how do trannies get to the point where they take steps to transition

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Transitioning gets harder the older you start so it was like 'gotta stop my body from becoming more masculine' for me

>>5369272
Like the other Anon, I realized I just had to stop my body getting any more masculine or else eventually I would have it harder and harder to finally transition. And I knew dysphoria would only get worse the more masculine I got. So my most logical next step was just to do my homework and start self medding, then start the official process in my country. I don't regret a single thing.

>seek therapy for a month
>get diagnosed with gender dysphoria
>insurance is suddenly willing to pay $50,000 in FFS and SRS

Well, I couldn't say no...

"Do it now or you will become a hon and kill yourself" was what motivated me, I'm guessing that I'm not different than other trannies when it comes to this.

>>5369282
>>5369296
do you not feel bad knowing your family and friends will be disappointed in you ?

>>5369307
I do, but in reality most of my friends would be disappointed if I did not do it to pursue my own happiness, and my family has accepted it now.

Strangely enough once you look a lot more feminine, people become more accepting towards to the idea of a man transitioning into becoming a woman. Hence why my family was just like "Oh it all makes sense!" So you if able to, you can take HRT in secret and then come out.

>>5369307
>family
they were already disappointed, if this helps me get my life back on rails I think they'll be happy as well
>friends
i've been presenting as a girl to all my online friends and i havent seen my irl friends for over a year

>>5369303
What country? What insurance? What the fuckkkk

>>5369329
This. Even a tranny is better than a basement dwelling school-shooter

>>5369369
I'm not sure if I want to get rid of the basement dwelling part but HRT has already made me way more productive

>>5369272
its different for everyone.
for me it took a failed attempt at suicide.
For some they see their body getting more and more masculine and they eventually decide to take action against it.
Some late in life trannies, who somehow survived living with dysphoria for such a long time, prolly realized they fucked their life away and then decide to finally transition.
And some kids that affirm young, are typically brought up in more liberal home and they are not inhibited by the shame or guilt of comming out.

>>5369272
>does it just get to a point where it's like i'm going to kill myself if I don't
yes, that was how it was for me

>>5369307
This is kinda what held me back for years.
I don't think my parents will be disappointed exactly, but they have no idea and are simple folk who will probably have a really hard time understanding that their son is this way. They have always been really great people so the idea of making them go through the shit they will just for me to change myself so drastically is very upsetting.

As for why I finally am (probably) going all the way through with it, where I used to be able to repress it pretty well its only gotten harder and harder to do so. Always just wanted to be normal, but I've learned I'll be happier accepting myself.

>>5369303

Seriously, I'd love to get the answer to >>5369330's questions too.

>>5369307
Lovely bait. My friends and immediate family are civilized enough to know that there's nothing wrong with being trans.

>>5369303

Also, which plan?

>>5369318

I don't think it's so strange anymore. When you think about it, at least in your parents' case, they want you to be happy, succeed, and be safe. And when the first thing that comes to mind is a middle aged hon they saw at Target one time, not only that but you want to BECOME one, they're concerned you're not going to meet those hopes for you. So they try to stop you from literally ruining your life. If you show them you pass, they won't have that fear.

>>5369272
Transition or die is way to common.

>>5369272
>does it just get to a point where it's like
>>i'm going to kill myself if I don't
Yep, at least for me. I woke up on my birthday, looked in the mirror and started crying. I decided that it was either transition or kill myself, and if I turned out to be a hon I'd kill myself anyway. Death is a great motivator

>>5369272
yeah. Transitioning was literally my last resort for survival.

My biggest worry is that I'm still not going to be free from the pain even if I complete my transition because I'll never be 100%.

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>>5369307
>family
supports me
>friends
If my friends don't accept me for who I am then I can make new friends
But my friends have all been chill with it so far because I befriend good people

>>5369272
Ideally they figure their feelings out way before their body gets bad enough that they want to kill themselves.
But you'd be hard pressed finding a ~12-year-old that actually understands what being a woman/man means, and more so, isn't just a confused gay kid.
So basically yeah, trans people get a wake-up call when puberty starts wrecking shit.

>>5371807
>If you show them you pass, they won't have that fear.
Pretty much my point I guess, but your words were better put than mine.

>>5373499

Why the sad cat picture if you're not sad?

>>5373375

What do you think would be better?

>>5369272
Realized it was a thing, then it was some thinking if it was worth going through, or if I'm better off killing myself.

>>5369272
>does it just get to a point where it's like
>i'm going to kill myself if I don't

Not for all, but for many it's pretty much this sadly

>always be depressed and experience anxiety so severe I can't talk to anyone without clawing a hole in my arm or bursting into tears
>constantly fight with mother over gender presentation
>not especially masculine but desperately wish to be male
>drop out of high school due to mounting paranoia, brain fog, insomnia
>hikkikomori
>disgusted with feminizing body, sexually frustrated with lack of penis
>hospital stint for psych diagnosis
>get out and plan suicide
>brief romance with an anon who showered me with compliments on my appearance that actually made me feel worse
>figure out ftms exist
>spend the next three years fighting to get hormones between multiple suicide attempts and briefly living on the street
>given "why can't you be a lesbian" speech and barred from contacting extended family when I finally come out after my voice starts dropping
>lose all friends for joining the patriarchy
>briefly get straight As in college before dropping out with depression so bad I was sleeping up to 20 hours a day
>get a job, work ass off to pay for top surgery out of pocket
>five years later have a long-term bf, a dog, a house, vastly improved health, anxiety attack only once a year or so
>getting more surgery next year
>don't care about lost friends or family, enjoy schizoid pattern behavior and realize it would probably have been better for me never to have had friends
>applying to two year program after surgery
>actual stable life; enjoy reading, video games, cooking, working out, watching movies with bf, playing with dog
>still have issues with anxiety and depression
>but not living in a pile of actual garbage drinking cough syrup and researching suicide methods

So

pretty much

>>5369272
>does it just get to a point where it's like
>>i'm going to kill myself if I don't
yes