Who else is having/ever had trouble coming to terms with their

I have kinda forgotten I was bi for a while. It's like my attraction to men comes and goes. I don't think I could ever have a long term relationship with a man because of that.

So I'm not in denial but it's like I can forget or pretend I'm totally hetero.

>>6761320
I'm mtf who always liked girls before, now i am only jealous of them and i want to suck dicks and be fucked by a man. But i am still early in transition and don't want to be gay guy, but i want to be a straight girl, i am so confused :(

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>>6761320
> start fapping to guys at age 16
> tell myself I'm just horny not gay
> literally a folder with over 200 boipussy pics on my desktop
> start slowly also getting emotionally into guys
> dream of cuddling the cute twink who attends my school
> still able to fap to str8 porn /women
> can't imagine having a relationship with one though
> women literally just annoy me and I cant stand most of them
> now, 3 years later I have a gf
> she wants to marry and have children
> me too but just not (with) her
> clueless what to do
> will probably just marry her to make parents (especially my father) happy