want to decide the best course of action, learn more about transition, transgender experiences, and yourself, and then you will have to decide what is right for you

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>>6937270
Yeah, I'm really lost here, anon.

I have had these weird feelings that something was off since kid.
Dressed as a girl then shit happened (mom finding out, beating the crap out of me, etc) which made me stay away from that stuff but still always depressed, no friends, don't really like looking at myself or letting people take pictures, etc.

The thing is that I don't really know if all these things are really related to being trans or not.

As for being suicidal I felt like that a couple of times but I'm not sure if it was gender dysphoria, maybe it was just depression? Anyways I'm weird as fuck.

Kinda funny that there's another anon unsure of things like that. I hope someone can help us out, I really wanted some kind of online test or something to at least be more sure of things.

Right now it feels like whatever I'm doing and feeling is not really legit and I should feel bad for having these thoughts and I'm not really worthy.

>>6937333
>not really worthy

I felt this too. I had a pretty idealized view of girls and women until about my mid-teens and while I always wanted to be more feminine, I felt bad about it because I felt like I was somehow just mimicing or aping actual women in some way. It got better though once I realized that women are just people too and femininity isnt really anybodys property

>>6937333
Anon, I've been in hormones for months, and I still feel guilty for it sometimes. Society kind of teaches us to hate trans people, or at least view them as vain, shallow, etc.

To me it sounds like you VERY well could be trans. I think there are online quizzes and stuff like that, but really they aren't going to decide for you whatever the results they give. One thing I've heard that supposedly helps people decide is this inverse of "am I trans?" which is asking yourself "can I prove that I'm actually cis?"

For me, the main factor was realizing that the saddest thing would be for me to pass and never be known as anything but a male. Be it a closeted trans person, a "true woman," or simply a man who never felt like a man, if this bit about my life were never known, it would be tragic, so much that I decided I needed to prepare, even if it was just a letter to be discovered that said "by the way, I've been trans all along." Think not just about how you feel currently, but how you would feel aging, living a whole life, and then dying in the gender role of your natal sex. /lgbt/ actually really helped me make the decision to transition, because they brought to light for me the reality of people repressing for 40 years and then transitioning once they already look like an old balding man with a wife and kids.

Whatever you decide to do, I wish the best for you, and I hope it gets better

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>>6937432
Yeah could be that, probably started due to my lack of self esteem, It just feels like I'm a shitty person that doesn't deserve anything good.

>>6937494
>Society kind of teaches us to hate trans people, or at least view them as vain, shallow, etc.

Maybe could be that, I also wonder if my mom had something to do with that since she was always against lgbt related things whenever she saw it on tv.

>which is asking yourself "can I prove that I'm actually cis?"
I would like to know more about this one, do you have any tips at least for me? I really don't know a single kind of question I should ask myself to prove if I'm really cis.
I'm really confused about all this stuff, it only makes me more depressed because I can't do anything right and I'm so stupid and useless.

Right now the answer is "I can't prove I'm cis because I don't know even where to start"

>was realizing that the saddest thing would be for me to pass and never be known as anything but a male

I think I had similar feelings a couple of times, to me it was more related to everything I do not being worth and all my effort and tears have being wasted somehow.

>Think not just about how you feel currently, but how you would feel aging, living a whole life, and then dying in the gender role of your natal sex.

That's a good question, right now I don't know how to answer because I don't see myself growing old. Not trying to sound all weird and stuff, just don't know what to say.

Thanks a lot for all you wrote though, I Will put a lot of thought on it and try to answer these questions myself. Maybe it will help me out if I put a lot of thought on it.

Have a comfy dreamy house picture as thanks.

Do you want to be a member of the other gender and are suffering because that's not the case? If so, congrats.

>>6937228
>>6937270
I often find that trying to explain a problem to other people with as much detail as they need to truly be able to understand it is a good way to help me understand it. Why not tell us about yourselves, from the beginning, and how you came to feel the way that you do?

