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>>6615269
>spring of sophomore year
>meet a girl
>we kiss, start dating
>pic related, us at the park
>looking back with a bit of work I still could have passed
>she's a bit overweight but idgaf
>she's adorable and she's mine to cuddle
>occasional bullshit fight, quickly make up
cont.

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go on

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>my junior year, her senior year at her graduation
>I don't have as much of a chance at passing, in a depressed state I grow a bit of facial hair out to try and be more manly
>maybe I can fix myself
>yeahright.gif
>constantly stressed, relationship is getting harder
>can't tell anyone, gotta kill it off
>lots of fights over that summer
Cont.

stop saying cont. and just fucking write more

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>senior year relationship gets fucking hard
>pic related is me and best friend at a a track meet just derping out
>gf thinks we have a thing for each other
>she's more like a sister really
>constantly fight with gf whenever I hang out with friend
>relationship getting to be more fighting and makeup fucking than anything else

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>I graduate
>summer is nothing but fighting and working at a shitty summer job
>gf fights have pushed friend away
>no other friends
>midway through the summer gf buys a book
>orgasms for two
>some old lady writing sex books for tips and tricks
>she wants to fuck other people
>break down and ask why I'm not good enough
>fight for days
>she drops topic and we move on
>end of summer go to church camp
>4 days on big ass property several miles wide in middle of nowhere
>meet girl there
>no ordinary girl
>at least 17 piercings on face, body, nips
>really into fire dancing
>for some reason she and I get together
>walking through woods, see deer and fawn
>deer stares at us, we stare back
>start holding hands and just walk through woods talking about everything

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>at her tent, think back to what gf said
>wants to fugg other people
>fine bitch here goes
>sex is shit
>not good shit
>neither of us satisfied, tent is at least 110 f under sun
>she avoids me after that
>get back from camping trip on Monday
>breakup with gf in a McDonalds parking lot
>go home, cry
>cry for weeks
>pick up a bamboo pole, learn a bit of fire staff spinning
>therapeutical for me
>one night break down even worse than before where I was just crying
>repressed tranny cheated on gf to make a point then dumped her, no friends, shit family, no job
>how fucking pathetic
>shave my head, pack my bags, leave moms house
>pic related is last pic of me with long hair
>edgy as fuck holding fire

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>spend a week wandering streets of a city in a daze
>what do I do with my life
>what do I do
>why bother
>kill self
>no don't kill self
>but what if kill self
>for a fucking week
>friend from before takes me in, spare room at her parents place
>no fuggs were had with the friend
>sorry to disappoint
>spend months looking for work, interview after interview
>nothing

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>depression super bad
>fuck it lll join Marine Corps
>get warehouse job around same time i talk to recruiter
>gotta move out of friends spare room into shitty room in house 40 minute drive away
>still bike 10 miles each way to and from work BC no car
>depressed all up to bootcamp
>go through that song and dance

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>bootcamp
>13 weeks of shit, no time or energy to even think about gender identity
>graduate
>mom and little brother come to graduation
>I'm questioning if I made the right choice
>now that o have time to breath I know I'm still trans
>marine corps didn't beat the freak out of me
>4 weeks at MCT, fight like a motherfucker in everything I do
>kill the tranny in me
>kill the tranny in me
>KILL THE TRANNY IN ME
>lol you wish

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>sent to 29 palms
>comm school backed up
>put in awaiting training platoon for 3 months
>bored as all hell
>class picks up, feel like shit
>couldn't kill the tranny in me
>start coming out to friends in March
>mfw best friend knew since freshman year
>nobody else suspected
> have to come out to mom
>she takes it bad
>uncomfortable as fuck
>I get medical advice on base for hrt, told to wait till I graduate comm school
>end of May this year
>graduate
>go to Pendleton

>>6615494
the end or...

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>put in another bullshit platoon, just 2 weeks though
>entire morning one day would be go to medical with our papers, check in, then chill on phones till lunch
>2 weeks of this
>stressed about new unit, how to start hrt, what if someone finds out
>maybe I should kill the tranny inside me and just not
>cry every night to sleep
>night before checking in to actual unit
>feel oddly calm
>pick up scissors
>get in shower
>slash wrists
>blood is beautiful mixing with the water
>I'm killing the tranny inside me
>this is how you do it
>stop
>realize I'll kill myself if bleeding isn't stopped soon
>get out, stop bleeding, call 911
>collapse on ground, barely moving
>ambulance picks me up

pls tell me there's a happy ending op

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>week in psyche ward
>everything comes out
>transgender, repressed identity, long term depression
>feel sick in there
>pulse at constant 40 BPM, temp constant 95.4 whole time
>barely feel alive
>get pushed out of hospital and sent to check in to new unit
>try not to fuck it up this time
>gunny is OK
>CO is cool
>1st LT is awesome
>SSgt is hard to the bone and doesn't like me
>few weeks, programming phones, random working parties
>psychotherapist tells me it doesn't look like I'm getting better
>can't have hrt because depressed
>depression aided by lack of hrt and self hatred
>turns out gonna get administrative separation
Not done, 2 more

>>6615549
Fuck, I feel for you OP. I hope the story will end happily.

