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Previous >>6877249
hugg gayfer
tfw no one to experience pure love with
>>6878363
gay op
>>6878363
>girls
>liking girls
HERSEY
Can't get on HRT yet but I finally got some breast forms that are the right size and they're great, I love them, but apparently I sweat like a horse or something because after even like an hour it's a fucking swamp in there. What do?
>>6878358
No, if we're going to make you a qt gril we're going to have to pick a method that actually works.
>>6878362
*checks diap*
what the?
*checks diap again*
no frickin way, i dont believe it
*checks diap one more time*
welp, looks like ur actually dry for once. i guess there's a first time for everything! haha
*checks again quickly just in case*
*nods*
>being associated with this
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MkxzxLlyQI4
i tried to take a pic of myself
im so fucking triggered
Sup gals? Anyone else having great existential battles at the moment?
this shirt. yes? no?
>tfw getting carried away looking at neat clothes and things
>>6878380
idk about the print and gloves
>>6878374
dude binaural beats gave chris chan a vagina, it works
ill take one girl pill but that's it
i keep thinking about how different my life would've been if i were cis female (or even just transitioned back when i should've)
i would've remained a charismatic, well-rounded little kid instead of going crazy and hiding from the world
i remember when i had the desire to do something with this life
okay sorry for blogpost
>>6878378
i want to slam my chin on a sawblade
>>6878373
Did you type this all out? I can't read all of this but Mde is alright and I like the marsh area tank thing. which video is this from?
>>6878385
same
>>6878370
say it with me
P U R E S T
F O R M
O F
L O V E
First for someone hold me
>>6878366
hugg lauren
>>6878369
yah u'd know it
>>6878385
Neat. Care to explain your reasoning?
this shirt y/n?
>>6878363
BEST OP
>>6878395
Wear a damn bra
>>6878389
H E R E C Y
GIRLS CANT LOVE OTHER GIRLS IT'S
F O R B I D D E N
>>6878395
filtered the fuck out/10
>>6878392
funny how I show up just in time for the gay as fuck op innit
>>6878380
yes you cute
>>6878395
nice tits
>>6878404
I mean.. your face is pretty flawless. Far superior to any other tranny here, myself included.
>>6878404
I love brown eyes. It makes it more rewarding to see the details when you get a good look and they are really beautiful on a lot of people.
>>6878403
You didn see nuffin
>>6878401
nonsense
fuck my smile triggers me so much
>>6878395
>hot pink
come on kayla
>>6878413
Oh gosh
>>6878412
saw u being gay
AGAIN
just saw our senior citizen roommate naked
someone kill me please
please
have mercy
I'm not racist, but I really hate white people, black people, brown people, normal people, weird people, "those" people, muslims, christians, buddhist, jews, americans, australians, africans, europeans, asians, and you.
>>6878421
itneverendsdoesit.gif
>>6878413
IMPURE FORBIDDEN LOVE
>>6878382
you know what you gotta do, get yourself some nice memewear
So uh
I was looking for necklaces and stuff
And then amazon brings up this
Miiiight be fun some day..
>>6878421
A lot of us would be really happy to look like you, honestly. But I understand.
>>6878417
>>6878430
how is it now pure?
>>6878424
err housemate i guess
>>6878419
I'm not being gay, I'm just posting anime pics of other girls being gay.
>>6878434
slut
>>6878437
*not
>>6878436
I believe love is pure but that is an interesting idea. Maybe our obsession over such a pure feeling makes us do dumb weird things to try to hold on to it forever?
>>6878442
*eats all your ravioli*
>>6878434
grace confirmed petgirl
>>6878437
wincest
>>6878439
HAHAAHAAHAHHAAHAAHAHA
>>6878431
What memes should i get senpai
>>6878437
I assume you mean not
>>6878448
>grace confirmed petgirl
I thought it was widely known I love being a pet kitten
>>6878382
idk the colors are green orange and brown. i think its a nice fall shirt we'll see
>>6878395
when did you get so cute? accessorize. looks too plain
DONT TALK SHIT ABOUT CAT DICK
>its another "cute people pretend to be ugly and make actual ugly people feel worse about themselves" episode
>>6878399
>Wear a damn bra
bra's were invented by the oppressive cis shit patriarchy!