>>6937751
>Why not tell us about yourselves, from the beginning, and how you came to feel the way that you do?

Alright I guess I can try that, problem is that I may not remember everything but overall I have had these confusing thoughts for a while.

>7 year old dressing on my older sister clothes and playing with her did it many times until my mom found out and beat the crap out of us two.
Also I'm not sure if this one counts because maybe I just liked all these things because she played with me and I was happy by doing it. which is why I'm confused about this specific part.

>Early teens, bullied and stuff at school, never was into the stuff others were which only made me fall further away from everyone and be excluded, kinda that's when I started having weird dreams from time to time, like nothing sexual and stuff, just being a girl and going to school.
Other than the weird dreams it was pretty mild to me since I had a lot of other things to worry about at that time, I actually got beaten a lot during my early teens so I was legit more worried about faking being ill and going back home earlier so no one would get me outside the school.
I guess they also didn't like me because I let my hair grow a bit and they called me faggot and shit which now that I think, maybe was the reason for all the bullying, I don't really know.

Pt2 inc since I typed too much bullshit.
Sorry for the wall of text.

>>6938051
Part 2 here.

>Late teens, kinda found some stuff on the internet, and as probably everyone's else I found a lot of stuff, just considered that as a kink and never gave much into it.
Though sometimes I would be kinda sad since I hated looking at myself in the mirror, like legit hate to the point I felt bad in the stomach, that's when I also happend to pick a really shitty trait about myself which is comparing things.
Like let's say I see someone's hand I compare it to mine which only helped the self harm tendencies I guess.

>Early adulthood, some bad stuff happened, family related plus some broken dreams and shit, got more depressed than normal, stopped caring about everything pretty much went full shut-in mode.
Pretty much the only things I kept were the self harming tendencies and in some rare cases I kinda daydream about "normal life" which is one of the things that really bug me out because I'm not sure if I'm daydreaming about having a normal life as a girl due to it being some kind of kink or trauma I had since little or if it's legit stuff.

Did I make any sense? I'm typing this from cellphone maybe I should have written it somewhere before trying to post.

TL;DR
Not sure if trans, maybe a weird kink? childhood trauma? mentally retarded?
All I know is that I really don't think I'm worthy for even asking myself these things.

If you don't feel certain you should probably go see a gender therapist about it, that's what they're there for. I think if you're getting this worked up about it it's probably not just nothing though.

>>6937228
You could also be a femboy, I mean, you don't really know until you explore it a bit. That happened with my bf - he started out just taking small amounts of progynova and bicalumatide. He liked the changes but decided he wasn't trans. Dresses fem most the time and I think he passes. I think encouragement is huge. Really helps if you have someone to support you and talk through your concerns. If the label feels uncomfortable then maybe it doesn't fit you? He doesn't even use the term femboy its just what ppl would understand y'know?

>>6937228

>Be me
>Always looked like a girl
>Get bullied at school for looking like a girl
>Don't act like a girl or want to be a girl, and end up chasing girls on schoolyard
>Middle School
>Get told by mom I'm being bullied because I'm femme. Assume she's like the bullies making fun of me and flip out
>Girls don't like me in high school, assume I'm gay or something. I sometimes walk and talk like a girl a little bit. Still no desire to be a girl. Have sexual fantasy about clone of self and decide I might be bisexual though.
>Cross dress at night clubs 2x a year starting at 19
>Very attractive, so I end up sleeping with lots of women. Don't do well in community college, so...
>Join the army to prove I'm a real man
>Not like any of the other soldiers, even after training
>Have depression and social anxiety for all of teenage and adult life, mostly from bullying and abuse at home
>Be 22 and read about genderqueer stuff, look at trans porn, 4chan trap threads
>Live in Portland so pretty much everyone is trans friendly, and the women I like would probably like me better if I was trans.
>Leave army so I can grow my hair long
>Tell my friends that I'm considering being trans, get lots of support
>Come out as trans even though I'm not sure if I really want to be treated like a girl all the time
>2.5 months into HRT
>Now

Not sure if this is the right decision, but I'm happier, and much more attractive, and I can love myself better. I don't want a vagina, and I've been told by some trans people on /mtfg/ that means I'm not TruTrans. In fact, I want to impregnate women someday and father my own children...and still be trans. All I know is, I'm happy and couldn't truly love myself any other way.