>>6615569
Knowing what these threads are like, its 50/50.

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>talk to mom about issue
>she says I can move back in to garage area if pay rent
>it'll be a couple months while paperwork gets pushed around
>have conversation pic related
>this shit
>what the fucks this shit
>what the fucking hell
>this bitch is serious
>I can't take a prescription medication at her place
>OK
>start to think
>arrange plans

>>6615582
Shit emoji always ready.

>2 weeks ago
>start taking a few general health supplements to combat depression
>vitamin b6 and fish oil and the such
>start to use diet pills, cut to 1 meal per day
>lost 10 pounds in 2 weeks, 170-160
>staying hella hydrated so it's not just water
>set goal of 135 for new years
>done math, once I move in with mom find civilian job
>I need 4 months minimum to save while I find apartment and roommate
>she can say no hrt for me but she can't stop me losing weight
>hrt isn't noticeable the first 2 months right?
>the absolute latest I can begin according to timeline prediction is new years
>she doesn't decide my fate
>I do
>its my life
>I've seen some shit
>done some shit
>been through shit
>but she isn't in charge of who I am
>I choose

Don't let your life prevent your dreams coming true anons
Or some other motivational bullshit.
Just get out there.
It'll take me months to get through this
But for the first time ever
I think I'm gonna make it guys

>>6615618
You're an inspiration anon, in a few months, you should do an update thread.
good luck on the hrt and everything else

>>6615618
I'm very happy for you. The fact that you now are in a position to take control of your own life will strengthen you through these hard times. One day you'll look back at this time in your life and only have weak memories of the pain and the anguish.

Also you're kind of cute. God bless <3

I wish I had as high a tolerance for dealing with all this shit as you do OP, I hope that you make it

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My problems
>hairline
Somewhat easy to fix
>forehead
Ffs
>facial hair
Plucking to thin, hrt will eliminate
>160 pounds muscle from muh marine corps lifestyle
I'm losing muscle on diet and hrt will help. Already lost 10 pounds, 135 is well in sight.
>mom
I'll live with her less than 4 months, fuck her bullshit
>passing
Just a matter of time on hrt and everything else
>hon
Shitty meme, just don't be a flaming hon 2 weeks into hrt and I'm fine.
>depression
Vitamin supplements helping a bit already, muscle loss improving self image
>no bf or gf
Who honestly cares right now? Be yourself. Let things happen how you want them to happen.
Make your own future.

>>6615716
Remember to take pictures to chronicle your transition. You'll love looking at old photos and realizing how far you've come.

>>6615744
But I hate selfiiiies.....

>>6615716
Are you ok with likely never passing/blending in?

>>6615748
Keep them for yourself. No need to show them off before it's all done, but they can be nice for you to look at when you've got dark days.

Also, buy some girly clothes like stockings or skirts to play around with. You'll soon learn what you can get away with wearing in public :)

>>6615759
I'm willing to put forward the work

>>6615452

Oh, wow I'm surprised this story was yours. You looedk so different then.

>>6615582

>Your brothers have enough to deal with in life and I'm not sure how they would handle it

Only appropriate response is, "Let them worry about their problems, let me worry about mine."

>>6615716
Touching story, I'm glad you got to the point where you're just going to do this for yourself. Sucks about the issue with your mother, but she is allowing you to stay, unconditional love. You seem like you've got yourself on the right path now, so I wish you all the luck on it Jess.

I found it really interesting to read how even after all you've been through the dysphoria was constantly there, I don't know too much about transitioning and the life behind it but this was a well written and in depth insight, thanks for sharing it.

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>>6615938

>but she is allowing you to stay, unconditional love

>unconditional love
>charging rent and doesn't let her start HRT which she has no right to do for the very fact she's paying rent and that it's none of her business

Hurr hurr.

>>6616183
In all honesty I'm probably going to start anyways, fuck what mom says.

Can someone make a screencap of the thread?

>>6616280
You definitely should, just be sure to be careful about it. When you're starting hormones your mood is going to be all over the place. The last thing you need is a full blown conflict with your mum. Fortunately for you by the time you're starting to look really girly you'll have moved out. Four months is a short time!