>>6878455
I mean go for it and try it out with some other stuff to see if you can make it really work
But rn from these pics Im not a fan
>>6878436
no just girls loving girls
>>6878437
its d e g e n e r a c y
>tfw you got memed out of the cool kids table
I-I'll just eat at the dark corner table..
>>6878445
Yeah that feeling is really primal and powerful. Self hate is crazy stuff. I want to gut myself in front of a carnivore and break my limbs off.
>>6878457
Just stop being ugly. Like why would you ever keep doing that to yourself?
>>6878461
/vg/?
>>6878455
fingerless gloves
noooooooo
>>6878448
Will you stop bullying me if I admit that I may be at least a -little- bit gay? I'm really not that gay, it's not like I actually want to have sex with girls.
this coat dress is p cool i guess but i think im too short for it because its down to my knees and it doesn't really look good. my butt looks pretty good in it tho
>>6878472
theyre sewn into the shirt i think theyre cute
>>6878463
if you say so
love hater
>>6878471
que
>>6878477
capped
>>6878469
hehe faggot
>>6878477
yes :D didn't mean to bully tho :(
>>6878480
dem spoilers came from somewhere and it aint here.
>>6878436
>hugboxing and ignoring peoples flaws
Oh, pardon me. Didn't realize we were judging levels of pretty here. She's just super passable and whatnot. Forgive me, I'm new here or something.
Anyone want to get intoxicated with me? It's fun stuff :D
>>6878478
I like that
>>6878478
that's cute
>>6878456
doggo dick is better
>>6878469
i just
fucking hate living in my skin so much
christ
i just wanna get gunned down by a firing squad like the degenerate i am
>>6878484
>anyone wanna get intoxicated with me
yes
>>6878449
it's important to have a memesweater, but you can do memetanktops for a starter, then build into it
>>6878492
Let's do it!
>>6878493
Cheska my boobs arent ready for boob memes
>>6878493
wew
>>6878481
Why you didn't call me?
>>6878482
Poking my sexuality is light bullying. To be fair, I kinda brought this on myself.
>>6878480
nuu
>>6878494
>tfw no alchahol
>>6878382
Weren't you going to bed?
>>6878491
lol you want other people to hate you as much as you do then? You will make them hate you if you keep feeling this way but it's not a very good feeling to live with.
>>6878493
do you also have one of those cat bras
>>6878493
>>6878456
BARBED
>>6878506
I know
thats why a lot of people i know do hate me
definitely with good reason
Advisory
This is what a boy looks like
don't let your daughter go home with this man.
>>6878505
hey get your dirty virtual hands off my wife
on me and people who throw nickels at us can see those
you can have this one i took though
>>6878507
we actually do, heh
>>6878511
heres a nickel lets see
>>6878512
i kinda wanna kiss that boy desu
>>6878505
>weeb
Not bullying, 100% accurate
>cute
Not bullying, 0% accurate
;~;
>>6878518
I want my nickel back
>>6878491
Me too lol
Grace if I gave you permission to kill me would you do it?
>>6878519
Kissing boys? What are you gay?
>>6878517
post butt
>>6878512
Oh Velma-Chan is Snickerdoodle
>>6878474
>muff
not even once fempai
>>6878512
where's the man? all I see is a little girl in pic
>>6878501
Drink rubbing alcohol please
Please
>>6878521
famalam
>>6878526
On phone
Sorry for confusion
>>6878522
Don't get Grace sent to prison please.
is mtfg the big spoon or little spoon?
>>6878530
Nigga
Senpai
Broski
>>6878530
I love you isla!!
>>6878531
Is alright
you look cute btw
>>6878487
Prove it faggit
protip: YOU CAAAAAAAANT
>>6878506
get on skype :P
>>6878527
I'm the man
>>6878510
sad and same.
>>6878534
>tfw always want to be the little spoon but always have to be the big spoon.
>>6878533
JUST
>>6878502
Yeah
Im in bed right now
>>6878534
wtff lol
>>6878547
what kind of chocolate bar is that?
>>6878544
>tfw amyvictoria isn't dead
: (
>>6878547
Ahem, dont say my deadname.
>>6878549
dang u look sexy in this pic
>>6878537
Noooo
>>6878551
A 9mm one.
>>6878549
>grace boobs
>>6878549
I never realized just how beautiful grace actually is I mean wow I'm left speechless
>>6878534
Solo spoon.
