Does anyone else here have a genuine eating disorder that fucks

>>39275866
>Binging on 5000kcal
>Midget detected

>>39275939

Not midget just suffering short female

>tall people who can cut on 1800 a day

>>39275866
Yeah I have it, currently on my 3rd tub of ice-cream. Not going to eat anything tomorrow to balance it out, I want to make gains but I've had various disorders all my life so and I'm terrified of getting fat.

>>39276020
>>tall people who can cut on 1800 a day
what

I cut on 3000 kcals a day.. manlets cut on 1800

I still go hungry though at 3000 kcals..

>>39275866
>1200 cal goal

Are you a tiny chick or just hopelessly crash dieting like an idiot?

>>39276833

5'1 womanlet with the appetite of a 6'3 obese man

for some reason i thought i was 'insulin resistant' and avoided carbs for like a year. ate like a bird. only like 2200 cals a day. once i sacked up, began eating pasta and drinking milk like a mother fucker my lifts skyrocketed

>>39276157
I'm 6'0 and I cut on 1800, how tall are you?

>>39276952

I'm 6'0 and my TDEE is 3100

Are you 125 lb novice or something? No judgment, I was new to this at some point too, but that's pretty indicative.

Skinny fat guys and experienced BBs weigh you know, 170+ at 6'0 so our tdee is higher

>>39276926
When you are losing your shit go do something high intensity. The glow from that last for hours and wipes out most desires for me.


Failing on a cut isn't an eating disorder, almost everyone who's tried has failed spectacularly at least once. You were hungry, you ate, that's normal.

>>39276968
Nah bro, I'm just fat at 200lbs and have only lifted for 6 months.

>>39277070

Actually diagnosed and have been since 12, get cravings all the time no matter what I eat. Shit sucked. Used 160 pounds at five feet and eating to the point of nausea every day. Down to about 120 after a few years of simply NOT eating 4,000 a day and trying to cut the last of the fat so I can experience being a young woman without fat in the way.

Holy shit I was looking for exactly this kind of thread.

Do any of you feel an insatiable hunger late at night and feel a rush of excitement as you prepare whatever double portion you can eat?

I have had this for 10 ish years. I go downstairs and try to finish everything in the fridge. Consume so it's gone and out of my life.

It's a serious mix of eating disorder / ocd / various other mental disorders I know. I think it happens when I a) don't have anything to do in the morning so I stay up really late and b) haven't eaten properly that day (balanced meals)

I'm looking for people like me. This has plagued me for all of my adult years and I need to break the ice with someone who is also having eating problems

I have trouble with binging. Best way, so far, that I have found to stop it is to keep junk out of my house.

>>39277129
Fucked if I know then.

Good luck.

I have the booze version of this. I don't need to drink every day, but when I have 1 drink I have 12-20. Shit sucks and I need to just accept that I'm one of those people who can never drink at all.

>>39275866
4000 kcal isn't that insane I feel it's only like once every couple weeks you can definitely work around it. Some people bulk on 3.5 kcal

>>39277303
Count your blessings dude, can't do that with food

>>39277336

True. Though there's always someone who has it worse than anyone. Every day there's a suffering baby born who will only live a few hours of agonizing pain before dying coming in to take over last place. That baby's hell doesn't mean our problems don't affect us greatly.

>>39277445
It's all contextual man.

So have any of you actually gotten a hold of your brain and shaped it back into health? Because this isn't something you can brute-force, either by crash dieting or by over-exercising or both. This is something you have to fix on the mental level, and do it yourself.

I have fixed my depression/anxiety. Now I am looking to fix my eating disorder.