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>>6938147
I kinda wanted to be more sure of things before I even considered going to talk to a doctor about transition and stuff.

>>6938242
You just got me more confused because now I'm unsure if I'm trans or a femboy or cis.
I don't know anything anymore.

I really need a "are you trans? for dummies" book.

>>6938965
You could talk this over with a therapist. They could help you figure this out. Just find a good one.

>>6938981
Therapists don't even believe in femboys so if you are doubting being one it will probably make things worse.

>>6938965
I didn't read most of the thread but answer me this: do you like your dick?

>>6938986
>you like your dick
I'm virgin but I have found some guys cute during my life so I guess maybe I do.

I know I wrote a ton of walls of text in the thread but if you can try to read it maybe you can help me out because I'm really stupid and this is kinda making more crazy than normal and I haven't been able to answer any of this for quite a while...

>>6938981
But I really wanted to at least be more assured of my feelings before I decided to even go out and talk to a professional, do any of you have any online quiz thing for finding out if you're trans?

>>6938997
No no, I mean your OWN dick. Do you like having one? Or you are dysphoric over your benis?

>>6938986
I'm stupid and didn't read it properly sorry.
I'm on the bus.

To answer you this time properly I have kinda of a weird relationship with it.
I have masturbated and stuff but to be honest I don't really care about it.
Sometimes I get angry at morning wood too but I guess it's due to other stuff I guess I don't like it that much.

Sorry again for reading it too fast and being stupid I will answer more when I get home.

>>6937228

Where do you live? Are people accepting of trans people?

>>6939009
No problem, that doesn't sound like genital dysphoria at all at least.

This doesn't mean you aren't trans as there are many non-op trans, but you also have to consider the femboy path now.

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>>6939014
>Where do you live?
I'm super paranoid of saying these things on the internet.
>Are people accepting of trans people?
Not really sure, my family at least I know is not, they hate any kind of lgbt related thing.

>>6939017
Ok so basically I'm more fucked up in the head and harder to find out than before, right? Great...

Anyways the thing about my dick is that to me it's one of those weird things, if I woke up without it tomorrow I would give no fucks I'm super indiferent at it but it's probably due to my apathy and depression I guess, right?
Basically as I wrote in this thread earlier I don't really like myself that much let's put it this way.
Anyways, what I'm writing here is probably not being that useful to find out about this right? I should learn to be more straightfoward I keep getting entangled into my own issues and so on.

Now I gotta find out if I'm trans or femboy, this is getting out of hand fast, I'm scared soon I will be asking myself if I'm a reptilian or not.

>>6939076
Try mones

>>6939076
>Now I gotta find out if I'm trans or femboy
>worrying about semantics

>>6939126
This

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>>6937305
>Imo try hormones and see how you feel
Taking hormones makes permanent changes/damage to one's endocrine system. Don't go around telling people to "try" them like it was a pair of shoes, dumbass. Yeah I probably got trolled but whatever, lots of underage people here who might take you seriously.

>>6939152
Way better than keep wondering for years what you really are. It's because of people like you that everybody is fucked and start years late, because they get scared away from the evil hormones that give you every kind of cancer and aids and your eyes fall off.

>>6939152
The changes made are relatively slow and reversible if not taken for very long, it's good to have a doctor monitoring various blood levels to make sure you're not damaging yourself but it's not as dangerous as you're making it out to be either.