>>6878557
Nah I think you do, girls in glasses almost always look cute
>>6878554
Who names a kid Just
>>6878548
Hella fucking epic bro
Fucking nice and sick
I like it a lot
: )
>>6878549
what the cluck is going on in that picture this is fucking spooky
>>6878560
pls don't
>>6878568
ur mom
>>6878534
>tfw no girl to make my little spoon
I just want to wake up, smell her hair, and squeeze her boob ;_;
>>6878534
I was only little spoon when I lay the only guy taller than me who's cuddled me. It was great but he was only testing how gay I am I guess so after wrapping around me he got up and called me a faggot and now I'm a faggot who is socially obligated to big spoon all the little girls who want momma's snuggles.
>>6878560
that girl really needs to stop eating spaghetti with her hands
well gotta go to work
ni ni everyone
>>6878570
>>6878578
>>6878567
t-thanks, senpai
>>6878581
mami ensella tu cola
>>6878542
pfft, they're mine and you know it, they're just attached to you
>>6878549
IVE DECODED IT
mystery solved
>>6878590
i wanna see mommy~
>>6878584
what bad luck
>>6878587
Lel it's whatevs
I don't hold anything against or dislike anyone
Except amy
Fuck amy
I ate all my hummus.
>>6878552
I think we're going to have to agree to disagree on the last one. I'll settle for just being a degenerate weeb.
>>6878603
Elanna can I buy you this?
>>6878595
I can send you an old pic on skype if you send me a message
Theyve grown since then but i dont feel like getting up to take a new one
>>6878592
Wew lad
: )
>>6878589
no problem
>>6878610
Can I post your butt?
anyone make a plug.dj yet?
>>6878607
Delivery moogle from ffxiv
Sometimes i cuddle him to sleep
>>6878607
Don't wanna talk about it
I'll admit most of it isn't any reasons most other people should hate her for tho
>>6878611
i wanna know how much im worth so im making an account on a websiteto see how much im worth
top meme
>>6878601
I hate hummus.
I hate you all please die
>>6878614
Why do you wanna do that so bad >///<
>>6878570
>>6878593
Kicking up the brightness and contrast a whole lot.
>>6878590
And that's how Grace nearly doxxed herself
>>6878627
Its a nice butt.
>>6878625
justin
did you guys show any signs of being trans as a child?
>>6878609
On the one hand I want to say yes because kurisu is best girl.
On the other hand, I don't have the body type or the looks to pull off kurisu cosplay ;~;
>>6878623
Dont be like that Chihiro.
tfw noone will do this to me
>>6878637
I diddled a girl at 6 and again at the age of 7
>>6878638
Don't worry.
>>6878637
yeah but daddy said no every time
errybody get in discord
https://discord.gg/0jCp5pochww4UBCv(
https://discord.gg/0jCp5pochww4UBCv(
https://discord.gg/0jCp5pochww4UBCv(
>>6878638
I mean you havent said no yet...
>>6878639
I think you got the stuff desu. You just gotta believe!
>>6878621
I already know my net worth
: )
>>6878630
Mostly stuff with Z and his husband and chijo
>>6878493
you look like you're pilipino
>>6878645
>Tfw no one will strangle me to death
>>6878587
iktf it's deeply embedded with my complex-ptsd.
>>6878637
i told my parents i wanted my name to be max if i was going to grow up to be a boy. i was like 7. i thought i was female until they really drove into me that i wasnt.
>>6878654
no i'm talkin sugar daddy worth
>>6878645
i will break you
>>6878654
I mean I guess that makes sense. seems pretty reasonable.
>>6878660
Like, attractiveness worth to other people?
I don't follow senpai
>>6878642
Okay I'm sorry
>>6878637
My fav color was pink
>>6878654
rip
>>6878661
pls bby
>>6878663
You'd probably be the first to be doxxed by butt so thats something.
>>6878670
When we playin maple pooks
>>6878637
I don't think so Tbh
>>6878679
I quit that game I h8 it
:sob:
>>6878663
BORN TO DOX / MTFG IS A FUCK / inform Em All 1996 / I am trash / 410,757,864,530 DETRANSITIONERS
>>6878674
Nah but if doxxing autism is afoot Id rather not see my butt sent to my parents or.sometbing even tho they see it every day
>>6878653
Maybe someday when I'm skinnier ;~;
>>6878667
BASICALLY PROSTITUTION
>>6878682
Aw rip
gonna kms
Why tho?