>>6616295

Get paint.net, GIMP or Photoshop and do it yourself.

>>6615716
>Plucking to thin, hrt will eliminate
That's not going to get rid of facial hair you're going to have to get laser or electrolysis

best of luck to you though, great story hopefully things start to improve for you soon

>>6616439
Recommend professionally done or home kit?

>>6616446
Professional, home laser can scar you and won't work as well. Home electro (if that's even a thing) will more than likely fuck you up too.

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>>6616295
>screencap
Here you go.

>>6618735
Have you considered coming out to your friends? How do you think they'd react? Also, I feel bad for that dude. What a relationship. Is this what gay guys are afraid of with bi guys?

>>6615744
if you love looking at old photos of yourself then you probably aren't trans

>>6615269
good luck, and please don't start presenting until you're well into hrt and hair removal please

>>6618507
What is with you savages not using the dark theme?

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>>6619514
meh i made it paint and msword without screen shooting so...

>>6615269
> Cis male
> Long, glossy, curly hair
> At work, wearing unisex uniform
> Still 6'2" and wearing stompy workboots

> 'Mummy? Is that a boy or a girl?'

> Some old guy forgot his glasses and can't decide whether I'm male or female, which confuses the shit out of him
> Keeps guessing formal pronouns
> Don't correct him just out of irritation, and direct him anyway.

>>6615716
Sincerely, I want to thank you. Really.

I had gave up on transition and would do shit with my life. But i was reading your story over and over.

You'll make it, that's because of your effort, i'm sure about that. And thank you for also helping me kind of get back on the tracks again. i'll figure out what to do.

>Plucking to thin, hrt will eliminate
Does plucking help to thin the hair? I'm really sensitive and idiot but plucking really hurts for me, some hair folicles even bleed.

>>6620570
Let the hairs grow long enough that you can get them with tweezers without grabbing skin at the same time. Plucking isn't quite enough to completely get rid of facial hair but it will thin it over time. If you're bleeding you may want to see what alternatives are available though.

>>6618904
No that's Jessica can't you read?

>>6616280

As you should.

>>6620196
Are you me? This happens all the time, I'm 5.9 and my hair is now waist length, even from the back people call me miss.

Well okay. I've been wanting to talk about this.

>be me, pretty skinny twink uncertain about everything in my life
>at anime convention last week-ish
>meet cute pretty femmy boy and cute girl he is there with
>very long story short we all really hit it off and go back to hotel room together
>end up having threesome
>did everything I've ever wanted, discovered I'm definitely bisexual
>get teen pussy, boy pussy, get topped also, love everything
>I'm just a huge sex lover of all kinds it seems
>feel more confident and happy now
>had the best sex ever as a bonus, all is well

>>6618507
>tfw OP becomes ugly hon

>>6624018
>tfw op plans to get ffs, is losing weight/muscle, and actually cares about passing unlike hons

>>6624037
>tfw OP has long midface and big head
>tfw OP doesn't have a job

>>6624076
Um. Still working in Marine Corps at the moment actually. Discharge is gonna take a few months because of paperwork.

>>6615716
>>honShitty meme, just don't be a flaming hon 2 weeks into hrt and I'm fine.
Ahahahahahaha

>>6615452
ur so hot in this 1

>>6621914
> Try to grow facial hair to pass better
> Unable to grow anything beyond fuzz over most of it
> Can just about maintain a goatee
> Stache is a dead loss
> Sideburns are a non-starter; two colours of hair, and one side of follicles got half obliterated by scar tissue

>>6615618
I wish the best for you jess

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FTM guy here. I'm going to tell you guys about the best coming out experience I ever had.

>living in my university's city for the summer
>closest friend here introduced me to his best friend just over a month ago
>host potlucks every week for my friends
>after one, it's just me and my friend's friend left (let's call him eric -- not his real name, but ehhh. convenience)
>by this point eric is my friend too, and I low key have a crush on him because he GETS me and we had instant chemistry the day we met
>we're talking about our anxieties
>mention that I've had a life-long phobia of needles, but I'm trans, so I have to give myself one every other week
>bracing myself for the interrogation scene
>eric says it's amazing that I can inject myself despite my phobia and the only question he asks is if I'm okay with talking about needles