Over the past 2 years I've been wrestling on and off with varying amounts of mild dysphoria and confusion over gender. I've never been suicidal about it or anything, but it still kinda gets me down when I think about it. Also this isn't something I've been aware of since I was really little; aside from taking female roles in school plays (all boys school) and becoming mildly obsessed with mtf transformation manga around 12 and covering up my junk and nips with bath foam in the bath at the same time, I was a relatively happy kid.
Do you reckon I'm Trans? I honestly don't really know, and I'm scared of making rash decisions....

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>>6939126
But I'm really scared of doing anything without being sure about it.

In the OP I wrote about it, I fear that if I even go down that path I'm not really worthy it and I'm basically bandwagoning onto something and by doing it I will be discrediting and being a dick to people that suffer a lot from dysphoria.
Or I'm overthinking things?

>>6939135
I totally worry about semantics because right now I don't know anything about myself and I'm trying to at least set things straight.
I'm super confused.

>>6939192
Yeah, as I wrote on the previous posts below
>>6937228
>>6937333
>>6937605
>>6938051
>>6938056

I'm super unsure of what the fuck I'm feeling because it sometimes feels like dysphoria, sometimes just like depression? Self hate I don't know.

>taking female roles in school plays
I did that too! I was the witch on a play and it was comfy because it was the first time in years I dressed as a girl since I got the mother of all beatings from my mom when I was little due to dressing up with my older sister.

>>6939222
Nice, I played the evil fairy, and then the fairy on top of the xmas tree. Also I remember wearing a bra and goofing off with my friend Alfie when we were maybe 10...
Also, I'm super sorry to hear about your family being so anti-lgbt :( I'm lucky because both of my parents are pro-lgbt and are fine with me being bi. Couldn't imagine what it must be like for you :'(
But yeah, really need to know if I'm Trans or not ASAP.

>>6939135
Semantics? I said femboy in the sense that he considers himself male - but likes the female characteristics. He did hormones for awhile and dresses fem most the time. I'm assuming most transgirls think of themselves as women, in comparison, which is totally different. You can call him a crossdresser or whatever but once they have actual boobs I think its more of a femboy. Anyway, now you know what I meant.

>>6939222

Why would you care that much about discrediting actual transgenders? They do enough of that themselves
If you feel you'd be happier as a woman I'd say go for it. Don't bother with semantics. Do you want to be a guy in a skirt or do you actually want to be a girl?

I think my situation is somewhat similar to yours. I've had mild GD since I was 12, I mean I've always had strong desires to be female but I've been able to identify with both sexes. Kind of repressed it for a while with "welp i'm stuck male"
Started posting on an anime circlejerk with a lot of fags / t girls and thaaat really flared up my GD, after one of the cuteboys there said I looked pretty I realized I might actually be able to pass? Or at least come close, that was one of my biggest issues with it
I don't actually believe myself to be female and I don't think I ever will due to traditionalist views, but I figure pretending's the second best thing, right? If I could look like a woman and be treated like a woman I think that'd make me happy [spoiler]real women are cunts anyway[/spoiler]

>in high school
>didnt try at all and it didnt make me happy
>after high school
>tried being more feminine and it didnt make me happy
>it makes me happy to look in the mirror and see a boy beginning to form
>but my family is nagging at me that i "was never masculine as a child", that i "always was girly"
>they dont know i was molested at age 7, about the same time i started getting bullied more in school
>tfw i never had a chance to form my own personality so i just fill it up with internet garbage
>tfw i don't know if i'm really trans or i'm just internalizing my disgust at my own body

kill me

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>>6938281
>I want to impregnate women someday and father my own children...and still be trans.
Anon... HRT sterilizes you after a while.