>>6878669
is this kvelds though?
>>6878689
IS DUM
no kys
get boring zzz
>>6878687
Oh
Lmao
It's not like there's anything wrong with sex work
As long as its consensual and all
>>6878672
>>6878659
But you are tho
I'll drive it into you so you get it
>>6878676
Except say you love em. BOOM.
Got em.
Ok I'll leave I'm sorry.
>>6878695
well not just that
seekingarrangment
its a site n stuff
you can get offers and depending on whether or not you're attractive i mean
>>6878676
>half chink
I hate all of my chinese relatives
>>6878694
Aw :(
Yeah is p dum
Dw i was gonna kill myself anyway
>>6878676
You disliked me last time we spoke
hi thread im gay did you miss me
>>6878699
i don't dislike you though
>>6878702
i don't even know my relatives, my family never interacted with non-immediates and now they've all moved back to asia
>>6878704
well i don't know who this is but i've most certanly forgiven you, you can't live a life of spite and be happy
>>6878701
You'll be fine
>>6878707
Dw pooks
Its not your fault
There was nothing you could do
There was nothing anything could do
>>6878710
still seriously considering this
would help me tons with going to england
>>6878705
no, now get the fuck out reeeee
>>6878714
Why not?
Its money go for it kiddo
>>6878713
feelsbadman
>>6878705
I'm gay too
I'm a boy that likes other boys
>>6878705
how are things going for you?
>>6878708
I think you've only forgotten who I was. Though that's probably for the best.
>>6878719
i mean yeah
>>6878729
i mean yeah
Im sleepy
Pls dont send me pizzas while i sleep
They will get cold
Hey guys just wanted to say again that I hope you all get killed in an awful way.
>>6878718
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=joSYEmeFFWc
>>6878738
Me too
>>6878731
i mean yeah
>Hanging out with my girl friend.
>We talk about random shit as always
>decided to get some booze
>The cashier asked for my ID and I am 28
>Good feel anayway we drink and talk about even more randomshit
>she starts talking about kissing other girls and how it felt
>then she told me that she wonder if kiss like a boy or a girl
>I started to freaking out. She is super pretty but I feelt uncomfortable in situation
>Started talking about my ex bf really hard
>she was visibly disappointed
Fuck my sexual feelings. I didn't wanted to make her sad :(
>>6878745
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0fGGz6d3vC4
>>6878739
this is a blue board you heathen
>>6878732
Too late
>>6878741
i mean nah
wait fuck
>>6878749
DYARNIT
whatever
i will accept your cold pizzas, anonymous benefactor
>>6878752
Donnie Darko was hot garbage
>>6878752
I love that song!!!!
gooooooodnight
>>6878752
>>6878752
Hello darkness, my old friend
I've come to talk with you again
Because a vision softly creeping
Left its seeds while I was sleeping
And the vision that was planted in my brain
Still remains within the sound of silence
In restless dreams I walked alone
Narrow streets of cobblestone
'Neath the halo of a street lamp
I turned my collar to the cold and damp
When my eyes were stabbed
By the flash of a neon light
That split the night
And touched the sound of silence
And in the naked light I saw
Ten thousand people, maybe more
People talking without speaking
People hearing without listening
People writing songs
That voices never share
And no one dare
Disturb the sound of silence
"Fools," said I, "you do not know
Silence, like a cancer, grows.
Hear my words that I might teach you
Take my arms that I might reach you."
But my words like silent raindrops fell
And echoed in the wells of silence
And the people bowed and prayed
To the neon God they made
And the sign flashed out its warning
And the words that it was forming
And the sign said,
"The words of the prophets
Are written on the subway walls
And tenement halls."
And whispered in the sound of silence
>>6878754
Yeah you will accept cold pizza bitch.
im actually kinda scared someone could be trying to doxx me
i also regret mentioning my deadname
id rather that just never be known t b h
i just wanna be grace to people
>>6878767
what toppings tho
LOOK WHO FUCKING HATCHED OUT OF AN EGG!
I'M THE HAPPIEST GIRL IN THE WORLD!
I mean yeah
>>6878769
nobody is doxxing you
also you'll always be glasses to me, is that alright?
