I have one of those faces that can look both cute and ugly and

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I have one of those faces that can look both cute and ugly and hormones did not emphasize either, in fact they did not increase my femininity at all only made me look extremely young. I am however afraid that my androgyny mostly lies in me being too ugly for a man and too ugly for woman. Since I have no self-esteem or self-respect every little odd detail about my face has been bothering me sometimes it prevents me from socially transitioning. I just have no confidence in my appearance because sometimes it seems I look fairly okay, just a meh homely girl, so I pursue changing my appearance further but on other days I see a really really repulsive man and it paralyzes me to do anything. I have been in a bad mood for a month now I even stopped shaving and now there is pathetic washed out brown pube fluff above my upper lip, making me look simply repulsive but this time for real. The thing is I just don't feel like I ever be ready to socially transition because I am not sure if I ever be okay with the way I look.
How do you cope with your physical appearance if you are a meh tranny/femboy/fag on estrogen?