>decide to watch trans movies etc. to try and accept my identity and process some emotional stuff etc.
>a few hours in, end up a nervous mess of anxiety, triggered-ness on account of cis male actors passing better than I ever will, cringe at thoughts of me in girlmode and at what I'm watching and just general ill feeling and panic
anyone else know this feel? I want to be okay with being a trans girl and if possible to be okay with looking trans but all I feel when I try to confront it is overwhelming vulnerability, fear, disgust and self-victimising schadenfreude.
>>6607169
How did you get your hands on the movie?
>>6607169
What movies were those?
Whenever I get forced to watch ttrans theme stuff I can do it in 5min bursts with breaks.
If I have to watch it straight my brain completely shutsdown.
It's not so much the content its too emotionally taxing for me, espessially when half of it is propergating ideas for the masses its aimed at.
>>6607200
oh The Danish Girl wasn't one of them I just know it's a good example of what I'm talking about
>>6607230
what are some examples then
>>6607238
Paris Is Burning, Billy Elliot, Breakfast On Pluto, various episodes of various TV shows it occasionally comes up in, (spoiler alert) Filth, the Louis Theroux doc on trans kids, that one Arcade Fire music video, etc. lots of different stuff
>>6607169
OP, you cry because a bio male, chosen among thousands of others as the one with the best andro/feminine potential, was allowed to spend hours in front of a camera and have only the best passing clips presented in a simple, glossy, filtered unrealistic presentation of a story. It has nothing to do with passing, reality or actual transpeople
>>6607169
>cis male actors passing better than I ever will
consider that those actors were treated by proffesional makeup artists and filmed by proffesional cameramen. You only get to see a thin, carefully selected slice of an actor whereas you see yourself as a whole, completely uncensored. You're comparing yourself at your worst to an actor at his best.
>>6607169
>on account of cis male actors
cis male actors with professional make up artists to assist them
>>6607169
That's why i don't watch anything with trans people in it.