>>6938281
if you stop taking hormones now you may have a chance at saving your sperm

hrt sterilizes you after 1-3 months

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>>6939701
literally the only thing stopping me from being a trap

>>6939712
eh, if you're having gender issues you probably wouldn't make much of a father figure anyway
plus the world is going to hell

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>>6939658
>Why would you care that much about discrediting actual transgenders?
Well it's kinda weird but I don't wanna be a poser and stuff.
And I'm not really sure about a lot of stuff, that's why I keep panicking, I just wanted to be sure of things.
It just feels wrong to me trying to jump in some kind of bandwagon when I am not sure about it, I keep doing some kind of mental gynastics all the time trying to answer myself if I'm trans or not and sometimes I keep telling myself stuff like
"stop with this bullshit, you're not trans suck it up and stop being a bitch about things" then I start wondering if I'm doing that because I'm trying to repress and the circle continues on.

tried to rephrase my post because it was terrible at the first time, it's getting late here and I didn't sleep a lot yesterday, was feeling kinda shitty.

>>6939677
There's been no infertility reported from bicalutamide. It doesn't affect dick function simply blocks testosterone. That could be an option if Anon still wants children.

>>6939790
isn't that just an anti-androgen (testosterone blocker) then? you want hormones, too, and hormones make you sterile

>>6939677
>>6939701
>>6939712
>>6939727
>>6939790
>>6939854

From what I understand, HRT doesn't always result in infertility, moreover, there's conflicting data on whether or not, when it does, that it is reversible. That aside, I'm 24, so I suspect by the time I'm 40 the issue will be solved anyway through advances in science and bioengineering.

I will be asking my physician about bicalutamide though.

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I've been confused for a long time on this subject.

Since i was a kid i always wanted to hang around with girls, discuss girly things, wanted to wear the dresses and skirt uniform. It's at the point where even just having the girl name I like on my work nametag would make me ecstatic. I want people to call me that name, to say 'Do you need help miss?'

At the same time, I don't want to lose my male genitals. I don't really care for the penis, but I don't really want a vagina either.

I don't understand what i am or what i want

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Fuck, I thought about making this thread.
I don't know if I'm really trans or if it's AGP, lies, delusion or what.
I guess I'll give you my life story.
>crossdressing starts at 3-4 because the daycare I was in had a dress-up part.
>Remember getting ridiculed by some college-aged workers there.
>one other kid does it with me
>he's a fucking Femboy now
>I don't remember much of early elementary school, but remember being teased for being this scrawny 'girly boy'
> grades 3-5 are different though because my mom married
>now have step-sister
>bosses me around and makes me crossdress
> in middle school completely socially shut down until 8th grade when I finally meet people I like and start playing guitar, join choir. Focus completely on music and the arts, stick with music and lit/ writing (/mu/ and /lit/ are home boards)
>still crossdress even though there's just my mom's stuff
>turns into AGP tier forced fem fetish.
>think it's just a kink until about 14-18
> everyday it get's worse, eventually feel suicidal thoughts and have unnatural urge to cut off dick
>still think it might just be AGP
>halp

>>6939999
>>bosses me around and makes me crossdress

Fugg, that's hot! I'm so jealous. Does she still do that sometimes?

>>6939999
>unnatural urge to cut off dick
holy fuck it's time to go trans
i know another t girl absolutely desperate for SRS who has those same urges
if you have genital dysphoria and want to be a girl i think ti's time to stop

>23 y.o. out bisexual male
>certain i'd prefer having a vagina, don't care about having kids
>would repeatedly steal mother's clothing when i was a kid until she sat me down and insisted i stop
>shaved legs in high school
>felt severely depressed since puberty until i had a sort of baseless, out-of-nowhere, medically miraculous-type recovery around age 21 and just more or less stopped being able to be depressed; like, it feels like i'm walking through water without getting wet; i am just chronically helpless but to always be feeling okay
>still, i do get agitated
>when i was younger i'd have dreams, day- and night-, of myself living as a woman, and for sex at least i've always 100% preferred the idea of myself as a woman
>i really, really like the sound of the new name i've come up with

but that you're trans doesn't categorically equal that you should transition; i have a lot of other shit to do and i've spent ages working on this male aesthetic in the current body i have. i feel i'd just be piling another enormous stress onto my already way, way more than tumultuous life-schedule. everything's sort of controlled but i'm juggling a lot here and would rather not add another ball to the act. i'm also gigantic (6'3") and am not sure i wouldn't be a good deal less attractive as a transwoman.