feels good man

>Realize I'm trans when around 12 or 13 years old
>Start self-harming due to depression and dysphoria and fear of the future
>Keep it mostly hidden around parents
>Always mopey af
>Eventually start highschool
>Few weeks into freshman year an older kid who I had biology class with grabs me by the arm and yanks me into the bathroom while on the way to class
>Starts giving me shit about how he's noticed the cuts on my arms, begs me not to hurt myself anymore, tells me about his own struggles with depression, promises me things will get better
>Literally one of the most important and meaningful interactions I've ever had with a human in my life
>stopped self-harming
>for years whenever I was down I'd just remember him telling me it would get better
>Try unsuccessfully to come out to parents multiple times but never had the guts to go through with it
>Eventually around the age of 15 I become pretty social, have a lot of friends, play a lot of videogames, do a lot of fun stuff
>Distracts me from the dysphoria, makes me think that maybe I won't have to be a tranny after all
>Even weirdly good with girls despite being a acne-ridden, overweight fuck, because I had personality and was a bit of a class clown
>Occasional nagging thoughts about how I'm not a girl pop back into my head but I just push them away because they make me feel bad
>Overall just feel like it finally has gotten better
>Reach age 16
>Realize I got that premature balding just like my granddad
>"heh, it's just a bit of recession, and why should I care anyways I'm a man tons of men bald :'^)"
>Life stays mostly good, but dysphoria thoughts are coming back pretty hardcore at times now. Always just try to ignore the dysphoria because it makes me feel bad and I don't want to deal with it
>Also get really cool female friend who's super into me who I kinda just keep leading on because I'm scared of relationships
>Reach age of 17
(To be continued)

>>6630899
>Girl gets super pushy about me going out with her but I just keep refusing too even thought this girl is basically my whole life now and I really feel like I do love her because I dont want to be 'the man' in a relationship
>Get senior photos taken
>All I can think while looking at my senior photo is "holy shit, I've grown up into a man"
>Dysphoria intensifies
>Worse than its ever been
>Stress of girl begging me to go out with her and dysphoria causes me to snap
>Be really loopy the past few months of highschool, become an absolute hateful asshole to the point where literally everyone hates and detests me
>Push away girl best friend who's the only person who still wants to be around me at all anymore because I can't deal with the guilt I feel over not being in a relationship with her and I don't want her to care about me if I kill myself
>All alone, even lost the most important person in my life
>Planning to kill myself after graduating so I don't become "that kid who killed himself" and make drama at school or whatever
>Asks parents if they can give me money for my graduation gift because I want to buy a gun for easy suicide
>"lol maybe honey"
>They bought me a car instead, no money for gun
>can't figure out how to kill myself, too scared to try more painful methods, would just try to car-crash suicide but my car is nice and expensive and I wouldn't want my parents to lose the money they put into it.
>Decide I'll atleast try transition for two years before killing myself even though I know my manface and receded hairline and dad bod meant I had no hopes for ever passing
>Start HRT shortly before turning 18, lose weight.
>Turn 18
>Start talking to female friend again, come out to her
>She entirely forgives me
>We actually start going out
>She constantly showers me with compliments on my looks, seems really attracted to me, likes messing with my tits, tells me I look like a girl, etc
>All this makes me feel confident that there is hope for the future
Cont.

>>6615353
Ok bryan gilmour.

>>6630899
>>6630956
>Kinda start to feel like maybe things have gotten better now
>Months pass, now about eight months into HRT
>Hairline has only filled in with peach fuzz, nothing more
>Still just look like a dude
>Gf tells her cousin I'm trans, cousin responds with "well he looks cute AS A GUY..."
>Moms old work friend who I haven't seen in years(recently applied to work where my mom used to work) goes on and on about how "I've grown into a handsome young man" and gives me compliments on my broad shoulders
>Whenever I joke about going full time at dinner my dad tells me I should really consider staying in the closet longer while HRT does its job because I couldn't pass at all yet
>Start self-harming again for the first time in a long time
>Things are never going to get better
>Try to quit HRT but it makes my gf upset and she tells me that she could never see me as a guy again and said that if I quit HRT it'd feel like a part of me that she loved would die
>Decide to stay on HRT
>Start eating a lot because I feel like shit all the time
>gain back most of the weight I lost
>Look like an overweight metalhead with a double chin and gynocomastia
>Life is awful
>I think about suicide everyday
>The end

Whether or not transition succeeds in making one feel better is fueled entirely by how delusional a persons desparation for it to work has made them and I'm jealous of the people who have this delusion I can't kill myself because I don't want to hurt my gf

>>6630984
It's easy to say ''it gets better'' to someone who's at the rock bottom, because anything is better than nothing, but does it ever get good, that's the question

>>6631283
I don't think there's a rock bottom tho desu. Shit just keeps getting worse and worse.

>>6622212
I literally had to wait a day to reply, otherwise I'd just write angry things out of jealousy. You're blessed anon.

