>Lifting is literally the only thing keeping you going Who

>>40319578
Tfw you want to end it all but don't want to end up hungry skelly mode.

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>shoulder injury
>manlet
>engaged but it's sketchy
>jobless for 8 months

>>40320449

Height?

i feel this way

>had friends but was still sort of a loser in highschool
>move away to college
>do a bunch of drugs
>mainly klonopin and opiates/heroin with a bunch of weed all the time
>get into lifting
>have a few 3 month long relationships
>graduate
>get a shitty job
>meet a girl
>we date for 1.5 years, live together for a year
>life was great
>she leaves me
>go back to feeling shitty
>continue lifting
>meet a few other girls, try with them but nothign works
>after a year get back with ex
>everythign great for 2 months
>decides she doesnt wanna be with me
>back to single
>lifting is the only thing that makes me feel like im making any sort of progress
>currently swiping thru tinder/bumble hoping i meet someone on there cause i rarely meet anyone irl
>doing everything i can to keep contact with friends i still have
>im not going to kill myself but i find myself not afraid of dying
>just want a major change in my life so i can be happy again

Unironically

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I don't even feel anything anymore. It's not sadness or anger, but I can't explain what this feeling is. The only reason I do anything at all is simply out of routine

your routine was created out of sheer desire to improve your life , the goal : happiness. dont give up, deep down you know the only reason you havent just killed yourself yet is because you have hope. keep it up, know everyday you are striving for that happiness. learn to find that in yourself. it is going to be okay, it sucks to be lonely and to feel like you dont have any reason but if you keep pushing you will be okay

Reporting.
Been let down too many times by others.

>>40322608
Pretty much this. Im used to doing things so I do these things, they just happen and moments pass by. Only time when I feel satisfied is after lifting.

>>40319578
here here... I feel lonely as fuck, if it wasnt for my on/off relationship with my FWB, I probably would be contemplating an hero

>it's complicated, she is married, we work together and we caught feelings

>>40325421
Man but it really sucks when you can't get more weight on the bar :( I feel so shitty failing at the only thing I really care

>>40322608
>>40325421
Congratulations you guys are now stoics.

>>40322183
been through that type of thing too, anon. Use the internet girls to get your confidence up. Eventually things will start to click if you keep at it. Slowly but surely, things will improve. Just don't lose faith.

All I feel is a distaste for people but want to help them at the same time.
They just disappoint me I supposed. And now that I've come close to completely overcoming the need for sex and relationships of all kinds are a bother. I think I might be approaching something akin to freedom.
I also feel empty with the only feelings I get coming from eating exercise and whatever interesting thing I can find to do online or in the real world. Like trolling and causing things online to see how people react so that I can further understand a certain group or mindset of some people.
Working out and doing things reminds me that I am still alive and there might be a reason to live another day.

I think I'll go workout now.

>>40322183
Why are you me