i'd like a response to this that isn't 'many people have these concerns; but in the end, they take transsexuality as an imperative of category'; i'd like a response that takes the not-transitioning alternative seriously.

(i mean, i have this question; what were people to do before transitioning was possible? surely somewhere in the span of the world there was a different way for them to find fulfilment.)

>>6940212
agp folks fantasize all the time
no legit doctor will do it for them b/c regret is hell

>>6940236
>fantasize
that's different from "unnatural urge to cut off dick" senpai

>>6939999
>unnatural urge to cut off dick
i (>>6940231) also had this pretty much every day, mostly whilst trying to sleep; it was at the point of obsessive compulsive before i had that out-of-nowhere recovery i mentioned

>>6939854
>>6939895
I researched that to be sure. I found that bicalutamide does increase estrogen (strongly) on its own through aromatization, which is why it works so well by itself. When they put bicalutamide along with a placebo it worked better than a combination bica/tamox or bica/anastrozole.

Source: ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pmc/articles/PMC2213888/

Just search for "bica" in the article. It seems to increase estrogen strongly which is why you can see feminizing effects with as little as 12.5mg a dose and still have fertility and dick function.

>>6940487
>bicalutamide
Huh, thanks for recommending this. The t girls I know heavily advocate spiro.

So bica works all on its own? Also do you have to heavily limit potassium intake like you do with other anti-androgens?

>>6940553
nobody heavily advocates spiro when cypro is clearly superior

>>6940565
i know two girls from a circlejerk board over on 8 who do
what's cypro?

people advocate spiro 'cos it's cheap

>>6940553
I don't see potassium as being listed as a concern. Cypro (1987) and Spiro (1959) have been used for longer than Bica (1995). If you're in the US your doctor may not have even heard of it - it's used mostly in Europe.

Also, they only recently started studying the side effects (feminization, gynomastica, etc.) of bica - so you'll probably see it coming up more. Those side effects are desirable to transwomen which is why it's being used in HRT. If you don't want to nuke your dick then this is great. If you want to get rid of it then bica isn't for you - spiro or cypro will nuke it for you.

>>6940553
Bica is expensive but I love it. After the first week I literally didn't have the gross man veins anymore

>>6940553
Bicalutamide just blocks reception of androgens (testosterone, DHT, etc.). Transgirls generally don't like it because it's more expensive and because of some psychological issue they have with the concept of testosterone being free in the blood, no matter how useless it may be. It also doesn't make your dick stop working, which can be bad for dysphoria. But the drug doesn't really have any side-effects: everything that happens is because of androgen blocking.

Spiro on the other hand is just a shitty drug. It was developed as a blood pressure medication. It's a diuretic. And, like you've heard, causes problems with potassium levels. Cypro isn't FDA approved, unfortunately, so if you want to do it with a doctor, I would go for bica. Just anything but spiro.

>>6940623
Yeah, I hate vagina. How affordable is Bica? And how would you go about acquiring it in the states?

Apologies, I'm newfag to this. I've been repressed for years and only got convinced (by previously mentioned t girls) to actually go trans

>>6940636
>I've been repressed for years and only got convinced (by previously mentioned t girls) to actually go trans
about a month ago, is what i meant to add

Am I trans if I've given up hope of ever socially transitioning to the point that I get a heavy, depressed feeling whenever I think about doing anything girly because I feel like such a freak?

