How do I find a boyfriend? I've been told that I'm

You've just described me
I've had the unfortunate opportunity to meet two gay guys in real life and their way of being and carrying themselves really mad me wish I hadn't. My attracting to those guys was absolute 0

I've just come to terms that people like us finding each other is an extremely rare occurrence, akin to winning the lottery, and that I'll probably live a vast majority of my life alone and unkissed if not all of my life
But I can't let this keep me down and neither should you, I'm still active, I exercise, I study, game, etc. I hope Pokemon Go allows me to meet new people, love interests or not. We need to have the willpower to fight against that weird pull towards the abyss.

I've been in love with a straight friend for 5 years now and I've decided to keep it one-sided. When he's happy I'm happy too even if it's not reciprocated, and I'm glad that I have found someone I can have feelings for instead of having to imagine a perfect image of someone.
That and the little interactions between us fuel my masturbation sessions as well as the consequent cuddling the pillows and occasionally crying myself to sleep occurrences

Stay strong OP, take solace in knowing that more people like you exist somewhere out there, for there is little else from which you can find peace from the loneliness

>>6598553
I'll be your bf

>>6598553
Sounds a lot like where I live. I'm gay and have met literally zero compatible people locally, they simply don't exist where I am.

My advice is to look online. Every relationship I've had in the last 7 or so years has started online. Find someone you like and put yourself out there, there's threads for this stuff. Swap skype info and see where it goes. Having the means to travel places or bring people to you helps.