I think ill give up "aesthetics" for good. Im an ugly bald manlet so it doesn't matter if im lean or fat. I've got terrible genetics for storing fat and everything goes straight to my gut. I can't even maintain my (questionable) leanness after a cut. Only thing that brings me bit of enjoyment (besides lifting) is eating. I've been eating clean for over 3 years now and couple of minutes ago while having my broccoli and chicken i felt sick just by looking at it. I never cared about food being tasty but it seems like something has snapped. I think it's time to hop on delusional train and act like i care only about strength and anyone with visible abs is a faggot.
I've been permabulking for two years already. I look like Fedor.
>>42149871
>I'm ugly so I better stop trying to look good
>>42150703
better to feel good being on higher bf% than looking like try hard manlet
>>42149871
It's like shaving your head when going bald, it's honestly the merciful thing to do.