>>6940636
Bica has a long half-life (5.9 days) I think Spiro is about 11.2 hours and cypro is I think 38 hours... so some of the cost of it can be offset by taking it every other day. It's available in the US by prescription you can try asking your doctor to research it and prescribe it. I've heard some transwomen have had success in getting it after pushing their doctors to research it.

I do know some have self-medded by buying through inhousepharmacy-vu it's about $2.33 a pill 30 pills at 50mg. Normal dose is 25mg every other day. You can go as low as 12.5 mg for effects. As I mentioned, the half-life is about half a week which is why this helps make it a bit cheaper.

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>pre-everything but get an ocassional ma'am (hair most likely)
>worry constantly about hair thinning out and go through bottles of thickening shampoo and conditioner in only two weeks, can still see parts of scalp under bathroom lighting
>hairline itself is definitely going M-shaped, temples not filled in
>beard and body hair grows back ungodly fast, too lazy to shave legs regularly
>bf says I look good but I don't believe him

I'm finally getting the evaluation from my therapist next week but I don't know if I'll even make it to then with how fucked I feel right now

>>6940731
oh, yeah, i got a link for that from a friend just now
so you'd take half a pill every few days, huh. that doesn't seem too bad
thanks for the help, i'll definitely look into this some more

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I spent year over anylizing it and in the end it took a jammed bullet to wake me up. There is no easy way to do this but if you fucking ponder over it forever it solves nothing.

Ask yourself this one question... Are you fine with being a MAN for the rest of your life? If not then get on hrt and do work

>>6940791
years*

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FYI for the on-going discussion in this thread about hormones affecting fertility or no

let me first say that I do not know much

I am a girl who is dating is transgirl, who has been on hormones for about a year and a half. Her doctor told her she was most likely infertile, and we took that to mean COMPLETELY infertile. Long story short, I fucked my girlfriend one night with a big black dildo, and it was amazing. We went wild in the heat of things and she fucked me raw. Great back and forth we have... yeah, but I got pregnant.

And had an abortion.

It was a terrible, difficult, teeth-pullingly-painful time. be careful about that infertility friends.

>>6939076
Femboy isnt really a thing in the same way as transgenderism is.

Its usually either guys with a cd fetish or repressed trannies.

You sound trans as hell just from what youre typing, people have transitioned over a LOT less

>>6941418
so these people are just really repressed or AGP?

>>6938016

>>6940906
Jesus I'm sorry.

>>6939003
Not that guy but I'm indifferent. I mean I've made it cum but I'm not overly attached. Never got a chance to use it properly so never socialized to value it.

>>6940743
In the same boat. Gotta get the coutage up to ask about hrt.

>>6937494

Just got to this thread and have only read through up to here, but I'm in the same boat as OP and every single post so far has been a fucking direct hit.

The thing that gives me pause is simply that I'm not sure I've 'suffered enough' to justify something as big as transitioning, to justify having any kind of disorder. I just feel like I'm just being a dramatic, overthinking snowflake.
I can say I feel dysphoria all I like, but I've never been suicidal because of it, I've never self harmed because of it, I've never had a panic attack or anything, I can hold down a job and anyone who knows me would describe me as seeming happy and together.
But at the same time, I look at other trans peoples' stories and I don't know how they can stomach shit like wearing bathing suits and having sex as their birth sex. It took me until like 20 years old just to fake my way through hugging people. But that's my baseline normal, so it's like "so fucking what?" and I can't even tell if it's a problem or not.

This isn't really a direct response, I can't even remember what post I'm replying to, just word vomiting now, on my phone so it's a bitch to scroll back for context, sorry.

>>6940231
>(i mean, i have this question; what were people to do before transitioning was possible? surely somewhere in the span of the world there was a different way for them to find fulfilment.)

Really though, whatever their options, people only did those things because there was no better option. People also used to sleep in caves, but very few would chose to do so now that better options are available.