>>6878752
one time this bitch I went to school with was talking about how "omg I love this song and blah blah" and I explained to her what it's about and she got mad at me
>>6878765
yikes.
what is me/cfs
>>6878775
Will you be my science teacher?
>>6878778
yeah, that's fine
but i hate my deadname
i need to talk to my family again about calling me grace :s
tfw no one will skype with me at night and watch me sleep to make sure i'm safe
>>6878760
sweet dreams
or there will be serious consequences..
>>6878786
SAME HERE BEEP WTF
>>6878786
i wanna get a laptop so i can do that
it would just be nice knowing someone that loves me is checking on me as i rest
>>6878792
wha ?
>>6878370
Oh, you saved that.
I like her because we have the same skin tone.
>>6878781
yes
>>6878772
>>6878796
grace that's not me
>>6878784
you're starting to suck now dana doesn't believe yr not me :/
>>6878800
Bio, chem, or physics?
I never actually understood this meme
>>6878803
>grace that's not me
oh lol
There's a sharp pain in my nipple
Am I dying?
>>6878814
you keep calling me hon and you're impersonating juniper so im gonna say no
>>6878389
STOP USING MY PIC
RRRRRRREEEEEEEE
>tfw my goal life and body are that of a video game character.
Why even live.
>>6878801
desu the only issue is bed timestimes of sleeping
what if someone doesnt wanna sleep with me over skype at the time
>>6878821
This
I just don't wanna die from cancer
>>6878769
I'm a bit concerned on being doxed, but I feel if somebody finds me and kills me. I'm out of my misery. I just hope the press never find me. It happened when I lived in Minneapolis.
>tfw when will I ever be free of this complex-ptsd?
>>6878779
It's known as Chronic Fatigue Syndrome here in the US. A better name would be Post Exertional Malaise. Basically my body's aerobic energy generation system isn't working right. I'm down to about an hour or so of farm work a day, some walking around and sitting up right at the computer around 10 hours. The rest of the time I need to spend laying down sleeping.
>>6878779
>tfw no one wants to skype sleep with you
>used to do it with your bf but not anymore
im really sad now
Good morning!
>tfw she headpats u and calls you a good girl and u get all warm and fuzzy
>>6878825
Is this "Clairbear"?
>>6878819
>tfw goal body and life aren't who i am
i wanna get fit and go be an explorer girl that spends a lot of time in nature
but instead im a chubby tummied little weaboo that lives in her basement
>>6878835
Lets become adventurers together Grace. Traveling the world and doing whatever we want.
Also I'll watch you while you sleep. Just sayin.
>>6878841
That sounds lovely to me
I wanna do a lot of traveling
I was thinking about suggesting to my dad him and I get out and do more hiking and camping next year while I still have time
>Also I'll watch you while you sleep. Just sayin.
When do you wanna?
>>6878835
there's a railway that runs right next to my house
heading east would take me to the industrial heart of a large city
heading west would take me deep into the green wilderness
do u wanna go west with me senpai
>>6878828
that was a fun week and I miss them both
>>6878849
Heck yea lets do it
>>6878847
Look up the pacific crest trail and videos about it. Its something I've wanted to do for a couple years now. It seems like it would be a nice life changing experience.
>>6878849
>>6878856
H-Hey..
I miss sleeping with people in skype so much uu
at least i get to do it with emma sometimes right?
>>6878858
Can I come? I was gonna do the iron horse trail before I broke my arm this summer..
>>6878858
Do I know you, by the way? Was my original assumption right or do I have the wrong girl?
>Look up the pacific crest trail and videos about it. Its something I've wanted to do for a couple years now. It seems like it would be a nice life changing experience.
No kidding, that looks like a wonderful time. We could stop along some of the cities too, say hi to the trip in Portland and stuff
wew lass
>>6878866
you could say hi and hike with the trip in seattle too if you wanted...
>>6878866
Its me you nerd.
>>6878875
we gotta go lots of places together tho okay?
lets go live our dreams together and forget about all this crap
>>6878878
>>6878882
I'm allowed to stutter type..
And yes lets do it. I WANNA DO IT.
>>6878882
I really think about living in the woods and forgetting about my attempt to live with society a lot. I quit my job to do it but decided to stay homeless in a city to be with my gf.
>>6878887
>I'm allowed to stutter type..
