Religious/philosophical question here. Ive been atheist or agnostic

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Religious/philosophical question here. Ive been atheist or agnostic for most of my life. My family was never religious per say, the first time I went to church was when I was 8. Most existential questions I presented to my parents were answered with "gee idk OP". Throughout my early teens I mostly took a hedonistic approach, I thought pleasure was the purpose of life. In my later teens I began to place more importance on the furthering of humanity as a whole, the pursuit of knowledge, technology, health, and overall well being. My beliefs have become much more "conservative" or traditionalist over the last 4-5 years. I no longer relate to the concept of humanity as a whole, Ive lost a feeling of hopefulness and optimism. Instead of identifying myself as human I started to identify myself as solely European. I tried to find purpose through European culture and Germanic/Norse paganism because I felt that it would offer an outlook that most popular religions didnt. I became interested in pagan reconstructionism, research papers pertaining to archeology, and analysis of sagas and Eddic poems/lit. It may be misguided but I feel like Ive attained somewhat of an understanding of their beliefs. Part of me feels satisfied with living a life according to their practices and beliefs. However Im still experiencing existential crises. To live a virtuous/honorable life so that I can die and be buried in a burial mound with my family sounds great. I would live by a code of honor anyway even if there was no reward. The question I have in the first place is "why are we here?" and nothing seems to answer it.

>tldr; Im an Odinist/heathen who wants the perspective of other heathens and non-heathens on the purpose of life.