>be me
>Lesbian, but not out
>new girl starts at work
>she's dating a cook
>we become fast friends
>hang out a lot
>one day go to bars with her
>we both get drunk
>I can't drive home
>her bf drives us to her house but says he wants to stay out longer, so he leaves
>she gives me clothes to change into, go to her guest room
>realize she didn't give me shorts
>she comes back in in just a bra and panties
>oh shit
>says she wants to talk
>we lay down and talk for a while
>things happen
>we have sex
>after, I remind her about bf
>she says he's fine with it as long as it's a girl
>bring it up to him later
>he's not okay with it
>I've slept with her on two separate occasions since.

I'm a shitty person.

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>>6615582
yer mom's a cunt love

>>6615269
>meet a qt3.14 transgirl on 4chan
>hook up with her for a long time
>genuinely enjoy her company
>she was my first trans person, so she helped change my mind about them as a whole
>we don't commit because of the difference in life stages and whatnot
>it's been years and we barely speak now
Before I met her, I thought all transgirls were like the ones on tumblr or my college's LGBT club. I'll never forget her.
[spoiler] Astrid, if you see this, I hope you are happy and life has shown you the beauty that I saw in you

Is there any medication to "decrease" the dysphoria? I just dont want more concerns in my life and all that hassle. And have no money for it, the T.

>>6634213
You could present as the gender you identify as, even if it's just in private. It'll help a little but not that much

>>6634019
similar situation

>out at local club. not a /lgbt place
>see girl with a few friends just hanging
>she's cute
>she heads to ladies room same time I do
>we're washing up at the same time
>i'm in my forward-mode and just ask her if she's their with her girlfriend
>she says no, we chat a little more and go our separate ways
>when they're ready to leave apparently she tells her friends she sees an old friend and is going to talk to her (me)
>she asks if I was trying to pick her up and I tell her I was
>few more drinks and she asks if I want to walk to her place
>tell her yes
>go over there
>night of sex ensues. she was shy/slow at first telling me she had only been with one other girl
>7:00 next morning I hear yelling from the kitchen
>walk out hung-over wearing only panties
>her and her boyfriend are having a yelling match
>fuck it. go in, take a shower and get dressed and leave

every now and then see them walking in the neighborhood. he gives me dirty looks, she sneaks a smile.

>19y old bi male
>utter virgin
>hook up on 4chan with a feminine guy (not my brightest moment)
>edgy and awkyard but hey
>he's actually 15 (said he was 19)
>stopped replying

other time

>one of my best friends sets me up on a double date with his gf's best friend
>I know her, she's fat and a sjw
>was fun to hang around as an aqquaintance and play DnD with because she was moderate enough to keep the SJW shit in character (didn't assume I was the mysogynistic asshole I played).
>but on the date she's flirty
>I don't like it
>She's kinda gross tbf
>Get pretty alcoholised (4 drinks for my meager 53 kg)
>End up at her appartement
>It's a mess (and she told me it was neater than usual)
>end up kissing then fucking with the other coulple making out in the living room
>None of the kissing and sex felt gross at the moment but it certainly didn't blew my mind.
>even when I convinced her to try mutual strangulation
>felt pretty good but still a long way from cumming
>next morning try to excuse myself and blame it on the alcohol because I can't really stand her as more than a friend
>she takes it as "I don't want to see you anymore"
>for a week get reminded of her everytime I think of sex because the memory's pretty fresh
>get grossed out by memories
>a bit bewildered by women in general
>binge on a bit of twink porn then trap, then "straight porn"
>back to the status quo, plus one ruined friendship

>be 12 yr old me
>discover masturbation
>stick pen up my ass start fapping
>wonder what im doing but don't care
>never orgasm'd before
>feel urge to pee, but dgaf
>cum on myself, freak out and fart out pen
>shit train on bed, chest covered with a little cum and piss
>get up and run to bathroom across the hall
>my sister's friend walks by the bathroom and asks my sister why there is shit and white stuff on the ground
>rinse off then take a bath for the whole cumshit fiasco to blow over
>hear a knock on the door, its mom
>"anon why is there a poop covered pen a couple feet from your bed"
>"wasn't me sorry"
>stay in bathroom for another hour, very pruney, eventually have to leave cause im hungry
>quickly run to room, everything is cleaned and new bedsheets
>go to kitchen and see mom, we make eye contact
>don't break eye contact, get some potato chips and slowly walk back to my room

and we've never talked about it since.

>be passable tranny at pride
>see a bunch of stands with "shots for x"
>walk up to shots for tits stand
>flash tits, get free drink
>walk over to shots for cock stand
>pull down jeans a bit, remove tuck under panties
>get awkward looks from masc fags, they give me a shot anyways