I'm not used to you not flexing your dominance around me
>And yes lets do it. I WANNA DO IT.
We will!!!
>>6878888
You actually found my posts on soc? Diggity dangit how
>>6878889
i wanna move away from the city desu
its just not for me
>>6878866
Hiking in the wilderness is fun. I wish I was in good enough health to hike into the Yellowstone back country. I also want to hike down into the Grand Canyon again. Canoeing into the Boundary Waters would also be fun.
>>6878889
I want an RV so I can travel the country and photograph nature.
i want to like do some adventuring for the next 10 years or so
and then settle down in a comfy suburb and raise a family and take my children on vacations to neat places
>>6878901
Oh wow
MY BAD
I've learned a little bit >>
>>6878904
I want to get in better physical shape so I can go on hikes and wilderness adventures even with the spiro handicap
not really hiking, but i really want to fucking try this out sometime
http://www.cvsr.com/
just look at this dome car thing
straight out of a dream i had once
>>6878906
We're going to adventure and hike SO HARD Grace. Go get fit. GO.
>>6878912
riding a train like that would be a lot of fun
looks more luxurious than the metras i ride into the city
HOLY SHIT THE NEW GODZILLA TRAILER LOOKS AWESOME
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HBTrY6CEsXU
>>6878913
tfw even if I looked exactly like her I'd still be 1000X sweatier
>>6878913
You look at such agp pics
It's okay tho
If you get a butt like that I will agp with you
LETS DO THIS MOM
I GOT SOME RUNNING SHOES THAT HAVE BEEN SITTING HERE UNTOUCHED FOREVER
ILL REALLY DO IT TOMORROW
Why did isla have to show me that website
Now I am having thoughts of doing life stuff with a strong tall older man >.<
>>6878912
>>6878926
Amtrak Zephyr from Chicago to San Francisco. Someday I want to take it. It passes within 20 miles of my farm.
>>6878932
I need to save up with someone so that we can do a cross country trip together soon
>>6878937
It would be so nice to just watch the American countryside roll by
>>6878942
aaaaaaaaaaaa
i wanna see stuff like this so bad irl
>>6878934
did i give you a sugar daddy fetish?
nim died last night
>>6878945
>>6878950
Dont even fucking joke about that
>>6878950
Nim is literally online on skype right now
Talking about dreams with so many people while just letting them be just dreams is a horrible thing to do to yourself. I wish I did more cool shit.
l-lewd
does anyone have the picture with the timeline for hrt changes, starting real soon like within a couple weeks
pastebin is dead btw
>>6878937
wow
today i learned this exists
added to a bucket list that will go unfulfilled
>>6878959
i love doing it like they do in the hentai
>>6878956
i need to go there
that is breathtaking
i cant let this stuff be dreams
i cant
maybe i should start studying for a business degree so i make lots of money and can do this
or just move somewhere with lots of good hiking locally
>>6878960
I bet you can't post that 10 more times itt
>>6878934
Needing a daddy? iktf I kinda did it when young. 3.5X my age and over 4,000X richer.
>>6878932
You can work your way up to carrying a pack. Start out with walking a long distance like 10 miles each day, than add a pack. Add weight when it gets easy.
>>6878966
did they cut down all the trees or something?
>>6878966
Grace you don't need any money or anything to just walk into the wilderness. Just start going.
I mean maybe a nice pair of shoes and some basic gear would be ideal but you definitely don't need a degree to walk outside. Don't institutionalize yourself.
Nini thread
today was a rollercoaster
of fun n shit
>>6878970
I need to do more beginner stuff before that :s
>>6878971
That's just fall in IL
>>6878974
i mean yeah but
i dont live near any of these places you're posting
i need money to go tot hem
>>6878966
Portland is nice to go hiking in~
>>6878946
n-no
I just like...think about like cooking with him.
and they will stand behind and tower over me teaching me how to do things.
Put a hand on my lower back while using his other to guide me through the motions. Exhibiting how big his hands are compared to mine.
*shiver
...maybe
I can't wait to go bike camping with dana...
I just posted this in trans help general but it seems dead right now so I'll just drop this here too...
I need some help...
So I've already ordered hormones and I'm waiting for them atm, there's a problem though.
I came out to my family and all of them basically think it's just a phase, they think because of my ADD I'm obsessing over it and convincing myself I'm trans even though I'm not.