But as to those 'options', it really looks like most people just lived as the opposite sex as best they could without available medical intervention (and still do, in countries where transition isn't available).

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>>6941418
>You sound trans as hell just from what youre typing
Seriously?
I'm scared as fuck of just thinking I'm trans due to fucked up childhood and stuff.
Like seriously?

Also yeah lol at the thread, I was asking people to help me figure out things or give me an online quiz thing and out of nowhere it's about being able to impregnate someone when on hormones, I can't even imagine myself having kids ever.

>>6942195
If you could push a button and become a girl, forever, would you?

I'm >>6939999
>>6940210
I don't know her anymore, my mom got divorced when I was in 4th grade.
>>6940212
It wasn't worded right
It only really happens right after masturbation. Before and during I'm ambivalent. The other time the urge hits is when I'm almost asleep. I see myself almost do it in dream-like images and feel afraid and disgusted because I think about almost doing it.
>>6940236
Sometimes I feel like it's a fabricated fantasy and I'm lying to myself.

>>6943065
There's no such thing as trutrans, but you sounds really fucking trutrans. You're like, the least agp person I've heard on this board.

I get really happy and tingly when people refer to me as a she or call me a cute girl, but it the happiness fades after a bit and I go back to feeling like shit.

What is this

>>6943057
I'm kinda unsure, I want to but I don't want to make my mom jump a building.
Can I hide it from her like a pro? 100% sure of doing it if I can fool her somehow.

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>>6944262
My mom got my package of bicaultide and I told her its for a skin thing I have and she was like k w/e

>>6944271
why cant my parents be like yours ;-;

if they saw me getting ANY meds for any reason they'd just throw them out

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>>6944452
Get a p.o. box or mail them to a close friend

>>6944542
I havent told anyone about this thing and I dont even know how to go about getting a p.o box ;-;

>>6944595
Rip, idk go to a post office and say you want to open a PO box

>>6937228
This is a wonderful picture, OP, thanks for posting it. I can't help but open it whenever o scroll past.

>coming to this board to ask if you're trans
Lmao you're only going to get told to go on HRT by a bunch of fag fags.

>>6944271
lol @ that pic. Those are some big ass boxes that supply will last for years.

>>6939670
Please talk to someone about this. The feelings and self loathing you have can be helped through counselling. If you go to college/university, some schools have free mental health care for students.

>it makes me happy to look in the mirror and see a boy beginning to form

I identify with this greatly.

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>>6940906
this post woke up the inner TERF bulldyke in me

>>6944223
Still waiting for an answer desu

>>6949564
Not much to go on here. Might mean you're trans, but it's just one thing to go off of.

>>6949786
ty

>>6938281
I'm about to take the plunge on HRT. How did you go about it? Right now I'm looking at 2mg tabs of Estradiol (2/day) and 100mg of Spiro. Is there anything else that would help? I've looked at micronized progesterone but its hard to get ahold of.

>>6937270
I'm in the same boat man, day at a time but sometimes its just exhausting.

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Can you still like girls as a tranny?

>>6950491
sexual orientation isn't the same as gender identity faggot

>>6950463

I'm doing exactly what you're doing. The only extra bit you might not know about is that I use coconut oil on my skin, especially after shaving or before putting on makeup.

>>6950463
>>6951299

Also important to note that I kinda won the genetic lottery, and have a naturally effeminate frame. Soo...yeah...

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>My thread is still alive it seems.

Alright anons, I'm OP, I'm still a bit unsure of things, I guess some of the answers kinda helped but I'm not sure how to deal with some stuff.
To be honest I would have been happier if you guys just told me I was just a fetishist and should kill myself but w/e.

Also anyone still have some web links so I can do more test and try to be sure about this. I'm kinda trying not to be trans here.

Long story but I don't think I would be able to transition anyways, I already have some problems with my mom and she's already a professional at throwing stuff at me since childhood (check my greentext about dressing as a girl when I was a kid).