My only Bro died in a car crash. This may sound gay now - but

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My only Bro died in a car crash.
This may sound gay now - but no homo.

He was 10 years older then me and always put up with me because he knew that back then - when i was still a fat, social autist - i had no friends.

He got me into his group and i made friends. (they are all weebs by definition ; even him. He did kendo and made me try it but after a year i dropped it)

He had long hair and even owned a fedora. But he was not like all that autistic shit you find online. He was a cool guy.

He always had some inspiring stuff to say (i always thought he got it straight from some anime lol)

Anyway; one day i went to an anime-con with him. I never did any cosplay; but since he was my only real friend; i orderd a wig and put together a 0.5/10 cosplay of pic related. He said it looked good.

Now the important part is i was fat as fuck back then - and i knew it looked fking autistic (fat with tanktop) But he didnt care.

So i wanted to do my best in order to get as close as possible to pic related; so he would not have to be ashamed of draging me with him.

2 years passed since then; i am fit now and he is dead. We often talked about death and his opinion on it was: there is no point in fearing death; fear wont change the outcome.

Maybe im gonna write more later; i am going for a 10 mile run.

But i just had to get the fact that i miss him off of my chest. Cant tell my parents about missing a 30 year old guy when i just turned 19. They never knew him. Would sound pedo.

Tl;dr appreciate your friends as long as you have them

Give me some mental guidance pls
Quotes or anything.

I know this post is autistic and all over the place.


i dont care