Cocklust thread! Give me hard/flaccid/wet/dry/throbbing/dripping/ball licking/cum drenched/black/white/trans. JUST GIVE ME COCK.
This gif made me realize, or at least consider that the reason I like cum shots so much is that the first sexual experience I had was watching my cousin jerk off. He was probably around 10 or 11 years old, I was 8 or 9, he just pulled it out and told me to watch. Soon after that we stated having "sex" which was mostly me sucking his dick, he never penetrated me but sort of tried. He would suck me sometimes but I never came, I'm pretty sure I just jerked hiim off, he never came in my mouth. He had a big dick I remember, I can still feel everything about it (which is why I don't have any relationship with him as a family member, but I don't think he knows that, it's awkward) and even smell it.
This is why it's kids who are molested are so fucked up. Not saying was molested, taken advantage of yeah, but I was willing and I guess not bitter. But yeah that shit never gets out your head.
Think I'm gonna head over /s/ now
You were raped. You were 8-9 years old, you cannot consent to any sexual act.
I'd suggest maybe trying to talk to a psychiatrist/psychologist.
I'm speaking from experience here. My step brother who is 5 years older than me got me to suck his dick when I was 14 and it was an ongoing thing for 4 years and later on turned into anal sex. I looked up to him and he abused his authority over me to take advantage of me sexually.
It damaged me severely. I had trouble sustaining relationships with women because of it. And getting professional help was key.
One of my fuckfriends did this the first time she saw my boner coming out of my pants. She lacked skill a bit (justified at the age of 20) but she sure was determined.