See, even though I'm not depressed anymore on my anti-depressants, I've been getting suicidal and self harm thoughts again lately from all the stress this has been causing me of them all wanting me to do therapy first because they don't believe it's true yet I truly thought until everyone starting doubting me that this would make me so much happier.
Now I'm just a confused miserable mess on the verge of self harm again and I really don't know what to do, I'm starting to doubt myself and I'm just lost.
Today, I got out of classes earlier than expected and I got to spend my afternoon reading manga (Ouran High School Host Club because I'm horrible) and napping. Then, I went out for dinner to this takeout sushi place near my apartment where you go in and can order, but the popular stuff is already boxed (it's not the best but it's okay for what it is) and they gave me a bunch of sushi for free and reduced price because I came in after the big dinner rush and it would go to waste. My girlfriend came home, and we watched anime and ate dinner together and it was good. We cuddled, too. Today has been so good. I love my girlfriend. I love being lazy on Friday afternoons.
>>6878979
>That's just fall in IL
you have no trees senpai, where I am 100% of the grass will be dead within a week or two after the leaves start to go and they must be shoveled away if you want grass in the spring if the floods don't take them
>>6878981
Are you suggesting I go back? Kari and I hiked to the bridge at Multnomah falls, it was stunning
>>6878990
I mean it is a suburb so trees are carefully planned along the road lol
>>6878992
Didn't you have plans to move there?
>>6878987
i was really into transitioning back in like january. basically stepped away from it in march because i was full of that same self-doubt. after all this time i couldn't keep repressing it and now i'm about to order hormones. i feel like you should trust yourself, at least see how you feel after 6 months of hormones or something.
just go with the flow :D
>>6878979
it doesn't cost much to bus or bike over..
>>6878994
I did but I fucked that all up. Unless Kari's roomie movies out I don't think I can move in with her. Might be weird if two friends share a bed and then bring home a boyfriend or something.
I miss her.
>>6878964
If I have to go to SF and can afford the time, I'm taking it. It is expensive, but...
>>6878979
Work up to walking 5 miles a day. Start out with a mile.
>>6878992
Someday I'll get there myself. It's on my places to visit list which is a few hundred pages long...
>>6878992
even in my state's """cities""" it happens, there are just too many trees compared to resources to actually do anything about keeping leaves in order, tourism fund most of the economy though since muh "leave peepers"
>>6879004
Probably not then, sorry to hear. Hope things work out for you with this road trip then.
I put all my Carly Simon on my play list, randomized it. I've been listening for a few hours, and have over 8 hours left. Time to stop it and go to sleep.
Most times I compromise by trying to make my surroundings more filled with nature but that isn't exploring..
>>6879013
Thanks anon
It really does suck that that dream isn't gonna happen
Being able to live with her would be wonderful but the house is full for now
I'll figure something else out
Maybe just stay put in IL and go to uni or something
If I even can with my shitty grades and 3 time drop out record
>Hope things work out for you with this road trip then.
Hopefully! I'll figure it all out and see if I can pull it off
>>6879019
Yeah but I mean did you even have a realistic dream of it? It lasted like a week. I just hope the trip doesn't go as south as the relationships do.
>>6879026
Yes I did. It really could have happened. However love got involved and made it all messy.
I dont see why taking a roadtrip with a friend would go south, I have plenty of strong friendships, I just seem to have issues when it comes to dating people.
GOD TRYNA DECIDE
DO HE WAN' LEAVE ME BEHIND
(spoiler, i'm trans, yes he does)
>>6879019
i90 near me...
it's just a greyhound away
>tfw you're bad at everything you do
>>6879029
Love made a relationship messy? How does that happen, did you say you loved her and didn't or something?
>>6879034
this feel and i
are well-acquainted
Goooooooooooood damnit I miss Kari
Life without her is hard but Im trying to stay strong to give her the space she needs
I just need to vent it rn so I can resist the urge to message her
I want to be a good friend again
I want her to be happy and be back in my life
I need to do my best
>>6879040
i'm sorry :(
>>6879037
Id rather not get into it, at least not while her and I cant talk whatll be said over. My emotions are whack.
>>6879048
>>6879048
>>6879056
Wow i cant believe he spilled it
>>6879040
Not gonna hate you for having, and expressing your feelings.
I hope things can be well between you.