Anyone /onlyhappywhengym/ >No joy in life >Feelsbadman.jpg

>go to gym
>make small talk with strangers
>show off
>feel better seeing idiots at the gym using shit form
>lift heavier
>make progress
>admire myself in the mirror

The gym is my safe space

>>39686484
>sad all the time
>go to gym to do the one thing I've enjoyed for the past year
>Injure myself
kill me

>>39686513
What happened?

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>>39686484
>cocoon mode
>just try to study and lift
>go to dining hall to proceed with my bulk
>run into friend with two girls
>"oh hey anon whats up? goin to the gym later? what time?"
>lie about the time im going because i hate lifting with people
>he goes to the other end of the cafeteria to have a nice social dinner with 2 qts
>I sit on the other side, hood up, eat my chicken and sip that black coffee
>browse /fit/ on my phone as i pray the girl im trying to talk to replies to me

I just want to go squat


>captcha; select all coffee
>for some reason reminded of my ex/oneitis who worked at a coffee bar
>last time i ever saw her was when i went to visit her at work
>dumped over text
im a mess desu senpai

>>39686484
I am the same only with boxing

>Be 27 years old
>Drifted apart from friends. Literally no friends now.
>Go boxing 5 nights a week because otherwise I am lonely and bored
>Sometimes I go to the gym in the morning too and work out twice a day just because I'm bored and lonely
>Too anti materialistic and philosophical to make new friends and enjoy alcohol/partying like I used to when I was younger

If it wasn't for fitness I'd probably kill myself. Boxing is the only thing that has kept me going; I can't enjoy drugs or alcohol like I could when I was a younger man and I don't even try to chase girls anymore. I'm literally cocoon mode because I have no other choice. I don't bother meeting new people because they'll only disappoint me when they realize I'm no fun.

>>39686542
Snap city

>>39686575
>Went cocoon mode
>Focused on a sport
>QT who also does sport noticed me every class
>After months of me being too scared to ask; I asked her out for coffee
>We met up and I charmed her


Shes also in cocoon mode because she has no choice; she is into yoga/aerial gymnastics/kickboxing because sports help her escape. From some of the things she has told me; i think she'd be really depressed if it wasn't for keeping herself focused on those activities. Her sister committed suicide at the start of this year and I know she dealt with it by being focused on training.

I really like her and I'm scared; I lost interest in grills after realizing I couldn't connect with any of them and they all did nothing but drink and/or do drugs. They have literally no hobbies other than that and it's boring as fuck. This grill is passionate about her activities and I like it.

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>>39686806
g4u m8, finding a girl that doesnt seem to be a complete bimbo like the rest of them

to follow up on this post >>39686575
>girl im trying to talk to is being difficult to say the least
>trying, seems like she isnt, i wont go into detail
>snapchats opened, story read, texts unanswered
>havent heard from her all day
>p-please respond
>try not to read into it too much, chalk it up to being busy with finals week
>come out of locker room ready to go do angry squats
>glance into gym cafe
>shes chilling there with her friends drinking a smoothie
>laughinggirls.jpg
>turn and go up to the gym

idk if she saw me, i hope she did, but it wouldnt make a difference. I try too hard I know, but i cant help it. i just dont have that pump and dump chad mentality

every workout seems angrier than the last one

>lifted with shit form
>developed carpal tunnel
>unable to feel my hands for months
what's the point of doing anything if I can't lift anymore